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Author's Note: Here we have Lizzie journal/diary entry shiz. Oh yes.
Chapter 8: Decisions Decisions
Diary~
To say my life has been a soap opera as of late, would be an understatement. Things, crazy things have been happening all over the place. I don't know what to think of any of it anymore. It's all just been too hectic and insane for me to even stop and think about all that's been going on. Now, I finally have some time to think. My family went out to some game for my brother, I'm not sure. All I know is the house is empty (well, excluding me) and I can finally start picking away at everything that has gone down.
First of all, Gordo, Miranda and Lizzie situation. Well, we're all on speaking terms. I guess that's what I expect for everything that has happened in this short span of time. I really don't know if we'll ever get back to what we were, I want to, I know that much. But, if it will ever happen, is still dark. I don't know how Miranda nor Gordo feel about it. They may want me to leave the two of them alone forever for all I know. We'll just have to wait and see what happens with that relationship.
My next big blunder is with Scott. I really thought we were done with, I guess I was wrong. I'm not sure what I feel for him anymore, whether it be romantic, platonic, or nothing. I really just need to decide if I want him in my life again. I think I do. He's been so great and patient with recently, I couldn't ask for anyone better right now. He's been really awesome throughout my whole time knowing him and I couldn't just throw away a almost three-year relationship because he pissed me off one time, could I? He asked me out for this weekend, I told him I'd think about it, which I am doing at this moment. I will probably say yes.
Kate came up to me the other day and started bitching because Scott wants me back. Sorry he couldn't take the whole 'I'm a cheerleader, bow down to me' façade you have got going for yourself, Kate. Get over it and maybe, in time, some guy will learn to like you for who you are. Not Scott. He's mine (Whoa, did I just write that? Maybe I do really want Scott back?)
Gordo, Gordo, Gordo. A boy that has filled numerous pages in this diary with countless memories. I don't know where we stand, where I want to stand with him, just him. The two of us have been through so much in these past year together and he means so much to me. I know that he lost interest in me once he realized how great Miranda is, I know I lost my chance. That's another reason Scott will be good for me again, he'll keep me from ruining everything with Gordo. Even if Gordo could ever like me again, like that at least, I don't know if I would ever pursue any of it. I don't know how we would be on a romantic level, I'd want everything to be "hunky dory" but I don't know if it would be. I don't know what would happen to our friendship. I never want to risk our friendship again. That's probably the big kicker, I don't want to lose him, I can't risk it. Losing Gordo would be too much for me to take.
Hold, please. Phone call, gotta look at the caller ID and see if they're important enough for me to be talking to them. Oh! Yes! It's Scott! Alright. Done with that. Here:
Scott: Hey, Liz.
Me: Hey!
Scott: I don't really want to rush you for an answer on us getting back together or anything , but I was wondering if you were doing anything now?
Me: Uh, no. I'm not.
Scott: Could I swing by and pick you up? Maybe we could just drive around?
Me: Yeah, that sounds like fun. My house is kinda boring with no one here.
Scott: Great. I'll be there in like 10 minutes?
Me: Perfect. I'll see you in 10.
Scott: Yeah, bye.
Me: Bye.
AH! He sounded so cute and nervous. I loved it. It's like we're back into when we first started going out freshman year. I needs to go get myself looking dazzling for Scott. Bye!
~Lizzie
A/N: Yeah, it's a little shorter than most, but writing diary entries and making them long is harder than I thought. REVIEW!
Author's Note: Here we have Lizzie journal/diary entry shiz. Oh yes.
Chapter 8: Decisions Decisions
Diary~
To say my life has been a soap opera as of late, would be an understatement. Things, crazy things have been happening all over the place. I don't know what to think of any of it anymore. It's all just been too hectic and insane for me to even stop and think about all that's been going on. Now, I finally have some time to think. My family went out to some game for my brother, I'm not sure. All I know is the house is empty (well, excluding me) and I can finally start picking away at everything that has gone down.
First of all, Gordo, Miranda and Lizzie situation. Well, we're all on speaking terms. I guess that's what I expect for everything that has happened in this short span of time. I really don't know if we'll ever get back to what we were, I want to, I know that much. But, if it will ever happen, is still dark. I don't know how Miranda nor Gordo feel about it. They may want me to leave the two of them alone forever for all I know. We'll just have to wait and see what happens with that relationship.
My next big blunder is with Scott. I really thought we were done with, I guess I was wrong. I'm not sure what I feel for him anymore, whether it be romantic, platonic, or nothing. I really just need to decide if I want him in my life again. I think I do. He's been so great and patient with recently, I couldn't ask for anyone better right now. He's been really awesome throughout my whole time knowing him and I couldn't just throw away a almost three-year relationship because he pissed me off one time, could I? He asked me out for this weekend, I told him I'd think about it, which I am doing at this moment. I will probably say yes.
Kate came up to me the other day and started bitching because Scott wants me back. Sorry he couldn't take the whole 'I'm a cheerleader, bow down to me' façade you have got going for yourself, Kate. Get over it and maybe, in time, some guy will learn to like you for who you are. Not Scott. He's mine (Whoa, did I just write that? Maybe I do really want Scott back?)
Gordo, Gordo, Gordo. A boy that has filled numerous pages in this diary with countless memories. I don't know where we stand, where I want to stand with him, just him. The two of us have been through so much in these past year together and he means so much to me. I know that he lost interest in me once he realized how great Miranda is, I know I lost my chance. That's another reason Scott will be good for me again, he'll keep me from ruining everything with Gordo. Even if Gordo could ever like me again, like that at least, I don't know if I would ever pursue any of it. I don't know how we would be on a romantic level, I'd want everything to be "hunky dory" but I don't know if it would be. I don't know what would happen to our friendship. I never want to risk our friendship again. That's probably the big kicker, I don't want to lose him, I can't risk it. Losing Gordo would be too much for me to take.
Hold, please. Phone call, gotta look at the caller ID and see if they're important enough for me to be talking to them. Oh! Yes! It's Scott! Alright. Done with that. Here:
Scott: Hey, Liz.
Me: Hey!
Scott: I don't really want to rush you for an answer on us getting back together or anything , but I was wondering if you were doing anything now?
Me: Uh, no. I'm not.
Scott: Could I swing by and pick you up? Maybe we could just drive around?
Me: Yeah, that sounds like fun. My house is kinda boring with no one here.
Scott: Great. I'll be there in like 10 minutes?
Me: Perfect. I'll see you in 10.
Scott: Yeah, bye.
Me: Bye.
AH! He sounded so cute and nervous. I loved it. It's like we're back into when we first started going out freshman year. I needs to go get myself looking dazzling for Scott. Bye!
~Lizzie
A/N: Yeah, it's a little shorter than most, but writing diary entries and making them long is harder than I thought. REVIEW!
