It takes long to forget the past and to forget my father. Nightmares still haunt me during the night and in eating I am not very good. Since I haven't eaten much during the last few years, I am having difficulty of eating more then usual. My parents (Michael and Catherine Lupin) still try their best and every week I start eating a little more. I didn't know how my life would continue until one morning a strange letter arrived.

4. Hogwarts - School of Witchcraft and Wizardry


We were sitting at the breakfast table as the owl post came. A small letter landed in front of me on the table and my parents just smiled at me. I slowly started to open the envelope always looking back to my parents who gave me every time a reassuring look. I couldn't believe my eyes as I started to read the letter I had been accepted to Hogwarts, one of the best schools for Witchcraft and Wizardry. Romulus had always told me so much about that school that it had always appeared in my dreams before I got bitten.


I started to read the letter once more, still not being able to believe my acceptance. But there was going to be problem what would happen during the full moon, I would endanger all the other students. I folded up the letter again and pushed it back in to the envelope. "What will happen during the full moon?" I asked returning to my breakfast. "Everything is sorted out. Don't worry everything is already finished so that you can go." Dad said giving me another reassuring smile. I nodded and I started to feel exited about going to Hogwarts.


Still three months, three long months until I the school year would start. Of course I was still excited but what would the other students say if they found out about my condition. I knew I had to keep it a secret every day, every hour; I wasn't aloud to reveal myself. What if I didn't find any friends? What if I wouldn't like the school? What if Romulus had been only lying to me? So many questions, that can't be answered now. Only when I get there I know my answers.


On the 1st of September I would have to leave for London, to go to the King's Cross Station to platform 93/4 to catch the Hogwarts Express. I am starting to get nervous of going to a school where I will know nobody. I am so scared. What if anybody would find out? I would have to leave Hogwarts not being to come back. So many thoughts and emotions were going through my head that I couldn't hear myself think. Will my life ever be normal? Normal enough, of not having to run away from every human who disgusts werewolves. I know that day will never come. Even if I am only eleven years old I know very well that my life is condemned for solidarity. No friends, no day without pain, no one who takes care for me like Michael and Catherine do.


As I close my eyes that night, I couldn't find any sleep. Too much in my head that distracted me from the needing sleep, and as I did fall asleep a nightmare came. As I woke once during the night Michael was sitting next to me on my bed looking quite worried. My body was still shaking from the nightmare and by body had flinched at first as he started to comfort me. I started to close my eyes again enjoying the small comfort. My body started to relax and some minutes later I was sitting in his arms asking, "Have you ever been to Hogwarts?" He smiled at me laughing slightly and said, "Yes of course." He ruffled through my hair and hugged me tight. "How does it look like?" I asked him, now that I was awake I wanted to know more. "Well it is an enormous castle near Hogsmeade in Scotland. With moving stairs, an enormous Hall where you go to have your meals. There are four houses, Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Rawenclaw and Slytherin. You will be sorted in to your house at the beginning of the term, in which you will be then for the seven years you're at Hogwarts. It's a wonderful school, you can loads of fun until you get caught." I started to laugh. Hogwarts sounded great and now I was beginning to be sure that I was going to love it there. "Try to get some sleep Remus." I laid back down on the bed falling asleep straight away having forgotten all the thoughts I had before.


In the end of August we went to Diagon Alley to get all my books, uniform and other stuff I would need for Hogwarts. The day came when it was time to departure...


But this I am going to tell you another time.