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* Author's note: Here's the next one. Only three more to go LOL yep then I'm finished and freed and well you know all the good stuff. I have two stories I'm thinking about putting up but I ain't sure as yet. *

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* "I did it for you, I did it all for you. I loved you, I deserved you" Gwen screamed as she was taken away from the courtroom in cuffs. "I did it all for you Xiao Lang, you belong to me" she continued struggling. "I'll be out soon, and we'll have a family just you and me" he looked one last time as she was taken away. *

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* Sure Gwen was now behind bars for the murder of Honda Kris, and the kidnapping and murder of Li Sakura and Atashi had died. They were where they belong but the Honda's wouldn't get Kris back, and they wouldn't get Sakura back.

The soft Sunday breeze blew making their clothing sway; all was silent except for the few sniffles here and there. Many stood at the top of the hill under a newly planted cherry blossom tree. Li Syaoran held his son Li Rui Lin in his arms; his face was void of any expression. He looked at the head stone and read his wife's name repeatedly still not believing she was gone. "Xiao Lang" he looked at Paul and Gina Honda who smiled faintly at him. Only a week ago, they had finally given their daughter a real burial. "We're sorry" he continued in a pained tone. Gina smiled at Rui touching his cheek before she looked at Syaoran.

"Be strong, you've got your sons to live for" She spoke truthfully before giving him a brief hug. "And thank you" she whispered softly.

"Thank you" Syaoran said in a calm tone not at all portraying what he was feeling at the moment. They shook their heads before walking slowly away like others who had paid their respect. The cooing his of his three-month- old son made him look down only to be captured in his innocent emerald poles.

"Xiao Lang do you want me to take him?" Yelen asked knowing that he would need to be alone so he could say his good-byes. Syaoran smiled gratefully at his mother handing Rui to her. "Come when you are ready" she gave him a soft kiss on the cheek before walking away with friends and family.

He took a breath walking slowly towards her head stone, "You must really hate me now. I've done the ultimate thing to ruin you, I cost you your life" he whispered in remorse closing his eyes. He knew that if he had just left her alone, or used his head she would still be alive, and she would even be a dancer. "I'm so very sorry Sakura, I hope you can forgive me" he toyed with the single red Rose he had in his hand. He didn't want to say good-bye; he just wanted to hold on. Not knowing what to say or how to ask for forgiveness, he placed the Rose down. Kissed his two fingers and placed it on her name before he got up. Slowly turning away he walked down the hill leaving the headstone. *

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* Syaoran smiled warmly at Tomoyo giving her a tight hug. "I'm going to come and visit really soon just to check up on the boys and you" she spoke in a motherly tone when they pulled back. Tomoyo looked in Syaoran's eyes and knew that it was going to take him a long time before he recovered like all of them. It had been two weeks since Sakura's burial in the Li cemetery and they were the last to leave. "I wished I didn't have to go"

"You've placed your life on hold for far too long. The boys and I are going to be fine. Please assure your wife" Syaoran looked at him Eriol who smiled shaking his head.

"They'll be fine the only thing we'll have to worry about is them becoming playboys," Eriol teased trying to lighten the mood. He knew that Syaoran was never ever going to do that again, it had cost him too much.

"You're supposed to be helping" Tomoyo smiled shaking her head. She had said her good byes to the boys who were taking their nap. "Are you sure you don't want me to take one home?" she asked playfully, he grin.

"Not a chance, Eriol will give you lots" Syaoran stated making her laugh. She gave him one last tight hug before taking her purse from Giles.

"I'll be seeing you during summer" Eriol spoke knowing that Tomoyo was going to have him spending all of summer in Hong Kong. They shook hands and briefly gave each other a hug. Syaoran was glad that all his friends were present during this hard time; he knew why he valued their friendship so much.

"Yeah, Ja" Syaoran walked with them to the door. They waved before getting into the limo. He watched them disappear around the corner before he closed his front door that had a black wreath hanging on it.

