Chap. 12: "England, problems"
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Author's note: Here I am again and you guys are probably going to kill me at the end of this chapter but I couldn't help it LOL. I hope you enjoy, I really, really do a lot a lot a lot Hahaha thank you for all the reviews!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *
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Tomoyo rushed to her door with Chiharu and the others when their butler opened her door, she gasped looking at the figure getting out of the limo. "Sakura!" she exclaimed making her friend look up and brighten.
"Tomoyo, guys" Sakura gasped. She and Tomoyo engulfed each other in a tight hug laughing, "Rika, Naoko, Chiharu" she hugged each of her other friends as they looked her over.
"Oh look at you, you look great Sakura even with a belly" Rika teased making her laugh. "Tomoyo told us you were having boys, how wonderful"
"Thank you, you have so much to tell me about New York. How was it, did you guys get chosen?" Sakura blurted making them smile seeing that she had returned to normal. They looked at Syaoran and all but Tomoyo glared coldly at him before dragging Sakura off to the living room. Syaoran looked at their retreating backs and sweat drop shaking his head.
"Well if it isn't the married one" Mika teased walking up to Syaoran with the guys as he looked for Jamie. "Where's Jamie?"
"He couldn't make it, he's really sick" Syaoran answered making him nod. "Will you stop staring at me dammit" he groaned making them laugh.
"Sure, come on let's go to Eriol's office since as they've taken over the living area" Alex said making him nod.
"The bags go the Li room," Eriol said making Syaoran look at him. "Oh I'm sorry to say but we kind of have too much people staying here so you and Sakura will have to share a room if that's okay with you" Syaoran looked at Eriol wondering if he really had too many people.
"It's up to her" he shrugged making him nod walking off to his office with them following behind. He knew that they would probably end up sleeping in the same room cause his parents were going to arrive later in the week. *
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"Guys will you stop staring at me?" she begged making her friends smile sheepishly. Sakura looked around the house thinking it was beautiful just like the home she lived in but Tomoyo and Eriol was in love so this house felt better.
"Sorry, we just haven't seen you in so long" Naoko apologized looking down briefly with a smile on her face. "We all got a spot in the company" she announced making Sakura gasp. They didn't know how she would take it and they were glad to see that she looked happy.
"That's great, so you guys are going to move over there?" she asked making them nod except for Chiharu. "Aren't you Chiharu?"
"Naw, I'm going to go back home. I'm just glad to know that I was chosen, my parents need me and I was chosen to dance at one of the best company in Tokyo too" she answered making Sakura nod. She had always dreamed of being chosen for a company and she felt a little jealous of her friends.
"So how's being married to the beast?" Rika asked making Sakura look down. She hadn't said much to him after the night her brought her to the carnival, he didn't need her in his life when he loved Gwen.
"It's fine, better then I would have thought" she finally answered making them look at her in worry. "I'm sure, he isn't all that bad and he leaves me alone" she continued telling them the truth. "It's like we're not even married"
"And you are fine with that?" Naoko inquired as Tomoyo looked at her. She figured that Sakura was probably tired after the long and tiring flight.
"I don't know, it confusing" Sakura mumbled looking at them. And they could have sworn she looked lost and alone like she did when she lost Sakuya and that was a very scary thing.
"Sakura's probably tired from the long flight. Why don't you shower and rest up a bit ay?" Tomoyo said rescuing her. She knew that Sakura would tell them all they needed to know when she was feeling up to it.
"Yeah Tomoyo's right, I mean all the way from Hong Kong to here" Chiharu nodded making Sakura smile standing up. "Good luck finding your room, this place is like a fortress" she joked making them laugh.
"I'll show you to the room, I'll be back" Tomoyo said making them nod. When they were out of the room Rika and the others looked at each other in worry.
"When do you think it'll start to happen?" Chiharu asked Rika who looked down shaking her head.
"I don't know, I don't even think she told him about her sister. I really doubt it, it's about a month away, she won't start having nightmares until two weeks before the most" Rika answered clasping her hands together. "I would still have nightmares too if I saw my sister like that"
"Yeah I know, hopefully he'll comfort her" Naoko whispered so only they could hear. *
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* Tomoyo.
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She looked at Sakura who was sitting on the bed, "Have you told him?" she asked softly making Sakura look up and smile sadly.
"I don't think he should know, do you?" Sakura asked making Tomoyo frown. She knew that her friend was just worried about her but there was no need to be, "I'm over that now, it won't happen this year"
"How are you so sure and what if he sees the pictures around the house. What do I tell him?" Tomoyo asked sitting beside her best friend.
"Tell him to ask me, I doubt he'll be able to tell us apart" Sakura smiled making her nod. "You know what they say about people who can tell the twins apart"
"That you should marry him" Tomoyo smiled making her nod growing sadder by the minute.
"He can't tell us apart," she whispered growing teary eyes. She felt so bad inside, and like her life was worth nothing at all.
"What's the matter Sakura, tell me what happened" Tomoyo pleaded when she started to cry real tears.
"Tomoyo I love him, and it hurts so badly cause I know that he loves Gwen more than anything. When we went to the carnival we kissed and it felt so good but it didn't have any meaning to him" Tomoyo gasped he kissed her when he wouldn't even touch her when they got married? She hugged Sakura to her so she could cry out her tears freely. "I know that I'm not in a marriage but when he's nice I don't want to leave him"
"We'll figure out something, we will" Tomoyo whispered rocking her back and forth praying to get some help. She didn't know kind of advice to give Sakura, what if she told her to leave him and he loved her? *
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* He looked around the office when something caught his eyes; since he had been in this room all they had been doing was asking him questions. "Hey, how come there's two Sakura's in this picture?" she asked picking it up, one was wearing a cheerleading uniform and the other a field hockey one.
"What do you mean?" Takashi asked looking at him oddly, he looked at the picture Syaoran showed him and frowned. "That's not two Sakura's, that's Sakura's twin sister Sakuya in the cheerleading uniform" Syaoran looked at him in disbelief now understanding why Sakura had all those pictures of her self in her room.
"You didn't know?" Eriol asked looking at Syaoran's shocked face. He thought it was odd that Sakura hadn't told him about her sister but then again maybe it was too painful.
"No I was only under the impression that her father was the only twin," he answered looking at the picture again, looking closer at them he could clearly see which one was his Sakura. "They don't look that much a lot, Sakura's prettier" he commented making them sweat drop.
"They are identical twins, there's another picture over there look at it and tell us which one is Sakura" Eriol said making him place it down and walked over to it. Syaoran picked it up and looked at the two of them along with Tomoyo when they were younger.
"The one on the right" he said making Eriol walk over and look at it. When he had first seen the pictures he wasn't able to tell but he had memorized them, "So is she coming to the wedding?" he took a drink of his Brandy waiting for them to answer.
"You're right" Eriol muttered placing it back down. He looked into his drink walking back over to his desk.
