Chap 13
What? That was one heck of a blast to the system. I sit completely still, my whole body completely stunned at your sudden revelation. You slept with Darla. I thought you had killed her.
"B-But she's dead." My words hang in the air between us
"No, Wolfram and Hart brought her back, they sent her to me and she tormented me in my dreams, dragging me slowly back into the darkness." You look down; I see the reluctance to look at me once more.
"So you fucked her?"
"I wanted to be Angelus once more Buff, I wanted to end this pain."
"So you come here, ranting and raving about how I shouldn't have slept with Spike. Your such a damn hypocrite Angel."
"But I've come back from the darkness Buff, that is what you must do." You look at me and I see your chocolate eyes glistening with tears.
****** I could smell the sun rising, now I could not leave you, now I was stuck in this solid stone prison. My anger was melting as I realised my mistake. I realised I had done the same to you as you have done to me. I had moved on.
But I no longer wish to move on.
I want to stay with you always and protect you, claim you as my own. I want to fight at your side and see you through the tough times ahead. I want to come home.
"I can't leave Buff." I nod towards the window and you see it to. You can see the faint glimmer of light appearing on the horizon.
You stand gingerly and reach for the blinds, closing them and casting more darkness into the room.
"Good to know you don't want me dead."
"I never said that." Your eyes still show anger and pain.
I grow quiet. I want to just forget the past few years and pretend this isn't long after your graduation and instead of arguing we are laughing. Laughing about our recent battle.
There's a knock at the door. Xander enters.
"Everything all right?" His eyes piece into mine, its clear he heard the shouting.
"Yes fine." You don't take your eyes off me.
Xander leaves and this time your eyes soften.
******
I look at you and the more I wish to hate you the more I find love trying to neutralise the hatred. I can't hate you. I could never hate you. Looking at you now I can see you don't hate me either, there is anger there but defiantly no hate for me.
I walk up to you noticing that you don't move, your gaze fixed on me makes me feel nervous. I'm so close to you now I can hear you breathing, why your breathing I don't know but its relaxing me as I listen to the steady rise and fall of your breathing pattern.
I'm getting caught in the moment, too caught up in the moment as I forget the arguments we just had and imagine just you and me and nothing else.
******
Shit your beautiful. For a moment my memory is erased about you and Spike and the arguments that followed and I find my legs walking my body towards you.
"Buffy."
You are so close I can almost feel your heart beating through your chest against mine. I tilt my head to the side to look at you once more before reaching down slowly and brushing a piece of hair out of your face.
You smile. This time it's a strong smile that compels me to do what I have been thinking about ever since I saw you again. I bend my head downwards and stare into your green eyes seeking reassurance that this is ok with you.
The smile remains.
That's enough reassurance. I allow my lips to brush very lightly against yours like a feather.
******
Kissing. You have defiantly scored high points in that category. Your lips meet mine and my head spins. I lift my arms and encircle them around your neck pulling you closer and deeper into the kiss. Your arms find my waist and soon I can't get any closer to you.
I open my mouth a little and you take the opportunity to slip your tongue inside to duel with mine, gently. My fingers knot themselves up in your hair as I realise that this is what I've been missing. These are the feelings that I am missing.
"Whoa there. One minute you're fighting, next minute you're kissing, fighting, kissing." Xander had opened the door on our little moment but as soon as he sees us he chooses to leave. How much he has grown up.
You hesitate. I can feel the tension in your body and you break the kiss your eyes are still closed.
******
Goddamn the happiness that is threatening to flow through me once more. I cannot let it happen. Your small hands rest against my chest and your lean your head on me.
"Angel, there must be a way to get rid of the curse." You can feel the sexual tension too.
You sigh.
"There is a way."
I turn to the doorway and see Willow, her hand is rested on the doorknob and confidence shines in her eyes. "I'll find a way." She shrugs.
I reach my arm around the back of you and turn you around. You keep your hands on my chest, I can feel the warmth emitting through them. "You sure?" My voice is low and gruff.
"You've been away a long time Angel, things have changed." Willow smiles at me and suddenly I feel the power that is surging through her.
