Chapter 2 - "Missunderstandings"
When I wake up the next morning I find myself still lying in Marron's arms. She's so near to me, that I can even feel her breath upon my face, it's like medicine for my swollen cheek. (*lol*) Her hair smells so good.like vanilla, and I feel the urge to kiss her soft lips. Being in trance I'm lying beside her and look at her beautiful features, when she suddenly opens her eyes and smiles at me. "Good morning Miya." her sentence is disturbed by a long yawn. "Miyako I wanted to say." She finishes it grinning. While I'm still lying there with my eyes never leaving her face, she slowly sits up. "Morning Marron" is my reply and I turn around so that I'm lying on my back. She's sitting there for a few moments, then climbs across me and out of bed. "I'll make breakfast now, you can help me if you want!" She says and gives me one of her sweetest smiles, again. Dreamily I watch her going out of the room and decide then, after I've put on my clothes, to help her preparing breakfast. As I enter the kitchen, a plentiful layed table catches my eye. "Boy, Chiaki's got a lot of food at home!" I say stunned while he's walking into the room sleepily and greets Marron and me with a weary 'Hello'. "So, how did you guys sleep? Was the couch comfortable enough?" he asks yawning. The sudden memory of Marron cuddling up to me makes me blush unwillingly. "It was great! Pretty comfortable, wasn't it, Miyako?" Marron replies and smiles at me. I try to return it as good as possible while I'm standing there dumbfounded. 'Shit!' I think, ' as soon as she looks at me I can't say a word and have to blush so heavily that I look like a tomato! ' Chiaki interrupts my thoughts by asking me if everything's alright with me. Nodding I sit down at the table just like they do, after they've looked at each other and shrugged. And with my nervousness still being there we start to eat.
After finishing breakfast, Marron and I help Chiaki doing the washing up. Because today is Sunday we don't have school. I'm wondering if Marron's going to go to school tomorrow, after all it's the middle of the school year and she hasn't spoken about it yet. With the loud bang of the door I startle, just to realize that Chiaki has left the apartment.and that I'm alone with Marron. I swallow nervously and sit down onto the couch, while she's coming into the room, too. The whole time I have to think about last night and I don't know what to say every time she's talking to me. For six months I haven't heard anything from her and should be over her, and now? She's here for one day and I already sweat as soon as I hear her breathing. There's really no help left for me. I shake my head and notice Marron who has just sat beside of me, looking at me with concern in her eyes. "Are you sure that you're alright, Miyako? You're acting a bit strange since this morning!" I look up shocked. "Ehm.what do you mean? Of course I'm alright!" I try to calm her down, but as I have to see it doesn't work. "Well, I mean.I can understand that you are sad after all that happened with your dad yesterday.but I get the feeling that." She makes a break and I still have no clue what she wants to tell me. "That.?" I try to make her go on with the sentence. ".that maybe it's because of me." Her last words were just a whisper but I've understood them very well. Her gaze persists on the ground and I have no idea what to reply. Marron is right with her assumption, but I can't just say that it's all because I get butterflies in my stomach every time I think of her. Although I want to tell her my feelings.but how would she react? For her I'm "just" her best friend, not more.but I.I'm not sure if I can stand that any longer. My own feelings stand in the way of our friendship. So either I tell her or not! But how??
I was so sunk in my thoughts that I haven't even noticed how she's stood up. My gaze wanders up her body and comes to a halt at her eyes.and at her tears. 'She's crying." Still completely stiffened I'm sitting there and watch her without saying a word. ".I understand." is all that I hear from her before she quickly walks away from me and out of Chiaki's apartment. "Marron, WAIT!!" As fast as possible I run after her but as I reach the front door she's already disappeared in the elevator. "Shit!! Why can't I just answer a question normally for once!! Damn!!" I've never been so mad at me. The most important person in my life got hurt by me only because I'm too stupid to speak! "She surely thinks that I hate her now." I sigh. "I have to go and find her. It's raining and she has no umbrella with her.I just hope she's alright.and hopefully I can set things right."