"She's dead" Takashi spoke sadly making Syaoran look at him. "I take it you didn't know that either" he mused seeing him shake his head. "She died about two years ago, the anniversary is coming up in August I believe" he sighed looking down.
"How did she die?" Syaoran asked when the door opened and Tomoyo walked in frowning.
"If you want to know, she'll have to tell you that" she spoke seeing him holding one of her many pictures. "Your room, is five doors down on the right side after you turn left" she spoke making him nod. "Eriol I would like to speak with in private"
"Sure, I'll be back" Eriol said making them nod watching him go.
"I'm going to go up and shower, I'll see ya'll later" and they watched Syaoran leave. They sighed sinking into the chairs they were sitting in.
"Those two are weird, I wonder if that is how you get after you marry?" Mika asked making them gulp. They didn't want to get that weird after marriage and they hoped it was only with Syaoran and Eriol.
"So right, I wonder what we're going to do tonight. All us guys should go out or something" Alex said making them nod wondering where would be a hot place to go in England. *
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* "Well did he say anything?" she asked Eriol in the library, she glanced at a picture of her and everyone including Sakuya when they were younger and sighed.
"Nothing, he seems a bit confused and not cynical like he was before they got married," he answered making her frown. "He seemed rather reluctant to say anything at all if you ask me" he commented making her nod.
"Sakura cried her eyes out, I hope you don't mind me saying but I think she should divorce him right after the boys are born and leave. I haven't seen her cry so much from Sakuya died. I don't like it one bit he has no right" Tomoyo stated angrily making Eriol sit down. She wanted nothing more then to tell Li Syaoran to go to hell and leave Sakura and her babies alone.
"He could tell them apart" Eriol stated making her looked at him with a lost expression. He smiled seeing that she hadn't a clue what he was talking about and this was a first. "He could tell Sakura and Sakuya apart without any difficulty"
"Are you joking?" she gasped making him grin shaking his head. "Maybe Sakura told him she played field hockey or something"
"No I made him look at a picture with them dressed the same and he picked her out again. And do you want to know what he said?" he mused making her shake her head vigorously. "He said they looked nothing alike and Sakura was prettier" Tomoyo laughed shaking her head. "Which is a load of crap because they are identical twins" she chocked back a horrified giggle her hands flying to her mouth.
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* He walked into the room he and Sakura would be sharing making sure to be quiet seeing that she was asleep. He wondered why she hadn't told him she was twin but then again she didn't have to since he never told her anything. Their marriage was only something that both of them gained from. "Yeah something that we both gained from" he whispered going to the bathroom.
Things were becoming so very confusing to him, he couldn't stop thinking about Sakura but then he loved Gwen. He was doing this for Gwen, he was hurting Sakura's pride for Gwen. *
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She opened her eyes hearing movement in the room only to see a shirt less Syaoran in the bathroom shaving. She lay where she was and watched him; it was probably night out now since when they had arrived it was just after sunset. Looking at the clock she saw that she hadn't slept long at all only about an hour. He finished up and used the towel to wipe his face before putting on after-shave then he turned only to see her looking at him. "Hey, did Tomoyo tell you that we have to share that room?" he asked making her nod. "If you don't want to I can always sleep on the sofa"
"No we can share, it's a large bed" she replied making him nod walking over to his suitcase that was open. She sat up and get out of bed trying her best not to stare at him. She remembered the last time she saw him without a shirt and that was at the party.
"Okay, the guys just told me that they are going out so I'll be going with them okay?" he said making her nod walking over to the bathroom. She didn't see why he had to tell her where he was going.
"Okay" she said in the bathroom as she inhaled his masculine scent, she looked at the cologne that her wore. "Xeryus Rouge by Givenchy" (That smells so freaking good) she whispered inhaling.
"What's the matter?" Syaoran asked the door making her jump. "Sorry didn't mean to scare you" Sakura placed her hand over heart looking at him. He looked gorgeous if that was the right word to use.
"Nothing, where are you guys going?" she asked absently walking back into the bedroom to get her toiletries. She looked at her dress that was hanging on the closet door along with his hang bag. She opened her large suitcase trying to busy her self and not think about him.
"I have no clue, probably to a club or somewhere I doubt Eriol belongs to a gentlemen's club" he answered making her shake her head in agreement. She took out all she would need and stood up.
"Oh that's nice, I guess I'll be seeing you tomorrow morning" she spoke softly making him look at her oddly. Since the night they had gone to carnival she had been acting weird but maybe it was because of her pregnancy.
"Yeah see you tomorrow morning then" he sighed heading for the door. Sakura looked at it when it closed and bit her lip walking to the bathroom. It was better if she played detached then anything else.
"Sakuya why can't he love me like Gwen?" she whispered painfully heading to the bathroom. *
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* "Is it me or is going to a bar not as fun as it used to be?" Mika commented dryly making everyone except Syaoran nod. "Hey Xiao Lang what's the matter with you?" he asked seeing that Syaoran wasn't paying attention to him.
"I think he's been trying to ignore black hair woman who's been flirting with him since we arrive" Eriol answered making Mika slyly look and sure enough she was flirting with him.
"Hey she's a beauty" he spoke making them nod looking at Syaoran who didn't seem interested. "But you know Li always into the light hair ones" he joked making them laugh.
"Eriol are there any good café's around here?" he asked out of the blue making him nod everyone looking at him oddly.
"Xiao Lang?" Alex said making him look at him, "Are you sick?" Takashi and the others couldn't help but laugh. "Man I mean it, you don't seem like your self"
"Yeah he's right, you seem a little distracted. Are you in the mood for ice cream or something?" Takashi asked having heard him ask about a café. They were worried about him, they were in a club that was packed with woman and he wasn't even looking at any of them. They were starting to wonder if he was falling in love with Sakura, or maybe starting to feel guilty.
"No it's Sakura, she seemed a little moody. In Hong Kong I always got her something from a café that always lightened her mood" he answered making them nod. "You know pregnant woman and mood swings"
"Oh" they all nodded in understanding not understanding. They looked up when woman walked over to them smiling brightly.
"Hi I'm Maria, would you like to dance?" she asked smiling she was speaking directly to Syaoran who looked at her. His mind told him to take her offer but why couldn't he? He told him self that he didn't because of Gwen.
"No" he answered going to pick up his drink when she saw his ring and nodded in understanding.
"I didn't know you were married I assumed you were single I'm sorry" she apologized before walking off. Syaoran's drink stopped half way to his mouth and he watched her leave with a blank expression.
"Did she just say that she didn't know I was married?" he asked making him friends nod. "That's a first, no one else seemed to mind that I was married" he said taking a gulp of his beer.
"Xiao Lang can I ask you something?" Eriol said making him nod looking around the place they were in. "Do you love Sakura?" it seemed like everything came to a halt.
"What kind of question if that? You of all person should know that I love Gwen and shouldn't be asking me that" he answered making Eriol frown nodding. He sounded so sure that he almost believed him self.