He smiled faintly at Giles walking towards the stairs. Giles smiled weakly at his masters back before walking to the kitchen where everyone else was. The house seemed a lot dimmer, and they knew only the boys presence was keeping them going.

Syaoran walked down the long hall; looking briefly at Sakura's bedroom he turned walking into the nursery. To him, it was the brightest room in the house; this was where he spent most of his time home. "Aren't you supposed to be sleeping?" he whispered looking at Xiao Hu, his son giggle reaching up for him. "Yes you should" he picked him up and walked over the rocking chair. "What should I read to you know?" he whispered picking up one of the many books on the small table. He had been through all of them with the boys already he planned on buying more. His life now revolved solely around them, and he was going to make sure that they had all they needed. *

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She walked towards her husband who was looking out his office window at the night sky. "What are you thinking about Lian?" she whispered resting against his back. He turned and hugged her to him, thanking god for giving him such a strong wife.

"About our only child, and two grandchildren. Do you think we should call and make sure they are okay?" she smiled softly at him. Lian returned the smile caressing her long hair that she rarely let flow behind her.

"I think he's going to do a wonderful job as a single father. There's nothing to worry about, and if he has trouble he'll call us" Yelen replied resting her head on his chest. She closed her eyes and said a silent prayer to the lord begging him to help her son through this hard time. "How about tomorrow we drop by for a visit? If you aren't busy"

"I'm never too busy for family, I just wish I had had a better relationship with my son"

"It's never too late to have one" she assured. *

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* He closed the file and sighed, something was still nagging at him and he couldn't for the life of him figure out what it was. "What's the matter with you?" he opened his eyes only to see his partner.

"The Li Sakura case, don't you think it's odd how both Li Sakura and Ken haven't been found as yet?" he asked frowning.

"She's dead, and he's on the run that's all. We'll catch up to him sooner or later"

"Let's hope, he deserves to be behind bars along with Chin" Ahmed spat looking at Sakura's picture. She was so young and beautiful she deserved to have lived. *

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* Again he hadn't gone into to work, he had gone out sailing and was getting better at it. Doing something that Sakura loved made him feel better, he only wished she would have been there with him. "Looks like it's going to storm," Rosa spoke moving around Kero and Spinal with Hu in her arms.

"Yeah hopefully it won't scare the boys" Syaoran replied sitting in front the living room fireplace with Rui who was laying on his belly on a blanket. "When will they walk or talk?" he inquired making Rosa laugh softly.

"Soon give them about three months, and they'll be up and about" she answered softly placing Hu down with his brother. She looked at her employer and sighed, she hoped he'd get better and maybe remarries in the future. The boys needed a mother but from how things were going right now it didn't seem that way. *

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The rain was pouring when the gates to the estate opened, a torn and worn out sandal stepped onto the property. It sunk the water when the owner took another step, behind it the gates slowly started to close. The thunder crashed illuminating the large house up ahead. "I'm home," Sakura whispered in a weak tone.

She brushed her soaked hair off her face, the cool rainwater beating against her skin. The clothing she was wearing was filthy but she didn't care, all that mattered was that she was home.

She wanted to run but knew if she fell she wouldn't be able to get back up. Her bones ached, and she had been without food for a while. The little money she had ran out and she was afraid to call for help not wanting Ken to find her if he wasn't in prison. All she wanted was to hold her sons, and tell them that she loved them and would never leave.

Like it would help she ran her hand through her hair feeling tears burn her eyes. Reaching out with a shaky hand she touched the knob and turned slowly only to find it locked, they never used to keep it locked. *

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* Kero and Spinal's ear perked up hearing the doorbell go off. Rosa looked through the window and didn't see a car. "I wonder who that could be," she whispered softly when Syaoran got up. "There's no car"

"Stay here with the boys" Syaoran said walked towards the living room door. Kero and Spinal raced passed him and he wondered what had them so hyped up. *

* Giles opened the door and his face paled, "Oh my god" he exclaimed stepping back when Syaoran walked out the door. Syaoran looked at Giles's face wondering what was wrong, Wei walked around the corner and came to a stop.

