Sleeping

Chapter 4

By *~* River Goddess *~*

Lyrics by Evanescence, Exodus

Disclaimer:: You know the drill

Lies, all lies. I can never trust anyone, that's what I have learned. Even though if someone says to trust them, they won't go by what they say. If someone says that they will all ways be there for me, they won't. Never trust, never trust.

'Gin where are you going?' Butterfly shouted to me from the end of the hall.

I stop.

'I'm kind of tired so I was just going back to my dormitory for so sleep.'

'OK just be back to life for the party. A party is nothing without you.' Butterfly went back down the other stairway and out of sight.

I don't need sleep, I'm a creature of the night. I just here to make sure that everyone is happy and taken care of. If I wasn't here to help River then she might have already killed herself, if I wasn't here then Draco would be in a insane asylum on the account of what is wrong with him. But I take care of them I will until my dieing day.

I get to my dormitory and close the curtains around my bed, encircling myself with colors of green and silver [stole them from Slytherin].

'Bo.' I tapped the wall tree times, then stood back.

The wall was folding in and out like an accordion, and it lead to another room. The lights flickered a couple of times until they came on.

The room was purple wall paper, a little table in the corner with two chairs. There was toys all over the floor. Dolls and their clothing scattered about, along with bunnies and other toys. And finally a bed in the room with a little girl in it named Bo.

I took the time turner out of my robes and turned it back ten hours. I walked over to Bo and sat on her bed.

'Bo, Bo, baby. Wake up.' I gently bent down and kissed her.

'Mommy?' The little voice said.

'Yes. Hi baby, your up now.'

'I know, can I have some food now?'

'OK.'

I took Bo up in my arms and walked down a lit passage way.

Bo looks so much like her father. Long black hair, bright blue eyes. She got his hair, eyes, chin, and nose, even his temper sometimes. But that's how a lot of four year olds are.

Bo started sucking on her thumb and put her head on my shoulder.

'Did you have a good sleep?' I asked her.

She nodded yes.

We got to the end of the tunnel to a door. I opened the door, to the kitchens.

'Hello, Miss can I get you anything?' Asked a house elf..

'Umm, I will have a cup of black coffee [YUM!] and Bo will have a bowl of cheerios and some apple juice.' I told the house elf. 'Do you want to eat here or go back to your room?'

'Here, I want to see Winky.' Bo giggled then ran off to go see Winky.

Bo doesn't know any other place except for my house [the burrow] and Hogwarts. At Hogwarts she mostly stays in her room and the kitchen's, that it. Sometimes during vacation breaks I will take her for midnight walks. When we are at my house she will mostly stay in my room. I bring her up food and I play with her all of the time. The clothes that she wears are mostly clothes that I found up in the attic from when I was little. I took down mostly stuff that I knew that my mother wouldn't care if I took, the rest I just make myself. When my mum, dad, Ron and Harry leave once in a while vacations, Diagon Ally I will take Bo out and I will let her roam the yard. She loves the flowers and the outside I just wish that she could see them more often.

'Miss your food is ready.' Said one of the house elves.

'Thank you, we will be eating here today, if that's alright with you.'

'Oh yes Miss.'

I went over to Bo who was playing with Winky.

'Bo, come here, and eat baby.'

Bo came next to me and started to munch on her cheerios.

'Mummy, when's Christmas?'

'In about one month.'

'Is that a long time?'

I nodded and sipped my coffee.

'What do you want to do when your done?' I asked Bo.

'Play.'

'What kind of play?'

'Fun play.'

'Ok so, we are going to have fun play today.'

Bo clapped her hands together, and took a sip of her apple juice.

Know one knows about Bo. I don't even think that her father knows about her. My friends don't know, my parents don't know, my teachers don't know, my family doesn't know. There is only one person that does, the muggle nurse that delivered her, knows. I put a memory charm on her afterwards though.

I don't know how my parents are going to take it when they find out, if they find out. I have had her almost five years and I'm not happy. She deserves better then this, better then a life of being stuck in a world of confinement.

'Mummy, I'm done.'

'OK, go say good bye to Winky and then we are going to go.'

Bo went over to Winky and kissed her on the cheek as a sigh of good bye. She walked back over to me and we went back to her room.

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I check on Bo every eight teen hours, giving her eight hours of sleep and then I'll come and we will play together. Bo isn't a greedy, she hasn't had anything to call her own except for her bunnies. She loves her bunnies, and me. I love her back, I will never let any one take her away from me.

'Mummy, will you sing me a song?' she asked me as she got back to her room.

'What song?'

'Any song.'

I went back to over to my bed and got my guitar from underneath my bed, and started playing it.

My black backpack's stuffed with broken dreams

20 bucks should get me through the week

Never said a word of discontentment

Fought it a thousand times but now

I'm leaving home

Here in the shadows

I'm safe

I'm free

I've nowhere else to go but

I cannot stay where I don't belong

Two months pass by and it's getting cold

I know I'm not lost

I am just alone

But I won't cry

I won't give up

I can't go back now

Waking up is knowing who you really are

Here in the shadows

I'm safe

I'm free

I've nowhere else to go but

I cannot stay where I don't belong

Here in the shadows

I'm safe

I'm free

I've nowhere else to go but

I cannot stay where I don't belong

Show me the shadow where true meaning lies

So much more is made in empty eyes