Chapter Eight
May 13th
Nothing is going the way it is supposed to be. My mother wasn't supposed to die. I can't take care of Skye all by myself; I just can't do it. I'm only seventeen.
Maxine has been helping me out a lot. She seems to have gotten over Michael. Skye has helped her she the bright parts of life again. She's a lot happier now. Zack tries to help me with Skye but she doesn't seem to feel comfortable with him because she always cries when he holds her. I can't imagine why, he's very gentle.
He's starting to give be a bad feeling lately. Sometimes I'm with Skye and Zack in the living room and I'll see Fred peek his head around the corner. It's like he is spying on us. But strangely enough I don't feel angry about it, I feel like he is just trying to protect me. From what, I don't know.
He couldn't be trying to protect me from his own brother could he?
I don't know. Everything is just all out of wack right now. I can't seem to feel safe or secure for any amount of time. Too many terrible tings have happened. I just couldn't stand it if anything happened to anyone else I love.
Mom's funeral was nice but very small. She didn't have many friends here since only a week after we moved here she was raped and cheated on by her husband. I feel like finding the person who did this to her and killing him with my bare hands. But I have no way of finding out who he is unless I somehow use Skye's DNA.
Anyway, Wendy came to the funeral and Zack, Maxine and Fred too. Dad even came. He barely even glanced at Skye and he left without saying goodbye. I really could care less what he does now. I told him to stop sending money. I don't want it anymore. I know Maxine will help me with everything I need for Skye.
I feel bad about taking so much from her but what else can I do?
I guess going back to school next year is out of the question. I'm back to square one.
May 23rd
I have started really talking to Fred lately. He seems really concerned about Skye and me. I appreciate his help with everything. Skye seems to like him a lot too. Zack has stopped helping me so much now that he realizes Skye doesn't like him.
I keep telling myself that everything is going to be fine, but I just don't know if that is true. I had the strangest conversation with Fred the other day. I was feeding Skye in my new room, the one with the sky blue walls when he came in.
He just sat on the bed and watched me silently for a little while.
"You look nice today Hannah," he said.
I smiled, "Thank you Fred,"
He is always complimenting me now too. Not that I don't enjoy it, since Zack is almost ignoring me these days.
"Was Skye a good girl while I was away?" he asked.
"She was a little angel, but I know she missed you," I said.
He looked genuinely happy to hear that.
"I'll take care of both of you Hannah. Zack is not who you think he is," then he got up and walked out of the room.
I know now that he knows something that I don't. Something about Zack. And I think it has to do with the reason Mom became so frightened of him a few weeks before Skye was born.
I have to find out what it is.
May 25th
Things have gone from bad to worse. I didn't think it was possible but it is. Zack is gone. He ran from the house late last night. I don't think he is coming back. Maxine won't believe what Fred and I have told her. She refuses to think any bad thoughts about her son. He is perfect in her eyes, even after what we have all learned to be true.
I went to Fred yesterday and asked him what he meant about Zack not being how I thought he was. It took a bit of prodding but I finally got it out of him. I can hardly believe it myself right now. It still feels like a dream. No, more like a nightmare.
The reason why my mother was afraid of Zack, the reason why Skye doesn't like him is Zack is the rapist. He is the one who attacked my mother on the street on her way home from a friends house that night so long ago.
I can't believe he is capable of something like that. He was always the perfect gentleman with me and no one ever warned me that he could be violent sometimes. That's because he never was violent. The rape was totally uncharacteristic. Even Fred, his own brother was surprised when he found out. My mother talked to Fred so much when we moved in here. She told him the Zack was the one who made her pregnant. But she had blocked the person's face out of her mind because of the traumatizing experience. Then when she finally realized whom her only daughter was dating, she kept it a secret because she didn't want to hurt me. She wasn't thinking straight, because she didn't even think of the possibility that Zack could do the same thing to me.
