Chapter 20
January 10th
Christmas is over and it is now the new year. New Year's is supposed to be about having fun and new beginnings. There was no new beginning for me. Mom is still just as pregnant as she was before. The baby will be here in exactly four months.
On the bright side, Zack and I are closer than ever. He comes over every single day after school and talks to Mom until I get home from work. I keep telling him not to do this but he doesn't listen to me. Mom really seems to enjoy his company. She is alone all day because Wendy baby-sits her grandchildren away from the house. I want to stay home so much but I just can't. I decided to quit my night job. I just couldn't function anymore with two jobs. So now I'm working full time at McDonalds.
I'm getting some money from Dad every month. It's child support since I am his child and I'm still under eighteen. I went to him one day and told him I would take him to court if he didn't send us money every month. It didn't take much to persuade him. He's rich and too busy to have a lawsuit hovering over his head.
Mom is healthy enough. I really think everything is going to be okay. My life is slowing down, it is frantic and rushed all the time. I have spare time to hang out with Zack and I can still take care of Mom. She has changed so much since the last time I wrote. She sued to be childlike and confused now she is alert and acting more responsible. She knows she's going to have a baby and she told me she wanted to get a job to help me pay for food and rent but I refused. The last thing I need is for her to get stressed out and go back into her childlike state.
I still don't know what will happen when the baby is born. I am almost dreading that moment. Babies cost money and we are already stretched to the limit as it is. I bought Mom baby clothes and supplies for Christmas. That is the only thing I could get myself to spend money on that wasn't an absolute necessity.
Zack got us a stroller. A brand new one! I was so surprised. I couldn't believe he had realized that we needed baby things and anything else would be worthless to us right now. He is so sweet. I almost told him the stroller was too much but we really need it and I knew he would never take it back.
He told me his mother knows what has happened to me and the stroller was from her too. I was almost envious of Zack at that moment. His family was so perfect, his father would never abandon his family as selfishly as mine had.
Everything is going to okay from now on right? I can only hope.
February 25th
Everything is still going smoothly. I just got a raise at work, which is really going to help out. Wendy even lowered the rent by a hundred dollars a month. We are very good friends now. I don't know hat I would have done if I hadn't found her. But none of that, no what if's. Everything is going well and it's going to continue that way. I just know it will
March 11th
Just two more months left. Mom is huge and she mostly just lies around all the time. I try to get as much time off as possible but I need to keep making money so it's hard.
I'm a little worried about Mom being alone here when she's close to her due date and after the baby is born. I just don't know if she will be okay here by herself. I'm so worried all day at work that it's hard to concentrate.
Zack tried to get me to consider coming back to school after the baby is born but I just don't think that is possible. This is how it has to be until Mom can work again and the child can go to daycare. And by then, what is that point in going to school? I'll be twenty years old in classes full of sixteen year olds.
March 20th
You'll NEVER guess what happened!!!! Maxine (Zack's mother) told him he could invite Mom and I to live in La Vie!! That means I won't have to work anymore! And Mom will be free to stay home with the baby. I can't believe how generous she is. I think she knows how in love Zack and I are. She is so understanding.
We are going to more in tomorrow. I'll be sorry to leave Wendy but she said she is going to have her nephew move in because he's starting college next year.
Everything is working out. I'm so happy that I didn't give up. Nothing good ever came from giving up. Perseverance is then most important quality for anyone to have and I have proven that I have it.
I can't wait to move into La Vie!!
March 31st
We have settled into La Vie but there has been a terrible accident. Only two days after we go here Michael had a heart attack. He was in his late fifties, much too young to die. I know Zack, Maxine and Fred are devastated. The house is almost like a funeral home now. I almost feel like my coming here has caused this pain/ I know it isn't true but it's so hard not to think that way.
I try to comfort Zack and I have helped Maxine with all the funeral arrangements. I love them all very much for doing so much fro me, the least I can do is help them too.
Mom even helped Maxine get dressed for the funeral. She was having a really hard time. I thought she was going to collapse in the middle of the service. But she is a very strong woman; I can only pray that I turn out to be half the woman she is.
April 22nd
We are finally starting to get over Michael's death. None of us will ever forget him. He was a wonderful, generous caring man and I will forever be grateful for what he along with Maxine has done for me mother and I.
The due date is looming so near. Less than a month away. But I feel so much better about everything. We are going to fine thanks to Maxine.
