Disclaimer: If J.K. wrote like this she wouldn't be published so I simply want to say that this is my sad and pathetic attempt to use her wonderful characters and put them in her world while the play out my less than fair plot. The movie Carrie belongs to Stephen King and I'm not sure if it was out then but it fit.

Author's Note: This chapter should be long and I'm not sure how long it will take me to finish so I'm going to thank everyone at the end. I think I'm going to go back and forth in this one, between different characters/conversations so if it's not clear as to where we are just let me know. This picks up right after James kissed Narcissa. This chapter is for Slinkimalinki who makes me laugh and always reviews. * smiles * There is a lot of Sirius in this so many of you will be happy with me. This was going to go up to the dance and through it but because I don't have a lot of time I decided to break it into two chapters and get one out to you today. This one is longer ( (almost 2500 word), so I hope you all like it.

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Chapter Five: Meetings of the Heart

He pulled away, wishing that when his eyes opened he would see deep green pools and soft crimson hair but instead he faced shimmering blue eyes and curly blond hair. It wasn't Lily and as much as he knew that he still hoped, stranger things had happened, he was sure of it. Narcissa's friends were giggling and whispering their thoughts to one another while their eyes stayed focused on James and Narcissa. She looked flustered for a moment, as if no one had ever kissed her like that and with Malfoy as a boyfriend what else could you expect. "I'd... um, I have to um go and see you later James." She said, turning around and starting out of the castle, giggling with her friends.

"So, you're over Lily?" said a questioning voice from behind him. Without turning James answered, "I thought I told you I was Sirius." Why did he always have to get to the point, thought James.

"Acting like your over her and gallivanting with some… some kind of," he paused as if looking for the right word, "floozy and really being over her are two completely things James and you know as well as I do that you aren't over her so I suggest you and I go and talk about this unless you want to spend the rest of your life dreaming about the girl who got away." James turned and looked at Sirius for a moment before nodding. He needed to get this off his chest.

"…so I kissed Narcissa." James concluded half an hour later. Both boys were walking on the edge of the forbidden forest, their cloaks pulled tightly around them against the chill. Snow fell lightly on the ground and the sun was covered by a huge cloud that loomed above. Sirius pondered his friend's situation for a moment before he spoke. "Has Remus said anything about Lily or you pathetic plan to win her over tomorrow? Or has he just been doing what you asked him to do, and get her to the dance?" Truth be told, Sirius had a feeling that Remus' thoughts were no longer on James' plan but rather on Lily. But then again, maybe Remus was just a very good actor, he was able to hide the fact that he was a werewolf from most of Hogwarts and pretending to have feelings for Lily had to be easier than that, didn't it? "No, he hasn't said anything but did you see the way he looks at her! He forgot about me the moment she said yes to him. Sirius, I'm not, and I don't think I'll ever be, over her. I still see her you know. When I kissed Narcissa I wanted it to be Lily but… it wasn't." James picked up a flower that was dying from the frost and began to pull it's petals off one by one, his eyes seeming to glaze over like a fog. "James, I'm sure he's just doing what you asked him to do and tomorrow night you'll dance with Lily and win her over." The petals were blown away by a gust of wind and danced before James' eyes for a moment before they were swept away. "What about Narcissa?" he asked, turning towards his friend. "That cow, I wouldn't worry about her if I was you, your good old friend will take care of her, trust me." A glint was seen in Sirius' eye and James could vividly picture a scene from a muggle movie he had seen in his muggle studies class Carrie or something like that. Maybe the dance would be more interesting than he previously thought.

Meanwhile Lily Evans was running back up to Gryffindor Tower. Why did her life have to be so messed up! Everything about her was going so wrong. This year was supposed to be a fresh start, something new. Ever since Lily had started her 4th year at Hogwarts she had a small, okay maybe small wasn't the word, huge or nearly obsessive would work better in this case, crush on James Potter but over the summer she had, or thought she had, gotten over him and was going to concentrate on her NEWTS, then get a job, and then, after everything else was perfect she would meet prince charming. He would sweep her off her feet and have a fairy tale life. She was not suspossed to start going with a great guy and then, just after seeing James, start to lose all thoughts of romance for Remus. This was not how it was meant to be.