Skye must have felt her mother's fear while she was still in the womb and now she has the same fear.
I confronted Zack with Fred beside me that very same day and he denied it adamantly. Now I know why Skye's eyes are the same shade as his. They ARE his eyes.
He ran away from the house during the night, he didn't leave a note or anything. When we found him gone today we told Maxine the whole story. She was angry at first. She told me I was a liar, but she believed Fred who she trusted with her own life.
We have definitely hit rock bottom now. It can't get worse than this. Maybe I should be careful what I say because I didn't think it could get worse than my mother dying and it did. It really did.
June 1st
Skye is now one month old. It is hard to look at her and see those eyes that I despise. I have come to hate Zack in the late week. He isn't coming back, that I am sure of.
Maxine has accepted it. She doesn't hate her son but she refused to live her life waiting for him to come home. I admire her more and more every day.
She has met a man who I think she is falling in love with. He is a widower just like her. His wife died in childbirth just like my mom. He almost seems connected to our family in a way. His name is Gregory and he has twin boys, only a week old.
I thought it was way too soon for him to be dating. His wife died a week ago for goodness sakes but it isn't like they are getting married. They just enjoy each others company.
Okay, so maybe they aren't exactly dating but they are good friends. They knew each other before Michael died. It's obvious they are both lonely and Gregory needs a mother for the twins.
June 5th
Fred is a really great guy. I don't know why I never noticed it before. He spends all his free time with me and Skye. He takes my mind off all the bad things and helps me just enjoy myself for a little while instead of moping around all the time.
It isn't good for Skye to be around such negativity.
Now I actually hope Zack NEVER comes back. I'm afraid if he does he will take his daughter away from me.
We can't prove that my mother got pregnant as a result of rape. I'm the only one she told at the time and I'm biased. At least in the eyes of the law.
Skye has Zack's DNA but that can't prove she is a product of a rape.
I don't understand how something so perfect and beautiful could come from something so disgusting and violating.
I can already tell Skye is going to be stunningly beautiful. She has the same dark hair as me and her eyes sparkle so nicely. Especially when she sees Fred. He is the closest thing she has to a father right now.
Fred helps me so much. I don't know what I'd do without him.
June 30th
Maxine and Gregory have just been married. Hard to believe eh?
I think they bother just needed a companion. They really seem happy though.
Fred and I grow closer every day. I'm starting to love him the way I thought I loved Zack. I need Fred now and frankly, I don't like the way I rely on him. I relied on Zack and look what happened.
The twins are so cute, they look like little mini Gregory's.
I like Gregory very much. He is a kind, compassionate man who really knows the meaning of love. He spends so much time with his children. He isn't one of those rich guys who hires a nanny and goes on with their lives.
I really adore the twins too. I love to sit in the nursery with them and Skye and put on a puppet show or play with them. I'm so happy all the children are going to grow up together.
July 8th
Fred and I went out to dinner tonight. It was positively wonderful. He was such a gentleman the way he opened doors and pulled out my chair for me.
He slept in my bed with me. Not the same way as Zack. Zack just held me in his arms. Fred and I made love. He couldn't stop kissing me. I know he really loves me and I feel the same way. Nothing could ruin this feeling.
June 10th
Something has ruined it. I got a letter from Zack today. He just couldn't leave me alone could he? Here is what he said.
My dearest Hannah, I am so very sorry for what I did to your mother. It was wrong and I'm not going to try to rationalize it. I love you still and I want to come home. I want us to raise Skye together.
I realize you could refuse my request so here are your choices: you can marry me and we can be a family or I can take MY daughter where you will never, ever see her.
Love Always, Zack
He had to never to write love always.
I cannot marry that pig. I love Fred now. And I'd sooner kidnap Skye and spend my life on the run than give her up to him.
***A/N*** I revised the prologue a little bit, well a lot. I think it works better now. Anyway, thanks everyone who has reviewed! Keep reviewing and I'll keep writing!!
