Tash: I hope this fanfic gets more reviews, I'm starting to feel unloved here.
Lave: Get on with the fic all ready, the people are waiting.
Tash: What People! I only got one review
Lave: maybe if you write more, I can give you more ideas
Tash: It makes sense, after all you are my muse, and I'll be lost w/o you
Lave: Damn straight
Tash: Huh?
Lave: You know what I meant
Tash: ?
Lave: Just continue the fic all ready
Chapter Two: Inside the World of Duo Maxwell
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...
Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
Duo sighed as he left the hospital, a fake smile on his face so Sister Helen wouldn't worry about him. He was always pretending he was happy but he truly suffering inside, he was a walking plague. Everyone he loved had died and left him even his bestfriend Solo that took care of him most of his life. He nicknamed himself Shinigami and swore to himself that he'll never get close to anyone again but than there's Heero. There was something about him, that stirred something that has buried inside himself a long time ago. He wanted to stay with Heero but he knew Sister Helen wouldn't let him, she wanted Duo to be happy but she wanted him to be safe more. She thought he felt comfort in the orphanage, felt comfort in her embraces but he didn't. Duo felt nothing but aching loneliness that wanted to consume him whole and leave him broken and eternally dead inside. He knew he couldn't bare for anyone to feel the pain hidden within him so he hid his sadness with a happy face. He was constantly happy and hyper and was always teasing the other orphans just for the hell of it but inside he was slowly dying but his fake mask seemed to fool everyone esle or so he thought. For Duo never noticed the concerned glances Sister Helen threw his way when his back was turned or how his friends were always trying to keep him truly happy in their presence and always trying to get him to have fun, to overcome the sadness within his heart. It was hard though and a losing battle.
Violet eyes darkened with sadness as hands mechanically unraveled the long chestnut braid of hair and let the long strands of hair protect him from the overwhelming coldness and pain that filled his heart, was he doomed to never be truly happy. Duo's eyes closed and he began to remember.
Flashback:
A five year old boy laughed as he played hide and seek with his bestfriend Solo. Solo had long blond hair and emerald eyes, he was also three years older than Duo but treated Duo as if he was older than he was. Solo smiled at Duo as he ran along the forest trail, his chestnut hair blowing in the wind, his violet eyes lit up with happiness. That happiness was short-lived though, for as the boy reached the end of the clearing, his hope was lost as he saw his home lit up with flames. Duo cried out and began calling for his mommy and daddy but no one answered his call and Duo fell upon his knees crying as Solo found him curled up in a ball near a pile of ashes. Solo walked over to Duo, stirring the boy awake but as Duo opened his eyes, he gasped in surprise, worry and fear for Duo's bright violet eyes were blank and dull, reflecting the flames that destroyed his parents. Solo loved Duo and Duo's eyes closed as tears fell unconsciously down the boy's cheeks as they sat near the ashes, crying together. One for the death of his only family, the other for his friend's pain.
Two years Later, An older Duo runs through an alley after stealing someone's wallet, a young teenager is running after him. "Give me back my wallet you streetrat!" The person yelled out as Duo ran faster than suddenly the boy tripped and fell as the teenager caught up with him. Duo froze as the teenager towered over him, a cruel look in the dark eyes and a smirk on the cold face. "So what do I have here, a petty pretty little thief caught red-handed. Oh, what should I do?" The teenager murmured as he watched the little boy tremble, still holding onto the stolen wallet, the boy tried to move but he strained his ankle. The teenager laughed cruelly and advanced towards the boy until he howled in pain as something sharp stabbed him in the leg, he turned around to see an older kid with blond hair and emerald eyes that were glaring coldly at him. "Leave him alone!" Solo yelled out as he ran around the teenager towards Duo, he helped the young boy up, still glaring at the older man. The teenager just smirked, "Ah Solo, you shouldn't be around this parts, you just might get killed." The teenager warned Solo as he swiftly took out a gun hidden in his pants and handed it to Solo. "Here Solo, take it and watch over that kid more carefully, if that's the best he can do, he'll really get hurt on the streets." The Teenager commented as he stared down at Solo and Duo.
"Geez, Jay did you have to be so hard on him. You scared Duo half to dead. I gotta go, see ya around." Replied Solo as he lifted up Duo leaving an amused Jay behind him. "Just watch out Solo, that kid got skills but he'll get you in big trouble on e of these days." Shouted out Jay. Jay didn't know how right he was, just a few months later, Solo was killed saving Duo's life.
-End of Flashback
Duo opened his eyes, after Solo's death, he was taken in by the orphanage after one year living on the streets, he learned never to trust anyone and promised himself he would never love anyone again. Duo took a brush and carefully brushed through his long mass of hair as he stared out of an open window, he opened while playing back memories. A bright full moon greeted him as he stared at the brightness sadly. A young boy's face appeared, with confused Prussian eyes and messy brown hair. Why do you keep taunting me? Duo thought as his mind was plagued with images of Heero, he wanted to get to know this boy better but everyone he loved, died. He couldn't risk that happening again. Duo closed the window and climbed into his bed, hoping his night won't be destroyed with his nightmares. He prayed silently for someone to save him from his memories, from himself.
-End of Chapter two