Rushing through the portrait hole and up to her dorm she flung open her closet. Every other girl in her dorm was taking advantage of the Hogsmeade trip but Lily had to figure out what she was going to wear. Ever since her parents had died, her mother of cancer and her father is a plane crash, Lily had been living with her older sister and her less than polite husband Vernon. Since her parents had died before she was 18 all of the estate went to Petunia who outright refused to give Lily any money, so in order to wear something half-decent at the ball she would have to start looking now. The prospect of transfiguring some of her clothes were out of the question, she still had trouble with matches and pins! Jeans were out of the question, as were her plain black robes. Next came her sweaters, the one she had on now was baby blue and left off just where her waist began. The next one she looked at was a vivid purple that clashed with her hair, she only wore it at home and during breaks when no one else was around. Then came a yellow sweater followed by some t-shirts, all of which were too casual for a ball. Letting her face fall into her hands she sat on her chest, just off the edge of her bed and started to cry, grabbing her little bear, snuffles, off her pillow and burying it in her chest, letting the tears come freely.

This was not the fairy tale. Little house elves were supposed to come through the door now and make her a beautiful dress or a fairy godmother should have appeared but no such luck, even thought this was a land filled with magic there was no way out of this mess. Wiping her eyes she started the slow march down to see Remus and tell him she couldn't go to the ball, he hand going to the necklace now and again.

Sirius was between a rock and a hard place right now. As he made his way up the staircase to Gryffindor tower he pondered the situation. James has had a crush on Lily for years but is able to pretty much get any girl he wants except this one, Remus has never really liked anyone but now it was very obvious that he likes Lilt and as far as Sirius knew Lily didn't like anyone. Turning the corner he stumbled and felt something hit right into him, a small crash and then a small ouch from his right side. Sirius quickly bounced up and swept the dust off his robe and turned to face the person he had knocked over. She was a small girl with a tangle of red hair and eyes that matched. It was Lily and it looked as though she had been crying, a lot. Sirius extended his hand and helped her to her feet.

"Thank you" she almost whispered, moving her hair out of her face and turning to go down the staircase. "Wait a second Lily, I need to talk to you." He said, jogging to catch up with her, his ponytail fluttering behind him. "What about?" she stopped short and Sirius nearly fell on top of her but he caught his footing at the last possible second. "About Remus and James, and why are you crying?" If he had said the sky had fallen and he and Snape were madly in love she would have looked more composed. He eyes showed panic, the pupils danced for a second and then froze when he had said James. Her face paling before a slight blush came to her checks. "What about them and I'm not crying." Sirius was not a complete idiot and he knew very well that she was crying and she had most defiantly blushed when he mentioned James. "Of course you aren't crying Lily, you're leaking." He mater of factely stated. "Now, I want you to tell me everything." He slung an arm over her shoulder, "tell Sirius the whole story." He gently lead her in the direction of a secret room, he had a feeling this would take a while.

Lily had never seen this small, circular room before. The walls were covered in maroon wallpaper and in the center was a round wooden table surrounded by four plush chairs, each a different color. Around the room were shelves filled with books, some very old ones on transfiguration, a few on Dark creatures, especially werewolves, and…a fairytale book. "Whose is this?" Lily asked, taking down the thick, leather bound book and blowing dust off the cover, and right into Sirius' face, his mouth opened. He coughed and then hacked out, "That's James', some kind of weird thing for a guy to read if you ask me, now," he took the book out of her hands and placed in back on the shelf, "tell me the whole story or you will never leave this room." She looked around for a second, "Well, if you can get some food to me once in a while it wouldn't be that bad." Her eyes kept going over the books, trying to read the titles from her seat. Sirius took out his wand and with a flick the books lifted off the shelf, turned their spins into the fall and fell back into place. "First you tell me the story and then you can look through the books. Deal?"

"Sure, deal." She turned on the dark green chair to look at Sirius and took a deep breath. "But first you have to promise that you won't tell a soul what I'm about to tell you." With his index finger he slashed an invisible x across his chest. "Cross my heart and hope to die."

"No one ever knew who I was. I've always been a walking encyclopedia, never a friend or, a girlfriend. I've always just been there. The girl in the back of the room, the one no one notices. I'm pretty sure half the people in out year don't even now my name. It's not like no one talks to me, a few people mutter a hello here and there but that's it." She looked down and watched her own hand twist her hair tie around. "I've always been pretty sure James wouldn't notice me either." This came out in a soft whisper, Sirius strained his ear to hear her, but he did. He heard more than the words she said, he heard what she meant behind those words. "Then," she continued "this summer, I got him out of my head and when Remus asked me to the dance it felt… it felt like someone had noticed me and I was special. Then he gave me this necklace and when I saw James smile at me it was almost like Remus wasn't there." For some reason Lily felt very comfortable talking to Sirius, she knew he wouldn't laugh at her or tell everyone her secrets, he was like Snuffles (for those of you who missed it Snuffles is the name of her bear), only he was real, not a stuffed animal. Unfortunately he also saw that there was more than she was telling him. He turned, his blue eyes almost boring a hole into her.

