**Ah yes another chapter to write, another chapter for you to read. Have fun you lucky people you. Also thank you to the few and far between people who have reviewed and emailed me such nice comments. It's nice and uplifting for me.
A friend at school asked me why I am writing this? I told her why. It is because it gives me something to do so that I can escape for a while from the stress of being in my final year at school stressing over exams and papers that I have to finish. It's so nice to just sit down and relax. So that is why. It is my escape from the stress of living my life. It helps me do something that does not require constant thought and concentration and I can just write what fits in with my story plan and I do not need to be precise like I do when I am comparing the murderers in 'The Speckled Band' and 'Oliver Twist'. That is all!
Also I have just found out what Mar means and I would like to say that although it means a disfigurement Mar is not ugly or in any way disfigured.**
Disclaimer: I still do not own Jhonen or any of his characters and/or the Irken race. Nothing new.
When something taunts the mind, body and soul.
"NO! I didn't do it. I didn't kill him, leave us alone!"
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"Wha!?" Tak shot up as she breathed heavily. Her once nicely green body was now pale and covered in a cold and sticky sweat. Her cheeks burned as tears flowed down her face despite the fact that she was not upset about anything. She looked around the room but no one was there.
"A dream? Was it all a dream?" Tak stood up and pulled her damp blanket back as she got up and made her way shakily over to the door.
When she got there she reached out to grasp the handle when she realised that she was trembling rather quite badly. She looked at her arm for a while and then held the other one level to it; they were both shaking. 'It's nothing' she told her self as she shook it of and wearily pulled the handle and pulled the door open. Tak shivered as she stepped onto the cold lino floor tiles while slowly making her way to the bathroom. She reached her destination and entered.
Once she was in she pulled the light pull and the lights came on. Tak closed her eyes and winced as the light hurt her tired weary eyes, she rubbed her eyes and squinted while she got used to the light. When she did she made her way over to the sink and started running the cold tap (it's not like Earth water. Water on Irk has special chemicals so that it does not burn) until there was a sink full of cold water. Tak stared at her exhausted face in the mirror and sighed as another tear slid down the side of her face, dropping with a slight 'plop' as it fell in the half water filled sink. She closed her eyes for a moment and took time to control her breathing, and then she took a deep breath and lowered her face into the sink. The cold water moved about and swirled around her face lapping at the edges where her head was not submerged. Her antennae lightly floated beneath the surface of the water making tiny waves and ripples as they did. After Tak could no longer hold her breath she quickly lunged her head back, flicking the water off her antennae as she gasped for air. She reached for the face cloth and padded her face almost dry and then made her way out of the bathroom. As she walked over to the sideboard she stumbled over the rug as she was still shaking from whatever it was she was feeling, Tak didn't know what she was feeling anymore. As she regained her balance she reached out and grabbed the cord-less telephone and started walking over to the balcony doors.
As the doors swiftly glided open the cool, fresh night air hit her in a gust of playful wind. Tak steeped out onto the cold stone tiles and closed the doors behind her. She gazed at the sleeping city with bright orange street lamps dotted about every few meters or so. She looked over to the clock tower that stood tall and proud over every other building, its florescent green digits lightly glowing the time '4:18am'. Tak placed the phone down on the table and walked over to the railing and peered over the edge, she folded her arms over the railing and rested her head on top.
"It would be so easy to just, give up and... leave it all behind. Never having to worry about... things, not bother about trying to fit in and get jobs done. Wouldn't have a care in the world, cos I ...wouldn't be there. I would be forgotten. What should I do?" Tak looked up at the sky and stared at the stars above, twinkling away, happily dancing on the spot it the deep sapphire sky. Tears once again started to stream down her soft green face falling to the floor making tiny splashes at her cold, bare feet. "What should I do mum? Im so confused and this is killing me. I can't go on like this, and in I fa...fail military school I'll just be a nobody anyway, ...right, I mean that's how it is. Nobody cares unless you're somebody. Who can blame them? But I want to know. I want to know what's left for ME. This cant be it...can it? I want you to be here mum, I need you to be here but it'll never happen. I just want to hold you, and cry to you and I want you to make sure everything's o.k. But it's not, and I can't do those things because your not here. I need your help mum, I aint got no one else." Tak turnt round so she had her back against the railings and slowly slid down so she was sitting, the cold of the stone flooded through her thin cotton night shirt, chilling her to the core, but still she did not care. She pulled her knees into her chest and embraced them with her arms she sat like that for a very long time.