"My god" he gasped rubbing his eyes.

"Don't look at me that way," a feminine voice sounded stepping in the door. Syaoran's whole body froze, he tried to lift his feet but it felt like lead. His breath quicken unknowingly, as he waited to see who it was.

"It couldn't be," he whispered looking at the tiny figure, her faced covered by her long dark brown hair. Sakura turned moving her hair off her face; she hated how they were staring at her like she was ghost. Emerald met scared amber, she tried to smile but instead a sob escaped.

"Xiao Lang!" she choked turning to him fully not caring that she was soaking wet. She didn't know what to do, walk to him or not. She didn't have to because she soon found her self in a crushing hug. Inhaling his amazing scent she hugged him back though it was weak. "I-I" the barking of Kero and Spinal blocked out as she only focused on him.

"Oh god, I though I had lost you" he burst pulling her off her feet. He didn't want to let her go; he was feeling so much at once that he felt like he was going to burst. He moved his hand through her wet hair, "I thought I had lost you" Sakura heard the way his voice was filled with remorse and her heart broke again.

"No," she sobbed holding onto him for dear life. Syaoran felt her trembling and pulled back, Sakura looked into his eyes trying to keep her body still but couldn't.

"Wei get some towels and have someone start a warm bath," he ordered rubbing her shoulders in order to keep her warm. "Oh I'm sorry" he apologized making Sakura look at him in confusion.

"Yes sir" Wei said getting over his shock. Rosa walked out of the room carrying both Hu and Rui. Sakura looked at her big baby boys, and wanted to hug them to her, and kiss them but she held back knowing she was filthy.

"Mistress" she gasped in disbelief.

"Hi Rosa" Sakura smiled faintly, seeing her sway Syaoran held unto her in worry. Sakura placed both hands on his arms, "I'm fine, just a little tired"

"Come, Giles have something prepared for her" he looked swung her into his arms making Sakura yelp. He didn't like how light she was, he wondered where she had been all those months but he was just relieved to have her home. "Rosa bring the boys to their room"

She looked at the way he was in control resting her head on his chest as he carried her to her room with Kero and Spinal following behind wagging their tails. "I can walk, I'm fine really" she whispered not making a move.

"I believe but I'm not setting you down" he was his response making her smile. "I don't think I'm ever going to let you out of my arms" Wei walked out of Sakura's room with the towels for her, sighing he moved out of the way letting them in.

"Megumi come," Wei said making a woman walk out of Sakura's bathroom. "Master Li would you like me to call Dr. Avalon?"

"Yes, and don't tell him why. Just tell him to bring vitamins" he answered making Wei shake his head before he closed the door. Syaoran placed Sakura down in the bathroom. "Can you stand?"

"I'm fine really, I don't want to take a bath I want to shower. I want to hold my boys; I thought they weren't going to make it. I died seeing Atashi take them out of the cabin and towards the woods. It was the most painful thing ever, I didn't even hold them," she cried making him wipe her tears away. He hugged her as she cried, Sakura felt so safe; this was what had kept her alive. Syaoran and her boys had kept her alive, and she wasn't ever going to be taken from them again.

"Hey, you shower, and I'll bring the boys to you" he whispered holding her face in his palm.

"Yeah" she agreed making him smile; Syaoran lowered his head and kissed her softly on the lips knowing that she was really there. He prayed that this wasn't a dream, and if it was he didn't want to wake up from it.

Sakura's lips moved against his as she held unto him, breaking they smile at each other. "Go now," he willed him self to let her go, turning he walked out of the room closing the door behind him.

Sakura looked at the door before turning to look at her self in the mirror. She touched her face before stripping down her clothing; she looked at her pale bony body and frowned. "Thank you Kris, Sakuya," she whispered sincerely before going to the shower. *

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Syaoran pulled on a clean shirt, he had showered not wanting to hold the boys when he was filthy. He was currently joggling the idea of whether to call Ahmed now or wait until tomorrow morning to do so.

