Jade: Thank you! I hope you like this one!
Lyn: Aww! Thank you soo much! That was such a lovely e-mail. I had worried that it was a bit off-character.
Kirsten: Thank you! You are lovely!
Cazy: Well. What can I say?
Sorry this one is so short!! I think the chapters will be shorter from now on,
but frequent! I think that is better
than long but far apart? Please review!! It realllly does make me do more! Oh
and I hope you guys read the lyrics! I really try and make them very symbolic and
part of the story! Please review what you think of them! Good or bad!
Song in this episode is 'Goodbye to you' Michelle Branch!
Lyrics are between these lines: ----
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--I still get lost in your eyes--
"Buffy?"
The blonde, turned away from the plane window, and shook herself out of the teary daze she had been slipping into.
"Yeah?" she tried to put on a smile for Dawn, but it was empty and they both knew it.
"I'm gonna go sit in the seat by Giles. I wanna ask him more about England."
"Ok."
Buffy groaned at the headache that had settled to suck at her brain. All she had been thinking about was Spike. She thought that leaving him would make the memories fade away. But she could see him; feel him as if he were right there, making her loose herself.
~~~~~~~~flashback: memory~~~~~~~~~~~
"You need to find yourself, pet."
"Spike, its so- it's so hard." She breathed out, a choking sound accompanying the heartbreaking statement.
"Buffy, you're back on earth again. I know that hurts. It hurts me too. It kills me, pet. But - you. Are. Back. You need to live, luv. It's been too long Buffy. Nearly a year! It can be good, it can be so good. Try."
"I can't do it Spike! You don't know what its like to just come back to life! You don't HAVE to! You couldn't possibly understand!"
"I could."
And he did. Spike joined Buffy in the land of the living. Since Willow had 'helped' him out, he was as free as anyone else. He could go in the sun, for a limited amount of time, yes, but still – Willow was working on that. He no longer needed blood and to be honest, he didn't want it.
Spike got a job. Spike got a birth certificate, a passport and an existence. All over again, just like Buffy had done. Spike had enrolled in college just as Buffy had done. Spike had to patrol just like Buffy did. Spike was Buffy and Buffy was Spike. They did it together. Everything Buffy had to do, Spike had to do. Every test Buffy had to face – Spike faced too. At home, in school and on patrol. If Dawn was pissed at Buffy, she was most likely pissed at Spike too. If a professor was angry that Buffy hadn't finished an assignment, they were angry that Spike too hadn't finished the assignment. If a demon tried to kill Buffy – well, that one never happened. Spike was always in front of her, wasn't he?
And so, life had gone on. They breathed each other for a long, long time. For nearly two and a half years, Buffy and Spike were one and the same. But things change. People get better. And Buffy no longer felt dead. And neither did Spike. They had brought each other to life and proceeded to keep each other alive.
But things, I fear, do change.
--And it seems that
I can't live a day without you--
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TBC
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