Author: Jackiwi
Disclaimer: Stargate SG1 is not mine. This story was my own creation using
the characters that belong to MGM, Double secret and GEKKO. Please do not
achieve this story anywhere without my permission.
Note: This is a kinda follow on from 'Just sitting here'. I didn't write it
with the intention to be, but I think it fits in nicely. You'll notice the
sunset theme continues. What can I say, I just get caught up in their
beauty, and the inspiration flows! Enjoy the story!
Sundown
Have you ever had one of those days? Have you ever been in one of those moods? The kind when you just sit and think, and no matter what you do you can't stop yourself from thinking. Sometimes thinking is a good thing, but other times its not. And it's the latter that you have to watch out for, coz you often find out more about yourself than you wanted to know. Dig deeper than the safe comfortable levels on the surface.
Most of the time, all that swims around my mind is nonsense. Meaningless thoughts that just come and go, but all the time remain light and easy. But then sometimes you get that feeling, usually something will spark it off, but it's a feeling that you need to look past those meaningless thoughts and find some answers.
Sundown is my spark. Sundown alone. I can't give a name to the feeling, I'm not even sure I can call it one feeling. Something inside just.hurts. Its not a physical pain, maybe it wouldn't be such agony if it were. Its like there's a hole that someone or something needs to fill. I look into the sinking sun and all I think is, 'there goes another day'. Its like I have no control over my life, no matter what I do, the sun will rise and fall, the earth keeps turning and the world goes on. But I want to stop it. I want that perfect moment, and I want it to last.
So this is my perfect moment. The sun half swallowed by the even horizon, the birds happily singing as they find their nests high up in the tree's or fly overhead in the blue/grey/pink/golden sky, and then there's us. Two insignificant people in a huge world. But I don't care about that, and I don't care about the rules anymore. Sometimes we find happiness in the last place we'd think to look. I found it with him, and I'm not letting it go.
So if the sun goes down on me tonight, and never rises again, I'll know that, at least for a little while, I had him. And I felt whole.
Sundown
Have you ever had one of those days? Have you ever been in one of those moods? The kind when you just sit and think, and no matter what you do you can't stop yourself from thinking. Sometimes thinking is a good thing, but other times its not. And it's the latter that you have to watch out for, coz you often find out more about yourself than you wanted to know. Dig deeper than the safe comfortable levels on the surface.
Most of the time, all that swims around my mind is nonsense. Meaningless thoughts that just come and go, but all the time remain light and easy. But then sometimes you get that feeling, usually something will spark it off, but it's a feeling that you need to look past those meaningless thoughts and find some answers.
Sundown is my spark. Sundown alone. I can't give a name to the feeling, I'm not even sure I can call it one feeling. Something inside just.hurts. Its not a physical pain, maybe it wouldn't be such agony if it were. Its like there's a hole that someone or something needs to fill. I look into the sinking sun and all I think is, 'there goes another day'. Its like I have no control over my life, no matter what I do, the sun will rise and fall, the earth keeps turning and the world goes on. But I want to stop it. I want that perfect moment, and I want it to last.
So this is my perfect moment. The sun half swallowed by the even horizon, the birds happily singing as they find their nests high up in the tree's or fly overhead in the blue/grey/pink/golden sky, and then there's us. Two insignificant people in a huge world. But I don't care about that, and I don't care about the rules anymore. Sometimes we find happiness in the last place we'd think to look. I found it with him, and I'm not letting it go.
So if the sun goes down on me tonight, and never rises again, I'll know that, at least for a little while, I had him. And I felt whole.