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What? That was one heck of a blast to the system. I sit completely still, my whole body completely stunned at your sudden revelation. You slept with Darla. I thought you had killed her.
"B-But she's dead." My words hang in the air between us
"No, Wolfram and Hart brought her back, they sent her to me and she tormented me in my dreams, dragging me slowly back into the darkness." You look down; I see the reluctance to look at me once more.
"So you fucked her?"
"I wanted to be Angelus once more Buff, I wanted to end this pain."
"So you come here, ranting and raving about how I shouldn't have slept with Spike. Your such a damn hypocrite Angel."
"But I've come back from the darkness Buff, that is what you must do." You look at me and I see your chocolate eyes glistening with tears.
****** I could smell the sun rising, now I could not leave you, now I was stuck in this solid stone prison. My anger was melting as I realised my mistake. I realised I had done the same to you as you have done to me. I had moved on.
But I no longer wish to move on.
I want to stay with you always and protect you, claim you as my own. I want to fight at your side and see you through the tough times ahead. I want to come home.
"I can't leave Buff." I nod towards the window and you see it to. You can see the faint glimmer of light appearing on the horizon.
You stand gingerly and reach for the blinds, closing them and casting more darkness into the room.
"Good to know you don't want me dead."
"I never said that." Your eyes still show anger and pain.
I grow quiet. I want to just forget the past few years and pretend this isn't long after your graduation and instead of arguing we are laughing. Laughing about our recent battle.
There's a knock at the door. Xander enters.
"Everything all right?" His eyes piece into mine, its clear he heard the shouting.
"Yes fine." You don't take your eyes off me.
Xander leaves and this time your eyes soften.
******
I look at you and the more I wish to hate you the more I find love trying to neutralise the hatred. I can't hate you. I could never hate you. Looking at you now I can see you don't hate me either, there is anger there but defiantly no hate for me.
I walk up to you noticing that you don't move, your gaze fixed on me makes me feel nervous. I'm so close to you now I can hear you breathing, why your breathing I don't know but its relaxing me as I listen to the steady rise and fall of your breathing pattern.
I'm getting caught in the moment, too caught up in the moment as I forget the arguments we just had and imagine just you and me and nothing else.
******
Shit your beautiful. For a moment my memory is erased about you and Spike and the arguments that followed and I find my legs walking my body towards you.
"Buffy."
You are so close I can almost feel your heart beating through your chest against mine. I tilt my head to the side to look at you once more before reaching down slowly and brushing a piece of hair out of your face.
You smile. This time it's a strong smile that compels me to do what I have been thinking about ever since I saw you again. I bend my head downwards and stare into your green eyes seeking reassurance that this is ok with you.
The smile remains.
That's enough reassurance. I allow my lips to brush very lightly against yours like a feather.
******
Kissing. You have defiantly scored high points in that category. Your lips meet mine and my head spins. I lift my arms and encircle them around your neck pulling you closer and deeper into the kiss. Your arms find my waist and soon I can't get any closer to you.
I open my mouth a little and you take the opportunity to slip your tongue inside to duel with mine, gently. My fingers knot themselves up in your hair as I realise that this is what I've been missing. These are the feelings that I am missing.
"Whoa there. One minute you're fighting, next minute you're kissing, fighting, kissing." Xander had opened the door on our little moment but as soon as he sees us he chooses to leave. How much he has grown up.
You hesitate. I can feel the tension in your body and you break the kiss your eyes are still closed.
******
Goddamn the happiness that is threatening to flow through me once more. I cannot let it happen. Your small hands rest against my chest and your lean your head on me.
"Angel, there must be a way to get rid of the curse." You can feel the sexual tension too.
You sigh.
"There is a way."
I turn to the doorway and see Willow, her hand is rested on the doorknob and confidence shines in her eyes. "I'll find a way." She shrugs.
I reach my arm around the back of you and turn you around. You keep your hands on my chest, I can feel the warmth emitting through them. "You sure?" My voice is low and gruff.
"You've been away a long time Angel, things have changed." Willow smiles at me and suddenly I feel the power that is surging through her.
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