"Looking Back" Part 8

Author: Lynds

Author's note: Hey I know I didn't get it up as quickly as I wanted but it's

here now. I hope you all enjoy it, part 9 is in the works as I type now. I

want to thank Arwen BIG TIME. For all the encouragement and pushing to get it

done, I did this part for you and I'll try to have part 9 up for when you leave.

Also, Edene, Carolyn, Court, Lydia, Dottie, and Faith. I know you had your

part out quicker but here it is. Thank you to everyone who has sent me feedback I

love it so keep it coming!

Summary: See parts 1-7 I'm too lazy to write out a summary.

Disclaimer: None are mine, but if I make them up they are, though since the 6

no longer belong to DEK can I screw around with there lives now?

"Looking Back" Part 8

I laid there crying into my pillow. I was so happy he was going to the

college he had wanted to all his life, but what about me? What about the baby? I

heard a knock on the door and just stayed there crying.

"Lindsay, sweetie, what's wrong?" He had walked into the room and sat on my

bed rubbing my back. I just cried more. "Baby, why are you crying? Did I do

something wrong?" I shook my head. "Then what honey?" I sat up and tried wiping

my tears away from my face. He took me into his arms and I clung to him.

"I'm happy for you Bobby I am."

"But? What's making you this upset?" I looked him in the eye for the first

time.

"But I don't want you to forget about me and the baby."

"I couldn't---wouldn't ever ever forget about you! You're the biggest thing

that's happened in my life and I'm not going to forget about you or our baby."

"But you're going to be away at college having fun with your friends."

'But my best friend is going to be back here at home."

"I just don't want to lose you."

"Well you're not going to ever lose me, I'm here." I pulled back and smiled.

"Promise?"

"I promise." He leaned over and kissed me.

"Thanks Bobby."

"For what?"

"For being here."

"Wouldn't have it any other way." And he pulled me in for another hug,

resting his hand on my stomach. There was another knock on the door.

"Can I come in?"

"Yeah, come on in dad." Stephen walked in looking worried and he sat on the

bed next to me.

"You okay Lindsay?" I pulled out of Bobby's embrace and smiled.

"Yeah I'm okay." I looked at Bobby with the question in my eyes and he

nodded. He held my hand and we both turned to Stephen.

"Dad, we need to tell you something important."

"Okay, is everybody okay?"

"Yeah everyone is fine dad."

"Alright then what is it?" Bobby looked at me and I opened my mouth to talk.

"Bobby and I well, we're hav--we're going to--" Bobby chimed in.

"Lindsay is having my baby." We both turned our heads to see Stephen. He just

sat there.

"Dad?"

"Stephen, please say something." He was starting to scare me.

"You're what! She's what! "He stood there for a long time staring at us like

we were the worst things he'd ever seen. "What do you mean she's having your

baby?!"

"Just that she's having my baby."

"How? I mean she's 16 years old! And you're 18! There is no way you two can

raise a child!"

"Dad please-" I had started to cry and Bobby was trying to console me and

talk to Stephen.

"NO! I can't believe you two could be so stupid! You're both smart people,

what the hell were you thinking? You know what you weren't thinking!" He sat on

the chair by Bobby's desk. "What are you going to do? You're about to go to

college and now you're going to have a baby and teenage mother back home! Bobby

what were you thinking?! How could you do this."

"Dad, would you just listen for a---"

"Listen to what? An excuse to take this away? Bobby a baby is not something

you can get out of with an excuse!"

"I know, I'm not trying to, I want this baby."

"You do?" He sounded still angered but surprised.

"Yes. Dad I know it's going to be so difficult and we're young but I want

this baby and I'm excited."