Later still out on the balcony Tak slowly rose to her feet and looked at the clock tower again '4:58am'. She then lifted her leg and placed her feet on the railing standing on one or the horizontal beams across the railings chessboard pattern. She did the same with the other foot until she was standing with the wind blowing against her, brushing her antennae back. Tak looked down again and cringed; she quickly jumped down but collapsed to the floor as her legs started to become so cold that she could only partially feel them.
"Why did you have to die mum? I can't do this on my own." Tak reached up to the table and fumbled around for a bit until she grabbed the phone. She got the phone and held it in her hand as she slowly started to punch in a number. She held it up and waited for a response as it rang on the other end. "Please pick up, please pick up." She waited and waited until the answer phone cut her off. Tak put the phone down and then dialled again and again until someone answered. "I know I shouldn't be calling you at this hour but I need you so much. I want to commit suicide and I need you to stop me." Tak sobbed as she confided in the other person. "I thought about jumping from my balcony. I think I almost did, I got up there and everything but I didn't do it. I felt like I needed to but I don't want to. I saw everything, and I saw me falling, but I wasn't. I jumped down quick and it felt like the ground caved in on me. I almost thought I did do it but then I realised I'd just collapsed. I've been on the balcony for ages. I'm so cold I don't think I can go in. I don't want to die." The recipient spoke on the other end for a while and then stopped. "I'll tell you when you get here. Thanks. I love you." Tak put the phone down and sighed as she looked up at the stars again. "I miss you mum."
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Tak was in a dark grey room strapped down onto a cold metal table. The spotlights were dotted about the room dimly lighting the place making it look all the more grim. Three other Irkens were in the room. One was a guard who was standing at the door as still as a statue, one was manning a large recording machine while also taking notes and the other one stood over Tak with a large staff of some sort, he was asking her all sorts of questions.
"No I didn't do it... I wouldn't, I couldn't."
"But that's just what you want us to think isn't it Tak?"
"No! I don't want you to think anything I want you to realise that I did not kill my husband."
"And who was it. The stalker again?"
"No. Yes. I don't know. All I know is that it wasn't me. You have to believe me...please."
"How do you know you didn't do it?"
"What? What kind of question is that?"
"Okay. that's it!" the interviewer raised his voice with anger and lifted his staff. He viciously rammed it into Tak's side and it flared up with bright blue electricity. Tak's antennae shot up and she screamed an ear piercing scream and arched her back in pain as the electricity surged through her body, burning as it seemed to coarse through her veins. As he took the staff away Tak collapsed back onto the table with a loud thud as she panted, gasping for breath. Her throat felt red raw from screeching like that.
"You bastard..." Tak voice was quiet and raspy as she tried to speak.
"Take the bitch back to her cell!" The interviewer ordered and the guard came and unlocked the restraints, picked Tak up and roughly slung the weakened body over his shoulders. Tak's eyes started to close and slowly she drifted into darkness.
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"Tak! Tak wake up." Mar gently shook Tak, still trying to wake her up. "Come on Tak wake up!" Mar shook her a lil bit harder and she finally started to come round. She stirred a little bit and gradually opened her eyes and saw two blurred figures above her.
"Is she okay?" Tenn looked at Mar for an answer then at Tak. Tak starred as the figures came roughly into focus.
"Tenn, Mar? Is it really you?" Tak slowly sat up and leaned back into Mar's arms.
"Tak why didn't you tell me you were feeling this way?" Tenn's expression was sad and concerned, as she looked down at her cold, weak friend.
"I wanted to but it was too late. At first I didn't think and when I did I was so cold I couldn't get up. I felt so alone and I just wanted someone but no one was there, that's why I called Mar. Im sorry for waking you all up." Tak bit her lip as she refused to cry in front of her friend and her boyfriend. Mar hugged Tak tightly as she sat in his lap. They had brought her inside and yet, she was still so very cold.
"It's okay honey we're here now. Your safe, we'll look after you."
"Yeah Mar's right. And we'll always be here for you no matter what." Tak smiled as she took in what Tenn and Mar had said and it was true, they were always there for her, just like she was for them.
"I know. I was stupid for even thinking I was alone let alone believing it. Im sorry guys."
"Don't be. You want some hot chocolate?" Tenn beamed as she innocently looked at Tak as if it would solve all her problems, which we all know hot chocolate does not have that sort of power.
"Yeah sure Tenn." So with that Tenn got up to leave and make her hot chocolate as Tak and Mar continued to hug on the sofa.
