Disclaimer: Like what I always say Touya and Mizuki are all owned by CLAMP. Thanks!

A/N: I thank you for the reviews. I know there are only a few who support the T/K pair-up but well, this fanfic is for you. And in this chapter both characters will be expressing the innermost feelings. Very unlikely to happen in CCS. But oh well, that's the reason why I'm making a fanfic.

-Unwanted feelings-

Pain shot up on her right hand. It felt like it was being crushed underneath something heavy. Slowly Mizuki Kaho opened her eyes. "Huh?" she whispered. She was on top of Kinomoto Touya who was lying unconsciously. His arms were around her slim body protecting her from the fall, in return her right hand was underneath his head. She blinked back admiring his face. It has been a long time since she was this close to him. With a faint smile she studied his handsome features and remembered the days she was with him. They were still young back then and love was never that sweeter. Then she looked away. She could feel his bitter disappointment and anger towards her. She had hurt him and it wouldn't be a surprise if he felt that way.

"Touya... I'm sorry" she whispered, closed her eyes and slowly rested her head on his chest. Seconds later she could feel him moving, his arms were firm across her body. "Kaho! Kaho!" he shouted and frantically lifted her head in order he could see her face. "Are you all right? Answer me.. please.."he begged shaking her slowly. Mizuki opened her eyes and saw his worried expression . "I'm fine" she said weakly. But then she grimaced. "My..my hand". Touya lifted his head and realized she had use her hand to protect his head from the fall. "You shouldn't have done that.." He said softly. She smiled quietly at him.

Then Touya began to realized the position their both in. His cheeks burned red and an unexpected beat in his heart surprised him. Mizuki saw his expression and quickly sat up and began rubbing her hand. "Are you sure your not hurt?" he asked again. "What about you?" she asked, "I'm worried". He smirked, "I'll probably have muscle cramps tomorrow" he said rubbing his shoulder. Mizuki glanced at him and began to embrace her knees.

"I'm sorry" she said quietly burying her face. Touya sighed. "It's nothing. I understand that you want to get out here". Mizuki shook her head. "No, I don't mean that" she said. He paused and looked at the floor. "I'm so sorry.. I never meant-".

Touya grunted. "Don't start bringing up what has been said..." he snapped. Mizuki turned and faced him. "No" she said firmly, "I have to say this so just please listen to what I have to say" she said helplessly. Touya continued to stare at the floor. "I'm sorry about before.. I never meant for it to happen. You and I .. me leaving" she said in a quiet voice as she looked away, "if only the situation was different maybe I would not have to hurt you like that. I don't blame you for hating me. You have every right to feel that way.." she said her lips trembling. Then she looked at him, "But you must know one thing.." She said gathering all her confidence.

"My feelings for you was never a lie. They were all true. Back then and even now....." she breath in slowly, ".... They still live on"

"Hate me, despise me.. I would live with that guilt because I know I was the one who caused that pain I see that's encircling you.." She said trying to push away the tears that were threatening to fall. "If only I knew how to erase it all, I would to see you happy"

a/n: If anyone of you is familiar of the piano piece of Yiruma called 'When the Love falls' this would be a good background song.

Touya clutched his hands and inhaled deeply. "What has been done is done" he said looking faraway. Then he smirked "I was young back then. You came along and things just happened.." His voice grew sad. Mizuki looked at his face. "Your strong spirit, your gentle smile, your free spirit made me..." Touya paused thinking of what to say, "...like you even more". Then he closed his hard. "But you played with my feelings! You shouldn't have shown me any affections if at the end only comes to you leaving me!" he said angrily and opened his eyes and looked at her, "And now your back, and of all people my sister's teacher?" he said with disgust in his voice. "The pain seems to return again, the memories of you leaving keeps running in my mind whenever your nearby" he narrowed his gaze, "don't you know its hurting me?".

Mizuki bit her lower lip and trembled. "I'm sorry Touya. I've been blaming myself. I'm stupid to hurt someone so kind like you.." A tear fell from her pretty eyes. "I did not play with your feelings.. they were all true. Please believe me.." More tears fell. "I'm so sorry.." sobbed lowering her head, her hair covering her face. Pain stab Touya's heart as he saw her cry. Swallowing his pride he reached out for her and placed his arms around her shoulders. "Shh..." he whispered. "No more Kaho..." he said gently as she buried her face in his chest. He began to stroke her hair like before. Mizuki was shaking under his arms. It made him feel sorry for what he had said to her. He did not know that she too was carrying that guilt all these times. He pulled her closer and closed his eyes. "No more Kaho..."

Soon Mizuki then fell asleep in his arms.

A/n: Yiruma's piano piece so peaceful.......... *sighs*