Disclaimer: I don not own Rurouni Kenshin, that I don't so please don't sue this lonely wander. (beacause I have no money to give only my soul.)
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" Kenshin, what are you doing there in the shadows like that, you nearly gave me a heart attack." Kaoru stammered clumsily.
" I was trying to find you, I had became worried since it was way past dark, I thought someone was out to get you, I did not want that to happen, that I did not." Kenshin said huskily, the wind slowly taking his hair, making his hair sway back and forth. He lifted his eye's to stare straight into her dark blue orbs, trying to find out if there was something more than just concern.
Kaoru walked swiftly up next to Kenshin, just an inch of space between them only allowing her hair to cover her eyes from his intense gaze.
" That was Suberu-chan, I just met him today. I have known him since I was very young, he wants to meet me again soon, if that's what you wanted to know." Kaoru whispered, while playing with the folds of her kimono.
Kenshin watched her every move, trying to remember ever word that she said. God, I wonder if she knows how devilishly sexy she looks right know, just staring at her makes me want to take her. I don't care floor or no floor, just being beside her makes me groan. "Kaoru-dono probably it would be best if we went in side know, I would not want you to catch anything in this cold, that I wouldn't." Kenshin nearly groaned.
" Yeah it is starting to get cold, are you coming in now or are you going to stand out here for a little bit longer. You don't look that good Kenshin. Your face looks a little flush, and your sweating too." Kaoru replied slightly worried about the man she fell in love with. " Probably I should take you to your room, that way incase you need help I will be right by you, or perhaps I should call Megumi-san?"
"No Kaoru-dono I'll be fine, I think I just need to sleep on it" she looks so cute when she worries, if only she knew how I truly felt about her, I would keep her up all night if I had the chance, that I would. " Kaoru-dono would you like me to run your bath water for you since you had such a long day with your friend today, you look very exhausted, that you do" Kenshin questioned eye's slowly running up and down her curves.
" No that's ok Kenshin I think you do enough work around the dojo, I don't want to be any trouble to you plus I just want to go to bed. I will need to get up early and train Yahiko, we all know how he gets when I'm not on time." Kaoru smiles and starts walking toward her room, "Don't forget to lock up Kenshin!" Kaoru yelled from behind her back.
Making her way through the halls of the dojo, she takes down her hair, and runs her fingers through it like a comb. It's not that I didn't want a bath, It's just the way Kenshin been staring at me, He thinks I never notice how his I eye's wander around me like I was on fire or something. I doubt even if did take a bath that I would be coming out it alone, but god his eye's I almost thought I'd drown in them. It's getting more and more difficult hiding my true feelings from him like that. I need to keep my nasty thoughts me myself, but who can help it, the guys gorgeous.
**************************************************************** Outside the dojo, Kenshin walked sluggishly around the perimeter making sure everything was were it needed to be, bringing his feet to a halt; stares back at the way where Kaoru had left. I was so close I could have just grabbed her and pushed her body against mine and kiss her until she screamed to breath and yell for mercy. I can't even imagine another man touching her in that manner. This Suberu person may be a problem, but I need to find a way to fix it.
Locking the gate, Kenshin made his way toward his on room after checking to see if every one was in bed. Kaoru can be such a temptress sometimes, and she doesn't even know it, the way her hair falls behind her back, her sweet curves that beg to be touched, and her lips that asked to be kissed. If only she knew how deep she really flows in my mind, I would give her love over and over until she begged for her life.
Even in my dreams she remains unsafe, I wake each night in sweat and tightness were it begs to be released. I don't know how long I can hold Battousai in, I knew how he felt when that, that guy stood so close to her, I just wanted to nothing but cut his throat, and watch as the blood flowed from his lifeless body. How I would enjoyed that, the only thing stopping, is the woman that captured my heart from the fist time I lade eyes own her. Kaoru would not be happy if she new that I wanted to kill again, I can, not afforded the lost of losing her, that I would not.
Laying his futon down and changing in his night gi, Kenshin slipped under the folds of his blanket. I will need to think his through a little more before I make a mistake, tomorrow will be a new day with a new promise, that it will.
"If only she.... Knew how much *yawn*... I loved her."
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Kaoru sat awake in bed, sleep not taking hold of her, probably I should talk to Megumi-san on this, and I haven't had a good night rest since I can last remember. This is seriously getting out of hand, how can I ever get married if Kenshin keeps having these mood swings I swear, It's just like he has his on period or something. Him being the Battusai and every thing, It's like he has a split personality, oh well that's the last of my worries. I need to get these terrible dreams out of my mind, and I can't tell Yahiko, Kenshin, and Sano. They would only get worried and start babying me again and I can't take that.
" I know what I need to do, I will just need to talk to Suberu-chan again he can be so sweet at times, only wish that he still understands how it was for me back then." Sigh, I can only wait I suppose. " I need to get some sleep before I grow some ugly bags under my eye's that really have Yahiko talking about me, I can only imagine."
Laying her head back down on futon, Kaoru lifted the covers over her head only hoping that her dreams of her past wouldn't haunt her in her sleep.
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*Kaoru's Dream*
Kaoru walked aimlessly down the halls of the dojo, darkness only being her company, as she turned another corner only meeting the clock that read 11:14pm. Kaoru turned around only to find Suberu-chan, It looks like he speaking but I can't hear a word he's saying. Whets wrong with me, please don't tell me it's the same dream again, running in Yahiko's room, nothing totally empty, running in Kenshin' s room, nothing, his room also empty without a sign of his existence. " Where is everyone, can anybody hear me!!!!!!" please, god no, not again, I don't want to be alone, please don't leave me alone.
"Please somebody!! Anybody... I don't want to be alone again... please don't leave me alone."
All of a sudden everything was gone and only a nine, year chibi Kaoru stood, hair swaying back and forth from the side, no ribbon only midnight black hair. Finally finding a corner, chibi Kaoru bent down, and rapped her arms around her baby like legs. Only hoping that the darkness would soon go away... and only hoping to find somebody to wake her up from this hellish dream, before it gets any deeper.
" This is the place where I had nearly killed myself, what am I doing back here?" A chibi Kaoru questioned, tears slowly sliding down her porcelain face.
" I am not ready to come back... and I don't think I will ever again want to experience this loneliness again."
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Oi (Hey) there people I hope you liked what you read because I am so trying really hard to give the fans what the truly want. (sigh) Yeah I know what you're thinking, " How could you stop there, of all times to stop the chapter"
Yeah yeah, I get a lot of that, any way I hope that I'm Learning to write better remember try not to Break my heart to much by saying how much a crap up job I did. (pulls out hair) god it's hard being a writer, (sigh) the pain of it all. Any way (I know I say that a lot) thanks to all people who encourage me to continue to write It brings me a lot of hope thanks again, just incase know one got my e-mail.
Kaolla Su- chan
