Dear Diary,

If I didn't know any better, I'd say little Torrie is hiding from me. I guess she figured out that what she did was fucked up, and she knows how I react to things. If she doesn't want to get her ass beat, then she'll stay wherever the hell she is.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

Victoria told me she 'idolizes' me. She said she'd been looking for me ever since she found out that I hurt Matt's wrist. She said that it was cool and bizarre and that she should be more like me…that everyone should be more like me… but if everyone were more like me… then this would be one fucked up world.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

I spoke to Matt today. I told him that everything was all my fault and that he doesn't deserve me anymore. He told me I was crazy…like I didn't know that already.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

The days are getting shorter as well as my diary entries. I never have any 'me' time anymore. Everything is always wrestling related, or I'm too busy thinking about Matt and the guys. Speaking of the guys, they're all ignoring me because they're still trying to sort things out in their minds. I haven't seen Adam since his fight with Matt…I wonder if he's okay.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

It's two days later and I finally saw Adam. He didn't have one scratch on him. When I brought up the fight, he had no clue what I was talking about. Then he was like "oh, that fight!" Whatever, he was just being sarcastic. I told him how the guys were all ignoring me and he said that was wrong of them. Finally, someone who's on Amy's side!

We got to talking and he took me out for lunch. It wasn't anything romantic, but it was nice to know that someone was there for me…besides Matt. I just wish it hadn't been Adam…AKA the guy I fooled around with. It would've been a whole lot greater if it were someone like Jeff who I had hung out with. Don't get me wrong, I had a great time with Adam… but… although he didn't flirt with me… I couldn't stop having these little mental images of us together…

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

I keep going out with Adam. Still, it's nothing romantic, but it's really weird. Matt never takes me out, so I'm not used to it. Adam is so cool, and although we have nothing in common, I have a really great time with him. It would be even greater if these damn mental images would stop…

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

I'm still having the mental images…even when I'm not with Adam. They keep happening more frequently and they just keep getting even more X-rated. If they were on TV, I'd be bigger than Pamela Anderson.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

Right now, I'm watching Adam work out and I'm starting to wish that my little fantasies became reality… God, he looks soooooo good.

~ Amy

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