Chap 5. Kill and Cry
Okay before I start I'd like to say a few things. One I really finished this much sooner but my account got locked up because someone reported that Random Ramblings wasn't technically a fic. So if you were waiting forever for this blame them. Also as a part-time project I've been trying to think of theme songs for the yyh gang. So far I have Without Me for Hiei, The Anthem for Yusuke, We're in Heaven for Keiko, Fighter for Genkai, and The Hamster Dance for Kuwabara. I still need some for Kurama and the others, please tell me your suggestions.
My mind was a swirl as I slept. Eventually it was hard to distinguish the dreams from reality as they came flashing through my mind. I remembered how the others had reacted when they saw my new abilities. Had they been scared? A little it seemed. But why? I would be able to help them now, they wouldn't need to worry about protecting me anymore...
Suddenly I heard a voice, "They don't care about you Keiko. They were just using you before but now they feel threatened."
I recognized thank voice, it was Muzan's, the one who had given me the potion.
Don't be silly, I thought, they were just a little surprised that's all. They'll come to accept me.
"Were they?" she replied. "I don't think you're aware of how evil these people you associate yourself with are."
Suddenly there were new visions flashing before me, ones I had never seen before. I saw Kurama in his demon and human form mercilessly killing other demons. I saw Hiei doing the same thing and attacking Yusuke too. Kuwabara was using his spirit sword to destroy others as well and beating the tar out of them too.
Oh please not Yusuke, I thought desperately, don't show me Yusuke too. But it was no use, soon I saw images of Yusuke beating up other kids and murdering demons. In one of them he even was attacking a girl!
If all this wasn't bad enough I was also feeling the pain of every one of those victims as they were struck down. They never had a chance. Those poor humans and demons, I thought. How could Yusuke and the others be so cruel?
"This horrible slatter of life must be stopped," said Muzan. "Keiko, you are the only one who can stop them. Only you have the strength needed and know their weaknesses. If you will join me I can help you to make sure they never can kill again."
I thought carefully before I responded, surely she meant that I should kill Yusuke and the others. I couldn't do that could I? I remembered the pain of all they're opponents and suddenly remembered something I hadn't before, the gleam of a manic in each of their eyes. There was no way they could stop. I would have to stop them myself.
I turned to Muzan and she seemed to already know my answer. She smiled, nodded, disappeared.
I sat down and began to cry, someone was going to kill Yusuke. I closed my eyes and heard a small voice inside me. A very small distant voice, You know he's not really evil. Neither are the others. You still have a choice in this. No one has to die.
I pushed the voice aside, it no longer made sense in my mind. A slow, teasing smile came across my lips as I began to think of how exactly I would defeat and destroy them. Suddenly there was a swirling around me and I awoke.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Yusuke was hovering over me looking worried. I was so happy to see him I could have hugged him. I most likely would have if I hadn't remembered my dream just then. I was sure Muzan had really come to me in my sleep. I shuddered, I couldn't believe I had agreed to kill my friends. They weren't mindless killers. They had had to fight all those people. Well maybe not all of them but they didn't fight/kill for no reason anymore.
It was clear I was slowly losing control of myself. I would have to fight with everything I had in me. Suddenly I remembered something, Muzan had told me the potion would take a week to reach its full potential, I had drunken it three days ago. If this pattern continued as I got stronger my mind would get weaker. Soon there would be nothing left and a murderer would be on the loose. A murderer with my face.
"Are you okay Keiko?" asked Yusuke.
I looked at him briefly but it was more than I could take. I put my head in my hands and cried bitterly.
Okay before I start I'd like to say a few things. One I really finished this much sooner but my account got locked up because someone reported that Random Ramblings wasn't technically a fic. So if you were waiting forever for this blame them. Also as a part-time project I've been trying to think of theme songs for the yyh gang. So far I have Without Me for Hiei, The Anthem for Yusuke, We're in Heaven for Keiko, Fighter for Genkai, and The Hamster Dance for Kuwabara. I still need some for Kurama and the others, please tell me your suggestions.
My mind was a swirl as I slept. Eventually it was hard to distinguish the dreams from reality as they came flashing through my mind. I remembered how the others had reacted when they saw my new abilities. Had they been scared? A little it seemed. But why? I would be able to help them now, they wouldn't need to worry about protecting me anymore...
Suddenly I heard a voice, "They don't care about you Keiko. They were just using you before but now they feel threatened."
I recognized thank voice, it was Muzan's, the one who had given me the potion.
Don't be silly, I thought, they were just a little surprised that's all. They'll come to accept me.
"Were they?" she replied. "I don't think you're aware of how evil these people you associate yourself with are."
Suddenly there were new visions flashing before me, ones I had never seen before. I saw Kurama in his demon and human form mercilessly killing other demons. I saw Hiei doing the same thing and attacking Yusuke too. Kuwabara was using his spirit sword to destroy others as well and beating the tar out of them too.
Oh please not Yusuke, I thought desperately, don't show me Yusuke too. But it was no use, soon I saw images of Yusuke beating up other kids and murdering demons. In one of them he even was attacking a girl!
If all this wasn't bad enough I was also feeling the pain of every one of those victims as they were struck down. They never had a chance. Those poor humans and demons, I thought. How could Yusuke and the others be so cruel?
"This horrible slatter of life must be stopped," said Muzan. "Keiko, you are the only one who can stop them. Only you have the strength needed and know their weaknesses. If you will join me I can help you to make sure they never can kill again."
I thought carefully before I responded, surely she meant that I should kill Yusuke and the others. I couldn't do that could I? I remembered the pain of all they're opponents and suddenly remembered something I hadn't before, the gleam of a manic in each of their eyes. There was no way they could stop. I would have to stop them myself.
I turned to Muzan and she seemed to already know my answer. She smiled, nodded, disappeared.
I sat down and began to cry, someone was going to kill Yusuke. I closed my eyes and heard a small voice inside me. A very small distant voice, You know he's not really evil. Neither are the others. You still have a choice in this. No one has to die.
I pushed the voice aside, it no longer made sense in my mind. A slow, teasing smile came across my lips as I began to think of how exactly I would defeat and destroy them. Suddenly there was a swirling around me and I awoke.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Yusuke was hovering over me looking worried. I was so happy to see him I could have hugged him. I most likely would have if I hadn't remembered my dream just then. I was sure Muzan had really come to me in my sleep. I shuddered, I couldn't believe I had agreed to kill my friends. They weren't mindless killers. They had had to fight all those people. Well maybe not all of them but they didn't fight/kill for no reason anymore.
It was clear I was slowly losing control of myself. I would have to fight with everything I had in me. Suddenly I remembered something, Muzan had told me the potion would take a week to reach its full potential, I had drunken it three days ago. If this pattern continued as I got stronger my mind would get weaker. Soon there would be nothing left and a murderer would be on the loose. A murderer with my face.
"Are you okay Keiko?" asked Yusuke.
I looked at him briefly but it was more than I could take. I put my head in my hands and cried bitterly.