"Don't you think you should let her know that you don't love her, so she doesn't fall in love with you?" Takashi inquired tightly. He didn't like the fact that he was leading Sakura on and making her fall in love with him. He had grown up with Sakura and her sister and he knew how bad she took it when she lost someone she loved.
"I have my reasons for doing this, I need to get the company in my name. She'll get over it" he replied with no emotion making his friend wince. He sounded so unbelievably cold just now that they couldn't believe it was he.
"Oh let's hope she'll get over it. She's someone who's experience loss too much first her mother then father and two years ago Sakuya. Since as we're obviously not enjoying ourselves we might as leave" Eriol sighed taking money out to pay for the bill. *
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* Sakura sat on the floor and watched as her friend's dance, she knew that she should have been in bed by now but she was up with them as they waited for their boy friends to return. "Yay" she beamed wishing she could be up there too. They were in the hall right in front of the door dancing with the helpers standing about.
Tomoyo laughed moving along with Rika and the others to a very familiar tone. She looked at the clock and wondered where Eriol was, she trusted him but she didn't trust Syaoran and Eriol said he would keep an eye on him. They stopped and looked at the door when it opened and everyone but Syaoran walked in. Tomoyo looked at Sakura only to see her face drop. "You guys are back early" Rika said when they closed to door.
"It was no fun staying out," Mika answered pulling Naoko close to him making her laugh. "Shouldn't you ladies be in bed?"
"I think they were waiting up for us," Alex teased making them look guilty. "So we're home now to bed or you want to dance for us a little longer?"
"We'll dance a little longer," Rika answered giving a sweet kiss.
"Hey Sakura where you going?" Chiharu asked knowing she was probably hurting because Syaoran wasn't with them.
"To bed I'm tired" Sakura answered with a wave turning for the stairs. "I didn't get much sleep earlier today" she called walking slowly up the steps when she disappeared the girls turned to the guys.
"He didn't want to come with us, he'll be here soon though" Eriol assured making Tomoyo scowl. "He didn't go home with a girl, actually he turned her down" he mused but that didn't make her feel any better. "Um I think he's getting soft, he should arrive any minute now"
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* She changed into her nightgown and get into bed as she let her hair down brushing it out. "No tears" she whispered but her mind would race and try to think of how this girl looked. The only light on in the room was that on her nightstand, she felt really empty. She looked up at the door when it opened slowly and Syaoran walked in carrying a package in his hand. Okay she was shocked, what was he doing here?
"I thought you had fallen asleep" he said closing the door behind him. He looked at the way her hair flowed down like a waterfall around her. "It's good that you aren't sleeping"
"Why?" she asked trying to hide the fact that she was relieved he was here and not in someone's bed.
"Because I went to the video store and found this, and I got this for you, since as they always seemed to brighten your mood" he said tossing a DVD at her then took out the small container of her favorite ice cream.
"Card Captors and ice cream?" she smiled looking at the DVD then at him. She felt oddly special that he had thought about her, she lied, she felt really special. "I thought you hated it because he didn't get the cards?" she smiled getting out of bed to put it in.
"I guess I can survive watching it" he replied unbuttoning his shirt. Sakura kept her eyes to the television and not at him as she tried to get it going. "I don't think Eriol and the others will be going out any more"
"Why?" she saw him head to the bathroom to change and she sighed trying to get her face to cool down, 'you pervert' she thought shaking her head.
"Cause it wasn't as fun as it usually was," he answered when he came out change in pajamas. Sakura nodded walking over to the bed followed by him, as usual he got a large one so they could share.
"Do you think it'll be as good as the one in Hong Kong?" she asked pressing play, he shrugged.
"Let's hope so Eriol said it was the best and I had to beg the guy to let me in cause he was closing" Sakura laughed looking at him sheepishly. "I wanted to get you it so I bribed him"
"Oh my," she smiled making him nod as they got under the covers. Tonight they would be sharing a bed for the first time, the night when they slept together didn't count cause they were drunk. She didn't know how she was going to survive; she had never slept with anyone but her sister. They settled back and started to watch the second movie eating their ice cream. *
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* Sakura started to stir when there was a knock on the door, "Ya'll wake up" Tomoyo voice sounded. She tried to move but felt her self stuck; opening her eyes she saw that her face was inches from Syaoran's.
"Uh oh" she whispered seeing that she couldn't move because he had a good grip around her waist. What was she going to do now; her head was on his shoulder and her leg! She slowly moved her leg from between his fighting down the blush that was creeping unto her cheeks. "Syaoran ugh" she felt sick in her stomach, she felt like she was going to throw up she shouldn't have eaten that ice cream last night. "Hey Syaoran" she begged feeling nauseated.
"What?" he whispered tightening his hold on her; she wondered if he thought she was Gwen. "Sakura, what's the matter?" okay that answered her question.
"If you don't let me out I'm going to throw up on you" she pleaded making him snap awake. He looked at her then looked at his hand that was wrapped around her waist and quickly let go.
"I'm sorry" he apologized when Sakura scooted over him and rushed to the bathroom slamming the door shut. He groaned getting up wondering if he had called her Gwen. She didn't feel like Gwen at all in his arms but he didn't know if he could have mumbled something in his sleep. Getting out of bed he ran his hand through his hair and knocked on the door only to see that it was open. "Are you okay?"
"No" she got out losing her stomach. He walked over to her and moved her hair out of the way, hoping she would stop soon. Sakura rested her head on her arm trying to get over just losing her stomach. "I feel like shit" she mumbled miserably and hating the fact that he was right beside her as she threw up he was probably disgusted.
"Come on get up, you'll feel better after you've eaten something healthy" Syaoran said helping her and over to the sink.
"Thank you, I think I'm going to shower"
"Okay' he walked out of the bathroom and closed the door as Sakura washed her mouth out and got her tooth brush. *
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"What do you think is taking those two so long?" Naoko asked sitting at the table as everyone ate breakfast.
"No clue, Syaoran always got up early they must have stayed up all night" Alex shrugged making them all think about it but they dismissed that thought.
"Oh we're Hentais" Chiharu gasped making them start to laugh agreeing with her. They couldn't believe they had just thought that and about Syaoran and Sakura of all people.
"That's good one, she probably made him sleep on the floor or sofa" Tomoyo pointed out making them nod. They couldn't see those two sleeping the same bed it just seemed so ridiculous. They looked at the entrance to the dinning when Sakura and Syaoran appeared. Tomoyo looked at Sakura's face wondering what was wrong.
"Are you okay?" she asked worriedly when they took a seat the table. Sakura looked at her and smiled nodding.
"I just got sick, I'm fine. So what are we going to be doing today?" she asked making Tomoyo smile as she opened her planner. There was so much that she had to do lately that if she didn't have a book she wouldn't be able to keep track.
"We have a rehearsal at the church, then we have to make sure everything else is in order and we'll have more guest arriving today" she explained making them nod listening as they ate. "I hope that everything is in order"
"I'm sure everything will be, after all it's your wedding we're talking about" Chiharu assured making Tomoyo flush deep red looking down, the other girls laugh making the guys look at them with a lost expression.