Fred has been showing a lot of interest in my mother's well being. He asks about her every day and he sometimes visits her in her room. They seem to get along very well. Fred is just as sweet as Zack is and I'm very grateful for his kindness.
I can't wait to start school again in the fall. I have missed being a normal teenager so much. I'm just so happy that my life is going to get back to normal.
April 30th
Something very strange has happened. Mom refuses to speak to Zack anymore. It's like she has seen something in him or remembered something that she is afraid of. I can't understand what it could be. Zack is the perfect gentleman. He has never been anything but kind and compassionate towards her.
I hate to be suspicious but I'm started to think that Zack did something to her.
But what could it be?
May 1st
This can't be happening to me, it just can't be. Haven't I been through enough already? I can't handle this! Just when I thought my life was getting back to normal my mother goes into labour.
Ten days early. The doctor came to the house. He said it was fine. Ten days isn't that many. Mom insisted on having the baby in the room that is painted blue like that sky.
It was such a long labour. Almost 24 hours. It was so hard to watch her in so much pain.
Then about twenty three hours into the labour the worst happened. The umbilical cord was wrapped around the baby's neck. The doctor looked nervous.
Mom was very weak when the baby finally came out.
"It's a girl!" the doctor said.
He washed her off and wrapped her in a blue blanket. The blue matched the colour of her beautiful eyes.
Mom didn't look too good. The doctor gave the little girl to me and rushed to Mom's side. She screamed in terror.
"My baby!" she yelled. She kept on yelling until it was more like a whisper. It looked like she was having a sudden seizure. What was happening? What was going on?
"What's wrong!" I yelled. My little sister was now screaming at the top of her lungs. Her little face was bright red and her tiny hands were clenched into even tinier fists.
"She's stable," the doctor told me, "but she's very weak, I don't think she is going to make it through the night,"
My mother was going to die. This little girl wasn't going to ever know her mother. Or her father for that matter.
I brought my little sister into the bedroom and sat beside our mother's bed. She smiled at my weakly and closed her eyes.
"Take care.I'm going to the big playground in the sky," she said. She squeezed my hand and let go. She was gone. And I am alone now with a infant with bright blue away that match the sky. My little sister would be named Skye.
Those bright blue eyes. They look so familiar. Almost the same shade as Zack's..
January 10th
Christmas is over and it is now the new year. New Year's is supposed to be about having fun and new beginnings. There was no new beginning for me. Mom is still just as pregnant as she was before. The baby will be here in exactly four months.
On the bright side, Zack and I are closer than ever. He comes over every single day after school and talks to Mom until I get home from work. I keep telling him not to do this but he doesn't listen to me. Mom really seems to enjoy his company. She is alone all day because Wendy baby-sits her grandchildren away from the house. I want to stay home so much but I just can't. I decided to quit my night job. I just couldn't function anymore with two jobs. So now I'm working full time at McDonalds.
I'm getting some money from Dad every month. It's child support since I am his child and I'm still under eighteen. I went to him one day and told him I would take him to court if he didn't send us money every month. It didn't take much to persuade him. He's rich and too busy to have a lawsuit hovering over his head.
Mom is healthy enough. I really think everything is going to be okay. My life is slowing down, it is frantic and rushed all the time. I have spare time to hang out with Zack and I can still take care of Mom. She has changed so much since the last time I wrote. She sued to be childlike and confused now she is alert and acting more responsible. She knows she's going to have a baby and she told me she wanted to get a job to help me pay for food and rent but I refused. The last thing I need is for her to get stressed out and go back into her childlike state.
I still don't know what will happen when the baby is born. I am almost dreading that moment. Babies cost money and we are already stretched to the limit as it is. I bought Mom baby clothes and supplies for Christmas. That is the only thing I could get myself to spend money on that wasn't an absolute necessity.
Zack got us a stroller. A brand new one! I was so surprised. I couldn't believe he had realized that we needed baby things and anything else would be worthless to us right now. He is so sweet. I almost told him the stroller was too much but we really need it and I knew he would never take it back.
He told me his mother knows what has happened to me and the stroller was from her too. I was almost envious of Zack at that moment. His family was so perfect, his father would never abandon his family as selfishly as mine had.
Everything is going to okay from now on right? I can only hope.
February 25th
Everything is still going smoothly. I just got a raise at work, which is really going to help out. Wendy even lowered the rent by a hundred dollars a month. We are very good friends now. I don't know hat I would have done if I hadn't found her. But none of that, no what if's. Everything is going well and it's going to continue that way. I just know it will
March 11th
Just two more months left. Mom is huge and she mostly just lies around all the time. I try to get as much time off as possible but I need to keep making money so it's hard.
