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The art of conversation
Paige walked into living room and sat on the couch, letting her body just flop onto it. Her limbs hung lifelessly by her side, she waited for Phoebe and Piper to sit down beside, her. But they didn't, the say on the couch opposite her, she sighed
"Hey does anyone want some tea, I could make some lemon grass or blackcurrant flavour?" Phoebe went to nod but saw the saw the look on Paige's face and shook her head signalling no.
"Not that I don't love your tea but if I don't get started now I never will," said Paige sighing. She looked at Piper who had sat down beside Phoebe and waited Paige to talk.
"I know that you guys have been worried about me and I know me not telling you what's been wrong with me has been making things worse. But I just could tell you, and I think I'm finally ready." She paused and looked straight into the eyes of her sisters, "As you know or you might now, the 23rd of this month was the anniversary of my parent's death. I had been thinking about it for a while and when it hit me what day it was I just sunk into this depression. Which is normal for that day but I usually get over it in a couple of days and get on with my life. But things were just so crazy this year, and when the day came I thought for a moment that I'd forgotten them because of how busy I've been. And that just triggered it. You know my parents died in a car crash, but what you don't know is that it was my fault. I'm the reason they're dead." She paused and sniffed wiping away tears that had formed in her eyes.
"Paige, it was an accident… you didn't kill your parents," said Phoebe shaking her head and trying to hold back tears,
"But I did…" sobbed Paige, "We were fighting; I was in trouble at school… as usual. I was such a disappointment and they were finally going to try and do something about it… they were shouting at me and I was yelling back. My dad wasn't watching the road, and we crashed. I can't remember everything, I can't even remember what we were fighting about well I mean what the words were. But everything seemed to go in slow motion, the car flipping over and my parents screaming, me screaming… then the next thing I knew I was rolling on the street, watching the car burn. The flames, red hot and not dying down. So you see I killed them! If I hadn't been arguing with them, my dad would have been watching the road and he wouldn't have crashed and they wouldn't be dead! They would be dead!" Paige finished and broke down into tears, not holding anything back her tears flooded down her cheeks, Piper and Phoebe jumped off they're seats and walked over to Paige, they wrapped their arms around her and cried with her.
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3 Hours Later
When the crying had subdued, the three sisters drifted to sleep on the couch, Piper resting her head on Phoebe chest and Phoebe lying with her arm round Paige. Paige drifted in and out of sleep, her eyes fluttered open and closed. Suddenly she jolted upright pushed Phoebe's grip away, she walked through to the kitchen in some sort of a trance. Her legs barely moving as she walked in small, slow steps. She walked over to the kitchen table and sat down. There was a pen and paper sitting on the table, she picked up the peen and began to write. Half an hour passed, and more tears fell, Paige finished her letter and walked through to the living room and gently placed the letter in Piper's pocket. She walked upstairs into the bathroom and searched around the medical cabinet. She pulled out various bottles of pills and went back into her bed room. She closed the door and walked over to her stereo and pressed play on the CD player. "Wild Horses" by The Sundays came on; the mellow beat of the music filled the room. Paige turned the volume up full letting the music fill her. She walked over to the bed and let the pill bottles fall out of her hand and land on the bedspread. She opened each one in turn and let the pills spill out onto her hand, she swallowed pill after pill. Until she started feeling dizzy. She sat down on the floor and continued to swallow…
A/N This fic is nearly finished I hope everyone who is reading it is enjoying it so far. Only about 2-3 chapters left.