"We all used to think about our wedding day, and how we wanted things to be done" Naoko explained making them nod in understanding. "Those were the simple days, just the six of us living life"
"Yeah, now we're all adults getting married" Rika looked at Sakura. "And having babies, I hope I'm the god mother" she proclaimed making Sakura smile.
"Hey, I'm the god mother" Tomoyo interrupted and all of them started to argue about who would be godmother making Sakura laugh.
"You girls argue all you want but I know that Sakura is going to name one of the boys off me" Mika stated proudly making them stop and look at him. "I mean it, aren't you Sakura?"
"Not one of my sons would have your name" Syaoran stated before he could stop him self. Seeing the looks they gave him he wondered why he had to go and open his mouth.
"And why not?" Mika asked in mock hurt making Sakura giggle shaking her head.
"Because we've already chosen names that's why" she explained making him nod sadly. She glanced at Syaoran wondering where that had come from; she thought he needed to make his mind up. One minute he didn't want the boys and now he wanted him. *
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* Tomoyo walked over to Sakura who was standing at the window looking at the guys who were playing soccer out side. Most of the guests staying at the house were arriving little by little. "He can play really good" Sakura muttered making Tomoyo nod looking at them. "Am I stupid Tomoyo?"
"Why would you ask me such a thing, of course you aren't stupid" Tomoyo assured making Sakura turn to look at her with sad eyes. "Sakura, what is the matter?" she asked worriedly making Sakura sigh looking down at her belly briefly.
"Me, I'm the matter. I'm falling in love with a man who hasn't any feelings for me. When I have the boys he'll ask for divorce and I'll be shipped back to Tokyo with them, and they'll grow up wondering why they don't have a father and they'll blame me" she explained. With every word she said, her voice got sadder until she was crying as well. She didn't want her children to grow up and hate her for not making them have a family. She had lost her family and she knew how having one meant so much to a child. "I don't want them to be like me"
"But there's nothing wrong with you" Tomoyo spoke holding her by the shoulders. She didn't want to Sakura to feel that her children would hate her; she knew they wouldn't because she was going to make a great mother. "They are going to love you more then life, and when they get older they'll know why they don't have a father"
"But what if they hate me after they find out?" Tomoyo bit her lip wondering how she was going to make Sakura see that they wouldn't hate her.
"They won't and even though you and Syaoran divorce he can still be apart of their lives" she assured making Sakura start to cry even harder.
"I don't want them to" Tomoyo was shocked by this, she didn't know why she wouldn't want them to be with Syaoran even though they weren't married.
"What are you saying?" she asked taking Sakura's hand walking over to the sofa. Sakura wiped her eyes trying to get her thoughts together; she needed to think about this.
"What I'm saying is, I don't want my children anywhere near Gwen. I know she hates me, and she'll hate them too. I don't believe I could ever allow them to be with him when I'm not there. He'll no doubt marry her," Sakura explained painfully her hands clasped tightly together. "Her family tried to make sure I didn't have my babies, and I'm afraid they'll try again"
"I don't think he would ever allow her to hurt them would you?" Tomoyo asked making Sakura shake her head.
"He wouldn't but he loves her so much that he's blind" she whispered making Tomoyo hug her sorrowfully. Tomoyo sighed knowing that that was probably true, maybe he was blind.
"This is going to be something you and he will have to talk about" Tomoyo sighed making Sakura nod. She hugged Sakura tightly rocking her back and forth; she wondered what was going to happen in months from now. And how it was going to affect Sakura and the twins' life.
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"Were you crying?" he asked making her wipe her eyes self-consciously. He stopped behind the sofa they were sitting on with a worried expression.
"I'm fine, it's nothing" Sakura lied softly before taking a deep breath. "Now what's wrong?" she could openly see that something was up.
"My father had a heart attack and is in the hospital," he answered making her gasp as she and Tomoyo stood up.
"Is he alright?" Sakura asked worriedly, she didn't want anything to happen to Lian. He was such a very nice man, and he would make a great grandfather. She just hoped he wouldn't torment his grandsons like he did his son.
"Yes, he's going to be staying in the hospital for a week, and my mother will need my help running the company. She hasn't been in charge of it in ages" he answered frowning. He knew that he and Sakura had a part in the wedding so therefore they wouldn't be able to leave. "Since as we're in the ceremony we'll have to leave right after back to Hong Kong" he sighed making Sakura bit her lip and nod. "You don't have to return with me though you can stay here"
"No I'll return with you" she replied softly she wouldn't feel right staying here when Lian was in the hospital.
"I'm sorry to hear that Li, I hope he pulls through" Tomoyo said making him look at her briefly and nod. It was a shame that Sakura would have to leave right after her wedding. She didn't want her to leave so fast but there was nothing she could do and personally she thought that it would have done Sakura better to stay here for a while.
"We all hope he pulls through" Eriol added when the door bell went off. A moment later two figures walked into the room making Sakura brighten.
"Uncle, Touya" she gasped running over to them. Fujitaka smiled engulfing her into a tight hug. "Oh, how are you doing?"
"I should be asking you that" Fujitaka replied when she stepped back. He looked her over and she didn't seem to be in any great depression. Syaoran looked at the younger man who was currently glaring at him hard core, and naturally he glared back. "I'm fine, how are you dear?"
"Good, Touya aren't you going to say hi to me?" Sakura asked making Touya break his glaring match with Syaoran and look at her smiling.
"How are you Kaijuu?" he asked making her fume. She walked over to him and stomped on his foot making him wince jumping up and down.
"How many times do I have to tell you that I'm not a Kaijuu?" she yelled making him and everyone wince. Touya looked at her sheepishly standing up straight, Sakura smile and hugged him. "I missed you too," she mumbled cutely. Syaoran looked at them and his jaw tightens seeing how close they were.
"How has the gaki been treating you?" Touya asked softly so that only her could hear. Sakura looked at him and smile seeing his open concern so her safety.
"It's okay, I'm doing good" Sakura answered in a low voice just like him. "We have a lot to talk about Uncle," she said to Fujitaka who nodded.
"We do indeed, we talk later ay?" she nodded making him smile.
"Oh how rude, let me show you to the rooms you'll be staying in" Tomoyo said breezily walking over to them. Sakura laughed at her friends happy tone watching all of them walk out of the room only leaving her and Syaoran. Before she could even to talk with him he walked past her and towards the stairs not even bothering to look back. Sakura had a confused look on her face wondering what was wrong now.
"I can't handle this kind of attitude" she mumbled walking back into the room. *
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"Not yet beautiful, but we're leaving right after the wedding" he answered missing her terribly. He cared about Sakura but he didn't want to stay with her, he loved Gwen and wanted to be with her forever.
"Oh wonderful, I miss you not being in my bed every night" she whined cutely looking at his picture that was right on her desk.
