TITLE: Childer-en         

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SPOILERS:  S3 Angel and kinda S6 Buffy  – Connor mentioned, his history…     

RATING: R for language and mentioning of sex, rape, violence    

DISCLAIMER: nada esta mine. Not angel, angelus, spike, dru, connor, anyone!

SUMMARY: Connor helps Angel realise that he has a responsibility to all his childer-en – including Spike and Dru.    

THANX:  True Desires, Spike, Angelus for being too damn sexy! Cazy for her constant annoying that keeps me grounded! And JAMES for meeting me in Blackpool in 9 days!!!! EVERYONE!!!! 

 

Stuff between these lines:

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are song/poem lyrics, disclaimed at beginning of episode if necessary.

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Connor studied Angel's face quietly as they sat together in Connor's room. Life with Angel was very different to what Connor had expected. He no longer thought of Angel as an enemy, he accepted the souled vampire was his father and they were slowly trying to get to know each other. 

"So, what did you do when you left the Hell Mouth?"

Angel sighed and shrugged. "I came here, and slowly Angel Investigations emerged, Cordelia joined me and Doyle who I told you about…we still miss him. He was good, Connor."

Connor nodded, he was very slowly trying to understand how some demons can be 'good' but it was a difficult concept for him to grasp and Angel was not sure how to convey the idea to his son.

"Angel," Connor began, carefully choosing his words, "Do you have any childer?"

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Ancient memories
I thought I forgot

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"Yes."

"They…they're my siblings."

"I never thought of it in that way."

"They have your sire blood and you have Darla's sire blood…" Connor trailed off and Angel finished the thought.

"So my childer do too…they have the same blood as you."

"How many childer do you have?"

"I had four childer."

"FOUR?"

Connor had expected only one or two perhaps, from what Angel had told him, vampires didn't often make childer, only minions.

"Yes, Penn, Dru, Gabrielle and Will."

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Now its coming back to me…
my time with you

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"Where are they?"

"Penn and Gabrielle are…dead." Angel shook his head of the memories and continued, "I don't know where Spike and Dru are. Dru might be in Brazil, I guess Spike might be in Sunnydale or in Brazil with Dru…but they could both be somewhere else."

"Why don't you know? They're your blood too…like me. If you have abandoned them…why would you hesitate to abandon me?"

Connor was blunt, he did not try and spare Angel's feelings in anything. He was very much like Spike - now that Angel thought about it.

"I would never abandon you Connor, you're different. You're human. They are demons. They are evil."

"So why not stake them?"

"I can't."

"Why?"

"I love them Connor, that doesn't change. Part of me thinks I should stake them, give them the peace that I denied them by turning them…but I could never stake them. I just keep them away from me so I don't have to fight them in order to protect innocent people."

"But they kill."

"Yes they do."

"But you are their father and more, you are their Sire, shouldn't you care for them, try and stop them killing? Make them like you."

"They don't have souls Connor."

"So there are no 'good' demons."

"There are, Conn-"

"So why not make them good."

Angel sighed and could only say, "It's difficult."

"But they're your Childer. I do not understand. Surely you have a responsibility to them?"

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-- Your laughter haunts me When I dream
I dream of you
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Angel could not sleep. Connor's words echoed over memories of Dru and Spike.

~= You are their father and more, you are their Sire, shouldn't you care for them? =~

~= Surely you have a responsibility to them? =~

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Angel woke from his restless slumber. Images had assaulted his memory all night and he decided to talk to Connor to clear his head.

But Connor wasn't in his bed.

There was a note.

~Angel,

You may not feel that Drusilla and William are your blood, but I consider them my brother and sister, demon or not. I have gone to find them, and I will not return until I do. There seems to be something lacking in my life with you. I will hope that finding my siblings will fill this void within me.

Steven~

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"Is there a portal to the dimension of Brazil?"

"Don't need a portal to get to Brazil, young one."

Connor was getting frustrated with the demon in the ally and questioned him again.

"How do I get to this dimension?"

"Its not a separate dimension, laddy, It's a part of this one."

"How do I get there?"

"I reckon I could take ye, for a fee 'a course."

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"He's taken money and some food."

"Where would he go, Angel?"

"I told him Dru might be in Brazil and Spike in Sunnydale…you guys can handle Sunnydale better than Brazil so…I'll go to Brazil. Dru might get violent, Connor has my blood…she won't understand what he is…she could attack. I'd be better dealing with her. Gunn you can hit the hell mouth, I'll call Buffy and tell her you're coming. If you find Spike…watch him. Connor might arrive soon after you do. Cordy, Fred, you guys stay here in LA…we need the hotel filled and you two will need to stall any new cases till we get back."

"Ok."

"I'm on it, man."

"We'll find him Angel."

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I wish for you
Hating you, just isn't true
I wish I knew what to do

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Angel booked a flight to Brazil. He suspected Connor would take time to reach Brazil if that was his destination. All the dark-haired vampire hoped for was that he would reach Drusilla before his son did.

When Angel was settled on the plane, he had little to occupy himself and, against his will, the depths of his mind brought forward more from the past.

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Darla had been torturing William. And borrowing Dru. Angelus snarled and punched the human harder. Unable to fight his sire, Angelus had taken to venting his anger on any unsuspecting stranger that was unfortunate enough to catch the angered vampire.

Angelus threw the bloodied body to the ground and went in search of another.

Darla had been torturing his Will. On top of that, the blonde had taken to borrowing his Dru. Angelus's relationship with his sire had been so simple.

She owned him. He belonged to her. They fucked.

It had all changed when Will had arrived. When Angelus had sired Dru, Darla had been very pleased with the beautiful fairy princess that Angelus had brought to her.

One day, Dru had decided she wanted her own pet and had brought Will to the crypt where they had all been staying. The boy was knocked out, with a long gash across his forehead that bled his warm, appetizing blood. At that time, William had brown hair, short and knotted. His clothing was poor and shattered. Angelus liked th-

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Angel jerked back from his memories as the intended 'food' of the flight was offered. He declined, silently, in a daze. He just realised how much the William of that night resembled the Connor that had first arrived in L.A.

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