~ Hello all. This chapter is dedicated to my faithful homeskillet, Meredith. Though I love you all. No more Dominique POV. I don't like her anyway. This is Jesse POV. ~
I was happy to see a friendly face at my door when Colin came up to my house. I grabbed my black sweat jacket, because, once again, it was chilly outside. I walked out the door and over to where Colin stood. He looked relieved to see me. He was looking attractive tonight. He looked natural, he was wearing a crimson t-shirt and some blue jeans. Nothing fancy, which wasn't bad because I wasn't dressed up either.
"You scared me, I thought you might be dead." Well, that was a comforting thought. I wasn't at school for one day, and I was dead.
"You're overreacting, why would I be dead? It would take a lot more than one encounter to kill me, Colin." He didn't look convinced. Well, maybe I could convince him. I walked over to him and kissed his cheek gently. I felt him flush, he wasn't used to me acting like this and frankly, neither was I. I was being reckless. What was I thinking? Kissing all over him like that, I was probably sending the wrong message. I was so exhausted, even now, one day after that vampire had fed off of me. Exhaustion isn't a good thing when you have as many enemies as I do.
"Jesse, are you okay? Are you in a fight with your family?" Oh yeah, I had promised to explain why I wanted to get away from my house.
"I told you, I'm fine. My family is just a tad bit dysfunctional. They all yelled at me and lectured me for too long. I got sick of it, so I decided to get out of my house. Is that okay with you oh powerful one?" That had been a little harsh, but I was cranky and didn't feel like explaining my every move to Colin. It was obvious that I had offended him.
"I'm sorry for being concerned about you. I didn't know it was such an offense. What's wrong with you? One minute your kissing me, the next you are berating me." I felt a twinge of regret at that comment. But being the stupid, headstrong girl that I am, I continued on insulting him.
"Well, Colin, it's not very fun being stalked all the time by you. I am tired of being followed and looked after. Just leave me alone." He looked so angry and hurt. I knew I had just made a humongous mistake, but it was too late.
"You want me to leave you alone, fine I will." He was walking away so I grabbed his hand, but he yanked it away.
"Colin, wait, I've had a long day. Please I didn't mean it-"
"You meant it, Jesse, or else it would've never came out of your mouth."
"You can't tell me what I mean and don't mean. Stop. Come on, Colin, don't be like this."
"I'm just returning your sarcasm. Let's call it a night, we're both in bad moods now."
"I'm sorry. Just stop running away from me. You aren't being fair."
"No, Jesse, you're the one not being fair. You take everyone for granted. Including me. You know what, I've been there for you. I've let you tell me your problems, you've been troubled and I helped you figure it all out, I've been there when you're hurt, and I've been there to treat you like a goddess. And now you expect me to be there for you when you just told me how much you hate the attention I give you? No. I will not be that desperate for your love. I will not beg for it." I stood there shocked. Colin broke free from my grip and stormed away, his emotions were left with me. Pain, sadness, anger. Above all of those emotions, I felt myself wanting his attention. The attention I really loved and appreciated. Why was I such an idiot? For the first time in my life I broke down and cried. I walked over to the park and sat down on a old swing set. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I felt as if my heart had been ripped out. You never know how much you love something until it's gone. I sat there on that swing for about two hours, until I was cold and my tears had ran dry. I didn't realize how much I had valued that love he had made me feel. I loved him so much, I knew that now. But he would never forgive me. How could I be so foolish and insensitive. I was getting ready to leave when I felt a familiar aura sweep over my skin. It was similar to Colin's aura, but not quite identical. I knew it must be his sister's aura. She was walking towards me, the anger emanating from her aura. Oh shit. What had I gotten myself into? When she got near me she let every cruel thing she could think of come out of her mouth.
"You know, I've stood by and watched him worship you, and that's fine, I couldn't care less. But when you rip his heart out, I get involved. How dare you? He had been so happy to hear from you, if you could've seen his face. But why would he value you at all? You are just as cold and uncaring as your mother and I will not let him waste his love on you. Especially if you treat him like dirt for no good reason. I personally think that you are to be valued little more than an ant would be valued, but he thinks you are so wonderful. How could you, even in your cold heart, how could you crush him like that? You are an insensitive bitch and I hope that he told you that." I sat there and took all of her insults in. She was waiting for a response, I realized, after sitting there in front of her for about three minutes. I didn't have anything to say. I felt another aura coming towards us, it was Colin. I lowered my head; I was insensitive and cold, and I was full of shame because of that.
