When I'm Gone

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"Talking"
'Thinking'
/Bakura to Yami Bakura/
//Yami Bakura to Bakura//
*Song lyrics*
'"Singing along"'
/'"Ryou singing along using his and Yakura's link"'/

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~ Bakura's POV ~

I've been feeling odd for awhile so I went to the doctors a couple days
ago. They ran a whole bunch of tests to find out what was wrong with me.
Turns out I have cancer... and it's to late to do anything about it. I'm
dying... and I have no clue how I'm gonna tell 'Tousan. Or my yami for that
matter. If I can't tell my dad whom I barely know anymore, then how I'm I
gonna tell the person who's closest to me? I can't. I won't... I don't want
Yakura to treat me any different. And I know he'll treat me like a china
doll...

Life sucks.

I finally get Yakura to stop beating me and love me the same way I had
always loved him and what happens? I find out I have cancer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The good thing is Yakura has no idea I went to the doctors at all... He
went out to Mariku's place to go hang out with Yami no Mariku aka Malik.

~ Yami no Bakura's POV ~

Ryou walked into the house and flopped onto the couch with a soft sigh. I
wonder where my hikari disappeared to. He looks so sad... I don't know if I
should say anything though, I am supposed to be at the Ishteru's place
after all. Something seems... off... though. He looks like he found out one
of his close friends is dying... Though I don't think anyone is.

"Ryou-koi?"

"Yakura? What are you doing here? I thought you where hanging with Malik
for the day." He tilted his head in confusion. He looks so cute when he
gets confuzzled. But still... Something's different... What is it?!!! Ra-
damn it!!! Now I'm getting confuzzled...

"I came home early. There a problem with that koi?" I ask hoping that he
says no. Pathetic... I need him to reassure me... That never would have
happened before... Damn it all... Ever since that night... Show me love...
Perfect title.

"Iya... There's no problem with that... If you had been gone the whole day
I probably would have gone crazy waiting for you." He smiles, but it
looks... forced... Oh Ra... I just _know_ something is wrong, but I also
know that he won't tell me unless he wants to so I'll ask once then leave
it alone if he says nothing is wrong. Well... here goes...

"What's wrong Ryou-koi?" There. I asked.

"N-nothing... Oh god... Yakura!" He cried into my chest but didn't say
anymore so I just held him...

~ Bakura's POV ~

Oh god... I nearly told him... I don't want him to treat me like a china
doll though...

"Koi? Come on... You can tell me..." He sounds so reassuring... I will tell
him... But first...

"Promise me something before I tell you anything." I mumble into his chest.

He pulls me away from him a bit. "Anything Ryou... Just name it." He offers
me a small smile.

"Promise you won't treat me any different. I don't want that..." I whisper.
He gives me an odd look.

"Why would I? Anyway... I promise. Nothing counts." He smirks and I smile
at him.

"Arigatou Yakura-koi... I want to the doctors a couple days ago and had
some tests done... I went back today for the results..." I could feel the
tears building up so I looked down away from his face.

"Hai... Go on. You know I don't understand any of that stuff..." Yakura
said and tried to tilt my head back up but I resisted his hand... It'll be
easier to say it if I'm not looking at him...

"I... I'm dying..." I said quietly and re-bury my head in his chest. I can
feel him tense against me but he didn't move away, just held me closer and
started rocking me as I cried.

~ Yami no Bakura's POV ~

He's dying? My little tenshi is dying? How? How could this happen to him?
He doesn't deserve this... I promised I wouldn't treat him any different,
and it'll be hard to keep that promise now. But I will... For his sake. I
don't think he could handle it if I didn't...

{Three weeks later}

It's been a week since Ryou's friends found out he has cancer. And as we
both thought, they started treating him like a china doll... I told them
that Ryou didn't want them to. In my own way of course. I didn't tell Ryou
how I did it though...

{Two weeks later}

Ryou's been stuck in bed for three days now because he's to weak to move
from it... I have no idea what to do and it's been killing me... I've had
to start using my magick to keep him from feeling any pain because he won't
go to the hospital... He says he doesn't want to die there...