"Well I don't care if you're excited or happy, you're 18 years old! And

Lindsay, Jesus she's a young girl herself." I had buried my head long ago into

Bobby's shirt and that's where it remained. "I don't know what the hell I'm- --

we're supposed to do, you both have your whole life ahead of you and that's going

to be put on hold with a baby!" Stephen stood up and walked to the door. "I

can't believe the two of you. I don't want you two together, Lindsay go in your

room, Bobby stay in yours. If you're going to hang out you're not doing it in

bedrooms!" He slammed

the door on his way out and I cried harder. Bobby tightened his embrace on

me.

"Shhh.honey don't cry. It doesn't matter what dad thinks, this is our baby."

I pulled away and kept crying.

"Maybe I should move in with my dad."

"No! Lindsay, you'll move in with me if you have too but you're not moving in

with him. Dad will get over this don't worry."

"He hates me now because of what I've done."

"First dad doesn't hate you, he's not capable of hate, he loves you like his

own. Second, you didn't do anything wrong."

"I got pregnant."

"You think that was all your fault? You wern't the only one there, it was me

too sweetie." I fell into his embrace again and just cried.

"Bobby, what are we going to do?"

"We're going to have a beautiful baby, that's what." I smiled and kissed him.

"I guess I better go in my room before we're in more trouble."

"Okay, let's go down in the living room ans watch TV."

"Okay let me change first."

"I'll meet you down there."

"Okay." I went into my bedroom and changed into my pink terry cloth sweats

and matching t-shirt. I grabbed my blamket and my stuffed animal Bobby bought me

a few weeks ago. I passed Stephen going up the stairs as I was going down.

"Stephen, I'm sorry." That's all I could manage to say and he looked at me

with cold eyes and kept walking. My eyes filled with tears again and I kept

walking into the living room. Bobby was lying on the sofa flipping through the

channels. I walked over and laid next to the sofa on the floor. I cuddled into

the blankets.

"Hey you." I looked up at him.

"Yeah?" I was drying up my tears.

"What are you doing by your lonesome down there? Come on we can snuggle on

the sofa and put in a movie to watch." I stood up and he opened his arms to let

me snuggle.

"What movie is in there?"

"Well I put in 'The Others' in but if you don't want to watch a scary movie I

can put a comedy in."

"No that's okay I wanted to see this movie."

"Okay, well let's watch it." We snuggled together and watched the movie, at

every scary part I turned my head into his chest and he held me. Stephen came

down hour and a half later into the movie and it was almost 7:30 pm.

"What do you two want for dinner?"

"Don't worry dad, we'll get our own."

"Fine."

"Fine." They both sounded so cold. We finished the movie at 8:15 and Stephen

was in the kitchen eating. I was half asleep and Bobby woke me up.

"What?" I finally mumbled.

"Let's get some dinner, we don't want our baby starving." I smiled and we

walked into the kitchen and Stephen was just finishing up.

"What do you want?" I couldn't believe it, Bobby hadn't even made it aware

his father was in the room.

"I don't know, just a sandwich."

"Well, I'll make it you sit down." I sat at the table and Stephen left the

room. Bobby must've noticed the look on my face. "Don't worry pumpkin, he'll get

over it and be happy soon."

"Maybe."

"Baby, he will. He just needs time to himself." I nodded. "One peanut butter

and fluff sandwich for you my darling."

"Oh yummy thank you." I kissed him and returned my attention to the plate.

"And some juice." He placed it in front of me and a few minutes later he sat

down with his sandwich and juice. We were quiet for a while.

"So when do you have to leave for college? Like how much of the summer will

you be here?"

"Well, I'm gonna have to start looking for a job and an apartment, dad's

friend who's been a family friend forever owns a bar so I'm going to see what I

can do there. Earn some money pay off some of my tuition, my grandmother is

helping me but I want to help."

"Oh." I looked down at my hands. "I'm still going to see you right?" He

grabbed my hands and gave them a light squeeze.

"Hey, look at me." I looked up at him. "You listen to me. You're going to see

me every weekend and I'm gonna call you all the time."

"Yeah right." I knew he knew I didn't believe him.

