Disclaimer: nada esta mine except Sara!
Lots of notes, so you can skim down this bit straight to
fic after the: – General things to say
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This is a short one, and until nxt weekend they will all probably be quite
short, but hopefully one a day! I do have a lot of assignments and stuff, but
this week is looking to be lighter than usual (I hope!)
The reviews really do make my day and convince me to keep writing – A review a
day keeps the writers block away!!! Thank you to everyone who reviews – you are
absolute gems:
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Kirsten and J : Thank you!!
T_geyer: You are a great reviewer – worse things? I don't think the reunion will be what you expect, I'm a bit iffy on it myself, but we'll see hoe it goes!! Aww, Spike will be ok! I love him!!!!
James Marsters seemed like a lovely guy when I MET HIM!!! He he, it was at an awards ceremony in June, in Blackpool – SFX. I have a picture with him, and its signed!! He was very nice, and his ARMS WERE ROUND ME!!! OH LORD!! I felt like such a dope though, I went totally blank, he whispered, reallllyyy sweetly 'I'm sorry you had to wait so long' (and believe me, we really DID have to wait an age!) and I, like the FREAK that I am, said 'Its ok.'. Can you believe it? Sooo many alternatives and I turn to GOO!! On top of that, when I got to ask him a question – I am ashamed – thoroughly ashamed to say I turned into an abominable flirt! I couldn't stop myself! My voice went all funny and I was just plain 'SHAG ME'. It was SO humiliating!! I hope I have as good a time next year!!!
LexiaReinL Thank you! I was very whoomped after that last chapter – that's why this one is quite short!
Lyn: Thank you SO SO SO SO SO much! Your e-mails are so nice, I love them! Your comments are so uplifting!
Slyffindor Protegy: No, I'm not quite done yet! Quite a bit more planned!
Kay: Thank you! S/B reunion will come, but how will it turn out?
RANDY: Here ya go! Thank you so much for reviewing!
MiamiSlayer: LOL! I LOVED THE SNORT!! Thank you so so much, that really made me
tingly!
msu: lol, Buffy is still in the fic, the reunion will be soon-ish.
Darryl J – That was such a lovely review. And such a compliment. I didn't want
to take anything away from Sara, Spike does love her, and she is Elizabeth's
mum. I'm glad you liked her as a character!!!
Ao Tianrong: Wow, that is a very nice thing to say! I'm glad you like Sara and thank you for the review!
Nokia: me too! Spike needs love. Thank you for the review, I was worried they didn't all fit in character.
P: I love it!! I saw it like 3 years ago and never again,
a lot of this is just lil ol me! I don't remember the rain scene in detail – is
it the reunion? E-mail me in private about it – don't review – it'll spoil it 4
every1 else! I might not use it, but ya never know!
ReB: lol, ruthless when it comes to Apike love.
Tiff: Sorry! Buffy lost a lost of
spirit when she came back, she is very easily defeated – not a fighter like
before. I hope you like it more if you read on!
FIC STARTS NOW!!
Song in this episode is '
Lyrics are between these lines: ----
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--I turned left - but you turned right
only one way roads on this stretch of life
we can't back up or turn back time
you're out of sight - not out of mind
but you made a choice - wave goodbye
I'm not turning back…--
Eight years passed. Sara would have been thirty-two. Time, as it has a habit of doing, healed his pain. He thought about her, every day in fact – but it no longer hurt him to remember. He had told Elizabeth everything about her mother, Sara's drawings hung in all corners of the house, her pictures filled many frames – a stranger would not have known that the glowing woman that seemed like such a presence – was in reality, passed on long ago.
Liz was a very bright girl; she took after her mother (and her father as Spike tried to convey – in vain). Her eyes were Sara's, but her mischievous spirit was Spike's and his alone. The passion within the father seemed to almost double in his child and it could not be said that their home was ever boring.
Buffy was forgotten, it pained him to think she too, had left the earth, but how many slayers lived to thirty-two? Willow had tried to soothe his fears by reminding him that since a new slayer had been called at Faith's death, Buffy may have been able to retire almost four years ago. Many had said that friendships fade away, but Spike had been so sure they had more than a friendship – that they were closer than that.
But perhaps he had been wrong. She had left after all, and never contacted him. He had wondered about curses or spells that would drive her away, angry and indignant at the thought that someone would try to separate them – but that bittersweet hope was thrown to the wind over time and Spike slowly forgot what shade of blonde her hair was and how exactly her nose wrinkled in distaste.