~ Bakura's POV ~

/Yakura? Can you bring me downstairs? I want to listen to my CDs.../ I
called through our link. I heard Yakura come upstairs and watched as he
came into me room. I smile at him as he picks me up. He smiled back and
carry me down setting me on the couch and handing me the stereos remote.

"Which CD?" He has to ask me 'cause I've made a bunch more since I found
out I was dying.

/The one labeled 'Yakura'. It also has a picture of us on it.../ I smiled
softly at him and he went sorting through my CDs for the one I wanted. He
found it pretty fast and stuck it in. He got and odd look on his face as he
saw there was only one song on the disk. I had been planing for this. I
asked mou hitori no Yuugi what would happen to Yakura after I died. He told
me that Yakura would take my place so I knew I had to do something or he
would kill himself when I died and I don't want that...

"Is there really only one song on here Ryou-koi?" He ask me. I nodded and
pressed play on the remote.

~ Yami no Bakura's POV

The song starts and Ryou just smiles at me as the first verse is sung.

*There's another world inside of me that you may never see
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
But somewhere in this Darkness there's a Light that I can't find
Well, maybe it's too far away, or maybe I'm just blind
Maybe I'm just blind.*

"Ryou?" He holds up a finger to his lips then sings along with the course.

'"So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And Love me when I'm gone"'

He started having trouble singing the words out loud so he switched to our
link.

/'"Everything I am
And everything you need
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone"'/

His voice is even more beautiful then that night when I stopped hurting
him... I really do love him...

*When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends
Roamin' through this darkness, I'm alive but I'm alone*

/'"Part of me is fighting this, but part of me is gone."'/

Oh dear Ra... He's basically only singing the parts that apply to him... I
stared at him and knew. He was going to die today, and he knew it. He was
weaker the usual and his voice kept choking up on him... That's why he had
been speaking only through our link... Oh Ra... Why does he have to die?!

/'"So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And Love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything you need
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone"'/

"Ryou..."

/Shhh... Don't say anything please.../ He whispered and held out his arms
to me. I realized what Ryou wanted easily enough and sat behind him just
holding my koi close to me.

*Maybe I'm just blind.*

/Aishiteru Yakura-koi.../ He turned around in my hug and grabbed onto my
shirt clinging weakly trying to pull me down for a kiss. I tilted my head
down and met his lips with mine. He quickly took control of the kiss but
then let me dominate the it.

*So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And Love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything you need
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone
When I'm gone
When I'm gone*

I broke the kiss when he stopped moving. "Ryou?!"

/I'm still awake koi.../ He smiled tiredly up at me.

"You scared me Ryou..."

/Gomen nasai Yakura-koi.../ He whispered back.

"It's alright. You should rest tenshi."

/Yeah... But... Yakura?/

"Hai?"

/I want you to promise me something./

"What is it tenshi?"

/Promise me that you won't kill yourself when I die./

"Ore wa..."

/Please Yakura!/ He tightened his hold on my shirt.

//Alright... I swear on my mother's grave that I won't kill myself.
Aishitaru, boku no tenshi.//

He smiled at me as he let his eyes slip shut. /Aishiteru mo, boku no
akutenshi.../

His 'voice' trailed of as he stopped breathing.

Ryou... My little tenshi... He's gone...

*When I'm gone*

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Awwwwww... Poor boys... Hm... This leaves me with room for continuing but
if I don't it should still be fine... Aw man!!! What the hell happened to
my one-shot?!!! .

KIRIKO: It got continued. ^^;;;

SERI: Mira-sama does not own Yu-Gi-Oh or the song 'When I'm gone'. Nor does
she own the band Three Doors Down.

Thanks Seri. ^.^ Anyways... My one shot is gone... I hope you guys are
happy!!! .

KIRIKO: Heres a list of the Japanese Mira-sama used:
'Tousan = Dad
Koi = Love
Iya = No
Arigatou = Thanks
Hai = Yes
Tenshi = Angel
Aishiteru = I love you
Gomen nasai = I'm sorry
Ore wa = I
Aishiteru, boku no tenshi = I love you, my angel
Aishiteru mo, boku no akutenshi = I love you to, my evil angel

Thank you Kiriko. ^^;;; I gotta go now!!! Ja matta minna(See you later
everyone)!!!

KIRIKO AND SERI: Please R&R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^__~