*-* Don't Label Me *-*

Chapter IV

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I spot Malfoy and see him eyeing the chair across from him and back to myself. I reluctantly head towards the back of the library sitting across from him.

"Yes Malfoy you wanted to see me?" I state in a business like matter as if I was required to be here not on my own free will.

"Yea Granger. What is your problem lately? You aren't normally this touchy and provocative," He says quite calm and was there a slight sign of concern?

Nah

"How would you know how I normally act MALFOY," I spat.

"I've known you for over six years Granger. Wouldn't you think I would pick up on your attitudes by now?"

"Probably means stalk." I mumble out.

"What was that Granger?"

"Nothing. nothing at all. I've just been through a lot and easily anger," I slowly say "wait why am I telling you?"

"I don't know you tell me"

"Argh! Just shut up! Just let me say one thing and I'm out of here." I say as I feel my anger rising.

"What might that be?" Malfoy says with a sneer.

Oh that sneer. I just want to smack it off his pretty little blonde head.

'I did NOT just say pretty. Arg what is happening to me?'

"I just want to say s..s..s..orry about slapping you last night. I was out of hand but I hope you learn not to tempt me and my temper."

Before he even has a chance to say a word I grab my bag and head towards the Charms classroom.

(a/n - ya I know that coulda been more exciting but my mind is slipping.)

My mind has been slipping all afternoon and I was glad that the day was over. I threw my bad into my room and headed to the Great Hall for dinner. I sit down ignoring the glares of Malfoy and the concerned glances from the rest of the head family. I peck at my food all night and decide I'm not really hungry so I walk out the doors towards my common room. I hear footsteps behind me. Not just one pair, but instead two pairs. I feel an arm on my shoulder and my instinct is to come around and flip the person but a voice interrupts my thought of attack.

"Mione? It's just us, Ron and me," Harry says sort of uneasily.

I let out a sigh and say "Hey guys, what's up?"

"Mione what is wrong with you lately? You've been avoiding us since we first saw you on the train. What aren't you telling us?" Harry questions me.

"Nothing! NOTHING AT ALL! My life is peachy keen and it couldn't be better! I'm so happy I could just jump off a cliff!" I say exasperatedly dripping in sarcasm.

"Er. right 'Mione. We're just worried about you." Ron starts.

"Worried about me you say? Well how is it worried when the first time you saw me again was questioning my appearance! Have you ever thought of what could trigger this change inside of me! Not OUTSIDE of me!" I yell.

"HEY DON'T BITE OUR HEADS OFF JUST BECAUSE WE'RE WORRIED, EVEN THOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHY WE CARE SO MUCH SINCE WE CAN SINCE THE FEELING IS NOT MUTUAL!" Harry yells back.

"Oh not mutual is it. I have always the friend you always came to to ask for help on your bloody ass homework! Never really asked about what I thought because you were tired of hearing it ASSUMING that I was disagreeing with you two since you two are ALWAYS right. When I got worried the year Harry got his bloody Firebolt all you two could do was yell and glare daggers at me! You didn't care how I felt when my cat was accused of eating Ron's rat. No one knew how I bad I felt. You all assumed that I was glad the bloody rat was eaten! I have cared about you guys a lot more then you have cared more about me. You use my intelligence to help you and that is probably all you miss. So shut the hell up when you think you deserve more appreciation for being 'great' friends!" I had let my anger get the best of me. And I knew it. Once realizing my outburst I ran as fast I could, not caring where I went or who saw me.

My legs have taken me outside to the lake. I sat beneath a tree and let out a sigh.

'Nothing has gone my way.' I let my thoughts wander towards this past summer when they are interrupted by a cough. I look up and see Malfoy.

"Is this seat taken?" he asks indicating the spot next to me.

"No." I mumble questioning his politeness.

"So. how was your day?" he asks like we are best friends out something like that.

'What is he playing at.'

I try to calm my nerves and reply, "Eventful.."