"Yeah right what? You don't believe me?"

"No I mean I know you mean what you say, but I also know you're going to get

caught up in school work and partying and girls and you're just going to

forget about home and you won't have time for me."

"Lindsay, look at me. First, I am never ever going to forget about you, OUR

BABY or home. Never, I promise you that. Second, yes I am going to have work,

but I'm always willing to put that down for you, yes I won't lie, I'll be at

parties but that's college and I'll be there for you and I don't care how many

girls are there I'm not going to notice cause the only one I will ever care

about is the one that's at home carrying my baby. I'm always going to have time

for you. ALWAYS."

"I'm just scared that's all."

"Well, don't be, you're going to be the first one with my phone number and

you already have my cell, I'm here and I'm not going anywhere."

"I don't want to bother you all the time and call."

"You're not. I'm going to be a phone call away, anytime of day got it?"

"Yeah."

"Okay, so are we okay now?"

"Yeah, I'm okay, we're okay." I reached for his hand and squeezed it.

"What about your dad?"

"Dad isn't going to be this way forever, he still loves both of us and he'll

be okay."

"If you're sure."

"I am." He stood and took my dishes and kissed my head.

"Come on Linds, let's go to bed, it's late." He reached his hand out and I

took it and followed him upstairs.

"Wait, my blankets and pillow are in the living room."

"I'll go get them." He came back and we walked upstairs.

"I'll be in your room in a second, I just want to go say goodnight to dad."

"Okay." Bobby came back into my room quicker than I thought he would, I was

in the middle of putting a lighter shirt on and I was only wearing my

underwear.

"Oh, I'm sorry baby." He started walking out.

"Bobby, come back, it's okay." He walked back in and sat on my bed, I put my

capri type pajamas on and sat next to him. He grabbed my hand and held it in

his lap. I looked up at him and I could see the desire in his eyes. I leaned

towards him and I could feel his breath against mine. "Bobby, maybe because of

your dad we sh--------" I was cut off by his tongue going into my mouth, and I

responded. "Bobby, your dad." I pulled away.

"He's sound asleep, I went in there and he was sleeping."

"I just don't want him more angry."

"Okay, if you don't want to then I won't."

"I do, I just don't want him more upset."

"He'll never know."

"Okay." I leaned towards him again and kissed him. I pulled his shirt off and

he laid me on the bed. He lifted my shirt up and trailed kisses down my neck

and over my chest. I pulled on his pants and he did the same. He cupped my

breast and tickled and teased me. He was so gentle with me. I ran my hands

through his hair and brought his head back up to meet my mouth. Dancing tongues

roamed and hands explored. I reached down to pull his boxers away and he lifted me

up to pull down my underwear and he came back up my face and kissed me deeper

and with more passion. I put my arms around his neck and brought him down and

we joined. He gently guided himself inside me. I moaned and mumbled his name

and he brought us to reach our ecstasy. I felt his body go limp on me, and I

laid his head on my chest and he nuzzled into my neck. I laid there stroking

his hair, sweat tracing his body he was amazing and I felt like the luckiest

person being with Bobby, I felt safe and I felt like somebody actually cared for

me. I was falling in love with him. I'd never felt like this before but I knew

what I felt and it was love. I closed my eyes, I sighed and kissed his head.

"I, I, I love you Bobby." And I kissed his head again. He stroked my stomach.

"I love you too Lindsay." And we both fell asleep holding each other. I

stirred around a bit and looked at the clock beside my bed, 9:45 am. Damn, I slept

late. Then I looked down and lying in the same position, I smiled and closed

my eyes again running my hands up and down his back. The next time I woke up it

was 10:30 and I had woken to the sound of Stephen's bedroom door opening. I

didn't want him to move but I knew we'd be in trouble.

"Bobby, honey wake up." I shook him. He didn't move an inch.

"Come on Bobby wake up, your dad is up." He groanaed.

