*Jerry Seinfeld voice* Okay people, okay… lol
I got like… 50 billion reviews stating that I was a stupid bitch who should die and burn in hell… lmao, I'm jk… my WONDERFUL FANS (gettin a lil cocky there, huh Jade?) would NEVER say such things… but they did say that I left a cliffhanger and they want more and they can't wait and blah, blah, blah… and so, I decided to be NICE and put this chapter up… DON'T YA LUV ME!?!?!?
Hugs N Kisses
~*!*~ JaDe ~*!*~
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Dear Diary,
I'm so depressed. I haven't eaten or showered in two days. All I've been doing is crying and sleeping.
I keep hearing the constant knocks on the door from any one of the guys all throughout the day. I know they're worried about me, but I'm not going to open the door and let them see me like this. It's not about looks… it's just that… they might think I'm weak now, when I used to be this strong, beautiful, vibrant person.
I'm letting my boys down.
I'm letting me down.
I hate life.
~ Amy
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Dear Diary,
I decided not to believe it. I'm not going to believe that I'm pregnant. I'm going to go out and buy another pregnancy test and prove to myself that the first one was just a false alarm.
~ Amy
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Dear Diary,
I bought my second pregnancy test and this one says it's negative. I don't know which one to believe. I think I'll go buy another one…
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The third test says it's positive. What the hell? Am I pregnant or what?
~ Amy
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Dear Diary,
I'm still depressed and I started to eat.
Well… it's junk food… but it's better than nothing.
~ Amy
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Dear Diary,
I think I may be pregnant – despite what the stupid tests told me. I'm starting to get big… and cranky.
I still haven't made contact with any of the boys.
~ Amy
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Dear Diary,
It's been a week and I couldn't be happier…
I got my period! I've never been so excited to see a blood stain on my panties.
I guess I was gaining weight from all that damn junk I was eating.
Anyway, I actually cried when I saw I had my period. Thank God for blood!!!!!!
Maybe 'getting pregnant' was God's way of punishing me for what I've done to Matt…
Who the hell cares?! I got my period!!!!!!
~ Amy
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Dear Diary,
I saw the boys today, and when they saw me, it was as if they saw Jesus Christ himself. I was smothered with hugs and kisses and all that good stuff. Adam and Matt weren't there, though. Jay told me that Adam had to go and plan some match with Chris Benoit… but he didn't know where Matt was. As a matter of fact… nobody knew where Matt was…
Maybe I should stop writing and go find him?
~ Amy
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Dear Diary,
I found Matt. He said he'd been looking for me, too. He asked me if I was okay and blah, blah, blah. I told him I was fine. What was I gonna tell him?
"Hi baby, I'm sorry I made you worry. I was depressed because I fucked Adam while intoxicated and thought I was pregnant. But I'm not, so you can stop worrying."
Hell no. I kept it plain and simple.
~ Amy
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