Walking into Sakura's room, he looks around and in the bathroom but didn't see a sign of her. Fighting down his worry he walked out her door and right into the nursery that was right across the hall. He stopped looking at Sakura who was standing four feet away the boys who were in their swings. He saw her rub her arms as if she was cold. "What's the matter?" he asked softly stopping beside her.

"I tried to pick one up and he started to cry," it was then that he noticed she was crying. Sakura looked at him with tears streaming down her cheeks; "They don't know me" he looked at her with sadness.

"They'll get to know you, they act that way towards anyone at first" he answered not knowing that they weren't the right words to use until Sakura started to cry even worst.

"That's it, I'm their mother. I just want to hold them" she wrapped her arms around his torso resting her head on his chest. He hugged her back looking at their boys who hadn't a clue what was going on.

"Shhhh it'll be okay, come" he kissed her on the temple. Taking her hand in his he led her towards the boys. He stopped the swings when Sakura sat on the fluffy carpet. He placed Hu down, who looked at Sakura with inquisitive eyes, Sakura smiled softly keeping her hands to her self. She didn't want to make them start to cry again, she couldn't take that.

After placing Rui down, Syaoran walked over to the nightstand to retrieve something. Sitting down beside Sakura, he smiled reassuringly picking Hu up in his arms making the baby coo.

"What's his name?" she asked, to her it seemed almost comical to be asking the name of her own baby. "Rui or Hu?"

"He's Hu, I'm placing the name tags back on so you won't get mixed up," he answered making her shake her head slowly. "It's okay, he's not going to cry" he assured knowing that she wanted to hold them badly.

"I'm scared that's all" she admitted. This was what she had been wanting for three and a half months and here she was afraid to make them cry because they didn't know her.

"Here, don't be" She looked at him when he held up Hu obviously wanting her to take him. Hu blew bubbles, making cute baby sounds; she giggled seeing him go cross-eyed.

"Hu" she said softy taking him from Syaoran. "Shhhh" she hushed seeing that he was scared. "I'm your mommy, and I'm the woman who's going to be there for the rest of your life" she explained holding back tears. "My baby" she smiled at Syaoran when he picked Rui up.

"Tomorrow, I'm going to have to inform the authorities and everyone else of your return" Syaoran said softly.

"I know, and as much as I don't want to recall anything I know I will have to. Have they found Ken?" Sakura asked making him shake his head sadly. "Oh, I know that about Atashi and Gwen is in prison. How is everyone? And how are you?" she looked at her husband and wondered how he was. When she had shown up, he looked like he had seen a ghost.

"They are fine, we were all heartbroken when they couldn't find your body. I remember when Ahmed walked through the front door, the way he looked at me told me all. I think I stayed in the hall in my mother's arms for at least an hour," he explained surprising Sakura. She watched him play with Rui and saw how much he had change he was now a father. "And I blamed my self"

"But why?" she burst in disbelief. There was no reason he should blame him self for anything cause it wasn't his fault.

"Because I was the one who had almost cost you your life" he answered shocking Sakura to the core. "If I hadn't seduced you"

"Stop that's enough Xiao Lang" she cut him off sharply making him look at her. Sakura held Hu and moved closer to him, "Listen to me carefully" she looked him in the eyes. "It was you and the boys who kept me going, knowing that I would have you in my life again gave me all I needed to get home. So don't you go saying this is your fault because I will hear none of it" she stated angrily trying to keep her voice steady. "I love you, and I don't regret being married to you or blame you for anything so don't you go doing that" she gave him a lingering kiss on the lips and smiled. "Promise me"

He looked at his beautiful and amazing wife knowing he was going to make it all up to her for the rest of his life. Touching her softly on the lips, he said, "I promise"

"Good cause I wouldn't want to start yelling at you, it's far too early for that" she joked bending down to Rui. "Right Rui?" she caressed his cheek making him giggle before continuing to chew on his toy. A knock a the door made them turn only to see Wei and Avalon, who looked shocked to see Sakura.