"I heard you're little spat between you and Pothead and sidekick."

"Who couldn't hear it."

"Granger, lighten up. I'm not going to hex you or anything" He says.

I slump against the tree and let out another sigh.

"What is the real reason you are here Malfoy?"

"What?! I can't even visit my favorite Head Girl without a reason?" he starts faking shock.

"Nope" is my only reply.

"Fine then.. The reason is I'm here to offer you a truce." he begins but I interrupt.

"What kind of truce?" I ask eying he expression.

"The kind where we are at least civil together. I figured your new self wouldn't come up and say this to me so I'm proposing the truce to you. We are civil. We call eachother our first name and actually cooperate together in public and in our family quarters." He states.

I reluctantly agree but I ask "But why?"

"Didn't you hear Dumbledore's speech to us once we got into the common room?"

My blank stare obviously answered his question.

"The reason why we are all in the common room together is to bring in house unity and trust eachother. The sign of the truce and cooperation shows that you have my trust, and everyone else's in the family. Everyone else already agreed with much more enthusiasm then you."

"Alright D.d..raco"

Saying his name sounds so foreign.

"Come on Hermione it's getting cold out here. Let me escort you back to our 'home'"

He was right. The sun has already set and I see him extend a hand towards me. I grasp his hand and he pulls me up.

As we walk to our portrait I began to think that there was something different about Malfoy. He hasn't called me a mudblood yet this year. And he is actually sounding friendly. I shake the thought out of my head as my heart is becoming soft once again. Forgetting all the events of the summer briefly. I smiled for the first time in months. My smile must have had an effect on Malfoy too because he flashed me a smile. When we came through the portrait hole many of the family was giving us odd looks because we each came in with a smile. But then as if something hit me I felt a pang of sadness hit my heart again. I tried to hide it but Malfoy saw my smile drop. He was about to ask what was wrong when I was dragged out towards the corner of the common room by Ginny.

""Mione I heard about you're big argument with Harry and Ron. Sounds like it was pretty big and now they want nothing to do with you. Er.. do you want to talk about anything?" Ginny questions uneasily.

I try and hold back the tears that lead to my past and shake my head.

"Are you sure 'Mione?" she asks again.

I nod and I feel someone plop down on the other side of me.

"Hey Nia," it was Alina, "how you feeling girl?"

"No words can express how I feel right now Lina. Nothing at all."

"Do you want to talk about it Nia?" Alina asks concerned.

"No not yet. I'm not ready."

"Hey Nia I know what you could do. You could sing. That always helps express your emotions." Alina suggests hugging me.

She whispers in my ear, "Once you're ready to tell us Ginny and I are always hear. You're not alone."

I nod gratefully and with a wave of my wand I mutter "Accio guitar"

I catch my guitar and head towards the window seat and take a deep breath as I feel the pain in my heart take over me again. I begin to play and sing softly gradually getting louder.

Time, sometimes the time just slips away

And you're left with yesterday

Left with the memories

I, I'll always think of you and smile

And be happy for the time I had you with me

Though we go our separate ways

I won't forget so don't forget

The memories we made

-My voice begins to draw people out of their dormitories but I ignore them all as tears begin to fall. -

Please remember, please remember

I was there for you and you were there for me

Please remember our time together

when time was yours and mine

And we were wild and free

Please remember, please remember me

-The tears fall freely as the crowd gathers around me watching me.-

Goodbye, there´s just no sadder word to say

And it´s sad to walk away

With just the memories

Who´s to know what might have been

We leave behind a life and time we'll never know again

Please remember, please remember

I was there for you and you were there for me

And remember, please remember me

-I sang my heart out as tears begin to form in my audiences' eyes. -

Please remember, please remember

I was there for you and you were there for me

Please remember our time together

when time was yours and mine

And we were wild and free

Then remember, please remember me

And how we laughed and how we smiled

And how this world was yours and mine

And how no dream was out of reach

I stood by you, you stood by me

We took each day and made it shine

We wrote our names across the sky

We ran so fast we ran so free

I had you and you had me

Please remember, please remember

As I ended the song everyone was in tears. They could feel the pain in my voice and I finally realized the people around me. I wiped my tears away and headed towards me room without a second glance at the people I left.

