Little things are the Big Things
Rachel ambled into the living room after she was sure that Emma was asleep. She was taken aback, seeing Joey waiting patiently behind the counter. He had a look of hurt on his face, and he looked as though he had been crying.
"What's the matter?" Rachel asked with a bit of a giggle. She wasn't used to Joey looking so serious and it almost made her uncomfortable. Joey sighed.
"Seeing Ross tonight was........weird for me." Joey admitted. Rachel paused.
"Why?" She asked knowingly.
"You know why." Joey said quickly. "I was watching TV today Rach." He said, sitting down in his recliner. He was on the edge of his seat. It was then that Rachel noticed his suitcase.
"What's that?" She asked pointing. Joey looked at her with big, sad eyes.
"I was watching TV today, and I sorta realized that, that guy would have been me. Or some other guy might have a part that I could have gotten." He said. "And then I look around here. We're not happy Rachel." He said. Rachel folded her arms.
"Joey, you're being ridiculous." She said scoffing and brushing it off. "Come on! We're happy." She said unconvincingly. Joey shook his head.
"I know you're not happy Rachel. I want you to be happy." He said. Rachel picked up Emma's teddy bear and hugged it, her eyes welling up.
"Joey, you're talking crazy." She said.
"No, I'm not Rachel." Joey said louder. Rachel knelt down beside him.
"Joey, I love YOU." She said strongly. "Not Ross." She added. Joey's eyes opened a bit more, and he looked down.
"I never said anything about Ross." He said, shaking his head. Rachel covered her mouth regretfully.
"Joey-"
"The truth is Rach, this isn't the life I signed up for." He said sadly. That stung Rachel. It showed.
"What?"
I think I already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak, I think you're wrong
"I didn't want to become a nanny for Emma, as much as I love her. I went from being a single, problem free guy to- a dad." He said. "Don't you get me wrong. I love you, both of you. But this just isn't what I expected my life to be like." Joey said sadly. Rachel, at this point, was crying, knowing how she had hurt him.
I think you're already leaving
Looks like your hand's on the door
I thought this place was our empire
Now I'm relaxed, I can't be sure
"We're gonna get past this. You know it. Come on, let's just move foreward."
"That's the thing Rach! You won't LET us move foreward!" Joey yelled, his eyes burning. He wiped away what little tears had developed in his eyes. "You are so stuck on the past, and so full of "regrets" and you can't sit here now and tell me that chosing me that day was one of them." He cried.
"That's not true!" Rachel sobbed.
"Bull shit Rachel!" Joey cursed. "You still refer to me as "Uncle Joey" to Emma! I'm the only form of a dad she's had the past year and that's all you'll let me be!" Silence followed, as both of them let their tempers die down.
And I think you're so mean
And I think we should try
And I think that I need
This in my life and I think I'm scared
I think too much
I know it's wrong it's a problem I'm feeling
"Why is it just now that you are telling me all of this?" Rachel said quietly. Joey picked up his suitcase.
"Ross coming back here tonight, the way you looked at him. It was all the straw that broke the camel's back." He said seriously.
If you're gone
Baby you need to come home
There an awful lot of breathing to do
But I can hardly move
"Joey don't do this........" Rachel pleaded. "I'm sorry. You're right! I haven't even tried." Rachel weeped. "I promise, we'll start over. I'll give it my all-"
"We had a year Rach. If you couldn't have tried then, what's it worth?" He asked. Rachel stared at her feet. "I need to go Rach. Just-" He paused, lifting her chin so look into her eyes. "Please, just let me go." He begged. Rachel put her hands on his, then pushed them away.
"I think you're already gone." She blinked. .
If you're gone
Maybe it's time to come (Come home)
There's a little bit of something me
In everthing in you
Joey sighed and took a step back "Goodbye Rachel." He whispered. Rachel said goodbye as well, not stopping him, as she watched him walk away.
