He just hugged me. "D-Do you want to talk about it?" "Yeah I guess no one know the true story mom thinks I just slept around." "Well ok I was out with my boyfriend Jason, and we were at my friend Charlie's party and he handed me a beer and stupid me took it and gulped it down." I moved my head and let a few more tears away. "The next thing I know I'm…I'm in a room with men I don't know and yeah." I said calm now. "And the worst part is that I could be pregnant and if I am my moms reputation in California as the rich representative will be ruined because her daughter went off and got herself knocked up!" I said balling now. "Oh no ,Mel, no one would ever think that!!" "My mom said it straight to my father on the phone." "She just plan hates me for not being perfect!!" I screamed in rage now. I wiped the tears away. Gordie put my head on his shoulder as I cried.

The next few days went ok. I think Gordie might of told the other guys why I came. When I would come and sit on the porch with them they would always look at me funny and treat me different.

It was December 25 1961and I was in my bed waiting for everyone to get up for Christmas. I felt so sick that morning. I felt like I could puke all over. I slightly moved my head to see if anyone had gotten up and looked out the open door. I saw Gordie laying on the end of his bed reading a comic.

"Hey I didn't know anyone was up." I said raising to lean on my elbow. "Yeah well I couldn't sleep you know it's Christmas." "Yeah!" "So when do your parents usually get up?"

"Oh they get up about seven or so to make the turkey." "Oh" I said laying back down. I looked up at the ceiling hoping I could see Michael again to just talk and see him. I missed him so much. It felt like when Denny died, I missed my brother as much as I missed my cousin. I heard a creek in the floor next to my door and I darted up from my pillow.

I looked over and saw a shady figure. He had Brown hair and deep blue eyes and jeans and a silver shirt on, he had a big present in his hand and swiftly walked over to my bed.

"Hey Kid I thought I might travel up here to see you!" "Michey it's you!!" I jumped up from my bed arms open and hugged him tight. "Oh ,Mel, did you get in another fight?" I looked at my sheets and answered, "Yeah." He pulled me chin up and examined my face. "Oh man that scar lots like it's going to stay." He said touching my scar above my eyebrow. "Ow." I flinched, I pulled away backwards, away from his hand. "Oh sorry." He said pulling me back and squeezing me tight. I pulled away. "What, what's the matter?" "Oh It's nothing." I said getting up and headed over to the closet. I opened up the doors to look for the white dress that my Aunt had gotten for me. It was all white pure all over, it came with a little pink bow with it. I loved it. I went into the closet and lifted my shirt over my head and looked at the bruise on my stomach. "Oh shit man that hurts." I pulled my pants off and pulled the white dress over my head and walked out to go to the mirror. "It's beautiful!" Gordie told me as he walked in with his dark blue jeans on and a nice plaid red shirt over a white shirt with his hair gelled back. "Isn't it." I said getting my brush out of my desk shelf. I lifted the brush and brushed my silky Brown and black hair down. It was down to the middle of my back and a little frizzy. I looked into my blue eyes deep in thought about how everyone knew.

"Hey, are you listening?" I looked over to see Chris and Gordie sitting on my bed. "No sorry." I said going and sitting by Chris. "I asked you are you going to open the present Michey gave you?" "Oh yeah." I said popping up and going to the large red rapping paper. I opened one piece at a time and noticed Gordie and Chris anticipating. I opened it to a brown box, I opened the box and saw a beautiful new dress, It was a sky blue, and it also came with a blue ribbon to go in my hair. Normally I don't wear dresses or even like them, but for Christmas and other holidays I love to wear them and show them off. "Oh" I yelled just staring in amazement at how beautiful it was.

I took it out and hung it in my closet. "So Chris do you live here or something?" I asked looking at him through the mirror as I fixed my hair. "No, I just come here when ever I can." "Oh" I said with a sigh. I turned around and went and sat on my bed with Chris as Gordie left to go to the bathroom.

"So ,Mel." I could tell he was trying to make conversation with me. "Yeah?" " Do you know who Gordie likes, he won't tell me!" "I have my suspicions ." "Who?" "Ren!!" I said looking in his eyes. All my affection came back for him and all love we had, but I think this is the one and only person that I could trust. "Why do you say that?" He asked breaking my train of thought. I shook my head back and forth coming back to reality. "Oh….Have you seen the way she looks at him?" "Oh yeah no that you mention it."

"Chris?" "Yeah?" "Who do you like?" I said blushing I could tell, I put my hands on my cheek so he couldn't see. "Oh, some one." "Do I know her?" He looked at the floor as he dangled his feet. "Yeah pretty well!" "Is it Ren?" "No" "Then who." "If I tell you, gotta promise not to tell anyone, I haven't even told Gordie and I tell him everything." Before I could say a word he kissed his gentile lips against mine and I kissed back. I liked it, I liked him. "So I guess your taking Teddy's girl?" I asked stupidly as he leaned in and gave me another kiss. "No silly it's all you." "It's all you."