**And another chapter is done. Hope you like it. Sorry if the dreams and reality was confusing, I tried for it to be easy to understand but I don't know if it did. R&R if you want e-mail me or do nothing, what ever suits you best.**
A friend at school asked me why I am writing this? I told her why. It is because it gives me something to do so that I can escape for a while from the stress of being in my final year at school stressing over exams and papers that I have to finish. It's so nice to just sit down and relax. So that is why. It is my escape from the stress of living my life. It helps me do something that does not require constant thought and concentration and I can just write what fits in with my story plan and I do not need to be precise like I do when I am comparing the murderers in 'The Speckled Band' and 'Oliver Twist'. That is all!
Also I have just found out what Mar means and I would like to say that although it means a disfigurement Mar is not ugly or in any way disfigured.**
Disclaimer: I still do not own Jhonen or any of his characters and/or the Irken race. Nothing new.
When something taunts the mind, body and soul.
"NO! I didn't do it. I didn't kill him, leave us alone!"
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"Wha!?" Tak shot up as she breathed heavily. Her once nicely green body was now pale and covered in a cold and sticky sweat. Her cheeks burned as tears flowed down her face despite the fact that she was not upset about anything. She looked around the room but no one was there.
"A dream? Was it all a dream?" Tak stood up and pulled her damp blanket back as she got up and made her way shakily over to the door.
When she got there she reached out to grasp the handle when she realised that she was trembling rather quite badly. She looked at her arm for a while and then held the other one level to it; they were both shaking. 'It's nothing' she told her self as she shook it of and wearily pulled the handle and pulled the door open. Tak shivered as she stepped onto the cold lino floor tiles while slowly making her way to the bathroom. She reached her destination and entered.
Once she was in she pulled the light pull and the lights came on. Tak closed her eyes and winced as the light hurt her tired weary eyes, she rubbed her eyes and squinted while she got used to the light. When she did she made her way over to the sink and started running the cold tap (it's not like Earth water. Water on Irk has special chemicals so that it does not burn) until there was a sink full of cold water. Tak stared at her exhausted face in the mirror and sighed as another tear slid down the side of her face, dropping with a slight 'plop' as it fell in the half water filled sink. She closed her eyes for a moment and took time to control her breathing, and then she took a deep breath and lowered her face into the sink. The cold water moved about and swirled around her face lapping at the edges where her head was not submerged. Her antennae lightly floated beneath the surface of the water making tiny waves and ripples as they did. After Tak could no longer hold her breath she quickly lunged her head back, flicking the water off her antennae as she gasped for air. She reached for the face cloth and padded her face almost dry and then made her way out of the bathroom. As she walked over to the sideboard she stumbled over the rug as she was still shaking from whatever it was she was feeling, Tak didn't know what she was feeling anymore. As she regained her balance she reached out and grabbed the cord-less telephone and started walking over to the balcony doors.
As the doors swiftly glided open the cool, fresh night air hit her in a gust of playful wind. Tak steeped out onto the cold stone tiles and closed the doors behind her. She gazed at the sleeping city with bright orange street lamps dotted about every few meters or so. She looked over to the clock tower that stood tall and proud over every other building, its florescent green digits lightly glowing the time '4:18am'. Tak placed the phone down on the table and walked over to the railing and peered over the edge, she folded her arms over the railing and rested her head on top.
"It would be so easy to just, give up and... leave it all behind. Never having to worry about... things, not bother about trying to fit in and get jobs done. Wouldn't have a care in the world, cos I ...wouldn't be there. I would be forgotten. What should I do?" Tak looked up at the sky and stared at the stars above, twinkling away, happily dancing on the spot it the deep sapphire sky. Tears once again started to stream down her soft green face falling to the floor making tiny splashes at her cold, bare feet. "What should I do mum? Im so confused and this is killing me. I can't go on like this, and in I fa...fail military school I'll just be a nobody anyway, ...right, I mean that's how it is. Nobody cares unless you're somebody. Who can blame them? But I want to know. I want to know what's left for ME. This cant be it...can it? I want you to be here mum, I need you to be here but it'll never happen. I just want to hold you, and cry to you and I want you to make sure everything's o.k. But it's not, and I can't do those things because your not here. I need your help mum, I aint got no one else." Tak turnt round so she had her back against the railings and slowly slid down so she was sitting, the cold of the stone flooded through her thin cotton night shirt, chilling her to the core, but still she did not care. She pulled her knees into her chest and embraced them with her arms she sat like that for a very long time.
