Lizzie's eyes fluttered open at his touch. This was Gordo. Her Gordo. It
felt so right but.......
"This is so wrong." Huh? She didn't realize that she had said that out loud. Wait... She didn't. Gordo had stopped and looked up at her. "Lizzie..... I can't believe what I was about to do. I.. I.. My God. Lizzie. We almost." He got up and started pacing. His mind was a deep hole of confusion. He hated himself at that moment. He hadn't even thought of anything like that with Lizzie before. Yeah he loved her and wanted to be with her but in the holding hands, sneaking kisses and cuddling sort of way. He didn't want to BE with her. A mental image flashed through his head causing an instant bodily reaction. David stop lying to yourself. It had felt so right in his heart but his mind had told him otherwise. He knew that it was wrong. Or did he. He didn't know much of anything at the moment.
"Gordo?.... Gordo...... GORDO! Stop pacing and talk to me!" She cut into his reverie. He looked up into her beautiful brown eyes staring innocently at him. Big mistake! He felt even more guilty. He had almost stolen that innocence from her. He started to pace once more trying to go over the events in his brain. Where did they cross the line. More importantly where had he cross the line from good old angelic Gordo to... to pervert. He knew if he asked his parents for advice they would give him "the talk" again and tell him that all that was natural and mention the words hormones fifty million times but that wasn't going to help him now. He needed to know how to handle these new feelings and he needed to know now.
"Gordo!!??!" He heard a sob in her voice. Great. On top of everything he had made her cry. She looked at him with the expression of a rabbit caught in a trap. Scared and in pain. He knew her face mirrored his own. "Gordo, what just happened?"
"Lizzie. I don't know what to say. I feel so guilty. I know that I'm sorry isn't enough but I truly am.... I think I should go back home."
"Gordo no! Don't leave me. We need to talk this out." She had put up a brave front. "Gordo I felt something just now. I don't know what it is but it... it felt right. My heart said yes but my head said no. I actually felt attracted to you. Wait. No. That came out wrong. Gordo. I've liked guys before but not like this. This is deeper. Not only emotionally deeper but physically deeper. I'm not making any sense am I?" With that her eyes started to tear up again and Gordo moved back to her side.
" Shhh. Yes you are. I know what you mean. I felt it too but Lizzie we can't have-"
"I know.... What are we going to do?"
"Well, as my Dad would probably say. We're turning into adults and experiencing adult emotions so we should handle this in an adult manner. We need to set some boundaries before we get too serious like we almost did. What do you think?"
"Ok... so I think that anything that we can't do in front of our parents. Not like oh that's so embarrassing they caught us kissing but like check the classifieds for a place to live 'cause they'll kick me out if they saw us. Anything that isn't above board isn't allowed. What do YOU think?"
"I agree.. oh and uh Lizzie, I don't know if this is the best time but I don't want to keep any secrets from you no matter what they are." Lizzie grew apprehensive. What secret did he have? "Today, no this week has made me realize something. I love you Lizzie. And I'm not taking those words lightly. They mean a lot. No don't say anything" She was just about to respond "I don't have to hear it now. When you say it I want you to mean it." He stared straight into her eyes. He was no longer afraid of rejection. It was more of an acceptance that she didn't love him. Yet. She will and he could wait.
"But I do mean it Gordo. I love you. I always have. Only now its taken on a new dimension. A dimension I want you to know about. I can't keep secrets from you either. No space in my heart for them, you took it all up." She smiled tenderly and hugged him.
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Hi everybody. Chase here. Thanx for the reviews. MY BABY FINALLY REVIEWED! Even though he acted as if he didn't know me and stuff. No scene. Oops I'm using slang. No scene means That's ok , No problem etc. etc. N E WAY! Adelaine darling. As you can see they didn't have sex. I never intended for them too. I knew that it would have been grossly out of character. As it was I was feeling guilty for even letting them start but I felt that it was an issue that needed to be addressed. There are way too many teens in the world today that don't quite understand their new emotions and unfortunately in their confusion they "go along with the flow" I chose to demonstrate what I though was a responsible reaction to the initial situation. People also need to know that even after being well informed about sex and hormones (as Gordo obviously is) the temptation still exists and ignoring it could lead to trouble. TALK IT OUT! If you can't even talk to your boyfriend/ girlfriend about sex then you obviously shouldn't be doing it with them. OK! Enough of my public service announcement before I start morph into Pastor Chase for y'all. I just want to say... know what you're doing and well be sure that its the right choice for you.
Oh and Don I know that I literally forced you to read this and you're probably gonna make me pay dearly for making you go to a chick flick too but I just want to say I love you and thanks for doing it. It meant a lot to me.
Tha rest of you... I can hear your awwwwws. Whatever. I aint embarrassed. I do love him.
