Hello, minna-san!!! Long time no seeeeee.... ^_^

This is me, Asasoka and my stupid " Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow" again ! Phew, finally I have finished my exam, not good-not bad ! Ok, now is the time we chat, ne !

Katsue: Oh, thank you, the first review of the chapter is always very important and just your three words " I like it " make me very happy ! And... yes, yes, you're right, this part is almost taken from the manga, the previous chapter is from book 1 and 2. Ah, by the way, thank you soooo much for helping Theria adding the new  YnM chapter ! ^_^ I already read it and just waiting for the next one...

LeoGeo: I'm glad you like my fic ! So, please continue read it ! ( And review, if possible ^o^) Hey, Tsuzuki is not only cute but also handsome, ne! Oh, Tsuzuki, Tsuzuki, my Tsuzu...er... Hisoka's Tsuzuki...*daydream*

Empath-no-tenshi: You said you like my fic really? Really?  * Eyes water* I'M SO GLAD !!! Ah, please go find a mirror, you will see a certain famous and modest talent! * nod, nod* ~_^ however... that talent is a bit wicked, she let me wait to death for her slowly updated " Til after forever"!!! * author returns to her grave*( She already died of waiting, remember ?) 

Marguerite: Yes, madam ! Your command is my wish ! This is the next chapter ! ;-P Just kidding, haha ! Thank you very much !

Caramel: Do you know ? Since May 20th , I have gotten nightmare every night, that's why I must stay awake and finally finish this chapter ^_^ so... THANK YOU VERY MUCH, HEHE! Ah, you also like " Til after forever" too, huh ? So... please make that empath-no-tenshi see nightmare every night too, so we don't have to wait "until forever" for her " Til after forever" !!!*wink*

1...2...3...4...5...Wow, my fic gets enough 5 reviews, I'm so happy ! Thank you very much, everybody !

This is the last part of "Truthful heart" or " Yesterday", all the story bases on the manga, I just add some small details ( yes, yes minna-san, not the anime!). And... since all the chapters are connected, could I ask you a favour ? Please give me just 1 minute to read the end of the last chapter, it can help this fic a lot ! Thank you !

Truthful Heart (Continue)

Warning: As usual, the grammar is so bad, bad, bad ! Yes, I know it myself, please don't blame me about it anymore, it hurts so much ! ''.''

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He just sat there, his mind was still blank by what the mirror had shown him. He didn't expect that, all he could know was the coward Tsuzuki, afraid of facing his guilt had run off, let Saagatanasu us his body freely. He knew that monster had used him to destroy many buildings in Meifu, but never did he think that what he destroyed was also Hisoka's delicate body. How could he expect that when the one saved him was Hisoka, the one said nothing very bad had happened was Hisoka, and... the one encouraged him, said that he always believed him was also Hisoka?

The silent space was broken by the noise pip pip of his watch, it was already midnight. He returned to reality.

"Hisoka, I must see Hisoka !"

Like a fish finds water, he ran to the gate. When going to open it, from the mirror sounded a familiar voice.

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"You are drinking again ?"

That was Hisoka, the beautiful boy had just entered the bar and was sitting at the tearoom next to it. From this corner of the "camera", Tsuzuki understood why the boy just sat there and didn't come near the drunkard that he was speaking to. That because... Hisoka wanted to hide the sweat that kept running down the tired face and the worry in two emerald eyes, the only reason was the boy had run all the time to find that man.

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 Tsuzuki knew what that scene was ! A half of him just wanted to run away, he knew that what he would see was painful. But the other half just kept him stopping there, right at the doorway to know what he should know.

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" HISOKA ! Ne, ne, let's drink together !" The man rushed to the boy, however, from that near distance, wine still prevented him from seeing the exhaustion on the young face.

Coldly, cruelly... the mirror like a wicked machine just continued showing him: the coward Tsuzuki just running off, let the exhausted boy run after, comfort him, prevent him from hurting himself...

" He said I'm not human !"

" You are human, I guarantee that !"

" And if everybody turns away from you, I'll be always by your side, Tsuzuki !"

The screen flashed, it was also that weak man, gave up right when he must face his crime. An overloaded boy fainted in pain...

Flashed, there were two people holding sword, fighting. The little one was already covered in blood since his skill was nothing compared with the experienced man. However, he just kept fighting, and blood just kept running down...

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" STOP ! PLEASE STOP, HISOKA !"

Tsuzuki cried out, the so real scene before his eyes made him forgot that it had already happened and no one, nothing could change it anymore.

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However, the boy didn't stop, he even didn't hear the prevention of Tatsumi or Watari, The only voice he could hear was the strong voice from the bottom of his heart...