XOXOElizabethXOXO
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Rachel ambled into the living room after she was sure that Emma was asleep. She was taken aback, seeing Joey waiting patiently behind the counter. He had a look of hurt on his face, and he looked as though he had been crying.
"What's the matter?" Rachel asked with a bit of a giggle. She wasn't used to Joey looking so serious and it almost made her uncomfortable. Joey sighed.
"Seeing Ross tonight was........weird for me." Joey admitted. Rachel paused.
"Why?" She asked knowingly.
"You know why." Joey said quickly. "I was watching TV today Rach." He said, sitting down in his recliner. He was on the edge of his seat. It was then that Rachel noticed his suitcase.
"What's that?" She asked pointing. Joey looked at her with big, sad eyes.
"I was watching TV today, and I sorta realized that, that guy would have been me. Or some other guy might have a part that I could have gotten." He said. "And then I look around here. We're not happy Rachel." He said. Rachel folded her arms.
"Joey, you're being ridiculous." She said scoffing and brushing it off. "Come on! We're happy." She said unconvincingly. Joey shook his head.
"I know you're not happy Rachel. I want you to be happy." He said. Rachel picked up Emma's teddy bear and hugged it, her eyes welling up.
"Joey, you're talking crazy." She said.
"No, I'm not Rachel." Joey said louder. Rachel knelt down beside him.
"Joey, I love YOU." She said strongly. "Not Ross." She added. Joey's eyes opened a bit more, and he looked down.
"I never said anything about Ross." He said, shaking his head. Rachel covered her mouth regretfully.
"Joey-"
"The truth is Rach, this isn't the life I signed up for." He said sadly. That stung Rachel. It showed.
"What?"
I think I already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak, I think you're wrong
"I didn't want to become a nanny for Emma, as much as I love her. I went from being a single, problem free guy to- a dad." He said. "Don't you get me wrong. I love you, both of you. But this just isn't what I expected my life to be like." Joey said sadly. Rachel, at this point, was crying, knowing how she had hurt him.
I think you're already leaving
Looks like your hand's on the door
I thought this place was our empire
Now I'm relaxed, I can't be sure
"We're gonna get past this. You know it. Come on, let's just move foreward."
"That's the thing Rach! You won't LET us move foreward!" Joey yelled, his eyes burning. He wiped away what little tears had developed in his eyes. "You are so stuck on the past, and so full of "regrets" and you can't sit here now and tell me that chosing me that day was one of them." He cried.
"That's not true!" Rachel sobbed.
"Bull shit Rachel!" Joey cursed. "You still refer to me as "Uncle Joey" to Emma! I'm the only form of a dad she's had the past year and that's all you'll let me be!" Silence followed, as both of them let their tempers die down.
And I think you're so mean
And I think we should try
And I think that I need
This in my life and I think I'm scared
I think too much
I know it's wrong it's a problem I'm feeling
"Why is it just now that you are telling me all of this?" Rachel said quietly. Joey picked up his suitcase.
"Ross coming back here tonight, the way you looked at him. It was all the straw that broke the camel's back." He said seriously.
If you're gone
Baby you need to come home
There an awful lot of breathing to do
But I can hardly move
"Joey don't do this........" Rachel pleaded. "I'm sorry. You're right! I haven't even tried." Rachel weeped. "I promise, we'll start over. I'll give it my all-"
"We had a year Rach. If you couldn't have tried then, what's it worth?" He asked. Rachel stared at her feet. "I need to go Rach. Just-" He paused, lifting her chin so look into her eyes. "Please, just let me go." He begged. Rachel put her hands on his, then pushed them away.
"I think you're already gone." She blinked. .
If you're gone
Maybe it's time to come (Come home)
There's a little bit of something me
In everthing in you
Joey sighed and took a step back "Goodbye Rachel." He whispered. Rachel said goodbye as well, not stopping him, as she watched him walk away.
XOXOElizabethXOXO
More soon! :)
