** Ok here we go. I'm trying another chapter. I'm sorry if it is not up to the previous chapters standards but I am trying to get back into the story of this fic.

AN/ The older Tak from the future is here on known as the vision. Just so you don't get too confused. Tak's future self who tell her all this stuff is written as the vision so that Tak and Tak doesn't get confusing.**

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So that could be me?

Tak and Mar strolled along the beach holding hands, soft sand cushioning their feel as the walked along. The sun was setting and the sky was an array of beautiful colours, which sparkled on the waters surface with the sound of gentle waves lapping against the shore quietly, surfed the air. It was a fairy tale setting, everything was so perfect, the only problem was, Tak was depressed again.

Tak thought about what the other person from her dreams said; about having to go and leave behind the single most important thing she loves the most. But the only thing Tak loved in a way like that was...Mar, and she could never leave him.

" Mar..." Tak trailed off her sentence and looked away out to the ocean. Mar looked at her and sighed then he stopped walking.

" Tell me, Tak. I need to understand you so I can help." Tak just kept her eyes sadly half closed still looking to the ocean and beyond. Her antennae swayed quietly in the breeze and her dress brushed against her legs.

' He can't help you.' A familiar voice spoke in her head.

" I know." Tak sighed. Mar looked at her and shook his head.

" If you know then why wont you talk to me?"

' Why are you hurting yourself? I know it hurts you to be with him.'

" Because it would hurt either way." Tak walked closer to the water and stood so the waves swam around her leather-clad ankles.

" Tak, I want to be here for you. I want to make sure it wont hurt."

' Will it hurt more or less?' The words echoed in Tak's head for a second before she spoke.

" I don't know." Mar looked shocked at Tak's reply, he stared at her then looked away.

" You don't know if you want me to be here for you? Tak what's this all about?" Mar turnt around so his back was now facing Tak's back. " I don't think I understand this, Tak."

' It will hurt less, because you wont know what will happen. How can it hurt if you do not know what it is? You'll be better away from this place.'

" I don't know. Maybe I'd know if you told me what will happen." Mar spun round and stepped forward a bit.

" How can I tell you what I don't know!?" His voice raised but he still received no response from Tak.

' I cannot tell you. I cannot alter the past; it has to be your decision. I am simply advising you.'

" Then you're not helping me..." Tak flopped down and sat in the wet sand beneath her with a sigh and a splash of water. Mar shook his head and walked over to her. " Can anyone help me?"

" I want to help you Tak. Why are you being this way!" Mar grabbed her shoulders and shook her a bit. Tak looked at him in surprise.

" Being what way? I haven't said anything to you."

" But all that stuff, I... I heard it, you said it." He sat down by her as both their expressions saddened.

" I wasn't talking to you...I cant..." Mar then suddenly shot up again and had a hint of not anger but disappointment in his eyes, Tak didn't like that look, it made her feel guilty. But there was no way she could talk to Mar about this. He'd never believe that all this was because some dream person who is an older, emotionally broken and possibly dysfunctional version of herself.

" Why hun? Why can't you talk to me? That's what lovers do, we help each other out." A tear fell from Tak's large deep purple eye and she looked away quickly.

" I just can't tell you! I... I'm sorry."

" Well you don't seem sorry!"

" That's not fair Mar and you know it!" Tak was now standing again and her glare was fixed on Mar, but he didn't flinch. " I don't want to tell you. Respect my wishes will ya?" As Tak started to walk away Mar watched her, not knowing whether to stand his ground and stay put, or to give up and chase after her.

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" Oh god! I should have gone after her! I have no clue where she is..." Mar was pacing the room as Tenn and Zephyr just watched.

" Ummmm, she'll come back right? I mean you can't have pissed her off that much surely." Zephyr pushed Mar into a chair while Tenn handed him a drink.

" But she wasn't pissed Zeph. She was really upset and, stuff." A worried look crossed Tenn's face as she glanced across to Zephyr who didn't seem to realise the difference.

" That is not good..." Tenn sighed as she walked into the kitchen to get another drink. " You know she's fragile at the moment Mar. What happened?" Mar scratched his head as his left antennae twitched.