"Rosalyn go home, I don't need you to stick up for me." Rosalyn didn't argue to this, she simply nodded and walked away. She had said all that she wanted to say. There was an awkward pause between Colin and I. I decided to end it.
"What time is it?" I was surprised that my voice was hoarse. He looked at his watch.
"It's twelve thirty. You should go home." There was another pause. "Do you want me to walk you home?" He still asked, after all this shit I've put him through. My body was racked with sobs once again. He didn't hate me; I felt relief sweep over me, like a warm blanket. Colin walked over and wrapped his arms around me. Colin whispered in my ear, "Why would I hate you? I could never hate you." I cried even more at that. I was being really emotional tonight. I felt really stupid. Oh well, it was only Colin.
"Colin, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it. I really love you. Maybe not as a lover, but as a friend. I'm tired, mentally and physically. Please don't hold this against me. I love you. I really do." I was babbling now, but he gently listened and said, "I know. I know." I felt his love wrap around me. How could I have ever done that to him?
"Come on, I don't want you to be totally exhausted tomorrow. It's a school day." I laughed at that and saw him grin. He walked me home and when we reached my house, he stopped me.
"Jesse, we both said things we didn't mean. Don't listen to my sister, she just is really defensive when it comes to her little brother." He paused and flashed me a warm smile. "I love you too. Let's act like this never happened, okay?" I nodded.
"Wait, Colin, let's not forget this." And with that I kissed him gently on the lips. It was such a good feeling, I didn't want this moment to end. I pulled away first though, I felt a little awkward; that's how our whole argument had started, with a kiss. Colin looked at me longingly.
"I won't forget that. Trust me." With that I walked into my house and Colin walked back to his house. I fell into blissful sleep. I had forgotten everything except that last kiss. My dreams were filled with that good memory.
~ A little mushy but I like it. Read and review. Happy Hunting. ~
I was happy to see a friendly face at my door when Colin came up to my house. I grabbed my black sweat jacket, because, once again, it was chilly outside. I walked out the door and over to where Colin stood. He looked relieved to see me. He was looking attractive tonight. He looked natural, he was wearing a crimson t-shirt and some blue jeans. Nothing fancy, which wasn't bad because I wasn't dressed up either.
"You scared me, I thought you might be dead." Well, that was a comforting thought. I wasn't at school for one day, and I was dead.
"You're overreacting, why would I be dead? It would take a lot more than one encounter to kill me, Colin." He didn't look convinced. Well, maybe I could convince him. I walked over to him and kissed his cheek gently. I felt him flush, he wasn't used to me acting like this and frankly, neither was I. I was being reckless. What was I thinking? Kissing all over him like that, I was probably sending the wrong message. I was so exhausted, even now, one day after that vampire had fed off of me. Exhaustion isn't a good thing when you have as many enemies as I do.
"Jesse, are you okay? Are you in a fight with your family?" Oh yeah, I had promised to explain why I wanted to get away from my house.
"I told you, I'm fine. My family is just a tad bit dysfunctional. They all yelled at me and lectured me for too long. I got sick of it, so I decided to get out of my house. Is that okay with you oh powerful one?" That had been a little harsh, but I was cranky and didn't feel like explaining my every move to Colin. It was obvious that I had offended him.
"I'm sorry for being concerned about you. I didn't know it was such an offense. What's wrong with you? One minute your kissing me, the next you are berating me." I felt a twinge of regret at that comment. But being the stupid, headstrong girl that I am, I continued on insulting him.
"Well, Colin, it's not very fun being stalked all the time by you. I am tired of being followed and looked after. Just leave me alone." He looked so angry and hurt. I knew I had just made a humongous mistake, but it was too late.
"You want me to leave you alone, fine I will." He was walking away so I grabbed his hand, but he yanked it away.
"Colin, wait, I've had a long day. Please I didn't mean it-"
"You meant it, Jesse, or else it would've never came out of your mouth."
