As all of you may know, we've lost a WWE Legend recently…

"Classy" Freddie Blassie… and although he may not have considered himself a legend… he was in my book ;)

Rest in Peace, Fred Blassie… you'll always be a legend…

Now read on, you pencil-necked geeks!

Hugs N Kisses

~*!*~ JaDe ~*!*~

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Dear Diary,

I feel myself slipping to a state of depression every now and then. Like when I thought I was pregnant… now it's because I miss Matt so much. I think the guys notice it. I don't want to do the things I used to do all the time. I realize the guys are trying to keep me busy… they care about me, you know? They're so cool. I love them to death.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

Today, while taping RAW, Jerry (Lawler) kept asking me if I was all right. I told him I was fine. I could tell he didn't believe me… I can't fool these guys… not a single one of them. I've been with them all for so long, they're like family. They know me already. They know what's going on without even asking… but if I try to talk to somebody, I'll have a total meltdown. I don't know what to do anymore… I'm so freakin' lost.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

Matt flirts with girls and he doesn't seem sad or anything. Do you have any idea what that puts me through? Oh God, it hurts so bad. I know we're on a break or whatever, but… I still feel like he's MY Matt… I don't want other girls to have him! He's mine!

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

Jeff and Chris were lighting things on fire today. They burned a leaf, a piece of paper, and they killed the caterpillar that was on the leaf… that made Jay sad because he doesn't like fire and he was telling us to imagine how the poor little creature felt. Jeff burned Jay's finger for saying that.

I was actually enjoying watching the little things burn down… until Jeff wanted to move on to bigger and better things… like Jay for example. He tried but I wouldn't let him. He said "Fire makes Jeff happy!"

It's days like this where I don't miss Matt so much… because I'm preoccupied with three of the world's biggest assclowns.

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

Vince told Jeff that he couldn't have his eyebrows two different colors anymore. Jeff got mad and went on strike. He was walking up and down the hallways with a sign made out of loose-leaf that said "Vince shall be assassinated!" Of course, Matt the human dictionary had to step in and say,

"You know, Jeff…you can only assassinate someone for political reasons."

Oh please… Jeff wasn't serious, he was just being stupid. I hate when Matt tries to make himself seem smart. It's so dorky…

~ Amy

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Dear Diary,

I had another 'encounter' with Adam. He wasn't drunk… and he didn't force himself on me again. He was just very rude and demanding. He said he wanted me back… and that if he didn't get me back, he'd kill Matt.

I don't believe him. He wouldn't do such a thing… but Adam is changing and it's not for the better. He's starting to scare me…

he used to be a funny, mellowed out, sarcastic guy that was easy to talk to… now he's just scary. I don't like it one bit. I hate being scared... especially now that I have no one to protect me. Matt and I sleep in different hotel rooms. I don't know if I should tell Matt what Adam said. That would just make him upset and want to fight again… no… I won't tell Matt anything. I'll just keep a close eye on him and make sure Adam is nowhere near him. I hope I'm not putting myself in any danger.

~ Amy

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I would've written more, but… I no feel good =( that's why I had y'all waiting so long… I'm sorry… I'll post a better chapter as soon as I feel better…

Hugs N Kisses,

~*!*~ JaDe ~*!*~