*Tears* I'm so happy with my reviews! I'm gonna cry… I love you all! I truly do!

I want to thank all the little people I had to step on to make this possible… and my baby, Matt…sorry Amy's bein' such a bitch to you in this fic… you know I love ya! Hehehe… I wish he was my baby… anyway… read on…

Hugs N Kisses

~*!*~ JaDe ~*!*~

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Dear Diary,

Okay… two and a half weeks since I've written. I'm ignoring you my poor little diary, and I solemnly apologize.

Adam and Matt got into a fight…and if it weren't for the rest of the boys… Matt would've killed the poor guy.

Somehow-and I emphasize the word- Matt found out about the fooling around between Adam and I. I haven't done anything serious with Adam…I swear… but Matt wasn't having it. He beat the living shit out of Adam. Adam put up a fair fight, but he was no match for Matthew Hardy. I've never seen Matt so angry… it was scary…and yet… real sexy.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

Matt isn't talking to Adam, Adam isn't talking to Jay, Jay isn't talking to me… and poor Jeff and Chris don't know what the hell to do, or whose side to take. I feel really horrible. I'm the cause of it all…but I still don't regret anything. I want to… but I can't. I think I'm crazy, because all I've been doing is laughing.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

I spoke to Matt today. He told me he's not mad at me, and that pisses me off. He said it's Adam who he hates and he said that he knows in his heart that if I could, I would take it all back… he couldn't be more wrong. I actually enjoy what's going on. It's entertaining and we're usually always bored as hell in the damn hotel rooms.

I want me to be the one that Matt is upset with… it was me who started it all, wasn't it? Or maybe it was Adam… he did give me all those signs… but if I loved Matt, I wouldn't have let anything happen.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

I told Matt everything was my fault. He still loves me and forgives me. Am I a goddess or something? Who am I to get such predominance?

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

I know how Matt found out about Adam and I…

Remember how I said that I spilled my heart out to Torrie? I told her everything, everyday, and she always talked to me…she kept me sane. The stupid little blonde bitch told Matt. I confronted her and she said she did it for Matt's sake. Why the hell is she so worried about my boyfriend?

She said, 'Amy, you should consider Matt's feelings.' Who the hell is she? Barney? Mr. Rogers? My mother? Torrie better watch her back because she's got something coming to her.

~ Amy

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