I'm a little worried about Mom being alone here when she's close to her due date and after the baby is born. I just don't know if she will be okay here by herself. I'm so worried all day at work that it's hard to concentrate.
Zack tried to get me to consider coming back to school after the baby is born but I just don't think that is possible. This is how it has to be until Mom can work again and the child can go to daycare. And by then, what is that point in going to school? I'll be twenty years old in classes full of sixteen year olds.
March 20th
You'll NEVER guess what happened!!!! Maxine (Zack's mother) told him he could invite Mom and I to live in La Vie!! That means I won't have to work anymore! And Mom will be free to stay home with the baby. I can't believe how generous she is. I think she knows how in love Zack and I are. She is so understanding.
We are going to more in tomorrow. I'll be sorry to leave Wendy but she said she is going to have her nephew move in because he's starting college next year.
Everything is working out. I'm so happy that I didn't give up. Nothing good ever came from giving up. Perseverance is then most important quality for anyone to have and I have proven that I have it.
I can't wait to move into La Vie!!
March 31st
We have settled into La Vie but there has been a terrible accident. Only two days after we go here Michael had a heart attack. He was in his late fifties, much too young to die. I know Zack, Maxine and Fred are devastated. The house is almost like a funeral home now. I almost feel like my coming here has caused this pain/ I know it isn't true but it's so hard not to think that way.
I try to comfort Zack and I have helped Maxine with all the funeral arrangements. I love them all very much for doing so much fro me, the least I can do is help them too.
Mom even helped Maxine get dressed for the funeral. She was having a really hard time. I thought she was going to collapse in the middle of the service. But she is a very strong woman; I can only pray that I turn out to be half the woman she is.
April 22nd
We are finally starting to get over Michael's death. None of us will ever forget him. He was a wonderful, generous caring man and I will forever be grateful for what he along with Maxine has done for me mother and I.
The due date is looming so near. Less than a month away. But I feel so much better about everything. We are going to fine thanks to Maxine.
Fred has been showing a lot of interest in my mother's well being. He asks about her every day and he sometimes visits her in her room. They seem to get along very well. Fred is just as sweet as Zack is and I'm very grateful for his kindness.
I can't wait to start school again in the fall. I have missed being a normal teenager so much. I'm just so happy that my life is going to get back to normal.
April 30th
Something very strange has happened. Mom refuses to speak to Zack anymore. It's like she has seen something in him or remembered something that she is afraid of. I can't understand what it could be. Zack is the perfect gentleman. He has never been anything but kind and compassionate towards her.
I hate to be suspicious but I'm started to think that Zack did something to her.
But what could it be?
May 1st
This can't be happening to me, it just can't be. Haven't I been through enough already? I can't handle this! Just when I thought my life was getting back to normal my mother goes into labour.
Ten days early. The doctor came to the house. He said it was fine. Ten days isn't that many. Mom insisted on having the baby in the room that is painted blue like that sky.
It was such a long labour. Almost 24 hours. It was so hard to watch her in so much pain.
Then about twenty three hours into the labour the worst happened. The umbilical cord was wrapped around the baby's neck. The doctor looked nervous.
Mom was very weak when the baby finally came out.
"It's a girl!" the doctor said.
He washed her off and wrapped her in a blue blanket. The blue matched the colour of her beautiful eyes.
Mom didn't look too good. The doctor gave the little girl to me and rushed to Mom's side. She screamed in terror.
"My baby!" she yelled. She kept on yelling until it was more like a whisper. It looked like she was having a sudden seizure. What was happening? What was going on?
"What's wrong!" I yelled. My little sister was now screaming at the top of her lungs. Her little face was bright red and her tiny hands were clenched into even tinier fists.
"She's stable," the doctor told me, "but she's very weak, I don't think she is going to make it through the night,"
My mother was going to die. This little girl wasn't going to ever know her mother. Or her father for that matter.
I brought my little sister into the bedroom and sat beside our mother's bed. She smiled at my weakly and closed her eyes.
"Take care.I'm going to the big playground in the sky," she said. She squeezed my hand and let go. She was gone. And I am alone now with a infant with bright blue away that match the sky. My little sister would be named Skye.
Those bright blue eyes. They look so familiar. Almost the same shade as Zack's..