"What else, that wasn't why you were crying." It was a statement, not a question and she knew it. She looked into her hands again, "I was crying because I can't go to the dance, I now it sounds stupid but that's why." He looked puzzled for a moment and then asked why. Lily had never told anyone about her family but considering all that she had said already what would it matter? "I, I don't have a dress or anything. I don't have the money to buy one anyway…" her voice trailed off.

"If that's it I do believe," he reached into his pocket and withdrew a jingling bag of gallons, knuts, and sickle "that it can be taken care of." He smiled broadly at her, James owed him so big right now, this was the money he had to stock up on sweets and anything that would cause a little mischief.

"Sirius, you don't have to, really I'm not a charity." She pushed the bag away from her and into his hand. "Who said I'm giving this to you for nothing?" Lily looked questionably at him. "I do expect to have a dance with the prettiest flower at the ball." Lily's face lit up and she hugged Sirius as he placed the bag in her hand. "Thank you, thank you, thank you!" she grabbed his hand and began to pull him towards the exit. "Come on Sirius we have to get to Hogsmeade and I am not taking no for an answer, your coming with me!" He sighed as she dragged him out of the room, it was better to go shopping than to have to talk to James or Remus, this was getting a little complicated and he need time to think anyway, how was he going to get James to give him some more money?

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Author's Note: I am so sorry this doesn't go up to the dance but I have a ton of homework and my first school softball game on Thursday so I have zip free time, I can't even read my e-mail and I should even be posting this but I thought you guys would at least like a taste of what's to come, I'm so busy I can't even read my e-mails or reply to them. Now for my thank yous (these pick up right after the last thank you I left on chapter 4) If I miss you, which I might, I'm really sorry it was an accident and just let me know and I'll thank you twice in chapter 6 (should be out this weekend)

CrazyStacy: I hope this is quick enough, it's not as far as I wanted to go but time is really not on my side this week.

Sweet Star: Thank you so much for putting me on your favorite list! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I hope you like some of my other stuff. I really love your poems and hope you write more, if you do can you let me know?

Bon: The first Lily/Remus kiss was out of longing pretty much. Lily had never really been noticed and when Remus showed an interest she dove in head first. The second one was a thank you for the necklace because she believes that it was a gift from Remus.

Tutty: They do look cute together but I have to break them up very soon, I really don't want to that much but I have to.

Erin Granger: Thank you Erin! Here's five and I'll let you know when 6 is up. Can you let me know when you write the story for the contest? Ttyl

Darling Lily Evans: I love your name! Thank you for the compliments, it makes me smile and I'm so happy that you think I'm good at this. Hope you liked this chapter.

SasseeSam: You really know me too well. This chapter is pretty much what you were thinking and Sirius is in it a lot (. Can't wait for the update of A Reason to Believe!

Sierra Sitruc: His life should perk up soon. I'm starting to feel like I'm being to mean to him so something good has to happen soon.

Martini addict: They are going to get together soon, I don't want to give anything away but it should happen very soon.

Bec: Sirius might take care of your questions soon. ( Remus/Lily should end soon and then you might start feeling a little bad for Remus.

Kristatwen: Hi Krista! I know you have already read most of this but I need to post something, it has a little that you haven't seen yet. I hope you and your sister like this and the next one should be out this weekend and then I'll have time to write the dance (so much, so little time). YAY! I'm really busy (shouldn't even be posting) so I haven't gotten to all of my mail but I should get to it soon. They were really funny by the way. Ttyl

Slinkimalinki: I hope I spelled that right! LOL! I love your reviews. If you haven't read the note in the beginning of the chapter. I was going to get to the dance in this chapter but didn't have the time and I figured you all would want something small instead of nothing. I hope you like this one and I can't wait to read your next review if you decide to review! I liked that line too and James won't be sad much longer.

Allie: Here you go!

SAKURAnTOKYO: Thanks for the review! He didn't ask because it was sort of, I like her so much and I'm afraid that she'll say no sort of thing while every other girl he has asked out was not as special and important to him.

AmiAmiNSusu: I have to thank you twice. Thank you! Thank you! It's a nice toasty brown, not burned but not cold ( I'm so happy you like it so far and I hope this didn't change that! What matters in not when you review but that you do, thank you again.

White Glitter: How did the competition go? I hope you won! Thank you for the review, it doesn't matter when you review but the fact that you do makes me smile (you are one of the authors I look up to and Blurry is one of my favorite stories, I finally figured out how to put you on my favorites list) Thanks for the review and the mention is no problem!

Everyone please review, pretty please! If you do I'll thank you like all of these nice people, promise.

~ Katie Black