Till tha next time
Afro_dite.
"This is so wrong." Huh? She didn't realize that she had said that out loud. Wait... She didn't. Gordo had stopped and looked up at her. "Lizzie..... I can't believe what I was about to do. I.. I.. My God. Lizzie. We almost." He got up and started pacing. His mind was a deep hole of confusion. He hated himself at that moment. He hadn't even thought of anything like that with Lizzie before. Yeah he loved her and wanted to be with her but in the holding hands, sneaking kisses and cuddling sort of way. He didn't want to BE with her. A mental image flashed through his head causing an instant bodily reaction. David stop lying to yourself. It had felt so right in his heart but his mind had told him otherwise. He knew that it was wrong. Or did he. He didn't know much of anything at the moment.
"Gordo?.... Gordo...... GORDO! Stop pacing and talk to me!" She cut into his reverie. He looked up into her beautiful brown eyes staring innocently at him. Big mistake! He felt even more guilty. He had almost stolen that innocence from her. He started to pace once more trying to go over the events in his brain. Where did they cross the line. More importantly where had he cross the line from good old angelic Gordo to... to pervert. He knew if he asked his parents for advice they would give him "the talk" again and tell him that all that was natural and mention the words hormones fifty million times but that wasn't going to help him now. He needed to know how to handle these new feelings and he needed to know now.
"Gordo!!??!" He heard a sob in her voice. Great. On top of everything he had made her cry. She looked at him with the expression of a rabbit caught in a trap. Scared and in pain. He knew her face mirrored his own. "Gordo, what just happened?"
"Lizzie. I don't know what to say. I feel so guilty. I know that I'm sorry isn't enough but I truly am.... I think I should go back home."
"Gordo no! Don't leave me. We need to talk this out." She had put up a brave front. "Gordo I felt something just now. I don't know what it is but it... it felt right. My heart said yes but my head said no. I actually felt attracted to you. Wait. No. That came out wrong. Gordo. I've liked guys before but not like this. This is deeper. Not only emotionally deeper but physically deeper. I'm not making any sense am I?" With that her eyes started to tear up again and Gordo moved back to her side.
" Shhh. Yes you are. I know what you mean. I felt it too but Lizzie we can't have-"
"I know.... What are we going to do?"
"Well, as my Dad would probably say. We're turning into adults and experiencing adult emotions so we should handle this in an adult manner. We need to set some boundaries before we get too serious like we almost did. What do you think?"
"Ok... so I think that anything that we can't do in front of our parents. Not like oh that's so embarrassing they caught us kissing but like check the classifieds for a place to live 'cause they'll kick me out if they saw us. Anything that isn't above board isn't allowed. What do YOU think?"
"I agree.. oh and uh Lizzie, I don't know if this is the best time but I don't want to keep any secrets from you no matter what they are." Lizzie grew apprehensive. What secret did he have? "Today, no this week has made me realize something. I love you Lizzie. And I'm not taking those words lightly. They mean a lot. No don't say anything" She was just about to respond "I don't have to hear it now. When you say it I want you to mean it." He stared straight into her eyes. He was no longer afraid of rejection. It was more of an acceptance that she didn't love him. Yet. She will and he could wait.
"But I do mean it Gordo. I love you. I always have. Only now its taken on a new dimension. A dimension I want you to know about. I can't keep secrets from you either. No space in my heart for them, you took it all up." She smiled tenderly and hugged him.
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Hi everybody. Chase here. Thanx for the reviews. MY BABY FINALLY REVIEWED! Even though he acted as if he didn't know me and stuff. No scene. Oops I'm using slang. No scene means That's ok , No problem etc. etc. N E WAY! Adelaine darling. As you can see they didn't have sex. I never intended for them too. I knew that it would have been grossly out of character. As it was I was feeling guilty for even letting them start but I felt that it was an issue that needed to be addressed. There are way too many teens in the world today that don't quite understand their new emotions and unfortunately in their confusion they "go along with the flow" I chose to demonstrate what I though was a responsible reaction to the initial situation. People also need to know that even after being well informed about sex and hormones (as Gordo obviously is) the temptation still exists and ignoring it could lead to trouble. TALK IT OUT! If you can't even talk to your boyfriend/ girlfriend about sex then you obviously shouldn't be doing it with them. OK! Enough of my public service announcement before I start morph into Pastor Chase for y'all. I just want to say... know what you're doing and well be sure that its the right choice for you.
Oh and Don I know that I literally forced you to read this and you're probably gonna make me pay dearly for making you go to a chick flick too but I just want to say I love you and thanks for doing it. It meant a lot to me.
Tha rest of you... I can hear your awwwwws. Whatever. I aint embarrassed. I do love him.
Till tha next time
Afro_dite.
