I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh. If I own Yu-Gi-Oh, it would not be as popular as it is today because I cannot draw Jounouchi-kun or Malik-kun's hair at all. Believe me, I've tried.



Yeah, see, another story. Notice, these are now just two one-shots that are connected because someone mentioned a Yuugi POV as being nice to see.



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If You'd Leave Us

A Yuugi Motou POV story by Ego



Everyone loves you and I'm perfectly fine with this. What better a host for such a great power than moi? You're the entity of all that I would never even want to become and I'm the reflection of a part of you that that seems to have been forgotten a long time ago.

Well, that or you repressed it.

I see you confused. I hope you don't try to find insult in this discovery of mine. You are just one of the most complex existing…whatever you are that has ever shared my thoughts.

Oh, yeah. Gomen, you're the only thing that's ever shared my thoughts.

But I can't help but be angry with you sometimes. I never tell you this because I never really believe it lasts. I just get a little frustrated for a while and then it's okay. It never matters anyway. All that matters is you and me and some destiny we have to fulfill. Remember what Isis-chan said? We have to last through our 'fate' you know. So does everyone else we are in cahoots with us it would seem.

I'm all right with that. Or, I was all right. I've been talking with Yami no Bakura….

I know you don't like that Tomb Robber, I agree. But, what he said really sent a shocker through me. I mean I really had trouble getting over that one. Out of all the nonsense, the complete blathering codswallop he has come up with, this bout really hit hard.

You're going to leave me. You're going to go away because your 'life' is more important than everyone here, everyone who cares about you. You didn't exactly tell me at first you wanted to go away.

I really hope that Sennen Ring spirit is just coming up with all those lies again, all those stories he lives in.

But I doubt this for some reason and I'm mad at you for not telling me. Even if it isn't true, you never warned me he'd say such a thing so casually, like it was so real.

He told me you were leaving forever once you found 'yourself' at last. Of course, he was obviously lying about wanting to join you and 'end' as well.

Well, if you do have to leave, just leave and quit bothering with me. You want some after-life; take it. Find yourself and fade away. Just forsake me here, alone and crying. My friends, they think you are hunting memories only. Yeah…sure. They don't see you're trying to receive the mortal death everyone else is granted. You are an ancient spirit, yes? Maybe you want to die now and exit existence, drop me behind.

You simply do not understand. You are so philosophical and very well into deep thinking, but your common sense is as dead as you will become through this quest.

I could give you anything; everything, and you still would not care. Nothing on Earth makes you truly happy. I see it when you're asked the simplest questions.

"What's your favorite food? Anzu and everyone are eating out today."

From in here I feel you pause and stare sadly out the window at some view none of us could ever see in the same shade of blue. I know I can never see like you. Slowly you will just sigh while your eyes shift in and out of focus, like some kind of cloud covers the sun of my vision you're borrowing. Finally you will answer in the most sorrowful voice we can ever make.

"I don't know, Jounouchi-kun. I don't know if I have a favorite food."

You think about yourself all the time. You drown in your self-pity and distaste with the rest of the world. Maybe it hasn't hit you yet that in your search you could die; fall away? You're already so distant anyway. I don't think many will notice it.

I will, though. I have. You're a very large part of my life if you want to be or not. You're a strong driving force that has earned us so much appeal. You see that, don't you? Don't you know how many people would be affected if you were gone?

It'd break Anzu's heart. She obviously has a thing for you along with your Domino based fan networks we never really agreed to own anyway.

It'd kill Jounouchi's confidence a tad, but not really. He was always more of my concern than yours in the first place. But still, he looks up a lot more to you than me. You're a fantastic duelist and better than him or Kaiba. In fact, you've never officially 'lost' anything before except your mind.

I mean your memories. You've lost your memories.

For a smart game player you are a terrible people person. It's because you always talk about yourself and your destiny. Please, we know, and it's getting dull. I bet if I asked him to, Jounouchi could recite your speeches about internal meanings to life word for word, pause for pause.

So why would you want to leave us? Aren't we interesting? What do you really need your past for, anyway, but to tell us about? Malik's gone and no one's going to do anything. It's finished. Yami no Bakura knows he can never get our Sennen Puzzle. We're safe. We don't need your memories.

We don't, but it seems you do. I'm sorry; I can't understand why this matters so much. I guess I'd have to experience the situation to really understand it.

But then, you don't even know your own name. I give you mine but you want yours more.

How can that bother you? I can't imagine such a thing stressing me at all. What good is the forgotten past when all it really tells you is how Hell on Earth was avoided forever ago? What's the point? Isis said we changed the course of everything in Battle City so it's not like the past can actually repeat itself anytime soon.

Don't destroy yourself for this. It isn't worth it, mou hitori no boku. I wished you'd just stop, and try to enjoy living now instead of wondering how you used to live then. All that is over and done with, it can't matter that much anymore.

You obviously don't think so. I don't want to get mad at you, Spirit, but I'm coming very close. Stop this locking away! Please, you can't have to leave us. You don't have a past, but we'll let you have a future.

No, you have to remember or you'll never be happy.

Fine then. I'll help you then so you at least know I'm here.



~Ling no Yong~



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There, took long enough, eh? I only wrote this to show how Yuugi sees his Yami's quest for knowledge. I based a bit on the manga (I tend to do that) so it may not make complete sense. Btw, this is after Battle City and Yuugi's little chat with Yami no Bakura but before Big Bobasa comes with his bizarre Sennen Item protection unity (his stomach). Knowing a little bit of the manga might help. Gomen nasai.


People reviewed after my immature note. Wow, maybe I should do that more often?

*looks at 200+ reviewed fic on Ryou*

Never mind.

Reviewer Thanks:

Blue September - Why thank you. I find Yami no Yuugi simply fascinating. In fact, I spent over two hours on that fic (a long time for me, granted).

The Pharoahs Light & Dark - Well, I guess I don't usually consider public appeal when I write. I just publish and see what happens. People probably didn't review because they didn't think I'd take it so seriously. I have learned in my other fic that if you threaten reviewers with a certain amount of remarks not being meant, they will pull through charmingly.

Alina - Look at this! I wrote a little more in Yuugi's POV. Wasn't that nice of me now?

Alia-Lemur - I guess Yami is depressed and ranting. He doesn't know himself!

KaTyA - Well, looks like I didn't take this down now, hm? I don't know half the reasons I put fics in the categories I tend to. I write Ryou fics though. They actually get more reviews. If you think there aren't enough of one type of fic, try looking for a believable Ryuuji Otogi. I haven't found one yet, but if you do, point me at it. I took your suggestion and made a Yuugi POV. Isn't it lovely?

RyuArashi - Thanks for the faves list. I just need one more member to have an even thirty. The reason I didn't like how this fic was looked at and not reviewed was because I've been spoiled by my Ryou fics with over one hundred reviews already. Of course, this did better than my Ryuuji Otogi fic, granted, which has three chapters and seven reviews.

A.K.A. Talentless - Heh, reviews are awesome. I enjoy them…a lot. And look at that, I gave all seven another chapter when I *should* have been working on "Plans" and my new Ryou/Otogi/Shizuka plot. Oh well, at least I've updated some stuff, hm? You know, since you're reading all my fics, you should see my contest submission (unless you already have). Come on, it's in Ryou's POV….