Finally, the fight ended. Ignored the wound didn't heal yet, the bloody slender figure tried to drag himself to where his partner was. And so, blood just kept dripping down along the way...

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Fire ! The black flame was like an abyss of death just wanted to tug people in. Hisoka stopped, looked at the sea of fire below... and in just a moment, Tsuzuki hoped that the boy would give up, would leave and not risk his life for him. He knew Hisoka hated hot air the most, just the weather in Okinawa could make him fainted. However, the boy jumped in!

 " I'm sorry, Tatsumi-san! If I live through this, I'll accept whatever the punishment is!!"
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" If I live through this? So Hisoka accepted the death...? Because of me... ?" a clench fists. 

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Everywhere was just fire, fire and fire. The flame was like a bloodthirsty monster just jumped up to eat everything. In that dreadful sight appeared a small figure trying to find his most important thing. His cool green eyes was blazed by the so red fire, the delicate body sometimes disappeared into the flame. He just kept finding and finding, the only strength helped him going on was just the thought:

" I can't die before seeing Tsuzuki !!! "

Finally, the boy had found his partner sitting against the wall. The conversation still marked on Tsuzuki's mind. He knew it was weird when in that time, he still loved the feeling Hisoka clung onto him, the feeling that beautiful face buried in his chest and how nice to hug that small body, to rub the cute smooth back.

"I won't go anywhere, the only place I belong is here, by your side only !!!"

Is there anyone can be cold when hearing those worlds, especially when it is spoken by the beauty that you love so much ? Until now, hearing that again still made his heart jumped up with happiness as the first time... But just after then, looking from the outside, Tsuzuki horribly realized one thing: while the flame couldn't damage him yet since he was so powerful, the little figure in his arms became weaker and weaker... the young boy's delicate body couldn't stand the high-leveled shikigami's flame anymore and strength just kept running down...

And... Tsuzuki remembered the reason why he was still standing here...

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Holding the small beauty in his arms, the will to live deep inside him started to fight.

"Should I leave this flamed hell ?"

"End these pain, Tsuzuki, close your eyes and wait for the free death !" " If... I don't want to die ?"

"No, your existence is a curse, you must die!"

" But...I want to live happily as everybody !"

" Your life will endanger the others, what about their happiness ?"

" ...So, I must end my sin ? I must die so everybody can live happily ?"

"Yes, Tsuzuki, every body will live happily..."

Tsuzuki closed his eyes, just a moment later, he will be free! The fire began licking  their bodies... Suddenly, he heard a small noise, that was the delicate figure he was holding tightly coughed in unconsciousness. Hisoka was dying ! The violet eyes flushed open.

"Hisoka! I forget Hisoka is also here...I, what should I do ?"

He looked at the fired sea around, then the beauty in his arms. He felt puzzled, very puzzled.... suddenly, a huge burning wood of the ceiling felt above their heads. Down, down and down... it was going to hit them then...

 The wood shattered after hitting a powerful shield. The other huge power was released to defeat the death flame hungrily surrounded them. Holding the young figure tighter, Tsuzuki reached the shadow that Tatsumi sent to save them.

"I must protect Hisoka... he will stay with me, my life will change... of that, I won't die!!! Maybe I'm selfish but I want to live now. I WANT TO LIVE WITH HISOKA !!! "

A huge explosion was heard, all the building collapsed. However, no one was in it anymore !

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Tsuzuki stood there calmly. Yes, he already knew what to do now... he must find HIM, he must find his reason to exist or... maybe the pain would eat him alive... Before leaving the room, he approached the mirror, caressed the image of the beautiful face was sleeping in the infirmary...

" Hisoka, I'll come to you now !... However, there's one thing I must tell you first because when I meet the real you, I'll never have enough courage to do this..."

" I love you, Hisoka !" those simple words were whispered just as a wind blew by.

Looking lovingly at the young face the last time, he smiled then turned to go off...

Walking slowly, he could sense behind him, the mirror returned to its grey shadow, the fabric rose up to cover the mirror and the gates quietly closed... Everything, escaping from the influence of the strong power automatically returned to its place, so as him, it also the time to return to his peaceful place...

Going through the long, dark hall; passing the door glued tons of ofuda; turning off the dark corner... there he was, in front of the main hallway. If he had just left this building, aimed to the west, he would have met the small, familiar house that his sun rises everyday (Asasoka: yes, yes, minna ^_^ love can make the sun rises from the west !!!)...however, the sixth-sense just led him to the opposite side, to the cold office room...

