A/N: I'm here again! Lol. Yeah…
DISCLAIMER: I don't own Harry Potter and his world.
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CHAPTER XVIII – Jealousy
Next morning Hermione woke up early. She had cried herself to sleep last night. She couldn't stop thinking about Draco and what he had done to her; he had kissed Pansy in front of her.
Hermione still couldn't understand it. Draco had flirted with her, danced with her….twice, and then he had broke her heart.
Hermione had foolishly thought that Draco might like her even a little bit. The way he had touched her while they were dancing. The way he had held her. And he had almost kissed her too! Why then, all of a sudden, had he kissed Pansy and given Hermione a cruel smirk? Hermione almost could hear his thoughts: "you stupid mudblood think that I'm actually going to fall in love with you?! You are so pathetic!"
'why!?!' Was the only question that was on Hermione's mind. Why had Draco done this?
'Simple answer for a complicated question: he doesn't like me.'
Hermione was sure that Draco didn't really like Pansy. He probably just wanted her to warm his bed. That made Hermione feel even worse. She assumed that Draco liked girls like Pansy: mean, slutty and stupid. So in that case Hermione would be Pansy's opposite. Hermione could try to win Draco to herself but would she win? Hermione was 99 percent sure that she would lose that battle and get humiliated in front of the whole school. Because the truth was that if she told Draco about her feelings and that she loved him, he would cruelly laugh at Hermione and announce the whole school she liked him. And where would that lead? Harry, Ron and all her friends including the whole Gryffindor would turn their backs on her. All Slytherins would bully her about it and probably write to the Daily Prophet about Hermione's big secret. All the others at Hogwarts would laugh at her. It couldn't get worse from there!!
Hermione was already too weak because of Draco… How could one guy do this all?
Hermione was angry at Draco. She totally was. But the sorrow was stronger the anger inside of her and Hermione couldn't do anything else but cry. She wanted to strangle Draco till he would give his last breath….but she couldn't even yell at him.
'damn it! do I have to be so vulnerable?!'
Hermione peeked into the common room just to check that Draco wasn't there when she would walk through. She needed breakfast and couldn't wait any longer. He wasn't there. Hermione was relieved. She couldn't probably face Draco now….or ever. How could she when she felt herself like a total idiot?! Hermione didn't even want to think about what would've happened if she had kissed him. It was already extremely humiliating.
Draco's door opened at the same time when Hermione stepped into the common room. Pansy walked out of Draco's room dragging Draco by his hands. They didn't notice Hermione who had stopped and looked at them mouth open. Pansy and Draco walked to the portrait hole and Pansy turned to him taking his hand and putting it on her butt. She gave him a seductive smile and whispered something to Draco's ear that made him laugh a little. Pansy noticed Hermione over Draco's shoulder and she told that to Draco. He turned to look at Hermione and gave a quick smirk. Then he turned around to face Pansy and kissed her deeply. Everything came back to Hermione. Déjà-vu…
Hermione turned her gaze. She didn't know what to do. The only place she could go now was her room because Pansy and Draco blocked the portrait hole… She really needed to go. It was disgusting to see Pansy and Draco kiss… Pansy even looked like she was full of lust. Maybe she was… But Draco…he didn't look very lusting… No, he looked somewhat uncomfortable. Was it a good sign? Maybe…
'no', Hermione thought.
It would be absolutely useless to stay in hope. There were no 'maybe's'. There were only 'yes's' and 'no's'. One thing was sure though: it looked very disgusting.
Draco and Pansy broke their kiss and Pansy smiled at him. Then she walked through the portrait hole and disappeared.
Draco turned to Hermione and headed where she stood. Hermione looked down when he came to her and stopped.
"ahh, she's good", Draco bragged.
"you're disgusting", Hermione said quietly.
"aww, you're just jealous 'cause your boyfriend doesn't give you."
Draco felt a pinch inside of him. It hurt him to say that but revenge is a revenge.
Hermione lifted her head up and looked into his eyes. Draco noticed that there were tears in her eyes. His heart melted. He wanted to kiss those tears away…he wanted it so much… But she had been toying with him… She had flirted him, she very well knew he liked her, he had also taken a risk and tried to kiss her!
