What I Want, Chapter Nine.

"Jean.Jean, please, stop." He pulled her arms from around his neck, and backed away from her.

"Why? We've been apart almost a week and a half. I need you so bad."

"We need to talk." She pulled his mouth back to hers, but he didn't respond at all.

"We can talk later." She said. "Please."

"No.I need to.we need to talk."

"Argh!" She groaned, then fell onto the bed. "Fine, talk." She began to unbutton her shirt, as he started pacing.

"Jean." He began, then paused, as he looked at her.

"Yeah, that's my name." She replied, then peeled off her shirt.

"Things haven't been.good.between us for a long time." He said. "You know that as well as I do."

"The sex is still good." She said, then took off her bra, and began crawling towards him. "That's all I want right now."

"Jean, that's not the point." He paused, then threw a blanket at her. "And we're not doing that right now."

"Scott, please, come on."

"I need to talk to you. Things changed when you were gone."

"Things changed when you were gone." She mocked him playfully. "Come on, I just want to fuck."

"No, not right now. I already told you. Now would you please listen."

"Fine." She said, then moved up the bed and sat against the head board.

"We both know that this, between us, has been over for a long time." He said. "And, while you were gone, um, I."

"Kitty." She said.

"Yeah." He replied, then sighed. "How did you know?"

"You can't shield your dreams, Scott. I see her almost every night. Doing things to you."

"I'm so sorry." He said.

"Don't worry about it." She said, beginning to tear up. "Like you said, we both knew it was over before this happened."

"Jean, I'm sorry." He said. "I really am.I just, I think I love her, and, I can't keep lying to you, because I love you too."

"Scott, no." She said, then walked up to him. "It's okay. I understand. It has been over for a long time.but I do still love you.just, not like that anymore, I guess."

"Yeah." He said, then pulled her into his arms in a hug. "I love you too."

That, of course, was the moment Kitty decided to peek through the door.

She wasn't trying to invade their privacy, she really wasn't.but she couldn't stand not to know.

And now, she did. She ducked out as quickly as she could, crying softly. Of course he had been right, no one could love her after what had happened.

"Thank you." Scott said, moving back from Jean. "I can't tell you how grateful I am for this.understanding."

She nodded. "I do understand." She said. "But could you.do me a favor, and, um, not." She choked up, something strangling her voice in her throat. Her lips were trembling, and she was trying hard not to cry. ".do anything in public with her. I don't want to.I want to have time to come to terms with it."

"Okay." He said. "Jean, I didn't, do anything with her while you were gone."

"I know." She said. "But, I just, need time to adjust, okay."

"Yes." Then he wrapped his arms around her again. "I'm going to go talk to the professor about getting a new room."

"Okay." She said. "Is it okay if I stay in this one?"

"Jean, it's always been your room." He said. "Of course you can." He went to the corner and picked up a bag that he had packed that morning. "I'll be back tonight for this.and to give you the other key.I'll come back some other time for the rest of my stuff."

"Okay Scott." She said. "Goodbye."

"Jean." He said. "You don't hate me for this, do you?"

"Of course I do." She said. "But only a little. It's okay.neither of us were happy in this relationship, and I'm sure we'll be much happier out of it." She smiled through the eminent tears. "Now get out. You don't want to leave her waiting for too long."

"I hope we can still be friends."

"We can." She said. "It'll just take a while. Now, leave."

"Goodbye."

"'Bye." She said, and, when the door was closed, she collapsed onto the bed crying.

Of course she didn't love him that much.but it still hurt to be usurped by another woman, and.well, she thought he was her future. But, not anymore.