Note- I do not own any of the characters. None. I actually don't even own anything, expect maybe Amy who was inspired by S.E. Hinton, whom everything belongs too.

After Johnny and Dally's death, we all changed. It was scary, it was like a wave, it took only one night for it to come and sweep away our personalities, leaving us cold, wet and depressed. Darry became very busy. He was always working. Cleaning, cooking, dusting. He could not stop and rest. It took his mind off of the pain. Steve was mad. All the time. He was just a little blob of anger, no matter what you said- he would take it the wrong way. No matter what. Soda was still Soda, but calmer. It was like he suddenly calmed downed- like he was drunk all his life and now he was dealing with the hangover. Ponyboy was the scariest of the changes. He never talked. Practically never. Sometimes, if he could not answer a question with a yes or a no he would ignore it. He was the worst off of all of us. None of us new why, things happened to him and Johnny, but he wouldn't talk about them. And they were eating him alive, memories, eating him. Am I turning into a poet? They started with his voice. I nearly doubled my wise cracks- I couldn't stop- I HAD to cheer them, push them on, and do something! I would think of a pun, immediately say it and it would come out all wrong. Even worse then that though was, get this, I, Two-Bit Mathews, started acting fatherly to the gang (expect for Darry who was already fatherly to us) and especially Pony, I don't know why though. I just didn't want him to hurt anymore. None of us did. While we tried to get rid of the pain, like swimming a waterfall, he simply let himself go under the water, no longer breathing, pain. Yep-that's the new gang. I hate it. I try as hard as I can to keep the going but they wont. One time, Pony saw me reeling over drunk. I acted as normal as possible and told him to go home and study. I- Me- yes ME told him to study. I didn't want him to see me drunk. I never minded before. At one point of time I acted a little fatherly to my little sister, Amy, who's only 6. I told her to make the right choices in life, never get dunk and stay away from any guys that remind her of me. She asked me if I thought Ken should go to the prom with Barbie or Kelly. Last time I ever did that. I haven't a relationship since they died. I couldn't keep a girl- never could- never will. But now I can't even keep em for more then a day. I will find a cute girl, ask her out, take her out, and then dump her the same day. Darry thought it was funny. Steve wasn't talking to me because I accidentally tripped over his beer, spilling it. Soda thought it was sad. Pony said nothing. Obviously. I couldn't take it anymore. I knew something had to happen. or else life would be done, over, gone... Trust me.. Something happened all right.

Rianne- Sorry it's so short. Hehe. I like to leave a hanging spot.. I will try to make a chapter a day since it's almost summer. How do you like it so far? Please review! Another Note- This is my first book. A Third Note- Please review!