"And miss not being in your arms too, I have to go now but I love you" he stated making her giggle. Sakura stood at the door not knowing what to do, she felt her heart ache hearing him say that but she was being stupid she knew.
"I can't here you" Gwen teased making him chuckle getting up from the bed still not seeing Sakura.
"I said I love you, every part of you and I can't wait to have you as my wife" having heard that Sakura slowly turned and pulled the door closed silently walking away.
"That's my love, I love you too and I'm counting the hours until you are back"
"Okay, bye" Gwen blew him a kiss over the phone before he hung up. Sighing he ran his hand through his hair. He only had a couple of months to go before he would marry her and he couldn't wait. *
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Tomoyo rushed to her door with Chiharu and the others when their butler opened her door, she gasped looking at the figure getting out of the limo. "Sakura!" she exclaimed making her friend look up and brighten.
"Tomoyo, guys" Sakura gasped. She and Tomoyo engulfed each other in a tight hug laughing, "Rika, Naoko, Chiharu" she hugged each of her other friends as they looked her over.
"Oh look at you, you look great Sakura even with a belly" Rika teased making her laugh. "Tomoyo told us you were having boys, how wonderful"
"Thank you, you have so much to tell me about New York. How was it, did you guys get chosen?" Sakura blurted making them smile seeing that she had returned to normal. They looked at Syaoran and all but Tomoyo glared coldly at him before dragging Sakura off to the living room. Syaoran looked at their retreating backs and sweat drop shaking his head.
"Well if it isn't the married one" Mika teased walking up to Syaoran with the guys as he looked for Jamie. "Where's Jamie?"
"He couldn't make it, he's really sick" Syaoran answered making him nod. "Will you stop staring at me dammit" he groaned making them laugh.
"Sure, come on let's go to Eriol's office since as they've taken over the living area" Alex said making him nod.
"The bags go the Li room," Eriol said making Syaoran look at him. "Oh I'm sorry to say but we kind of have too much people staying here so you and Sakura will have to share a room if that's okay with you" Syaoran looked at Eriol wondering if he really had too many people.
"It's up to her" he shrugged making him nod walking off to his office with them following behind. He knew that they would probably end up sleeping in the same room cause his parents were going to arrive later in the week. *
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"Guys will you stop staring at me?" she begged making her friends smile sheepishly. Sakura looked around the house thinking it was beautiful just like the home she lived in but Tomoyo and Eriol was in love so this house felt better.
"Sorry, we just haven't seen you in so long" Naoko apologized looking down briefly with a smile on her face. "We all got a spot in the company" she announced making Sakura gasp. They didn't know how she would take it and they were glad to see that she looked happy.
"That's great, so you guys are going to move over there?" she asked making them nod except for Chiharu. "Aren't you Chiharu?"
"Naw, I'm going to go back home. I'm just glad to know that I was chosen, my parents need me and I was chosen to dance at one of the best company in Tokyo too" she answered making Sakura nod. She had always dreamed of being chosen for a company and she felt a little jealous of her friends.
"So how's being married to the beast?" Rika asked making Sakura look down. She hadn't said much to him after the night her brought her to the carnival, he didn't need her in his life when he loved Gwen.
"It's fine, better then I would have thought" she finally answered making them look at her in worry. "I'm sure, he isn't all that bad and he leaves me alone" she continued telling them the truth. "It's like we're not even married"
"And you are fine with that?" Naoko inquired as Tomoyo looked at her. She figured that Sakura was probably tired after the long and tiring flight.
"I don't know, it confusing" Sakura mumbled looking at them. And they could have sworn she looked lost and alone like she did when she lost Sakuya and that was a very scary thing.
"Sakura's probably tired from the long flight. Why don't you shower and rest up a bit ay?" Tomoyo said rescuing her. She knew that Sakura would tell them all they needed to know when she was feeling up to it.
"Yeah Tomoyo's right, I mean all the way from Hong Kong to here" Chiharu nodded making Sakura smile standing up. "Good luck finding your room, this place is like a fortress" she joked making them laugh.
"I'll show you to the room, I'll be back" Tomoyo said making them nod. When they were out of the room Rika and the others looked at each other in worry.
"When do you think it'll start to happen?" Chiharu asked Rika who looked down shaking her head.
"I don't know, I don't even think she told him about her sister. I really doubt it, it's about a month away, she won't start having nightmares until two weeks before the most" Rika answered clasping her hands together. "I would still have nightmares too if I saw my sister like that"
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She looked at Sakura who was sitting on the bed, "Have you told him?" she asked softly making Sakura look up and smile sadly.
"I don't think he should know, do you?" Sakura asked making Tomoyo frown. She knew that her friend was just worried about her but there was no need to be, "I'm over that now, it won't happen this year"
"How are you so sure and what if he sees the pictures around the house. What do I tell him?" Tomoyo asked sitting beside her best friend.
"Tell him to ask me, I doubt he'll be able to tell us apart" Sakura smiled making her nod. "You know what they say about people who can tell the twins apart"
"That you should marry him" Tomoyo smiled making her nod growing sadder by the minute.
"He can't tell us apart," she whispered growing teary eyes. She felt so bad inside, and like her life was worth nothing at all.
"What's the matter Sakura, tell me what happened" Tomoyo pleaded when she started to cry real tears.
"Tomoyo I love him, and it hurts so badly cause I know that he loves Gwen more than anything. When we went to the carnival we kissed and it felt so good but it didn't have any meaning to him" Tomoyo gasped he kissed her when he wouldn't even touch her when they got married? She hugged Sakura to her so she could cry out her tears freely. "I know that I'm not in a marriage but when he's nice I don't want to leave him"
"We'll figure out something, we will" Tomoyo whispered rocking her back and forth praying to get some help. She didn't know kind of advice to give Sakura, what if she told her to leave him and he loved her? *
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* He looked around the office when something caught his eyes; since he had been in this room all they had been doing was asking him questions. "Hey, how come there's two Sakura's in this picture?" she asked picking it up, one was wearing a cheerleading uniform and the other a field hockey one.
"What do you mean?" Takashi asked looking at him oddly, he looked at the picture Syaoran showed him and frowned. "That's not two Sakura's, that's Sakura's twin sister Sakuya in the cheerleading uniform" Syaoran looked at him in disbelief now understanding why Sakura had all those pictures of her self in her room.
"You didn't know?" Eriol asked looking at Syaoran's shocked face. He thought it was odd that Sakura hadn't told him about her sister but then again maybe it was too painful.
"No I was only under the impression that her father was the only twin," he answered looking at the picture again, looking closer at them he could clearly see which one was his Sakura. "They don't look that much a lot, Sakura's prettier" he commented making them sweat drop.
"They are identical twins, there's another picture over there look at it and tell us which one is Sakura" Eriol said making him place it down and walked over to it. Syaoran picked it up and looked at the two of them along with Tomoyo when they were younger.
