Not Always What You Want
By Emily Carol
Ch. 8
The Same
***
Disclaimer- Wish I owned Gilmore Girls, but I don't. I'm also only 13 so if you sue me I don't have that much money in the first place. I DO own Emma and Emily and some other characters. I also don't own really much else mentioned in here, such as Judy Blume and American Airlines.
Summary- Future Fic - Rory's life isn't always what she wanted. Jess's life isn't always what he wanted. In fact, not that many people's life is what they wanted. But Jess goes out in search of something he always wanted. To find he may never get it.
Rating- PG right now for slight language
Spoilers- None anymore really
***
Lorelai decided she was seeing things and yelled out to Rory.
"Mom!" Rory ran to her.
"Rory?" Jess looked at this girl, no, this woman, running to hug her mother. Yes it was Rory. The same sweet Rory he had left behind in Stars Hollow. The same Rory who he shared reading with and the same Rory who he called Angeleyes and the same Rory who called him Dodger. The same Rory.
Not that Jess had expected her to be any different. Or maybe he had. Maybe more quiet. Maybe still heartbroken over him. But why would she be heartbroken? She's the one who dumped him.
At the sound of Jess's voice Rory stopped in the middle of running to her mother and saw him. The same Jess who'd left her behind in Stars Hollow. The same Jess she shared reading with and the same Jess who she called Dodger and the same Jess who called her Angeleyes. The same Jess.
She had expected him to be different. In a suit and all, and never in the O'Hare airport. But there he was, in his usual attire since she'd known him.
Lorelai looked at the two of them, at the connection between them. It was the same Love. The same Love that Rory had ended without ever really wanting to. The same Love that Jess hadn't tried to get back.
Unless.
'No.' Lorelai thought, 'He did not come here to find Rory. No one would tell him where she was. Not even Luke. Luke knows how much she misses him and he would never send him back, not without her telling him to. And by the look on her face she didn't tell him.'
Rory turned away from Jess and ran to her mom. "Let's go." Rory ran to the train and hopped on just as the doors were closing, dragging a confused Lorelai behind her.
"Now what was THAT about?" Lorelai asked Rory as she got her balance on the train.
"What was what about?" Rory said, pretending to be confused.
"Rory," Lorelai said. "You know about what."
"I just had to catch the train," Rory said. "It's a long wait for the next one."
"Rory," Lorelai said turning her daughter to face her. "Did you know he was coming?"
"No."
"Positive," Lorelai said.
"Yes, completely positive."
"Okay," Lorelai said.
Lorelai waited until they got off the train to talk again. "I still saw it."
"Saw what?" Rory asked, walking towards her car.
"I saw the connection between you," Lorelai said.
"What connection?" Rory asked unlocking her car.
"You know what I mean," Lorelai said. "You guys still love each other. He wrote a book with your name in the title for God's sake."
"It could be nothing about me," Rory said getting into the car and starting the engine.
"Oh come on," Lorelai said. "You know it is."
"Mom, just leave it alone," Rory said.
"Why?"
"Because you don't know how I feel." Rory said. "God, yes, I still love him. I love him more than anything. But he's probably married with kids and living in a nice suburban home. Besides, here I have a great life. There's me and I have the shop and I now have a great guy in my life. I think I actually might love Eric more than I loved Jess. And yes, that was loved, as in past tense. So just back off because I don't love Jess anymore."
"Wait," Lorelai said. "You just said that you did love him."
"Oh God," Rory said. "I don't know. I mean one second I don't love him and then the next second I do."
"Then you probably do," Lorelai said.
"But I can't love him, I have Eric," Rory said.
"It's not like you're engaged to Eric," Lorelai said. "You're just dating him, besides it's only been like one date."
"Still," Rory said. "I think I could love him."
"But you know that you love Jess," Lorelai said.
"God Mom," Rory said. "Last I checked you hated Jess's guts."
"Yeah, well I know more about him than you do," Lorelai said.