Later still out on the balcony Tak slowly rose to her feet and looked at the clock tower again '4:58am'. She then lifted her leg and placed her feet on the railing standing on one or the horizontal beams across the railings chessboard pattern. She did the same with the other foot until she was standing with the wind blowing against her, brushing her antennae back. Tak looked down again and cringed; she quickly jumped down but collapsed to the floor as her legs started to become so cold that she could only partially feel them.
"Why did you have to die mum? I can't do this on my own." Tak reached up to the table and fumbled around for a bit until she grabbed the phone. She got the phone and held it in her hand as she slowly started to punch in a number. She held it up and waited for a response as it rang on the other end. "Please pick up, please pick up." She waited and waited until the answer phone cut her off. Tak put the phone down and then dialled again and again until someone answered. "I know I shouldn't be calling you at this hour but I need you so much. I want to commit suicide and I need you to stop me." Tak sobbed as she confided in the other person. "I thought about jumping from my balcony. I think I almost did, I got up there and everything but I didn't do it. I felt like I needed to but I don't want to. I saw everything, and I saw me falling, but I wasn't. I jumped down quick and it felt like the ground caved in on me. I almost thought I did do it but then I realised I'd just collapsed. I've been on the balcony for ages. I'm so cold I don't think I can go in. I don't want to die." The recipient spoke on the other end for a while and then stopped. "I'll tell you when you get here. Thanks. I love you." Tak put the phone down and sighed as she looked up at the stars again. "I miss you mum."
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Tak was in a dark grey room strapped down onto a cold metal table. The spotlights were dotted about the room dimly lighting the place making it look all the more grim. Three other Irkens were in the room. One was a guard who was standing at the door as still as a statue, one was manning a large recording machine while also taking notes and the other one stood over Tak with a large staff of some sort, he was asking her all sorts of questions.
"No I didn't do it... I wouldn't, I couldn't."
"But that's just what you want us to think isn't it Tak?"
"No! I don't want you to think anything I want you to realise that I did not kill my husband."
"And who was it. The stalker again?"
"No. Yes. I don't know. All I know is that it wasn't me. You have to believe me...please."
"How do you know you didn't do it?"
"What? What kind of question is that?"
"Okay. that's it!" the interviewer raised his voice with anger and lifted his staff. He viciously rammed it into Tak's side and it flared up with bright blue electricity. Tak's antennae shot up and she screamed an ear piercing scream and arched her back in pain as the electricity surged through her body, burning as it seemed to coarse through her veins. As he took the staff away Tak collapsed back onto the table with a loud thud as she panted, gasping for breath. Her throat felt red raw from screeching like that.
"You bastard..." Tak voice was quiet and raspy as she tried to speak.
"Take the bitch back to her cell!" The interviewer ordered and the guard came and unlocked the restraints, picked Tak up and roughly slung the weakened body over his shoulders. Tak's eyes started to close and slowly she drifted into darkness.
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"Tak! Tak wake up." Mar gently shook Tak, still trying to wake her up. "Come on Tak wake up!" Mar shook her a lil bit harder and she finally started to come round. She stirred a little bit and gradually opened her eyes and saw two blurred figures above her.
"Is she okay?" Tenn looked at Mar for an answer then at Tak. Tak starred as the figures came roughly into focus.
"Tenn, Mar? Is it really you?" Tak slowly sat up and leaned back into Mar's arms.
"Tak why didn't you tell me you were feeling this way?" Tenn's expression was sad and concerned, as she looked down at her cold, weak friend.
"I wanted to but it was too late. At first I didn't think and when I did I was so cold I couldn't get up. I felt so alone and I just wanted someone but no one was there, that's why I called Mar. Im sorry for waking you all up." Tak bit her lip as she refused to cry in front of her friend and her boyfriend. Mar hugged Tak tightly as she sat in his lap. They had brought her inside and yet, she was still so very cold.
"It's okay honey we're here now. Your safe, we'll look after you."
"Yeah Mar's right. And we'll always be here for you no matter what." Tak smiled as she took in what Tenn and Mar had said and it was true, they were always there for her, just like she was for them.
"I know. I was stupid for even thinking I was alone let alone believing it. Im sorry guys."
"Don't be. You want some hot chocolate?" Tenn beamed as she innocently looked at Tak as if it would solve all her problems, which we all know hot chocolate does not have that sort of power.
"Yeah sure Tenn." So with that Tenn got up to leave and make her hot chocolate as Tak and Mar continued to hug on the sofa.
**And another chapter is done. Hope you like it. Sorry if the dreams and reality was confusing, I tried for it to be easy to understand but I don't know if it did. R&R if you want e-mail me or do nothing, what ever suits you best.**
