* no one belongs 'cept Émigré =^.^= yep..!
Keep On Dancing
"Kiss me..."
I am dreaming. Sometimes, it is difficult for one to distinguish the differences between reality and illusion in a dream, unless it is painfully obvious. I am in the center of a vast nothingness… a somewhat dull white that has lost its luster and is filled with emptiness, a sad emptiness.
Then I see him, he is smiling and waving at me, long silver hair moves by the wind and a wickedly divine smile surpasses the moon in all of its luminous glory. My love, he is beautiful beyond compare, my love is perfect, despite all his beliefs. "My love is my heart." When his eyes fill with tears, my heart is saddened, when his eyes shine with joy, I dwell in that happiness, knowing that I could feed off of this emotion of his and be content. I try to stand to meet him and my legs fail me. I can't move and I reach out for something to steady myself with and I find nothing. I am in pain. What have I done to deserve this? My love is calling my name for he can no longer see me. I cry out, "Here I am, here I am, over here!" but alas, he cannot see me. I attempt to stand once more despite the horrible kneading pain. I collapse again and my love is walking away.
He is leaving me… and I did this. I chased him away, pushed him from me when he desired to be near me. Alarming revelations unfold before me as I am sprawled out and staring into the nothingness of a white sky. I did this. You're walking away, calling my name at the top of your lungs, and I am not there to greet you.
"Kagome-where are you?" Kagome, Kagome, how you purr my name so sweetly, even if said in anger… Kagome… no one says it quite like you do, Inu Yasha, no one.
"Would you understand why I sent him? Would you understand why I sent my heart after you?" It is because I love you dearly as well. I can remember when we were children and I cared for you as an older sister might. I was there when you fell. I was there when you cried out for me. I was there when you had nightmares. I was there to comfort you. You are the sister who gives me a purpose other than that expected of a miko… other than that of a jewel shard collector. The day Sesshoumaru left you, I watched helplessly as the world you so carefully constructed crumbled before you and… and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I could only watch. I couldn't do anything to prevent this. I sensed Inu Yasha's affinity, his growing fondness to your newborn son and I made up my mind a few nights after you had left.
Inu Yasha knows what it is like to grow up half-youkai. He could sympathize with what the babe would be going through in a couple of years. I asked him to keep you safe until you either found Sesshoumaru or whatever answer you seek. He agreed with me whole-heartedly, to keep you safe and bring you back, until I told him we would leave at dawn. "You are going to stay here- where you are safe, Kagome."
"No, I'm not! And don't think you are going to stop me either!"
"We can either stand here and argue all you want or you can stop your whining and stay here where I know you're safe. I don't want to be distracted-"
"Is that what I am- a distraction?!? Like some kind of annoying gnat buzzing in your ear?!? You- you jerk!" I ran past him, past Miroku and Sango, past little Rin and Shippou and sat by the well. Oh, why did I say that? I really didn't mean it… I know what he meant and I twisted it around. I didn't mean to yell at him… Inu Yasha…
I felt his strong arms wrap around me as he knelt by my side. "Kagome," he breathed lustily. "Gomen nasai…" I cried, half turned towards him and cried, awkwardly hugging him. "It's okay-it's okay- "
"No, it's not! I-" He shushed me, a gentle kiss sweeping in to my lips then traveling to my nose, my eyes, and then to my forehead.
"I will make it better- promise me you'll stay here Kagome…" I looked up to his face, shadows swallowing his visage, silver hair glowing in moonlight. "Promise me Kagome." He crushed my hands to his chest, resting my fingertips over his heartbeat. "I don't know what I would do if something happened to you. Promise me Kagome."
The memory of that night is becoming faint, but yet, I can still feel his heartbeat with this hand… and I know he is okay.
~*~
Émigré awoke with a start. "K-Kagome!" Her whole body quivered violently and she heaved, sitting up and looking around in confusion. Strong arms circled around him and held her tightly.
"Calm down, it's alright… Émigré, calm down."
"Inu Yasha- Inu Yasha, she misses you! She misses you…" Émigré sobbed for a long time afterwards as Inu Yasha eventually calmed her down and she hiccupped herself to sleep as Inu Yasha stared into the distance.
What the hell was Émigré babbling about?