Liz was his everything, what else did he have to live
for? They were adorable close, almost eerily in sync and undoubtedly loved each
other. Liz knew everything about him, when he was born, his family, his turning
date, his vampire family – everything. Spike was slowly trying to introduce the
idea that he regretted his evil vampire days
She called Angel grand-sire, which made him at first, irritated but at the identical looks of glee and suppressed laughter on William and Liz's faces – he relented.
Haile and Poppy, Anya and Xander's children, had grown, Haile a bubbling 10 year old and Poppy a passionate 5-year old. It was quite worrying how they had both taken after Anya. Haile was blunt and cheery while 'Mr and Mrs Harris' had been called in multiple times because of Poppy's little acts of vengeance on the other kids. Anya, needless to say, was very proud.
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"Happy Birthday to you, even if you 'smell-like-poo', Happy birthday you little freak, Happy birthday to you."
Liz stuck her tongue out at her Dad and blew out the candles on the cake.
"YAY!!"
"Happy birthday sweetie!" Willow hugged the bouncy little girl in front of her. Liz's hair was short and black, her skin a beautiful brown and her eyes a merge of green brown and blue. They were her most prominent asset, luring and piercing, like her father and mother's eyes had been. She had a strong chin for a little girl of eight and a quick mind that made her 'the smartest bloody bit in the world'.
She was glad for Willow's books, Angel and Cordelia's writing set with a 'Liz' signature stamp, Anya and Xander's computer game, Haile's gross but nicely intended make-up set, Dad's drawing pencils and canvas – but what she really wanted….
"Here's your letter baby."
"Oohhh!! Merci beaucoup Papa!!"
Spike smiled and handed Liz the white envelope with 'Age Eight' in Sara's rusty handwriting. After a quick hug, Liz raced upstairs and settled herself for the letter.
--I think about you everyday--
~Dear Elizabeth,
I wonder what you will look like, your features will be nicely set I know. How is your father? I know you two will look after each other. I love you very much already and you are not even here yet. It us strange to think that the beautiful feeling inside of me will now have been shared with the world for eight years. Happy Birthday my princess, and all my love to you.
Now that you are older, I have no doubt you know all the stories that I could have told you, and I'm sure your father has a few of his own. I know him well, and he will not have told you about the other Elizabeth in his life.
I am telling you about her because your father is alone now. I know him. He will fill his time with your laugh and pine away waiting for it to return if you are not there. I love your father very much, Elizabeth, and I fear that he will be alone and sad when you leave him later in life.
The other Elizabeth, Buffy, loves him very much and I believe he could love her back. They have not spoken for a long time, and I wanted to tell you about her. Perhaps, you could find a way of making them meet again.
And Sara told her everything. The little things that Spike would never have noticed. The way Buffy looked at him a few seconds longer than usual, the way she started wearing her hair differently, the way she would look on sadly when he left her, the way he made her smile and took it away just as easily.
The letter was long, detailed, and included everything that Sara's experience had allowed her to see.
~So you see, my love, she loved him very much. I have no doubt she still does, but to her, he was a lost cause. It broke my heart to see her leave and it hurt me more to see the years go by and Spike still searching for her. Slowly he gave up, and to this day, I doubt he knows the truth.
I do not feel sad thinking of him with her. I know he loves me and I love him, but I also know that though I told him not to live in the past, he has a tendency to do so.
Your grandfather, my father, knows where Buffy is. I am quite sure of it. If not, he knows how to find out. She may have moved on, but I feel that with time her stealthy efforts will have weakened.
Find her, meet her, and see how she is doing. And try, try my darling to make her see your father. Nothing will ever replace me, but love is never a bad thing.
Try and get your father to talk about her, I don't quite know how you will do it without rising suspicion but it will allow you the chance to ascertain his feelings. He is a proud man, and Buffy hurt him very much. He will not have looked for her long after you were born, in the vain hope that he would forget.
But we both know, that passionate souls cannot forget.
My heart is with you, and all the best.
Until next year,
Your mother, Sara.~
--I
turned left - but you turned right
only one way roads on this stretch of life
we can't back up or turn back time
you're out of sight - not out of mind
but you made a choice - wave goodbye
I'm not turning back….--
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TBC
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