" She was saying stuff and I was answering and her answers made me angry then she told me she wasn't talking to me because I couldn't understand and because she just can't and..."

" Whoa man take a breath will ya! Geeze." Zephyr pushed Mar's drink to his mouth and made him take a large drink from it. " Better?" Mar nodded for yes then hid his head in his hands.

" I'm such a fool. I just lost the best girl I ever had." Tenn giggled as she re entered the living room.

" Come on, a tiny little argument is hardly gonna break you two up. Your like two surfaces bonded with super glue, nothing much is gonna break you two apart."

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Tak was back at the nature park, it seemed to be the only place she could be alone. Apart from the fact that her other self was always there.

" You do that and you'll be bringing more pain into your life and that of another."

" But I've always dreamt of it, and Mar has too we've talked about it!" Tak stared at her reflection in the lake when suddenly the water parted and the older vision of herself rose from beneath then the water surrounded her like normal. She reached up and grabbed Tak by the shoulders and pulled her into the water with her. Tak screamed with surprise as her whole body was submerged in water. The vision who still had hold of her shoulders pulled her above the surface and Tak gasped for air.

" You must believe me Tak! I want to stop you from having the life I had, because I know it will be the same for you. I don't want any to feel the pain I did. I don't want you to be hurt." Tak's antennae limply drooped down the back of her head, held down by the wet. A tear slipped down her cheek as a pain shone in her eyes.

" You're hurting me now! All this crap you keep telling me makes me hurt." The vision looked down at Tak with saddened eyes, the moon's reflection shining on the metal pipe implanted on the left side of her head. The vision moved a hand off Tak's shoulder and slowly raised her hand to the implant, carefully tracing the details with her fingers as a tear ran freely from her eye.

" I don't want you to have one of these. They hurt like hell and look unsightly too. Plus we don't need them. I don't want you to have these either." The vision still looking down at Tak rolled up her sleeves. " So perfect. Your skin, beautiful, soft and untouched." The vision then took of her glove and rolled u her own sleeve. Tak gasped at the sight. A vast array of cuts and bruises covered her dried out skin. Tak traced a cut with her fingers surprised at how swollen the surrounding area was, it would surely leave a scar, a scar like the others that crept up her arm.

" How..." Tak whispered in a low voice still staring in shock at the terrible condition of the arm that once looked like her own.

" They did it to me, and that's not the worst. I have other scars. The people at the place beat me, fun, that's all I am to them. And I'm defenceless against it, locked in a small room wearing nothing but a uniform consisting of a vest and small shorts. With nowhere to go and nothing to protect myself with, my hands are bound and I am open to attack. And they beat me, often breaking my skin with the merciless blows their fists inflict on me, but often deliberately cutting me with blades or any sharp object lying around." Tak couldn't believe what she was hearing, but she could see the marks so she knew it was true. And she was being told that the same thing would happen to her. The thought scared Tak, but still she knew she couldn't leave Mar, after all things might work out differently this time...right?

" Why do you let them do it to you?" The vision looked away from Tak and wiped a tear away from her eye.

" Because there is nothing I can do to stop them."

" Oh. But here, now, you're real right? I can here you, I can see you and I can even touch you."

" Yes I am as real as you are, I am no longer coming to you as a vision, here now I am here as a person."

" So then why don't you stay here? You don't have to go back to that place." The vision looked at Tak with doubtful disappointed eyes.

" I cannot stay here. It is not right to mess about with the past present or future unless extremely necessary. I can't stay here because it would alter my time and this time you live in. I can only wish to help you out by giving you information on what I know. I can not do any more then that."

" So where do I have to go to change things?"

** Oh no! Could it be Tak is actually debating whether to go away or to stay where she is now with Mar? You will have to read the next chapter to find out.

BY THE WAY! Could I please get some reviews on what you all think about this? Something to me doesn't feel right about this story and I would be very glad if you could help me try and pinpoint it. Reviewing only take a few minutes guys. If you do not want to make a public review please feel free to e-mail me at AquillaAik@aol.com **