Title: Deceiving happiness
Disclaimer: I don't own Sendoh Akira.
Author's notes: This is a Sendoh's POV, it does not tell a story, just a
thought. A thought that goes through the mind of our smiling Ryonan's ace.
Warning: Kinda insane. Depressing.
Why is everyone smiling?
Why are they smiling even though deep down inside their hearts
They are crying
Desperately crying for help?
Why is it so that everyone tend to act like they are very happy.
When deep down
They are sad
Very sad?
Why am I like them too?
Deceiving myself
Deceiving others.
Why must we put up on a happy front when we know that we are not happy?
What is the reason?
I am not happy.
But yet, I smile.
Why am I smiling?
Why am I deceiving myself as well as others?
Everyone else thinks that I'm truly happy.
But I am not.
Not happy at all.
And deep down
They know it too.
Still, they chose to believe.
Believe that I am happy.
Am I really happy?
Or am I sad?
It is so confusing.
I could not even figure out my feelings.
What is the definition of happy?
What is the definition of sad?
I want to be happy.
That's why I smile?
Is that so?
If yes, is that why I deceive others by smiling and acting happy?
To satisfy myself?
Mask.
I'm wearing a mask.
A mask that satisfy myself.
A mask that satisfy others.
Others who are like myself.
Others who are longing for happiness.
We are acting
Act to satisfy
Satisfy ourselves
Satisfy others
Satisfy everyone
Sad
Why can't we be happy?
Because we are never satisfied
And we are not satisfied
We act happy to satisfy ourselves
Though we can never ever be satisfied
Because we are never happy
Never truly happy
From deep down our hearts
Disclaimer: I don't own Sendoh Akira.
Author's notes: This is a Sendoh's POV, it does not tell a story, just a
thought. A thought that goes through the mind of our smiling Ryonan's ace.
Warning: Kinda insane. Depressing.
Why is everyone smiling?
Why are they smiling even though deep down inside their hearts
They are crying
Desperately crying for help?
Why is it so that everyone tend to act like they are very happy.
When deep down
They are sad
Very sad?
Why am I like them too?
Deceiving myself
Deceiving others.
Why must we put up on a happy front when we know that we are not happy?
What is the reason?
I am not happy.
But yet, I smile.
Why am I smiling?
Why am I deceiving myself as well as others?
Everyone else thinks that I'm truly happy.
But I am not.
Not happy at all.
And deep down
They know it too.
Still, they chose to believe.
Believe that I am happy.
Am I really happy?
Or am I sad?
It is so confusing.
I could not even figure out my feelings.
What is the definition of happy?
What is the definition of sad?
I want to be happy.
That's why I smile?
Is that so?
If yes, is that why I deceive others by smiling and acting happy?
To satisfy myself?
Mask.
I'm wearing a mask.
A mask that satisfy myself.
A mask that satisfy others.
Others who are like myself.
Others who are longing for happiness.
We are acting
Act to satisfy
Satisfy ourselves
Satisfy others
Satisfy everyone
Sad
Why can't we be happy?
Because we are never satisfied
And we are not satisfied
We act happy to satisfy ourselves
Though we can never ever be satisfied
Because we are never happy
Never truly happy
From deep down our hearts
