Mine

Name: Laura Isaac

E-mail: laura_isaac@hotmail.com

Rating: PG for f/f lurvin'

Distribution: Anyone who wants it, but please tell me where you put it so my ego can be massaged!

Disclaimer: I own none of these character, they belong to Joss (god), 20th Century Fox and Mutant Enemy "grr arrgghh!!"

Summary: Willow thinks about Tara and what she means to her

Dedication: To Amanda Marie Richmond - I still believe in what we had - love always.....

With every breath I take, I love her.....

I love everything she is, everything she was, everything she will be. I brought her out of myself and she did the same to me. I never thought I could feel like - ever, but she proved me wrong. Trying to put into words, coheirent sentences just how much she means to me is useless, she is my world, my reason for living.

I thought I'd found my soul mate when I met Oz, Oz was the first person after Buffy to love me for who I was, bypassing all my faults and my insecurity and loving me for what I had inside, my whole life revolved around Daniel Osbourne. I went through so much with him and when he left without so much as one word I went to pieces, I shattered like glass, it felt my heart had been ripped out and stamped on a few thousand times on the floor, - then she walked into my life.

She - with the blondest hair that glittered like the sun, the bluest eyes I had ever seen in my life and the smile that could reduce me to nothing but a puddle at her feet - Tara. From the moment our eyes locked, I knew there was no one else for me. I wasn't looking for love until it took me by surprise, hit me right between the eyes and I fell so hard, so deep, so fast.

I spent many a night before I knew her true feelings trying to rationalise in my head why I felt the way I did for her, the way my body reacted the way it did when she was near, the way it was always her name on my lips in my most private of moments of sweet surrender. But in the end it felt so right and it was meant to be, I nature take its course and time and time again it always leads me back to her.

Sometimes I just lay awake at night and thank every deity that I know that we are together, she is my best friend as well as my soul mate and she like Oz, loves me for all that I am, all that makes me me. Only this time its different, she loves me beyond all that I am, loves everything I am, ever was and everytihng I hope to become with her. She makes me stronger as a person, there isn't anything we can't do when our essences are combined.

Now everytime we meet, everytime we touch, everytime we make love I feel our connection, like we are one, I feel her absolute trust and devotion I, myself lay my mind, body and soul bare to her each and every night. She is my every waking thought, the only name on my lips, her name is carved on my soul and it belongs to her, and I gave it freely and I keep hers with loyalty and pure and utter love - she's mine as I am hers always....