"Looking Back" Part 10 (The Final)
Author: Lynds
Author's note: Hey, we're getting close to the end, I will say that because I do have to wrap this story up but I plan on doing an epilogue. Anyways, here is the final part. Let me know if you want an epilogue, I'll only do it if one is asked for. I would like to thank Edene, Carolyn, Court, Mary, Claire---you are the best! Dottie, Kiosha, Kylie, Arwen, Snippy, Jewel, Knight, Faith, Lydia, and everybody else I forgot, because I know I'm forgetting people. This peice is dedicated to Kiosha and Faith. Kiosha, who if had not helped me it wouldn't be here for you all to read. Thank you so so so so so so so much. I can't say it enough! So thank you all for everything.
Summary: You should know by now I don't do them.
Disclaimer: I still need to discuss custody issues with Dottie, then maybe we'll know.
"Looking Back" Part 10
"Lindsay! Come over here!" I waddled to the pool where Bobby was standing with his father and Uncle Jerry. He scooped me in his arms and kissed me. I pulled back. "Yes?"
"Nothing, just wanted to say hello to my beautiful girl and my son." I smiled as he put his hand on my *very* pregnant belly. It had been almost a month since we'd been out of school. Bobby graduated and was packing for college. He worked at Hannahgan's bar, during school he only worked a few hours a night after school and most of the days on the weekends. He and his father had met with the landlord the Monday after we went to see him and they had taken a lease out on the apartment. Today, we were having a big picinic with all our friends and Bobby's family, celebrating the end of the school year and Bobby's move. We found out we were having a baby boy and Bobby couldn't be more happy, my due date was July 13th and we were in the middle of the beautiful month of June. Stephen had bought and done the whole nursery. It was light blue with a wooden sleigh bed crib, and the whole room was pooh bear themed. Everything in the room had matched. The nursery was set, Bobby was just about all packed to move and he was ready to start college in a month and a half. We had told all our friends about the baby and they couldn't be more thrilled. We also had to tell Bobby's family and at first they weren't sure how to act but like Stephen they melded into it and were excited for a baby to arrive. My mother also was a picture that was out of my life. She had plead guilty to each count and is now serving 10-15 years in prision. As hard as it was for me to accept this I knew the right thing was done and I knew I had Bobby's family and they supported me. My mother doesn't know about the baby and I don't even know if I'll ever tell her. My relationship with my father and little brother had gotten stronger since everything. My dad couldn't wait for a grandchild and my brother wanted to be an Uncle. I would never be close or feel like I belonged in my father's life, I only feel that way in Bobby's home and his family, but I could have a relationship with them. "Linds, Linds?" I was borught out of my daydream by Bobby's soothing voice."
"Yeah?"
"You feeling okay?" I smiled at him. "I'm fine, why?"
"I don't know you just seem to be way out there."
"Nah, I'm just thinking."
"Okay." He smiled and put an arm around me and we spent the rest of the day, eating, playing games, swimming, eating more and hanging out with family and friends. I yawned and looked at Bobby's watch, it was 6:30 and the picinic was finally starting to quiet down. "I'm tired." I laid my head on his shoulder and he kissed my head. "Go lie down."
"I have to stay here and be a good person and keep everyone company."
"Well, the most important thing is you and our son so get some rest, everyone will understand." "Okay." He helped me out of my chair. "Dad, I'm gonna bring Lindsay upstairs to rest."
"Okay, rest up honey."
"Thanks dad." I smiled. I was still hesitant to call him 'dad' but he insisted it was okay and it felt good. Bobby guided me up to my bedroom and tucked me in under the blankets. "You get some sleep okay?" I nodded my head. "Yeah. Come back up later."
"Of course I will." He kissed my head and walked to the door. "Love you." I smiled. "Love you too." I dozed off and next time I woke up was to the smell of something cooking in the kitchen. I walked downstairs and knew right away everyone was gone, it was very quiet. I went into the kitchen and saw Bobby and his dad heating up leftovers. Bobby must've sensed my presence. He turned around and smiled.
"Hey sweetie. Sleep well?" I nodded my head and sat at the table. "I'm making you a little of everything leftovers, how's that sound?" "Yummy." I said while rubibng my hand over my stomach. "You sure you're okay to help me finish with my apartment tomorrow?" He said later that night while we laid on the couch. "Yeah, I'll work on unpaking, putting your clothes away and all that boring yet fun things, how's that?"
"As long as you take it easy."
"I promise." I kissed him and yawned. "Honey, you just woke up 2 hours ago how can you be tired?"
"I don't know, I've been really tired lately." "You okay?"
"Oh yeah,I'm fine."
"Why don't you go up to bed."
"Okay."
"Come on." He grabbed my hand and led me upstairs. He kissed me and tucked me in after I changed into my pajamas. "Goodnight, sleep tight."
"Night. Love you."
"Love you. Now get good night's rest." He turned the light off and I laid on my side trying to sleep. I put my hand on my stomach and thought of the little baby growing inside me. I know we are just kids but this baby was created by our love for another I also knew that. Bobby was my best friend and my soulmate and I knew 4 years from now we'd be together happy and sharing the joy of our little boy. With thoughts of my son and the man I love in my head I quickly found myself drift into a very peaceful sleep. I woke up early the next morning and looked at the clock, 8:00 am. Yuck, way too early, but I knew we had to finish today. Bobby's last night at home was tonight. I knew we'd see eachother but I didn't want him to go, I cried everytime I thought about it. The only good thing was that since it was summer and I didn't have school I could spend nights over there. I slowly got up, showered and dressed. I walked downstairs and saw Bobby gathering boxes with his father and putting them in the car. He looked at me and smiled. "Morning, you almost ready?" I nodded and walked to the kitchen. "I'm just going to have a bagel and orange juice."