When I wake up the next morning I find myself still lying in Marron's arms. She's so near to me, that I can even feel her breath upon my face, it's like medicine for my swollen cheek. (*lol*) Her hair smells so good.like vanilla, and I feel the urge to kiss her soft lips. Being in trance I'm lying beside her and look at her beautiful features, when she suddenly opens her eyes and smiles at me. "Good morning Miya." her sentence is disturbed by a long yawn. "Miyako I wanted to say." She finishes it grinning. While I'm still lying there with my eyes never leaving her face, she slowly sits up. "Morning Marron" is my reply and I turn around so that I'm lying on my back. She's sitting there for a few moments, then climbs across me and out of bed. "I'll make breakfast now, you can help me if you want!" She says and gives me one of her sweetest smiles, again. Dreamily I watch her going out of the room and decide then, after I've put on my clothes, to help her preparing breakfast. As I enter the kitchen, a plentiful layed table catches my eye. "Boy, Chiaki's got a lot of food at home!" I say stunned while he's walking into the room sleepily and greets Marron and me with a weary 'Hello'. "So, how did you guys sleep? Was the couch comfortable enough?" he asks yawning. The sudden memory of Marron cuddling up to me makes me blush unwillingly. "It was great! Pretty comfortable, wasn't it, Miyako?" Marron replies and smiles at me. I try to return it as good as possible while I'm standing there dumbfounded. 'Shit!' I think, ' as soon as she looks at me I can't say a word and have to blush so heavily that I look like a tomato! ' Chiaki interrupts my thoughts by asking me if everything's alright with me. Nodding I sit down at the table just like they do, after they've looked at each other and shrugged. And with my nervousness still being there we start to eat.
After finishing breakfast, Marron and I help Chiaki doing the washing up. Because today is Sunday we don't have school. I'm wondering if Marron's going to go to school tomorrow, after all it's the middle of the school year and she hasn't spoken about it yet. With the loud bang of the door I startle, just to realize that Chiaki has left the apartment.and that I'm alone with Marron. I swallow nervously and sit down onto the couch, while she's coming into the room, too. The whole time I have to think about last night and I don't know what to say every time she's talking to me. For six months I haven't heard anything from her and should be over her, and now? She's here for one day and I already sweat as soon as I hear her breathing. There's really no help left for me. I shake my head and notice Marron who has just sat beside of me, looking at me with concern in her eyes. "Are you sure that you're alright, Miyako? You're acting a bit strange since this morning!" I look up shocked. "Ehm.what do you mean? Of course I'm alright!" I try to calm her down, but as I have to see it doesn't work. "Well, I mean.I can understand that you are sad after all that happened with your dad yesterday.but I get the feeling that." She makes a break and I still have no clue what she wants to tell me. "That.?" I try to make her go on with the sentence. ".that maybe it's because of me." Her last words were just a whisper but I've understood them very well. Her gaze persists on the ground and I have no idea what to reply. Marron is right with her assumption, but I can't just say that it's all because I get butterflies in my stomach every time I think of her. Although I want to tell her my feelings.but how would she react? For her I'm "just" her best friend, not more.but I.I'm not sure if I can stand that any longer. My own feelings stand in the way of our friendship. So either I tell her or not! But how??
I was so sunk in my thoughts that I haven't even noticed how she's stood up. My gaze wanders up her body and comes to a halt at her eyes.and at her tears. 'She's crying." Still completely stiffened I'm sitting there and watch her without saying a word. ".I understand." is all that I hear from her before she quickly walks away from me and out of Chiaki's apartment. "Marron, WAIT!!" As fast as possible I run after her but as I reach the front door she's already disappeared in the elevator. "Shit!! Why can't I just answer a question normally for once!! Damn!!" I've never been so mad at me. The most important person in my life got hurt by me only because I'm too stupid to speak! "She surely thinks that I hate her now." I sigh. "I have to go and find her. It's raining and she has no umbrella with her.I just hope she's alright.and hopefully I can set things right."