"What? Come on baby, back to sleep."

"No, your dad is up." He was up in a second.

"What! Shit, Linds where are my clothes?!" He was running around my room.

"Like it's my job to keep an eye on them? I don't know where they are." I was

still lying in bed with the sheets covering me.

"Lindsay?" He knocked on my bedroom door and Bobby was just finishing getting

his clothes on.

"Uh, yeah?"

"Can I come in, I want to talk to you."

"Now?" I was trying to stall him, Bobby was all dressed now and I'd just have

to explain why he was in here.

"Yes, before Bobby gets up." I heard the handle turning and Bobby sat on my

bed. "I just wanted to----" He looked up and saw him sitting there.

"Uh, morning dad?"

"What are you doing in here?"

"Linds and I were just, we were talking."

"Really, does she always talk to you this early in the morning dressed like

she is?" We were both quiet. "Bobby, go."

"Dad--"

"Leave Lindsay and I alone."

"Okay, baby, I'll go make you some eggs? Do they sound like they'll agree

with your stomach?" I smiled.

"Yeah thanks." He kissed my head and left.

"Stephen, could I just put some clothes on first?"

"Of course. I'll be outside." I got up when he left and quickly changed. I

opened my bedroom door.

"Come on in." We sat on the bed.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you, Bobby however deserves every

yelling he gets. I just slept on it and I know I can't change you being pregnant

and the feelings you and my son have but I'm still very angry. I just want you

to know you've always got a place in this house and I love you like my own

daughter." I had teary eyes. I hugged him.

"Thanks Stephen."

"Now come on, no crying, you need to eat. So let's go." We walked downstairs

and Bobby had a plate all ready for me on the table.

"Hey honey." I walked over and hugged him.

"Hi. mmmmmm.....smells yummy." He kissed my head and turned the stove off.

"Have a seat it's all ready." I sat at the table and he sat next to me.

"Dad I left some food in there, I didn't know what you wanted."

"Okay."

"So how you feeling this morning?"

"I'm pretty good."

"No morning sickness?"

"Not yet, give it time." He laughed at me.

"What do you want to do today?"

"I can help you apartment shopping."

"Okay, lunch afterwards? Maybe get Subway and then rent a movie?"

"Sounds like a plan."

"Great, go hop in the shower, then I'll take one." I kissed him and put my

plate in the sink.

"So dad what were you two talking about?"

"You and the baby."

"Uh oh."

"I apologized to her for overreacting the way I did."

"Dad, you had every right to react the way you did."

"Not as harsh as I did. I told her she always has a home here and so does

your baby."

"Thanks dad."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah, you just go get ready will you?" I walked downstairs and

saw Bobby and his dad laughing and smiled.

"Hey you two, what are you up too?" I walked over and kissed Bobby.

"Nothing, you look pretty today." I was wearing a black skirt that ended just

above my knee and a light blue skin tight shirt.

"Thank you." I walked to the front closet. "Do you know where my black heels

are honey?" He walked in the hall where I was.

"Which ones?" He teased.

"Ha.ha.ha." He kissed my cheek.

"They're by my bed upstairs."

"I'm not even going to ask why." I started walking towards the stairs.

"Oh now who is the funny one?" He chased after me up the stairs.

"I'm taking a shower."

"Fine. Give me a kiss first."

"You got it." 30 minutes later we were both dressed and ready to go. "Dad,

we're leaving." Stephen walked into the front hall.

"Okay, you two have fun. And Lindsay take it easy."

"I will."

"Bye dad."

"Bye you two." We walked to his car.

"Well that's a relief." I said as he opened my door.

"What?" He backed out of the driveway.

"We've told your dad. Now we've only got the rest of your family, my whole

family and all our friends at school." He stared at me and we both started

laughing before pulling onto the highway to start our day.

Well there you go I finally finished part 8 and part 9 is almost finished

being typed up so it's coming around the corner. Please feedback.....I love

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