Chap 20
You twirl the axe once more and I look at you apprehensively. I can feel the tension flowing between us but I can't work out why. Then I remembered you mentioning Jasmine. Shit, I forgot I phoned you, damn me for not returning your calls more often. No wonder you were pissed.
I try to look happy to see you but the look on your face deters me from succeeding. Your cold steel like gaze penetrates my own and once again I can feel your pain.
I step forward swiftly and scoop you into my arms in a warm embrace, trying to will away the tension. I bend down and kiss you lightly but suddenly feel your hands upon my chest pushing me away from you.
"Are you going to tell me about this bitch or am I going to have to beat it out of you." Wow, seriously violent Buffy all of a sudden. You step away from me and stand defiantly with your axe held threateningly towards me.
"Jasmine, she was a demon - "
"Surprise sur fucking prise." Is the only answer I receive.
"No Buffy listen. She cast this spell on most of LA that meant we fell in love with her." As the words left my lips I realised how stupid it sounded.
You just stare at me with those hazel eyes, doubt is all I can see.
"Fred managed to find out a way to break the spell, so we killed her once I saw her for the demon she really was." I cast her a pleading look. Then I smell it. I was so busy trying to defend myself I hadn't noticed it till now.
Your doubting eyes turn to confusion as you watch my mood change, no longer are my eyes pleading but are full of hatred and anger.
Spike.
His strong smell fills the room and most of it is centred around you.
"You have got to be kidding me." I feel the sarcastic smile appear on my face.
"What?" It's your turn to jump on the defensive bandwagon.
"Is Spike your boyfriend?"
You turn away and start to leave the crypt like room. Once out in the fresh air I hear you take a deep breath and start to walk away from me.
"Is Spike your boyfriend?" I ask once more.
You stop walking and stand with your back to me. "Why do you want to know angel? What if he is? What if I had fallen in love with him? So what if he was my boyfriend, you don't care anymore what happens to me."
That hurt like hell.
"So he is your boyfriend?"
"He's changed Angel, he has a soul now."
WHAT?? Talk about stealing my thunder. "You know, I started it. The whole having a soul. Before it was all the cool new thing." I couldn't stop myself, it just blurted out.
"Oh, my God. Are you 12?" Felt like it at that particular moment.
"No." I mumble quietly.
"So what does big dark and broody want then." You sigh leaning against one of the large tombstones.
"I brought you this." I hand her the envelope and force myself into business mode, there was plenty of time to talk about Spike later.
You snatch it out of my hand and I feel that pain once more.
"Apparently it will help you. Also I brought something else too." I bring out the amulet and you stare at it aimlessly.
"What a time for gifts Angel, thought you'd butter me up after all your false promises did you?" Your anger cuts through my flesh.
"False promises?"
"I won't be long and don't worry I'm coming back." You put on your best imitation of me. "It's all a load of bullshit! Angel it's been months since I last seen you, last touched you, last kissed you."
I see the tears and I want to wipe them away but you won't let me that close, that invisible barrier between us doubles in thickness, restraining me from helping you. "I'm sorry Buff." I hang my head in shame.
"And now you think sorry is going to solve this Angel?"
"No." Thank god I didn't say yes or I was sure you'd take off my head with that axe.
"Well thanks for the help, now piss off back to LA." And you were gone, running from me into the darkness and all I could do was watch you flee. Once more it was me that caused you this pain and it had to be me to undo it.
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You twirl the axe once more and I look at you apprehensively. I can feel the tension flowing between us but I can't work out why. Then I remembered you mentioning Jasmine. Shit, I forgot I phoned you, damn me for not returning your calls more often. No wonder you were pissed.
I try to look happy to see you but the look on your face deters me from succeeding. Your cold steel like gaze penetrates my own and once again I can feel your pain.
I step forward swiftly and scoop you into my arms in a warm embrace, trying to will away the tension. I bend down and kiss you lightly but suddenly feel your hands upon my chest pushing me away from you.
"Are you going to tell me about this bitch or am I going to have to beat it out of you." Wow, seriously violent Buffy all of a sudden. You step away from me and stand defiantly with your axe held threateningly towards me.
"Jasmine, she was a demon - "
"Surprise sur fucking prise." Is the only answer I receive.
"No Buffy listen. She cast this spell on most of LA that meant we fell in love with her." As the words left my lips I realised how stupid it sounded.
You just stare at me with those hazel eyes, doubt is all I can see.
"Fred managed to find out a way to break the spell, so we killed her once I saw her for the demon she really was." I cast her a pleading look. Then I smell it. I was so busy trying to defend myself I hadn't noticed it till now.
Your doubting eyes turn to confusion as you watch my mood change, no longer are my eyes pleading but are full of hatred and anger.
Spike.
His strong smell fills the room and most of it is centred around you.
"You have got to be kidding me." I feel the sarcastic smile appear on my face.
"What?" It's your turn to jump on the defensive bandwagon.
"Is Spike your boyfriend?"
You turn away and start to leave the crypt like room. Once out in the fresh air I hear you take a deep breath and start to walk away from me.
"Is Spike your boyfriend?" I ask once more.
You stop walking and stand with your back to me. "Why do you want to know angel? What if he is? What if I had fallen in love with him? So what if he was my boyfriend, you don't care anymore what happens to me."
That hurt like hell.
"So he is your boyfriend?"
"He's changed Angel, he has a soul now."
WHAT?? Talk about stealing my thunder. "You know, I started it. The whole having a soul. Before it was all the cool new thing." I couldn't stop myself, it just blurted out.
"Oh, my God. Are you 12?" Felt like it at that particular moment.
"No." I mumble quietly.
"So what does big dark and broody want then." You sigh leaning against one of the large tombstones.
"I brought you this." I hand her the envelope and force myself into business mode, there was plenty of time to talk about Spike later.
You snatch it out of my hand and I feel that pain once more.
"Apparently it will help you. Also I brought something else too." I bring out the amulet and you stare at it aimlessly.
"What a time for gifts Angel, thought you'd butter me up after all your false promises did you?" Your anger cuts through my flesh.
"False promises?"
"I won't be long and don't worry I'm coming back." You put on your best imitation of me. "It's all a load of bullshit! Angel it's been months since I last seen you, last touched you, last kissed you."
I see the tears and I want to wipe them away but you won't let me that close, that invisible barrier between us doubles in thickness, restraining me from helping you. "I'm sorry Buff." I hang my head in shame.
"And now you think sorry is going to solve this Angel?"
"No." Thank god I didn't say yes or I was sure you'd take off my head with that axe.
"Well thanks for the help, now piss off back to LA." And you were gone, running from me into the darkness and all I could do was watch you flee. Once more it was me that caused you this pain and it had to be me to undo it.
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