"Doctor Avalon, go into Sakura's room" the man nodded dumbly following Wei. Syaoran helped Sakura up, and together they walked out of the room cradling the boys. He looked at Sakura wondering if he was seeing a ghost, surely he had been informed of her untimely demise.

"It's good to see you again, Sakura" he got out finally making Sakura smile sitting on her bed with Hu.

"You as well, so are you going to give me my check up or are you going to just stand there and stare at me?" she replied making him smile placing down his bag.

"What is it that's wrong with you? How are you feeling?" he asked getting his instruments.

"Nothing I know of, I've lost a lot of weight I might need vitamins. And I want to have my blood tested. You told me that it was a lot better for a mother to breast feed and I intend on doing so" she answered making him shake his head. "I want my boys to have the best"

"I understand, well let's start by taking your temperature. When did you return home?" he took her temperature by her ear and wrote it down.

"Over an hour ago" he checked her eyes, before getting his stethoscope. She held Hu's hand when he reached for it. Rosa walked in with food for Sakura and placed it on the small table before taking her leave. She smiled at Wei who returned it; they were still in shock at the sudden arrival of their mistress. The staff had been warned that her presence should be kept a secret until the master said otherwise.

"It's good to have you back," he smiled she returned it. After taking her blood he told them that he would have the results tomorrow morning, and he gave her some vitamins to start taking before he left. *

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* "Are you going to stand here all night and watch them?" Syaoran asked hugging her from behind. Sakura smiled resting her head against his chest, and sigh she wanted to watch them all night.

"I would if I didn't feel like I am about to collapse," she answered reaching to turn the night light on. She watched as moons and stars danced on the walls of the room, looking at her babies she wondered if they would get used to her soon. She hoped they would, she wanted to scoop them into her arms without worrying that they might cry.

"Come we can sleep inside here. This is where I used to sleep anyways" he admitted leading her over to the large bed. "It was too lonely in my room"

"I hope it won't be lonely now that I'm back" she teased; he looked at her and winks pulling the covers back.

"I know I won't Ying Fa," he stated pulling her over to him when they got in bed. Sakura rested her head on her husband's shoulder and welcomed a night of peaceful sleep. Syaoran examined her face; he was still trying to get over the fact that she was actually here in his arms.

Looking up he thanked god again, he had lost count of how many times he had done that. "Are you going to lay here and look at me all night?" he chuckled lightly at her question.

"I was thinking about that" he answered beside her ear sending chills down her spine. Sakura turned in his arms, interlocking their legs, "God has answered my prayer, I love you Ying Fa" He whispered to her like it was there little secret.

"And I you, promise you'll hold me close to you" she said before yawning.

"I promise, rest" she shook her head rubbing it against his chest. Slowly she fell into a slumber listening to the rhythmic beating of his heart. *

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* Giles led Yelen and Lian to Syaoran's office; he knew they hadn't a clue what he had to tell them. "Why do you think he said it was urgent?" she asked Lian who shrugged walking through the door only to see Ahmed sitting down with a cup of coffee.

"Good morning" he said standing up to show respect. "You wouldn't happen to have an idea as to why he wanted to see us did you?" he asked softly making both shake their heads rather sadly.

"Not a clue, I hope it isn't any bad news" Lian sighed sitting down with Yelen. "I don't think I could handle anymore bad news"

"Nor could I, besides I want to see my grandchildren" Yelen stated, just as she was about to get up the door opened and Syaoran walked smiling. "Xiao Lang," he walked over to her and placed a soft kiss on her cheek.

"Good morning mother, father" Lian looked at his son oddly wondering what he had done now.

"I know that smile, what have you done?" Lian asked making him chuckle pushing his hands into his pockets.

"Nothing, but last night god answered my prayers" he answered when the door opened and Sakura walked in looking shy.