"You can't tell me what I mean and don't mean. Stop. Come on, Colin, don't be like this."
"I'm just returning your sarcasm. Let's call it a night, we're both in bad moods now."
"I'm sorry. Just stop running away from me. You aren't being fair."
"No, Jesse, you're the one not being fair. You take everyone for granted. Including me. You know what, I've been there for you. I've let you tell me your problems, you've been troubled and I helped you figure it all out, I've been there when you're hurt, and I've been there to treat you like a goddess. And now you expect me to be there for you when you just told me how much you hate the attention I give you? No. I will not be that desperate for your love. I will not beg for it." I stood there shocked. Colin broke free from my grip and stormed away, his emotions were left with me. Pain, sadness, anger. Above all of those emotions, I felt myself wanting his attention. The attention I really loved and appreciated. Why was I such an idiot? For the first time in my life I broke down and cried. I walked over to the park and sat down on a old swing set. Tears rolled down my cheeks. I felt as if my heart had been ripped out. You never know how much you love something until it's gone. I sat there on that swing for about two hours, until I was cold and my tears had ran dry. I didn't realize how much I had valued that love he had made me feel. I loved him so much, I knew that now. But he would never forgive me. How could I be so foolish and insensitive. I was getting ready to leave when I felt a familiar aura sweep over my skin. It was similar to Colin's aura, but not quite identical. I knew it must be his sister's aura. She was walking towards me, the anger emanating from her aura. Oh shit. What had I gotten myself into? When she got near me she let every cruel thing she could think of come out of her mouth.
"You know, I've stood by and watched him worship you, and that's fine, I couldn't care less. But when you rip his heart out, I get involved. How dare you? He had been so happy to hear from you, if you could've seen his face. But why would he value you at all? You are just as cold and uncaring as your mother and I will not let him waste his love on you. Especially if you treat him like dirt for no good reason. I personally think that you are to be valued little more than an ant would be valued, but he thinks you are so wonderful. How could you, even in your cold heart, how could you crush him like that? You are an insensitive bitch and I hope that he told you that." I sat there and took all of her insults in. She was waiting for a response, I realized, after sitting there in front of her for about three minutes. I didn't have anything to say. I felt another aura coming towards us, it was Colin. I lowered my head; I was insensitive and cold, and I was full of shame because of that.
"Rosalyn go home, I don't need you to stick up for me." Rosalyn didn't argue to this, she simply nodded and walked away. She had said all that she wanted to say. There was an awkward pause between Colin and I. I decided to end it.
"What time is it?" I was surprised that my voice was hoarse. He looked at his watch.
"It's twelve thirty. You should go home." There was another pause. "Do you want me to walk you home?" He still asked, after all this shit I've put him through. My body was racked with sobs once again. He didn't hate me; I felt relief sweep over me, like a warm blanket. Colin walked over and wrapped his arms around me. Colin whispered in my ear, "Why would I hate you? I could never hate you." I cried even more at that. I was being really emotional tonight. I felt really stupid. Oh well, it was only Colin.
"Colin, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it. I really love you. Maybe not as a lover, but as a friend. I'm tired, mentally and physically. Please don't hold this against me. I love you. I really do." I was babbling now, but he gently listened and said, "I know. I know." I felt his love wrap around me. How could I have ever done that to him?
"Come on, I don't want you to be totally exhausted tomorrow. It's a school day." I laughed at that and saw him grin. He walked me home and when we reached my house, he stopped me.
"Jesse, we both said things we didn't mean. Don't listen to my sister, she just is really defensive when it comes to her little brother." He paused and flashed me a warm smile. "I love you too. Let's act like this never happened, okay?" I nodded.
"Wait, Colin, let's not forget this." And with that I kissed him gently on the lips. It was such a good feeling, I didn't want this moment to end. I pulled away first though, I felt a little awkward; that's how our whole argument had started, with a kiss. Colin looked at me longingly.
"I won't forget that. Trust me." With that I walked into my house and Colin walked back to his house. I fell into blissful sleep. I had forgotten everything except that last kiss. My dreams were filled with that good memory.
~ A little mushy but I like it. Read and review. Happy Hunting. ~