"The one on the right" he said making Eriol walk over and look at it. When he had first seen the pictures he wasn't able to tell but he had memorized them, "So is she coming to the wedding?" he took a drink of his Brandy waiting for them to answer.
"You're right" Eriol muttered placing it back down. He looked into his drink walking back over to his desk.
"She's dead" Takashi spoke sadly making Syaoran look at him. "I take it you didn't know that either" he mused seeing him shake his head. "She died about two years ago, the anniversary is coming up in August I believe" he sighed looking down.
"How did she die?" Syaoran asked when the door opened and Tomoyo walked in frowning.
"If you want to know, she'll have to tell you that" she spoke seeing him holding one of her many pictures. "Your room, is five doors down on the right side after you turn left" she spoke making him nod. "Eriol I would like to speak with in private"
"Sure, I'll be back" Eriol said making them nod watching him go.
"I'm going to go up and shower, I'll see ya'll later" and they watched Syaoran leave. They sighed sinking into the chairs they were sitting in.
"Those two are weird, I wonder if that is how you get after you marry?" Mika asked making them gulp. They didn't want to get that weird after marriage and they hoped it was only with Syaoran and Eriol.
"So right, I wonder what we're going to do tonight. All us guys should go out or something" Alex said making them nod wondering where would be a hot place to go in England. *
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"Nothing, he seems a bit confused and not cynical like he was before they got married," he answered making her frown. "He seemed rather reluctant to say anything at all if you ask me" he commented making her nod.
"Sakura cried her eyes out, I hope you don't mind me saying but I think she should divorce him right after the boys are born and leave. I haven't seen her cry so much from Sakuya died. I don't like it one bit he has no right" Tomoyo stated angrily making Eriol sit down. She wanted nothing more then to tell Li Syaoran to go to hell and leave Sakura and her babies alone.
"He could tell them apart" Eriol stated making her looked at him with a lost expression. He smiled seeing that she hadn't a clue what he was talking about and this was a first. "He could tell Sakura and Sakuya apart without any difficulty"
"Are you joking?" she gasped making him grin shaking his head. "Maybe Sakura told him she played field hockey or something"
"No I made him look at a picture with them dressed the same and he picked her out again. And do you want to know what he said?" he mused making her shake her head vigorously. "He said they looked nothing alike and Sakura was prettier" Tomoyo laughed shaking her head. "Which is a load of crap because they are identical twins" she chocked back a horrified giggle her hands flying to her mouth.
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She opened her eyes hearing movement in the room only to see a shirt less Syaoran in the bathroom shaving. She lay where she was and watched him; it was probably night out now since when they had arrived it was just after sunset. Looking at the clock she saw that she hadn't slept long at all only about an hour. He finished up and used the towel to wipe his face before putting on after-shave then he turned only to see her looking at him. "Hey, did Tomoyo tell you that we have to share that room?" he asked making her nod. "If you don't want to I can always sleep on the sofa"
"No we can share, it's a large bed" she replied making him nod walking over to his suitcase that was open. She sat up and get out of bed trying her best not to stare at him. She remembered the last time she saw him without a shirt and that was at the party.
"Okay, the guys just told me that they are going out so I'll be going with them okay?" he said making her nod walking over to the bathroom. She didn't see why he had to tell her where he was going.
"Okay" she said in the bathroom as she inhaled his masculine scent, she looked at the cologne that her wore. "Xeryus Rouge by Givenchy" (That smells so freaking good) she whispered inhaling.
"What's the matter?" Syaoran asked the door making her jump. "Sorry didn't mean to scare you" Sakura placed her hand over heart looking at him. He looked gorgeous if that was the right word to use.
"Nothing, where are you guys going?" she asked absently walking back into the bedroom to get her toiletries. She looked at her dress that was hanging on the closet door along with his hang bag. She opened her large suitcase trying to busy her self and not think about him.
"I have no clue, probably to a club or somewhere I doubt Eriol belongs to a gentlemen's club" he answered making her shake her head in agreement. She took out all she would need and stood up.
"Oh that's nice, I guess I'll be seeing you tomorrow morning" she spoke softly making him look at her oddly. Since the night they had gone to carnival she had been acting weird but maybe it was because of her pregnancy.
"Yeah see you tomorrow morning then" he sighed heading for the door. Sakura looked at it when it closed and bit her lip walking to the bathroom. It was better if she played detached then anything else.
"Sakuya why can't he love me like Gwen?" she whispered painfully heading to the bathroom. *
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"I think he's been trying to ignore black hair woman who's been flirting with him since we arrive" Eriol answered making Mika slyly look and sure enough she was flirting with him.
"Hey she's a beauty" he spoke making them nod looking at Syaoran who didn't seem interested. "But you know Li always into the light hair ones" he joked making them laugh.
"Eriol are there any good café's around here?" he asked out of the blue making him nod everyone looking at him oddly.
"Xiao Lang?" Alex said making him look at him, "Are you sick?" Takashi and the others couldn't help but laugh. "Man I mean it, you don't seem like your self"
"Yeah he's right, you seem a little distracted. Are you in the mood for ice cream or something?" Takashi asked having heard him ask about a café. They were worried about him, they were in a club that was packed with woman and he wasn't even looking at any of them. They were starting to wonder if he was falling in love with Sakura, or maybe starting to feel guilty.
"No it's Sakura, she seemed a little moody. In Hong Kong I always got her something from a café that always lightened her mood" he answered making them nod. "You know pregnant woman and mood swings"
"Oh" they all nodded in understanding not understanding. They looked up when woman walked over to them smiling brightly.
"Hi I'm Maria, would you like to dance?" she asked smiling she was speaking directly to Syaoran who looked at her. His mind told him to take her offer but why couldn't he? He told him self that he didn't because of Gwen.
"No" he answered going to pick up his drink when she saw his ring and nodded in understanding.
"I didn't know you were married I assumed you were single I'm sorry" she apologized before walking off. Syaoran's drink stopped half way to his mouth and he watched her leave with a blank expression.
"Did she just say that she didn't know I was married?" he asked making him friends nod. "That's a first, no one else seemed to mind that I was married" he said taking a gulp of his beer.
"Xiao Lang can I ask you something?" Eriol said making him nod looking around the place they were in. "Do you love Sakura?" it seemed like everything came to a halt.
"What kind of question if that? You of all person should know that I love Gwen and shouldn't be asking me that" he answered making Eriol frown nodding. He sounded so sure that he almost believed him self.
"Don't you think you should let her know that you don't love her, so she doesn't fall in love with you?" Takashi inquired tightly. He didn't like the fact that he was leading Sakura on and making her fall in love with him. He had grown up with Sakura and her sister and he knew how bad she took it when she lost someone she loved.
"I have my reasons for doing this, I need to get the company in my name. She'll get over it" he replied with no emotion making his friend wince. He sounded so unbelievably cold just now that they couldn't believe it was he.