"Good Lord!" Yelen exclaimed her hands flying to her throat; they stared at Sakura in disbelief. "Ying Fa?" she gasped wondering if she was loosing it. "Tell me you see Ying Fa standing in front of us"

"I see her" Lian and Ahmed answered before rubbing their eyes making Sakura giggle.

"Ohayo" she greeted clasping her hands before her jean shorts. She needed clothing, she had little that she could fit in and most of her things were for when she was pregnant.

"How? Do you know we just buried you three weeks ago?" Lian spoke, Sakura looked at him knowing it was something Takashi would have said.

"Yeah, I guess you'll have to have it removed because I'm as live as they come. Please stop looking at me like I were a ghost, I'm not going to disappear" they flushed and sat slowly. Syaoran gestured to the chair; making her way over to him she sat beside him.

"It's wonderful to have you back child" Yelen exclaimed knowing that now her son and her grandsons would be taken care of. She looked at Syaoran's face and could see that he was looking better than months ago even though it had only been one night.

"Yeah it is Mrs. Li" Ahmed said clearing his throat. "Um if you don't mind me asking, how did you get away? And where have you been?"

"Sakura is fine," she sighed looking down briefly. "After we left the cabin, Ken went to switch cars it was then that I convinced Atashi that Ken was going to kill both of us. Ken hated me, I sent him to prison and he wanted revenge. Atashi believed what was saying and he took off with me in the back. *

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* "Ah" Sakura screamed when Atashi cut around the sharp corner. She almost knocked her head on the glass, and she was in pain from just giving labor. She looked back only to see Ken gaining on them, "Where are we going?" she yelled clutching the seat for dear life.

"Shut up" Atashi yelled back speeding up. Sakura screamed docking when the glass behind her shattered. Ken was firing on them; she laid down in fear that he might hit her. "Fuck!" She heard him yell but not what for.

She slid across the seat when he turned yet another corner. If she had looked up she would have seen that the bridge he turned on was labeled abandoned.

She heard more firing then all of a sudden the van went out of control and they were spinning around. She thought she was going to die and held on, the back tilt down and she gulped seeing the raging river blew. "Oh god, oh god Atashi" she called fearfully looking up only to see blood dripping from the side of his head. "Ahhh" she screamed when something hit the van. "No!" she yelled losing her grip, she broke through the glass and fell through the back heading toward the water loosing her jacket. *

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* She looked at them, "That's the last thing I remember, I woke up in some kind of river hut. A man took care of me until I was able to move and when I was I ran because I knew that Ken would be looking for me" she swallowed wanting to forget it all. "He was looking for me, a couple of times he barely missed me that's why I had to return by my self and alone without any help. I knew he would be waiting for me if it was broadcasted that I was found" she explained concluding it. "I'm sorry if I caused you any problem"

"Don't apologize, you are a very brave person" Ahmed assured, the other agreeing. He looked at Sakura closely going over her story, "Is there something else you would like to tell me?" he inquired softly. Sakura's eyes darted to his; she looked at him closely only to find him reading her.

"Why?" Syaoran looked at Sakura feeling her tense, something was wrong she wasn't telling them everything.

"It would be helpful" Ahmed answered knowing she was keeping something from him. He could feel it in his bones and he could tell that the family was also starting to sense it. "Like for instance why did it take you this long to return home? If this guy nursed you back health why do you think you are so much thinner than your photos?" Sakura looked down rubbing her hands together. Syaoran looked at Ahmed then his parents finally Sakura who was still looking down.

"There is nothing else that I can tell you that'll help you capture and put that bastard Ken behind bars. If you'll excuse me, I'm going to look at my sons" she got up quickly after saying that leaving the room. No one moved or said a word; Syaoran looked at the door, and was deathly worried about Sakura.

"I think you should have her tell you" Ahmed spoke standing up. "Whether or not it can help with this case, it'll help her" he continued when they stood up as well.

