Author: BigMamaDweezel E-mail: BigMamaDweezel@hotmail.com Rating: PG Category:Angst/Songfic/AU Spoilers: None Paring: Suprise! Disclaimers: Joss is king of all and I am his servant who will willingly sponge bathe James and Alexis for him! I don't own ''Concrete Angel'' either, but, thanks Martina!

''She walked to school with a lunch she packed Nobody knows what she's holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress she wore yesterday She hides the brusies with the linen and lace
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm Sometimes she wishes she was never born.''

He's shaking at the begining. He shouldn't be doing this. Not singing. Not here and now. It's not the order of things, it wasn't supposed to happen! His tears start to come up and a lump forms in his throat. No, he thought. It was his last duty, and he would do it right.

''Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete Angel''

His voice fills with confidence and love and tears. As his fingers press the white and black keys, he is reminded. There whole relationship was black and white. Pure and simple. Love. And now it was ripped from him by .... God only knows what did it. To have his only love ripped from him was the most devestating thing he had ever experinced. He still sings.

''Somebody cries in the middle of the night The neighbors hear but they turn out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate When morning comes it'll be too late
Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete Angel''

He has to finish. What could he do if he couldn't even finish a song. He would fail again.

''A statue sits in a shaded place An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock A broken heart that the world forgot''

His fingers shake and his breath hitches. He sings on

'' Through the wind and the rain She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved Concrete Angel''

Now Spike lets the tears flow freely. Rest in peace, Wesley. I love you.