Soon after a while Gordie peered in and saw us kissing. "So ,Chris, you finally told her!" "What are you talking about I'm just help to clean her teeth!" We all rolled on the floor with laughter. Soon I invited Chris to Christmas dinner at noon. We ate at a long fancy dinner table made of oak. We ate Chicken, Turkey, Mashed Potatoes, green beans, corn, and peas. A dinner fit for a king. It was a very unusual time to be winter, we had a heat wave and it was like Hawaii or something it was like ninety degree weather, maybe a little exaggerated. That Christmas we opened presents and I got money mostly and some new dressed and cloths. Gordie got cloths mostly and very little money, I kind of felt sorry for him.

It had been a week and Chris and I had been dating. I was sure now that I could trust him. I couldn't trust anyone else. It was the middle of Christmas vacation and we were all discussing things on the porch.

"So you guys wanna go on a walk I'm so bored." said Emily crossing her legs over one another. "Yeah." I said swinging on the porch swing. I got up and headed out the door as everyone followed. We walked down to the ice cream parlor and went to get ice cream. We all walked out the door and headed out to the side walk and sit and eat.

I walked out licking my chocolate cone. "So were do you guys want to go?" I asked taking a couple more licks. "Here's fine." said Gordie plopping down on the curb. I sat down next to him as Chris sat next to me. "So you guys when do we go back to school?" I asked turning my head to the left and to the right looking at Chris and Gordie waiting for an answer. "In three days remember?" "Oh" I felt a big cramp in my stomach it felt like I was going to puke again on the street. "Guys I gotta go!" I through my ice cream and ran to the nearest dumpster. I stuck my head in and puke like there was no tomorrow. I wonder why I was getting sick when I looked at food. This wasn't the first time. It had been happening through December.

Chris and Gordie ran to my side as they plugged their noses as they helped me. "Oh shit." I said in between barfing. I finally was done. I got my head out and wiped my hand across my mouth. "Mel, are you ok?" asked Chris helping me balance as I swayed back and forth. "Yeah this has been happening for a while." "Maybe you should see a doctor." Chris suggested as the slowly walked me home. We were on the way home when of course who of all people did we run into Ace and Eyeball.

"Hey ,Chris, got yourself a new hoe?" asked Eyeball as him and Ace gave a "high Five" for insulting him. "Sorry ,Eyeball, I didn't know trash could walk it self out." Chris said as he laughed a little. "Oh real cute kid." He said stepping forward. "Oh what are you going to do asshole?" "This" He pushed me back from Gordie and Chris's grip. I fell back on the cement ground with a hard hit. "Mel, are you ok." said Gordie giving a hand out. "Get out of the way homo's." said Ace coming and putting his foot on my stomach. "Oh ,Chris, what are you gonna a do, I have your girl friend." I was really scared now, the memories rushed back from earlier in California, I was shaking by now. "G-Get off asshole." I said hitting his foot. "What?" he said bending down and putting his face close to mine. "Back off ,Ace." Chris said hitting his back. Ace all of a sudden took his foot off my stomach and picked me up and now I was looking into his silky blue eyes.

"Did I hear you call me an asshole?" "Yeah you did!" I said spitting in his eye. He dropped me, and now was the time to run. I fell to the ground again with an extreme hard hit.

"Come on." Chris picked me up and we ran like hell. "Bye Assholes." I shouted as we turned the corner to Gordies house. "Well get you Lachance, We will get you good!!" I heard him scream. "Wow that was close!" I said as we reached the house. Chris put me done and helped me to the swing. "Yeah, we barely made it." Gordie said with his hands on his knee's panting out of breath from running. "So kids how was your walk." I was surprised to see my mother. "Mom you're here!" I yelled with excitement. "Your surprised?" "Yes!" "Well dear I thought since Michael came up here for Christmas all alone I thought maybe I should come and see how your doing." Fine without your help. I thought giving a little giggle. "Fine mother." I said looking outside post the screen. "Mom can I talk to you?" "Yeah" I got up a little wobbly and walked toward my mom and tapped her on the shoulder and directed her toward a more secret location. We walked up the stairs to my room and I closed the door. I went in and started pacing, biting my finger nails to the last point of being bitten. I breathed in and finally with a calm voice said, "Mom I think I'm pregnant." Her face went from bright and shiny to 'Oh god you slut why did you sleep around' "Why would you say that dear?" She asked slightly concerned. "Well when ever I look at food I get sick, the morning sickness and I'm always wobbly. "Oh honey." She was crying by now and I could tell her heart was broken. "I'm sorry mom!" I yelled and started balling at the sight of my mother breaking down. "Sorry mom." I said as I was on my knees and holding my hands in the shape like I was praying, and tears rolling down my face. She got up from my bed and held me in a hug. "Well honey if you are, it's ok by me." She said with a smirk. "No it's not it's all my fault I went to Jason's party it's my fault all my fault."

"No dear it's mine for not being there!" She said as she gently picked me to my feet and kissed we on the forehead. She started walking toward the door and half way to reaching for the door knob she turned around with a big tear in her eye, "We will take you to the doctor tomorrow."

After all that I fell asleep thinking 'What if I am pregnant the worst that could happen is that I lose it or hurt moms reputation.' 'Or even mine.'



Hey sorry it took so long, I've been bb sitting and stuff,but here's the next chapter it's kinda long,but please read and review!!