May 13th
Nothing is going the way it is supposed to be. My mother wasn't supposed to die. I can't take care of Skye all by myself; I just can't do it. I'm only seventeen.
Maxine has been helping me out a lot. She seems to have gotten over Michael. Skye has helped her she the bright parts of life again. She's a lot happier now. Zack tries to help me with Skye but she doesn't seem to feel comfortable with him because she always cries when he holds her. I can't imagine why, he's very gentle.
He's starting to give be a bad feeling lately. Sometimes I'm with Skye and Zack in the living room and I'll see Fred peek his head around the corner. It's like he is spying on us. But strangely enough I don't feel angry about it, I feel like he is just trying to protect me. From what, I don't know.
He couldn't be trying to protect me from his own brother could he?
I don't know. Everything is just all out of wack right now. I can't seem to feel safe or secure for any amount of time. Too many terrible tings have happened. I just couldn't stand it if anything happened to anyone else I love.
Mom's funeral was nice but very small. She didn't have many friends here since only a week after we moved here she was raped and cheated on by her husband. I feel like finding the person who did this to her and killing him with my bare hands. But I have no way of finding out who he is unless I somehow use Skye's DNA.
Anyway, Wendy came to the funeral and Zack, Maxine and Fred too. Dad even came. He barely even glanced at Skye and he left without saying goodbye. I really could care less what he does now. I told him to stop sending money. I don't want it anymore. I know Maxine will help me with everything I need for Skye.
I feel bad about taking so much from her but what else can I do?
I guess going back to school next year is out of the question. I'm back to square one.
May 23rd
I have started really talking to Fred lately. He seems really concerned about Skye and me. I appreciate his help with everything. Skye seems to like him a lot too. Zack has stopped helping me so much now that he realizes Skye doesn't like him.
I keep telling myself that everything is going to be fine, but I just don't know if that is true. I had the strangest conversation with Fred the other day. I was feeding Skye in my new room, the one with the sky blue walls when he came in.
He just sat on the bed and watched me silently for a little while.
"You look nice today Hannah," he said.
I smiled, "Thank you Fred,"
He is always complimenting me now too. Not that I don't enjoy it, since Zack is almost ignoring me these days.
"Was Skye a good girl while I was away?" he asked.
"She was a little angel, but I know she missed you," I said.
He looked genuinely happy to hear that.
"I'll take care of both of you Hannah. Zack is not who you think he is," then he got up and walked out of the room.
I know now that he knows something that I don't. Something about Zack. And I think it has to do with the reason Mom became so frightened of him a few weeks before Skye was born.
I have to find out what it is.
May 25th
Things have gone from bad to worse. I didn't think it was possible but it is. Zack is gone. He ran from the house late last night. I don't think he is coming back. Maxine won't believe what Fred and I have told her. She refuses to think any bad thoughts about her son. He is perfect in her eyes, even after what we have all learned to be true.
I went to Fred yesterday and asked him what he meant about Zack not being how I thought he was. It took a bit of prodding but I finally got it out of him. I can hardly believe it myself right now. It still feels like a dream. No, more like a nightmare.
The reason why my mother was afraid of Zack, the reason why Skye doesn't like him is Zack is the rapist. He is the one who attacked my mother on the street on her way home from a friends house that night so long ago.
I can't believe he is capable of something like that. He was always the perfect gentleman with me and no one ever warned me that he could be violent sometimes. That's because he never was violent. The rape was totally uncharacteristic. Even Fred, his own brother was surprised when he found out. My mother talked to Fred so much when we moved in here. She told him the Zack was the one who made her pregnant. But she had blocked the person's face out of her mind because of the traumatizing experience. Then when she finally realized whom her only daughter was dating, she kept it a secret because she didn't want to hurt me. She wasn't thinking straight, because she didn't even think of the possibility that Zack could do the same thing to me.
Skye must have felt her mother's fear while she was still in the womb and now she has the same fear.