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The building was quiet, all the rooms were absolute dark, even the hallway was dark. Of course it was since the clock showed that it already 3:00 AM . However, at a desk of a certain room, there was a tiny light from the reading lamp and a small noise was heard, it was the sound of pen writing on paper. Sitting at the desk was a figure, absolute opposite with every thing around him. His white, smooth skin opposite with the black shadow outside, the light-brown hair just like sunlight, opposite with the thick night and his small, delicate body opposite with... a huge mountain of paperwork on the desk ( -_-;;). Yes, his place wasn't here, in this large, cold office room; he must be sleeping on a soft bed now. So, why was he here, doing paperwork, which wasn't of his business?

"That lazy idiot, wait until I meet him, I will give him a lesson ! He knows that if he doesn't hand in these documents by 9:00 AM tomorr... umh, today, the salary will 10% off, and still goes home to sleep ?" Seemed like hours passed since he just sitting, writing like that.

 " Phew, finished !"

He stood up, stretched his small back, two emerald eyes slowly gazed at the bag on the desk. Tiredly, he came and opened it, inside was some Chinese food, which had just turned cold a long time ago.

 "Damn you, Tsuzuki ! I just went out to buy some food for you then returned immediately and found you had already gone home !"

"I had to run head first because I was afraid if I let you alone in the office, you will begin thinking of such things... "

" GRR... WHY AM I SO STUPID TO HELP A LAZY-BONES LIKE YOU ?"

"Why ? Why do I must care for him ?...." a soft sigh.

" I can remember it, very clearly... the first time I came here, I just tried to find out why I must die... I intended to stay here only one month ! So, I felt guilty, I thought it no fair to him if just because of me, he must change partner... funny? If I know he has passed hundreds of partners then ? The first time I met him, I felt something so strange, it's warmth... do everybody always feel warm when meet him ?" green eyes gazed at the beyond distance.

"Since that day, I found many feelings which were buried deep inside me came alive: hope, care, happiness, ... he became different from everybody since then or... since the time I was captured by Muraki ?"

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" Baka, this is a trap !"

"I know, that's why I can't leave you here!"

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"You can't leave me there ? These words still mark on my brain. I wonder... was revenge the only reason I decided to stay here or... the true reason was these simple words ? After that, I let myself believe in some one again...I believe in Tsuzuki !"

" Our relationship just stayed like that until the time Hijiri appeared, I... I knew how envy was when seeing the way they cared, they looked at each other.  If he's just a partner, you'll never care that much about his feeling, right ? And I found him as my best friend, so important friend that I was afraid of losing his affection, his caring to another one... that also the time I realized he was the best place for me to stay, that's why I decided to die follow him... if necessary !"

" When did I consider him as my family ? Maybe when his hands saved me from the Camellia ship ? Maybe sooner or later ?... I didn't know, and I still don't know. I just know beside him, I feel safe, that's why I can fall asleep immediately in his arms. No wine, no sleeping pill... I sleep myself because I feel safe." The memory came back  and just in a moment, it seemed like there was a smile passing that beautiful face...

" I hate high temperature the most, nothing could bother me more than the hot air. However... when he was in that death flame, everything I scared was only losing him. That's when I realized he is not only friend, not only family, but more than that..." he closed his eyes; now in his head, he could see it, very clearly, the face of his amethyst eyed partner. 

" I love you, Tsuzuki. But never will I have enough courage to tell you that."

The beautiful emerald eyes were opened again, it was too late, he must go home.

"Although it's not the "home" that I want to return now !" he sighed.

" You're so stupid, Kurosaki Hisoka !!! See what do you wish? Your "home" runs to you? Impossible !!!" he shook his head and slowly walked toward the door then.... the door swung open, there appeared a certain shinigami that made the young face full of shock. The tall figure just stood death at the doorway, not believe in his eyes. Then, two amethyst orbs turned to the finished documents on the desk, then the Chinese food beside... he understood everything.

Silence kept its time when the two figure just stood there, staring at each other. Then, the tall figure kept approaching; the little one kept confusing, didn't know what to do, what to say until he was swept into two firm arms. The tight hug seemed would last until the sun smiled in the east...

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Finished ! How is it, minna ?

The next chapter will be the part  "Today", it also means I won't just base on the manga anymore but it will be my build up,( Hey, but author of YnM is Matsushita-sensei, it will never change) okey, I just say it first so you won't be shocked and yell something like: " Ack, why is it suddenly... weird ?" ^o^

The next? No action, no evil... that just their original days ! Umh, maybe let's meet some of Tsuzuki ex-partner to see how Hisoka is different, ne !^_~ yes, yes, minna-san, do you want me to continue ? Just give me 5 reviews and you will have the first chapter of Today: "Special".