I spent the rest of the night crying my eyes out.

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The rest of the month went by fast and no one knew how I felt except for my family. Every now in then when I see some of them in the corridors they would come give me a hug and a reassuring smile that they were here for me and life would get better.

In my classes I would sit next to Parvati or Lavender until it came to classes in which I had with Slytherins and I would sit next to Alina. In all my other classes I had with the other houses I would sit with members of my family who somewhat understand my emotions. I stayed clear of Harry and Ron.

Saturday morning I had a received a letter that began to make me angry again seen by my family as I calmly walked out of the Great Hall with rage in my eyes.

In the background I could hear Pudgy Pansy making snide remarks about me being a mudblood and telling people I finally got a letter claiming that my parents hated me and that they wish they would throw me over a bridge. Well she was partly right. I had gotten a letter from my parents.

I walked back to the common room muttering the password (happy family) and sat by the window rereading my letter.

'Hermione Dear -

We wrote you this letter explaining more of our and your past. Last time we began to explain you ran out. You can't run from your past Mia. We mentioned raids at one point. They were raiding around our home because your father and I are ex-aurors. We didn't want anything to happened to you like other families so we fled. It was not an act of cowardice, but an act to protect your future. I know it is wrong for us to keep it away from you for so long and we know you will never have the same respect for us as you used to. But we still love you honey and we hope you still love us.

(Blah blah blah telling me more about the times during and after Hogwarts. Blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda)

You're full name is Lorenia Hermione Medwin. Your father was in Ravenclaw at hogwarts and I was in Gyrffindor. Don't worry! You are indeed in the correct house. It is your decision if you would still like to be called Hermione Granger or Lorenia Medwin. We'll respect your decision either way. Love you dear.

Mom and Dad'

Wasn't informative, but it refreshed memories of my past. I didn't know whether to cry or not. I hear the portrait door push open and the scurry of feet. Before I knew it my whole family, probably the only family I have left. Since the day I sang we have become closer. They never questioned my actions or my emotions anyone. Except the exception when the family because to come together. They knew when I was ready I would open up. They trusted me and I trusted them back.

I have been close enough to happy as I was going to get during the month. They must have figured something was wrong so them came to check up on me. Sounds like a great family right? Well it is a great family. That night I sang out touched all of our hearts and now I do believe that I am not alone.

"Nia? Are you alright?" It was Alina. Only she called me Nia, but she tried to convince everyone else to call me that as it was one of the only things that triggered my emotions.

"Yea, I guess I'm alright. Just the letter brought me back to part of my summer." I mumble out.

"Part of the summer that made you cry and the new you?" Seamus asks carefully.

"Yes, the part that made me a miserable and angry person. Not the sad and emotionally unstable half." I angrily whisper.

"Do you want to talk about it with us? Because we're here to listen," spoke up Padma and the rest nodded in agreement.

"It all started in the towards the beginning of the summer. I had been called in by my parents."

And my story unfolded of my parents explanations and the letter. They all stood shocked and were speechless.

Damien (from slytherin) was the first to speak, which surprised me because he rarely ever speaks.

"So.. Her..er uh I mean Nia what are you going to choose?" he asks hesitantly.

All heads turn to me expecting an answer.

But now I realize I don't know what I'm going to choose..

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End for now. What is Hermione going to choose? The new life of Lorenia Medwin or the past of Hermione Granger filled with memories and pain.

Sorry if this is confusing.

Clarification in the next chapter of the sides of Damien and Draco. Are they on the light or dark side? We shall see.

Oh yes the song in somewhat the beginning is Please Remember by LeAnn Rimes. It is her song and I do not claim it as mine.

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