He is dead!!" She screamed crying in between her legs now. "Oh God." I said coming toward the swing to sit by her. "Oh God Aunt Dorothy I'm so sorry." I said throwing my ice cream on the floor and hugging her tight. By this time I was balling too. Gordie looked at Chris and nudged him to come with him into the house.

I walked after them hoping to find out what happened. I left my Aunt out there crying and I just wanted her to settle down. I walked into the kitchen where Gordie and Chris had sat down.

I walked over and took a seat. "What happened?" I asked crossing my arms. "Dads dead he got hit by a tree trying to drive home last night." Gordie said it very calm, but I could tell he was sad deep down.

"Your not sad?" I asked touching his arm. "Yeah, but I am not going to be sad for someone who for years thought I, ME, should be dead." He said with a little tear in his eye. "It's ok ,Gordie." I said hugging him now.

"No ,Mel, this is not ok." He said now crying on my shoulder. "I really loved him ,Mel, I really did." He said wiping the tears on the shoulder of my dress. "I know you did." He just sat there sad mortified about the death of his father. He cried for days. I think if they have one more death in this family that all of them will go insane, and me.

It had been a few days since that incident and the funeral was coming up. All the family was coming, including mine. I was excited to see my mom and brothers. Mom didn't even know that I was pregnant.

I got up on June 10, 1962. I looked up from my pillow to see bright sun seeping through the cracks of my shades on my window. I walked over to the blinds and pulled the string and they went up. I looked and saw a beautiful day ahead of me. I had to get dressed fast, because my family was coming up here for the funeral today. I was now getting a little bigger, almost to the point were I can't see my feet any more. I walked from the window to my closet and opened it and looked at the selection I had. I decided to wear the nicest maternity dress I had. I pulled out a plain sky blue dress and put it on . I walked to the door and headed to the bathroom to brush my hair. I went in and looked in the mirror. My brown hair was a mess and I was really tired. I brushed through my ratty hair and placed the brush on the counter as I ran my fingers through my long hair. I brushed my teeth and headed toward the stairs.

I walked into see my mother, father and all four of my brothers sitting on the couch and drinking coca cola. "Hi mom." I said waddling over to her and giving her a hug. "Hey sweetie." She said looking me over. She had a very disgusted look on her face. I walked away, toward the kitchen to see my Aunt.

I went and sat down by her at the kitchen table. I looked into her deep brown eyes as she stared out the open window. "Aunt Dorothy, are you ok?" I asked taking her hand and holding for support. "Why him?" "Why couldn't it of been me?" "Aunt Dorothy, you'll be ok it was his time!" I said letting go of her hand. "I'll be ok?" "I will be ok, my husbands dead my sons dead and all I have left is my other son and that's all I have." She said with two tears trickling down her face. I got my sleeve from my dress and wiped them away. Then I hugged her tight letting the rest of her tears fall on my dress.

She got up and wiped her own tears away and went into the living room with a cheesy smile on with a tray of snacks. I followed her into the room full of relatives. Everyone had black on with black veils over there eyes. I walked over to the couch and sat by Michael.

"Hey kid how is it going?" He asked checking me over and giving me a hug. "Good." I said looking into his eyes. "That's good." He said patting my leg. "When are you due?" "August." "Oh you still have a little to go." He said messing up my hair a little. I giggled a little putting my hand over my mouth. I decided to walk up to my room and just listen to the radio just to get away from the sadness.

I walked up the stairs and started to go to my room when I noticed Gordi sitting in his room.

"Hey ,Gordo." I said coming to stand in the door frame. "Hey." He said with a fake smile while a tear ran down his face. I walked over to him and gave him a hug. "You are going to be ok, Gordo, he was a good man." I said wiping his tears away. "Yeah he was." "Except." He said coming to a halt. I knew where he was going with it. He was going back to when Denny died. "I know ,Gordo, but that was hard for them and for you." He just stared at me like I was nuts, to take his fathers side. "Yeah, I guess your right." He said hugging me. "Thanks." He said hugging me again. "Your going to be ok." I said taking from the hug and looking into his saddened doe eyes, full of water and pain.

Later that day we went to the funeral, and everyone cried there eyes out.

We went to a beautiful cathedral. It was full of sun catcher like windows, full of beauty. The Altar was gorgeous. Then there was the casket, Uncle Richard, had a nice black suit on with a nice white shirt on under. He had enormous scratch under his eye. It was probably full of glass. He originally died of a heart attack at the wheel, and then a tree came through the wind shield and cut him up pretty bad. It was a lovely service. Nice preacher talked about his life in Castle Rock, when he meet Aunt, and then he talked of all the family and then some scripture came.

After the service we all headed for the house for a dinner. I rode in the front seat in my mothers car, Just like when I came.

"Mom?" I looked in her direction. She just stared our the front window as she drove toward the house. "Mom, your pissed aren't you?" I asked now looking at my window as I knew I at any second would start to cry. "You could you tell?" She asked looking into my eyes now. "Well one, you left before the news was out, second you won't look at me, talk to me, or even hug me." I was starting to feel the tears escaping from my eyes. "Don't cry you baby it's all your fault." The words from my moms mouth struck my heart like a bow in arrow. "You bitch I hate you I always have." "Well now we know how you feel." She said slapping me in the head. "Mom, what ever happened to "Oh dear it's not your fault it's my fault for not being there." I said mocking her from months before. "Well if you hadn't went and gotten your self pregnant we wouldn't be here in this situation now would we?" "Pull over and let me out!!" I said opening the door a little. "Get your fat pregnant ass back in here." She said grabbing onto my shirt. "Just let me die please I hate my life I hate you, I hate all of you." I said As she pulled me back in and I had covered my face because I was crying. "Screech." She pulled the car to the side of the road. "What the Hell?" I asked looking at her from the side. She turned her body toward mine and looked deep into my eyes.

"I'm sorry ,Mel, I ….I didn't mean to say those mean things it's just." "It's just Why? Why did you do it?"

"Mom, I went to the party for fun… not sex or anything of that nature I just wanted to have fun." "I guess Jason and his friends did to." I said looking down at my feet as tears spilled over my face.

"Well ,Mel, what's done is done you can't change it." She started to lean in and give me a hug.

I hugged back. "Thanks ,Mom." "Your welcome dear." "Mom, may I take a walk, and just walk the rest of the way, I need to walk." "Sure dear." She let me go into the dark night all alone. As she drove away she stuck her hand out and gave wave good bye. I gave a wave back.



Hey all sorry for the cliff hange hope you all like this except it's kind of sad.