"Like what?"
"Like that he's a janitor as well as an author. That he's not married and that for one week every month he comes down and helps out Luke at the diner," Lorelai said. "I know that he found out that you own a bookshop and I know that he still loves you, because every time he's back in Stars Hollow you can tell that he's just looking for you. And I have a pretty good guess that Jess came here to find you and to get you back."
Rory looked at her mother in disbelief. "Wow," Rory said.
"Yeah," Lorelai said. "I don't exactly hate his guts anymore."
"I can tell," Rory said driving away from the train station.
They rode the rest of the way to Warrenville in silence. When they got to Angeleyes' Place Rory made a fresh batch of coffee for her mother and, with her own coffee in hand, started to walk down the aisles looking for costumers to help. "Hi Rory," Emily said as Rory turned into her aisle.
"Hi Emily," Rory said.
"Is your mom here now?"
"Yeah, she's up at the front drinking coffee and gossiping with Emma about my love life, past and present."
Emily sort of laughed at that but she continued to look sad. "Something wrong?" Rory asked her.
"I just got in a fight with my husband, that's all," Emily said.
"Oh," Rory said. "I can't help you much there, I just had to sprint out of the airport at the sight of my ex-boyfriend. But at least you have someone to love and to go home to every night."
"Yeah," Emily said. "You're right. I'm going to go call him now. Before the big game starts."
"Why aren't you there?" Rory asked her.
"Because I couldn't even get tickets they were all sold out," Emily said. "He couldn't even get some."
"Oh," Rory said. "Okay."
Emily stood up and walked out of the door. Rory sat down with her coffee in hand in one of the armchairs that faced away from the large front window.
If she had looked behind her she would have seen a very familiar friend walk by. As he walked by he looked into the window.
'Yes, it's her," Jess thought to himself. 'The same Rory.'
***
A/N- Whew! That's one of the longest chapters I've ever written. Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed it since I've been working on it for a fair amount of time. R&R.
By Emily Carol
Ch. 8
The Same
***
Disclaimer- Wish I owned Gilmore Girls, but I don't. I'm also only 13 so if you sue me I don't have that much money in the first place. I DO own Emma and Emily and some other characters. I also don't own really much else mentioned in here, such as Judy Blume and American Airlines.
Summary- Future Fic - Rory's life isn't always what she wanted. Jess's life isn't always what he wanted. In fact, not that many people's life is what they wanted. But Jess goes out in search of something he always wanted. To find he may never get it.
Rating- PG right now for slight language
Spoilers- None anymore really
***
Lorelai decided she was seeing things and yelled out to Rory.
"Mom!" Rory ran to her.
"Rory?" Jess looked at this girl, no, this woman, running to hug her mother. Yes it was Rory. The same sweet Rory he had left behind in Stars Hollow. The same Rory who he shared reading with and the same Rory who he called Angeleyes and the same Rory who called him Dodger. The same Rory.
Not that Jess had expected her to be any different. Or maybe he had. Maybe more quiet. Maybe still heartbroken over him. But why would she be heartbroken? She's the one who dumped him.
At the sound of Jess's voice Rory stopped in the middle of running to her mother and saw him. The same Jess who'd left her behind in Stars Hollow. The same Jess she shared reading with and the same Jess who she called Dodger and the same Jess who called her Angeleyes. The same Jess.
She had expected him to be different. In a suit and all, and never in the O'Hare airport. But there he was, in his usual attire since she'd known him.
Lorelai looked at the two of them, at the connection between them. It was the same Love. The same Love that Rory had ended without ever really wanting to. The same Love that Jess hadn't tried to get back.
Unless.
'No.' Lorelai thought, 'He did not come here to find Rory. No one would tell him where she was. Not even Luke. Luke knows how much she misses him and he would never send him back, not without her telling him to. And by the look on her face she didn't tell him.'