'good that I didn't…otherwise she would be laughing at me with Potter and….her boyfriend…' The image of Ron all over Hermione disgusted Draco. He wanted to be the one! He had taken risks! He was the one who really loved her! …if so, why did he do this to Hermione? Draco thought about it for a second. Hermione had hugged Ron and then given him a kiss on the cheek…it could've been just a friendly peck but still… Draco couldn't get rid of the feeling that he had a competitor, boy named Ron Weasley.
Who would win anyway? Sure Draco was charming and handsome but what if Hermione wanted a guy like Ron Weasley? Draco was totally different than Ron. He is rich but even Draco knew that you can't buy love.
"what do you mean?!" Hermione exclaimed, "My boyfriend?"
"Weasley", Draco said like he couldn't care less, though the truth was that he was jealous of her.
"but hey don't take it out on me if I got lucky last night", Draco said raising his hands.
Hermione wanted to hurt him so bad, she wanted to make him suffer. How could he be so cold?! So mean, snobbish person! This wasn't about Ron. This was about how Draco enjoyed make her suffer like this! It was like he was torturing her!
Instead of hurting him she burst into tears and pushed past him and stormed out of the common room.
'I'm such a wimp!!' Hermione exclaimed to herself as she ran through the halls. 'Why am I even crying?! He's nothing! I should've blocked my tears!'
Hermione saw Neville talking with young lady in a painting. She ran past him not caring what he might think.
Hermione's thoughts wandered to Pansy. What did she have something Hermione didn't?!
'she's a brainless slut!'
What was the thing that made Draco like her? Big breasts? Her reputation? Her… Yes! Her reputation! She is mean, Draco is mean. They both are in Slytherin! They both are purebloods! They both like dark stuff and hate muggleborns! …It was useless. They obviously matched well. Hermione could never be able to be mean to anybody; not even for Draco. Why had she ever even tried to get him?
"Hermione hi!" Harry wawed his hand as she ran past him and Ron.
Harry and Ron looked at each other. Was Hermione crying?
"Hermione? Are you ok?" Harry asked as he and Ron ran to her.
Hermione burst into tears once again and Harry took her into a warm hug. He smoothed her hair and looked at Ron. Ron put his hand on her shoulder.
"what happened Mione?" Harry asked.
"I don't…want to…talk about…it", Hermione sobbed against Harry's chest.
"are you sure? It would help", Ron said.
"no…I don't want…to", Hermione sobbed.
"it's ok… You don't have to", Harry whispered and smoothed her hair once again.
"you have barely touched your food", Ron said when they were eating breakfast at the Great Hall.
"I'm not hungry", Hermione said quietly.
Harry gave Ron each other a worried look. Hermione saw Draco walk into the Great Hall. He looked very satisfied. Instead of sitting next to Pansy, Draco sat himself down next to Crabbe and Goyle. Hermione looked down on her plate.
"you should eat something", Harry said.
"I'm not hungry", Hermione repeated.
"Hermione please…", Ron said putting his hand on Hermione's, "tell us what's wrong."
"I feel perfectly fine", Hermione said smiling little.
"why did you cry thirty minutes ago then?" Harry asked.
Hermione didn't know what to say. Should she tell the truth? No…Harry and Ron wouldn't understand.
"I was just too tired…"
Harry and Ron didn't believe her, which she assumed would happen if she didn't have a proper lie.
"but if you excuse me", Hermione said and stood up, "classes start soon. I have to go…"
Harry and Ron watched her leave the Great Hall.
"something has happened, Harry. She wasn't like that yesterday evening", Ron said.
"yeah… But it's not like this is the first time she doesn't tell us about what happens in her life."
"yes, but this is different, Harry. She has always told us everything if something was wrong", Ron said.
"you're right."
"Harry…", Ron said quietly.
"yeah?"
"what if… I mean, if she feels like we have forgot her or something…"
"what do you mean 'forgot'? We were having fun just yesterday", Harry stated.
"yes. But she has to live with Malfoy and all… She might feel herself outsider or something 'cause we don't see each other much any more."
"umm… I think. We should make her feel better then. Be more friendly with her and stuff like that", Harry suggested.
"you're absolutely right!" Ron smiled.
A/N: Ok, here you go! Lol. I originally planned that I would post two chappies this time but I'm not able to write anymore today so… but I have to post these chapters more often because I'm going on a trip and I'll be away like over three weeks :S I want to finish this story before I go. I have only three weeks before I go and I don't know what to do! :S But I'll do my best and with the support of you people I think I can finish this story before I leave. Phew! Here you go ;)
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