I confronted Zack with Fred beside me that very same day and he denied it adamantly. Now I know why Skye's eyes are the same shade as his. They ARE his eyes.
He ran away from the house during the night, he didn't leave a note or anything. When we found him gone today we told Maxine the whole story. She was angry at first. She told me I was a liar, but she believed Fred who she trusted with her own life.
We have definitely hit rock bottom now. It can't get worse than this. Maybe I should be careful what I say because I didn't think it could get worse than my mother dying and it did. It really did.
June 1st
Skye is now one month old. It is hard to look at her and see those eyes that I despise. I have come to hate Zack in the late week. He isn't coming back, that I am sure of.
Maxine has accepted it. She doesn't hate her son but she refused to live her life waiting for him to come home. I admire her more and more every day.
She has met a man who I think she is falling in love with. He is a widower just like her. His wife died in childbirth just like my mom. He almost seems connected to our family in a way. His name is Gregory and he has twin boys, only a week old.
I thought it was way too soon for him to be dating. His wife died a week ago for goodness sakes but it isn't like they are getting married. They just enjoy each others company.
Okay, so maybe they aren't exactly dating but they are good friends. They knew each other before Michael died. It's obvious they are both lonely and Gregory needs a mother for the twins.
June 5th
Fred is a really great guy. I don't know why I never noticed it before. He spends all his free time with me and Skye. He takes my mind off all the bad things and helps me just enjoy myself for a little while instead of moping around all the time.
It isn't good for Skye to be around such negativity.
Now I actually hope Zack NEVER comes back. I'm afraid if he does he will take his daughter away from me.
We can't prove that my mother got pregnant as a result of rape. I'm the only one she told at the time and I'm biased. At least in the eyes of the law.
Skye has Zack's DNA but that can't prove she is a product of a rape.
I don't understand how something so perfect and beautiful could come from something so disgusting and violating.
I can already tell Skye is going to be stunningly beautiful. She has the same dark hair as me and her eyes sparkle so nicely. Especially when she sees Fred. He is the closest thing she has to a father right now.
Fred helps me so much. I don't know what I'd do without him.
June 30th
Maxine and Gregory have just been married. Hard to believe eh?
I think they bother just needed a companion. They really seem happy though.
Fred and I grow closer every day. I'm starting to love him the way I thought I loved Zack. I need Fred now and frankly, I don't like the way I rely on him. I relied on Zack and look what happened.
The twins are so cute, they look like little mini Gregory's.
I like Gregory very much. He is a kind, compassionate man who really knows the meaning of love. He spends so much time with his children. He isn't one of those rich guys who hires a nanny and goes on with their lives.
I really adore the twins too. I love to sit in the nursery with them and Skye and put on a puppet show or play with them. I'm so happy all the children are going to grow up together.
July 8th
Fred and I went out to dinner tonight. It was positively wonderful. He was such a gentleman the way he opened doors and pulled out my chair for me.
He slept in my bed with me. Not the same way as Zack. Zack just held me in his arms. Fred and I made love. He couldn't stop kissing me. I know he really loves me and I feel the same way. Nothing could ruin this feeling.
June 10th
Something has ruined it. I got a letter from Zack today. He just couldn't leave me alone could he? Here is what he said.
My dearest Hannah, I am so very sorry for what I did to your mother. It was wrong and I'm not going to try to rationalize it. I love you still and I want to come home. I want us to raise Skye together.
I realize you could refuse my request so here are your choices: you can marry me and we can be a family or I can take MY daughter where you will never, ever see her.
Love Always, Zack
He had to never to write love always.
I cannot marry that pig. I love Fred now. And I'd sooner kidnap Skye and spend my life on the run than give her up to him.
***A/N*** I revised the prologue a little bit, well a lot. I think it works better now. Anyway, thanks everyone who has reviewed! Keep reviewing and I'll keep writing!!
