Chap 4

I rose from the pavement with a hole in my heart. He was gone and I had to move on with my life. I returned to the gang with a smile on my face, trying not to show the pain I was in.

Life carried on as it always does. I had finished high school so I promptly returned to collage and set my head around finishing the next stage to my life. I settled in quickly and hid the pain that I still felt for the departure of my love and each night as I patrolled through Sunnydale, I would reflect on our days together and wish it was still the same.

Then he returned. My Angel returned to Sunnydale on a "Mission." But instead of being a charming ex-boyfriend coming to visit he decided to skulk around and avoid me the entire time he was here. All my friends knew but I did not, most of them choosing to keep it a secret too.

Thank god for Xander and his big mouth.

I travelled to LA, my blood boiled with anger. How dare he skulk around in my town and not come and visit me or let me know what he was doing. I stormed into his office demanding answers and he just said it was for the best. Although I was thankful for him turning up and helping me out with something that was clearly a lot larger than I could have expected, I was still mad with him. I suggested that we should keep away from each other, that way maybe I will learn to forget about him. With that a demon appeared which Angel killed instantly, it was amazing, I stood in awe. Then remembering why I was there, I left, not realising that our paths would cross again soon.

Then I met Riley Finn. He was a normal, down to earth kinda guy, who respected me and adored me. He was everything that Angel wasn't but still he was not my Angel all he offered was a way out of my self-pity. There was more to this Riley than met the eye though.

He didn't know I was the slayer and I didn't no he was part of the Initiative, a government conspiracy that involved capturing and experimenting on demons.

Inevitably we both found out the others secrets and worked side by side, I would help him to capture the demons he needed to take back to the base. He was nearly as strong as I was and I was surprised, considering he was just human guy.

Then we discovered that not only did they experiment on demons but on humans too. And Riley was one of many. His mentor, Professor Walsh had been secretly building a multi-demon by the name of Adam, he was both deadly and almost invincible. He killed his "Mother", and the next thing I knew we were having a full-scale battle against him.

I discovered that Faith was back in LA. Instantly I went to track her down, but when I reached LA I found her in his arms. Angel's arms. Jealousy and hatred burned through me and an argument insured between Angel and myself. I told him about Riley and I hoped it hurt like hell.

Little did I expect that Angel would return to Sunnydale in a hope to fix things. I went back and carried on with my life, trying once again to forget about Angel. Poor Riley, he couldn't understand what we had had and when I had returned from LA he had assumed that we had continued our relationships when I was there.

Angel returned and Riley was the first thing he saw. So began the pissing contest. They fought and Angel got away to come and see me. Riley was steaming mad and came after him, refusing to leave us alone to sort things out. I took Angel aside and we discussed it, ending on peaceful terms this time. I watched as the dark brooding figure left me once again and the urge to stop him and hug him was unbearable. Yet now I knew he was there for me when I needed him.

And the next time I saw him I was desperate to see him

Mum had died and I was left alone in this world to look after my sister. How could I have been expected to bring up a teenager responsibly and protect a hellmouth? I wasn't ready for it.

After her funeral he came to me and simply held me in his arms. The comfort he offered was unbelievable. I could have stayed in his arms forever and forget the world outside but I knew I had to move on.

I kissed him. Such a bad idea! We both knew that wasn't the way to go and he left once more.

I fought on with life and the pain began to dull as I slowly began to push him away into the deepest part of my memory. I could never forget him, I never will.

Then came the battle with Glory. She wanted my sister, the key, and she certainly wasn't going to get her. I fought through those months like I never knew I could until finally it all ended and I knew complete peace.

The portal opened up and I stared into my sister's eyes as I began to tell her what I was about to do: Sacrifice my life for hers.

"You have to take care of each other. You have to be strong

Dawn, the hardest thing in this world ... is to live in it. Be brave. Live.

For me."

Those were my last words as I took a running leap of the high-rise platform into the bright light below. And as I ran all I could think about was Angel. There was no more hope of me seeing him again and I wished I could have said Goodbye to him. I hit the light and my body tore with pain, tears began to run down my face as I thought of him, my love, as slowly the life began to drain from my body.

The portal closed and I was dead, I was never going to see my Angel again.

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