"Oh let's hope she'll get over it. She's someone who's experience loss too much first her mother then father and two years ago Sakuya. Since as we're obviously not enjoying ourselves we might as leave" Eriol sighed taking money out to pay for the bill. *
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Tomoyo laughed moving along with Rika and the others to a very familiar tone. She looked at the clock and wondered where Eriol was, she trusted him but she didn't trust Syaoran and Eriol said he would keep an eye on him. They stopped and looked at the door when it opened and everyone but Syaoran walked in. Tomoyo looked at Sakura only to see her face drop. "You guys are back early" Rika said when they closed to door.
"It was no fun staying out," Mika answered pulling Naoko close to him making her laugh. "Shouldn't you ladies be in bed?"
"I think they were waiting up for us," Alex teased making them look guilty. "So we're home now to bed or you want to dance for us a little longer?"
"We'll dance a little longer," Rika answered giving a sweet kiss.
"Hey Sakura where you going?" Chiharu asked knowing she was probably hurting because Syaoran wasn't with them.
"To bed I'm tired" Sakura answered with a wave turning for the stairs. "I didn't get much sleep earlier today" she called walking slowly up the steps when she disappeared the girls turned to the guys.
"He didn't want to come with us, he'll be here soon though" Eriol assured making Tomoyo scowl. "He didn't go home with a girl, actually he turned her down" he mused but that didn't make her feel any better. "Um I think he's getting soft, he should arrive any minute now"
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"I thought you had fallen asleep" he said closing the door behind him. He looked at the way her hair flowed down like a waterfall around her. "It's good that you aren't sleeping"
"Why?" she asked trying to hide the fact that she was relieved he was here and not in someone's bed.
"Because I went to the video store and found this, and I got this for you, since as they always seemed to brighten your mood" he said tossing a DVD at her then took out the small container of her favorite ice cream.
"Card Captors and ice cream?" she smiled looking at the DVD then at him. She felt oddly special that he had thought about her, she lied, she felt really special. "I thought you hated it because he didn't get the cards?" she smiled getting out of bed to put it in.
"I guess I can survive watching it" he replied unbuttoning his shirt. Sakura kept her eyes to the television and not at him as she tried to get it going. "I don't think Eriol and the others will be going out any more"
"Why?" she saw him head to the bathroom to change and she sighed trying to get her face to cool down, 'you pervert' she thought shaking her head.
"Cause it wasn't as fun as it usually was," he answered when he came out change in pajamas. Sakura nodded walking over to the bed followed by him, as usual he got a large one so they could share.
"Do you think it'll be as good as the one in Hong Kong?" she asked pressing play, he shrugged.
"Let's hope so Eriol said it was the best and I had to beg the guy to let me in cause he was closing" Sakura laughed looking at him sheepishly. "I wanted to get you it so I bribed him"
"Oh my," she smiled making him nod as they got under the covers. Tonight they would be sharing a bed for the first time, the night when they slept together didn't count cause they were drunk. She didn't know how she was going to survive; she had never slept with anyone but her sister. They settled back and started to watch the second movie eating their ice cream. *
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"Uh oh" she whispered seeing that she couldn't move because he had a good grip around her waist. What was she going to do now; her head was on his shoulder and her leg! She slowly moved her leg from between his fighting down the blush that was creeping unto her cheeks. "Syaoran ugh" she felt sick in her stomach, she felt like she was going to throw up she shouldn't have eaten that ice cream last night. "Hey Syaoran" she begged feeling nauseated.
"What?" he whispered tightening his hold on her; she wondered if he thought she was Gwen. "Sakura, what's the matter?" okay that answered her question.
"If you don't let me out I'm going to throw up on you" she pleaded making him snap awake. He looked at her then looked at his hand that was wrapped around her waist and quickly let go.
"I'm sorry" he apologized when Sakura scooted over him and rushed to the bathroom slamming the door shut. He groaned getting up wondering if he had called her Gwen. She didn't feel like Gwen at all in his arms but he didn't know if he could have mumbled something in his sleep. Getting out of bed he ran his hand through his hair and knocked on the door only to see that it was open. "Are you okay?"
"No" she got out losing her stomach. He walked over to her and moved her hair out of the way, hoping she would stop soon. Sakura rested her head on her arm trying to get over just losing her stomach. "I feel like shit" she mumbled miserably and hating the fact that he was right beside her as she threw up he was probably disgusted.
"Come on get up, you'll feel better after you've eaten something healthy" Syaoran said helping her and over to the sink.
"Thank you, I think I'm going to shower"
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"What do you think is taking those two so long?" Naoko asked sitting at the table as everyone ate breakfast.
"No clue, Syaoran always got up early they must have stayed up all night" Alex shrugged making them all think about it but they dismissed that thought.
"Oh we're Hentais" Chiharu gasped making them start to laugh agreeing with her. They couldn't believe they had just thought that and about Syaoran and Sakura of all people.
"That's good one, she probably made him sleep on the floor or sofa" Tomoyo pointed out making them nod. They couldn't see those two sleeping the same bed it just seemed so ridiculous. They looked at the entrance to the dinning when Sakura and Syaoran appeared. Tomoyo looked at Sakura's face wondering what was wrong.
"Are you okay?" she asked worriedly when they took a seat the table. Sakura looked at her and smiled nodding.
"I just got sick, I'm fine. So what are we going to be doing today?" she asked making Tomoyo smile as she opened her planner. There was so much that she had to do lately that if she didn't have a book she wouldn't be able to keep track.
"We have a rehearsal at the church, then we have to make sure everything else is in order and we'll have more guest arriving today" she explained making them nod listening as they ate. "I hope that everything is in order"
"I'm sure everything will be, after all it's your wedding we're talking about" Chiharu assured making Tomoyo flush deep red looking down, the other girls laugh making the guys look at them with a lost expression.
"We all used to think about our wedding day, and how we wanted things to be done" Naoko explained making them nod in understanding. "Those were the simple days, just the six of us living life"
"Yeah, now we're all adults getting married" Rika looked at Sakura. "And having babies, I hope I'm the god mother" she proclaimed making Sakura smile.
"Hey, I'm the god mother" Tomoyo interrupted and all of them started to argue about who would be godmother making Sakura laugh.
"You girls argue all you want but I know that Sakura is going to name one of the boys off me" Mika stated proudly making them stop and look at him. "I mean it, aren't you Sakura?"
"Not one of my sons would have your name" Syaoran stated before he could stop him self. Seeing the looks they gave him he wondered why he had to go and open his mouth.
"And why not?" Mika asked in mock hurt making Sakura giggle shaking her head.
"Because we've already chosen names that's why" she explained making him nod sadly. She glanced at Syaoran wondering where that had come from; she thought he needed to make his mind up. One minute he didn't want the boys and now he wanted him. *
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* Tomoyo walked over to Sakura who was standing at the window looking at the guys who were playing soccer out side. Most of the guests staying at the house were arriving little by little. "He can play really good" Sakura muttered making Tomoyo nod looking at them. "Am I stupid Tomoyo?"