"I will,"

"Good, I'm going to put this through and I'll have my men looking out for this Ken guy. If he's here in Hong Kong we'll get him"

"You do that" Lian spoke then looked at Syaoran and sighed. "We can see that you're going to have to talk with Sakura privately. Once it is settle drop by the house later ay?"

"Yes father" Syaoran followed them out of the room. *

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* She sat in the rocking chair hugging the bear Syaoran had won for her. She didn't have to tell them anything, it wouldn't help and it wasn't important. "I don't have to tell them anything" she whispered when Syaoran walked and latched the door behind him.

"Sakura?" he spoke making her stiffen. He walked in front of her and bent down stopping the chair from rocking. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing is wrong," she answered simply making him frown knowing that it wasn't true.

"You're lying" he accused making her wince, she went to get up but he held her down. He was going to find out what she was keeping from them whether it was useful or not. "What is it?"

"I don't want to tell you, I want to forget it," she cried desperately struggling against him to get up but he held unto her firmly. "Please!"

"No!" she was startled by his outburst and so were the boys because they started to cry. Sakura wanted to go to them but Syaoran's grip on her didn't loosen, she looked at him pleadingly.

"I'm ashamed don't make me tell you" she fell in his arms and he held her.

"Please, let me be there for you" he begged rubbing her back; he wanted to know what was wrong. Sakura's face was in his neck, squeezing her eyes shut she blocked out all the images. "Tell me Ying Fa"

"I was raped" she choked shocking him to the core. "The guy who found me wasn't a good Samaritan. I'm so ashamed, I feel dirty please forgive me," she begged, and he didn't know why she was begging him for his forgiveness. He understood now why she was slender; he probably starved her and violated her.

"Don't ask me to forgive you, I have nothing to forgive you for. I feel like I want to kill that bastard," he growled angrily tightening his hold on her. "That bastard, thank god you are home and safe," he whispered placing a kiss on her forehead. Sakura sat in his arms, and wiped her tears away before hugging him tightly around the torso. He also knew why she wanted to shower, and get her blood tested.

"You aren't mad?" she whispered, he looked down at her and smiled softly.

"Not at you but at the asshole, we need to tell Ahmed so he can put him behind bars"

"You can't," she gasped desperately. "Promise me you won't, please promise"

"Why?" Sakura swallowed closing her eyes, shaking her head she looked at him with glazed eyes.

"Because I killed him" she whispered in a dull tone, "I had to get away somehow. He wouldn't let me leave, he hurt me there was no other way," she cried in a frightened tone. "There was none" Syaoran swallowed wondering what they were going to do now. "What am I going to do?"

"Shhhh, we'll think of something. Come on, I'm sure it can be filed as self defense but we'll have to tell Ahmed about this. How did you do it?"

"I knock him across the head and ran, I didn't look back but I know that he fell to the ground" she answered softly. "I'm sorry to be doing this to you" he shook his head.

"No, no more tears. You're a survivor, we're going to have a long life together and have lots of children but right now we have to get these two under control" he helped her to her feet. Sakura smiled with love in her eyes, she should have known she could trust him. "We'll get through this" he whispered giving her a soft kiss on the lips. "We will"

"I believe you" she replied, they walked over to the boys and picked them up. Earlier that morning Avalon had called in to tell them that Sakura was fine, there was nothing wrong with her and gave her to the go head to start breast-feeding.

"When do you want to call Tomoyo and the others?" Syaoran asked sitting on the sofa beside Sakura who had Hu.

"After we do this, do you think it'll work?" she asked softly. "I mean what if they don't like it?" Syaoran smiled thinking about it.

"If they are anything like me they'll love it" he answered making her turn bright red. She couldn't believe he had just said that, she was trying her to forget about what had happened in the last months. This was her life and she wasn't going to make anyone ruin it for her, she deserved to be happy and god was giving her another chance. *

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Author's note: So do ya'll hate me now? Ya'll probably do still because I stopped it there right? LOL whelp remember to review and tell me what you think okay? Whelp Chao.