Rory turned away from Jess and ran to her mom. "Let's go." Rory ran to the train and hopped on just as the doors were closing, dragging a confused Lorelai behind her.
"Now what was THAT about?" Lorelai asked Rory as she got her balance on the train.
"What was what about?" Rory said, pretending to be confused.
"Rory," Lorelai said. "You know about what."
"I just had to catch the train," Rory said. "It's a long wait for the next one."
"Rory," Lorelai said turning her daughter to face her. "Did you know he was coming?"
"No."
"Positive," Lorelai said.
"Yes, completely positive."
"Okay," Lorelai said.
Lorelai waited until they got off the train to talk again. "I still saw it."
"Saw what?" Rory asked, walking towards her car.
"I saw the connection between you," Lorelai said.
"What connection?" Rory asked unlocking her car.
"You know what I mean," Lorelai said. "You guys still love each other. He wrote a book with your name in the title for God's sake."
"It could be nothing about me," Rory said getting into the car and starting the engine.
"Oh come on," Lorelai said. "You know it is."
"Mom, just leave it alone," Rory said.
"Why?"
"Because you don't know how I feel." Rory said. "God, yes, I still love him. I love him more than anything. But he's probably married with kids and living in a nice suburban home. Besides, here I have a great life. There's me and I have the shop and I now have a great guy in my life. I think I actually might love Eric more than I loved Jess. And yes, that was loved, as in past tense. So just back off because I don't love Jess anymore."
"Wait," Lorelai said. "You just said that you did love him."
"Oh God," Rory said. "I don't know. I mean one second I don't love him and then the next second I do."
"Then you probably do," Lorelai said.
"But I can't love him, I have Eric," Rory said.
"It's not like you're engaged to Eric," Lorelai said. "You're just dating him, besides it's only been like one date."
"Still," Rory said. "I think I could love him."
"But you know that you love Jess," Lorelai said.
"God Mom," Rory said. "Last I checked you hated Jess's guts."
"Yeah, well I know more about him than you do," Lorelai said.
"Like what?"
"Like that he's a janitor as well as an author. That he's not married and that for one week every month he comes down and helps out Luke at the diner," Lorelai said. "I know that he found out that you own a bookshop and I know that he still loves you, because every time he's back in Stars Hollow you can tell that he's just looking for you. And I have a pretty good guess that Jess came here to find you and to get you back."
Rory looked at her mother in disbelief. "Wow," Rory said.
"Yeah," Lorelai said. "I don't exactly hate his guts anymore."
"I can tell," Rory said driving away from the train station.
They rode the rest of the way to Warrenville in silence. When they got to Angeleyes' Place Rory made a fresh batch of coffee for her mother and, with her own coffee in hand, started to walk down the aisles looking for costumers to help. "Hi Rory," Emily said as Rory turned into her aisle.
"Hi Emily," Rory said.
"Is your mom here now?"
"Yeah, she's up at the front drinking coffee and gossiping with Emma about my love life, past and present."
Emily sort of laughed at that but she continued to look sad. "Something wrong?" Rory asked her.
"I just got in a fight with my husband, that's all," Emily said.
"Oh," Rory said. "I can't help you much there, I just had to sprint out of the airport at the sight of my ex-boyfriend. But at least you have someone to love and to go home to every night."
"Yeah," Emily said. "You're right. I'm going to go call him now. Before the big game starts."
"Why aren't you there?" Rory asked her.
"Because I couldn't even get tickets they were all sold out," Emily said. "He couldn't even get some."
"Oh," Rory said. "Okay."
Emily stood up and walked out of the door. Rory sat down with her coffee in hand in one of the armchairs that faced away from the large front window.
If she had looked behind her she would have seen a very familiar friend walk by. As he walked by he looked into the window.
'Yes, it's her," Jess thought to himself. 'The same Rory.'
***
A/N- Whew! That's one of the longest chapters I've ever written. Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed it since I've been working on it for a fair amount of time. R&R.