"Why would you ask me such a thing, of course you aren't stupid" Tomoyo assured making Sakura turn to look at her with sad eyes. "Sakura, what is the matter?" she asked worriedly making Sakura sigh looking down at her belly briefly.
"Me, I'm the matter. I'm falling in love with a man who hasn't any feelings for me. When I have the boys he'll ask for divorce and I'll be shipped back to Tokyo with them, and they'll grow up wondering why they don't have a father and they'll blame me" she explained. With every word she said, her voice got sadder until she was crying as well. She didn't want her children to grow up and hate her for not making them have a family. She had lost her family and she knew how having one meant so much to a child. "I don't want them to be like me"
"But there's nothing wrong with you" Tomoyo spoke holding her by the shoulders. She didn't want to Sakura to feel that her children would hate her; she knew they wouldn't because she was going to make a great mother. "They are going to love you more then life, and when they get older they'll know why they don't have a father"
"But what if they hate me after they find out?" Tomoyo bit her lip wondering how she was going to make Sakura see that they wouldn't hate her.
"They won't and even though you and Syaoran divorce he can still be apart of their lives" she assured making Sakura start to cry even harder.
"I don't want them to" Tomoyo was shocked by this, she didn't know why she wouldn't want them to be with Syaoran even though they weren't married.
"What are you saying?" she asked taking Sakura's hand walking over to the sofa. Sakura wiped her eyes trying to get her thoughts together; she needed to think about this.
"What I'm saying is, I don't want my children anywhere near Gwen. I know she hates me, and she'll hate them too. I don't believe I could ever allow them to be with him when I'm not there. He'll no doubt marry her," Sakura explained painfully her hands clasped tightly together. "Her family tried to make sure I didn't have my babies, and I'm afraid they'll try again"
"I don't think he would ever allow her to hurt them would you?" Tomoyo asked making Sakura shake her head.
"He wouldn't but he loves her so much that he's blind" she whispered making Tomoyo hug her sorrowfully. Tomoyo sighed knowing that that was probably true, maybe he was blind.
"This is going to be something you and he will have to talk about" Tomoyo sighed making Sakura nod. She hugged Sakura tightly rocking her back and forth; she wondered what was going to happen in months from now. And how it was going to affect Sakura and the twins' life.
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"Were you crying?" he asked making her wipe her eyes self-consciously. He stopped behind the sofa they were sitting on with a worried expression.
"I'm fine, it's nothing" Sakura lied softly before taking a deep breath. "Now what's wrong?" she could openly see that something was up.
"My father had a heart attack and is in the hospital," he answered making her gasp as she and Tomoyo stood up.
"Is he alright?" Sakura asked worriedly, she didn't want anything to happen to Lian. He was such a very nice man, and he would make a great grandfather. She just hoped he wouldn't torment his grandsons like he did his son.
"Yes, he's going to be staying in the hospital for a week, and my mother will need my help running the company. She hasn't been in charge of it in ages" he answered frowning. He knew that he and Sakura had a part in the wedding so therefore they wouldn't be able to leave. "Since as we're in the ceremony we'll have to leave right after back to Hong Kong" he sighed making Sakura bit her lip and nod. "You don't have to return with me though you can stay here"
"No I'll return with you" she replied softly she wouldn't feel right staying here when Lian was in the hospital.
"I'm sorry to hear that Li, I hope he pulls through" Tomoyo said making him look at her briefly and nod. It was a shame that Sakura would have to leave right after her wedding. She didn't want her to leave so fast but there was nothing she could do and personally she thought that it would have done Sakura better to stay here for a while.
"We all hope he pulls through" Eriol added when the door bell went off. A moment later two figures walked into the room making Sakura brighten.
"Uncle, Touya" she gasped running over to them. Fujitaka smiled engulfing her into a tight hug. "Oh, how are you doing?"
"I should be asking you that" Fujitaka replied when she stepped back. He looked her over and she didn't seem to be in any great depression. Syaoran looked at the younger man who was currently glaring at him hard core, and naturally he glared back. "I'm fine, how are you dear?"
"Good, Touya aren't you going to say hi to me?" Sakura asked making Touya break his glaring match with Syaoran and look at her smiling.
"How are you Kaijuu?" he asked making her fume. She walked over to him and stomped on his foot making him wince jumping up and down.
"How many times do I have to tell you that I'm not a Kaijuu?" she yelled making him and everyone wince. Touya looked at her sheepishly standing up straight, Sakura smile and hugged him. "I missed you too," she mumbled cutely. Syaoran looked at them and his jaw tightens seeing how close they were.
"How has the gaki been treating you?" Touya asked softly so that only her could hear. Sakura looked at him and smile seeing his open concern so her safety.
"It's okay, I'm doing good" Sakura answered in a low voice just like him. "We have a lot to talk about Uncle," she said to Fujitaka who nodded.
"We do indeed, we talk later ay?" she nodded making him smile.
"Oh how rude, let me show you to the rooms you'll be staying in" Tomoyo said breezily walking over to them. Sakura laughed at her friends happy tone watching all of them walk out of the room only leaving her and Syaoran. Before she could even to talk with him he walked past her and towards the stairs not even bothering to look back. Sakura had a confused look on her face wondering what was wrong now.
"I can't handle this kind of attitude" she mumbled walking back into the room. *
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* Syaoran sat on the bed away from the door and took out his cell phone pressing one. He listened as it rung and smiled hearing the person answer. "It's about time you called me sweetie, tell me are you coming home now?" Gwen gushed happily making him laugh.
"Not yet beautiful, but we're leaving right after the wedding" he answered missing her terribly. He cared about Sakura but he didn't want to stay with her, he loved Gwen and wanted to be with her forever.
"Oh wonderful, I miss you not being in my bed every night" she whined cutely looking at his picture that was right on her desk.
"And miss not being in your arms too, I have to go now but I love you" he stated making her giggle. Sakura stood at the door not knowing what to do, she felt her heart ache hearing him say that but she was being stupid she knew.
"I can't here you" Gwen teased making him chuckle getting up from the bed still not seeing Sakura.
"I said I love you, every part of you and I can't wait to have you as my wife" having heard that Sakura slowly turned and pulled the door closed silently walking away.
"That's my love, I love you too and I'm counting the hours until you are back"
"Okay, bye" Gwen blew him a kiss over the phone before he hung up. Sighing he ran his hand through his hair. He only had a couple of months to go before he would marry her and he couldn't wait. *
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* She sat on the swing that was far out in the yard, pushing her self back and forth she stared at the ground. "I'm being stupid, why should I hurt hearing those words?" she mumbled hating her heart. "Stop it dammit" she growled wiping her tears away. "Fine I don't care, once I have my boys I'm leaving. And nothing he can say or do will make me stay, nothing. I'm going to play this game just like my uncle just told me. Forget my heart cause it only hurts to love. *
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* Author's note: Poor Sakura, Poor poor thing. Ne ways I hoped you liked this chapter, I really do and remember to review and tell me what you think okay? LOL JA_