"Okay. Dad and I are going to finish putting these boxes in the car."
"Okay." I made myself a bagel got some juice and went outside, I walked over to his car. "Am I taking my car or going with you?" I asked him with my mouth full of bagel. He looked at me and laughed. "Hmmmmwmmmwheeemmmhhhh." He was makiing fun of me and just mumbling letters like he had something in his mouth. I stuck my tongue out when I swallowed. "Haha, very funny." "Well that's what you sound like." I threw a peice of my bagel at him. "Hey!" "Be nice next time." He stuck his tongue out at me this time. "Kids, come on." Stephen was laughing at us. "Coming." We both responded walking to his car.
"So, I'm going with you?"
"You're just too smart." I smacked his butt while he walked to the drivers side. Stephen got in his car and Bobby pulled out in front of him. I turned the music on and flipped through channels. "Ugh..There is *never* anything on the damn radio." I yelled. He looked at me and laughed. "Don't hurt my radio." I glared at him and laughed. I was so jumpy and excited today for some reason. "Fine." The only actualy song on the radio was Justin Timberlake "Rock Your Body." "Yuck I hate him and this song."
"Change it." He went to change the channel and I slapped his hand away. "What the hell was that for?"
"This is the only song on and it's better then no song at all." "Fine." I started singing the words and Bobby laughed at me. "Now what?"
"Nothing, you're just cute."
"Well thank you kind sir." We pulled up into his apartment complex. "Okay, no carrying boxes, you take my keys and go up to the apartment and we'll be up."
"Okay." I walked out and went up to his apartment. He had a couch, recliner and arm chair plus a coffee table and two end tables in the living room covered with plastic from my home. Since my mom was put in prision the house went to me and everything in it. Bobby and I were going to move in it once I was out of school. My father and brother go there every other day or two to check on it. Bobby also got, a desk, and some chairs, 4 bar stools and the island in our kitchen instead of using a table, he had a bed from one of the guest rooms and 2 nightstands, plus the dresser and entertainment center for the living room. I told him to take my bed from my room but he said it was too big for his room. My dad had also purchased the entire nursery for Bobby's apartment. It was yellow with pooh bear border and again pooh bear themed. His apartment really was nice and he worked so hard for it. I went into his bedroom and looked at the boxes of clothes. I had started hanging them up and folding them the other day when we were here. I sat on his bed and opened another box. I began folding them and piled them on the bed sorting them out as I went along. About 5 minutes later I heard the two coming through the door. Bobby came in with 2 more boxes of clothes. "More clothes, Bobby how manay do you have?"
"These are the last two."
"Fine." He set them down and came over to me and kissed me. "Thanks honey." "Yeah, yeah. What are you guys doing now?"
"We're gonna set up the computer and TV and stereo and uncover all the plastic from everything."
"Have you gone grocery shopping? Bobby you better, and you better eat somewhat healthy when I'm gone. I mean it, you have to stay healthy."
"Yes mom."
"Again, very funny."
"I know."
"Get out of here will you?"
"Fine." We laughed and he walked out the door making lot's of noise with his father in the other room. 4 hours later, his clothes were done, and he and his father had everything set up. The apartment was done except for some food shopping which I would do tonight and drive up here to put everything away for him. I walked out where the two were sitting on the couch watching TV. "You ready?"
"Yeah, let's go sweetie, dad ready?"
"Yup." We walked out and went down to our cars. "Dad, what do you want for lunch?"
"I can pick something up for us." "It's okay Stephen, I wanted to go food shopping for Bobby's place so we could pick up things to make sandwiches."
"Okay, I'll meet you back at the house."
"Okay dad." We drove to the grocery store and I picked him up simple easy to make yet healthy things for Bobby. We also picked up turkey and ham for sandwiches. We dropped everything off at Bobby's and as I was putting everything away he yelled at me. "Linds! Sit down and rest."
"Bobby, I'm fine."
"No, you're 8 months pregnant I'll finish up you sit down, actually go in my room and on my dresser is my spare key, why don't you put it on your key ring okay?" "Oh yeah, I'll do it before I forget." I got up and put his key on my set of keys and sat on the couch while I waited for him to finish. "Okay babe, all done let's go home."
"What time is it?"
"It is, 3:30."
"Oh, I'm hungry let's go home so we can eat lunch." He laughed at me. "Why am I not surprised?"
"Shut up." We walked down to the car and again listened to the radio the whole way home. We pulled into the driveway and brought in lunch. "Dad, sorry, we didn't mean to be so late it's already 4:15 almost and we should be having dinner."
"It's okay Bobby, we'll have a late dinner."
"Okay." We all made our sandwiches and ate at the kitchen table. "Yummy, that was very yummy." I said after eating two sandwiches. "I'm going upstairs to change." "I'm coming up, then we can cuddle and watch TV in your room." "Okay, well night Bobby, I'll wake you guys early so we can see you off tomorrow."
"Okay night dad." I looked at Bobby and nudged him. I shook my head no. He mouthed 'yes' to me and I shook my head again. I pushed him towards his dad. "uh...uh...dad?" Stephen looked up at us. "What's up?"
"Can, well since it's my last night...can...see...Can Lindsay and I..b-b- both sleep in her room?" We were quiet and looked at Stephen for a minute.
"Sure. Since it's your last night." We smiled. "Thanks Stephen."
"Thanks dad."
"Yeah, now go, I'll call you when dinner is ready, it's not going to be til 7 or 7:30 since we ate a late lunch."
"Okay, thanks again dad."
"Go on." We went upstairs and I changed into pajamas and he changed into some too. We laid on my bed cuddled in eachother's arms. We laid watching TV and I kept thinking about how different it would be with him gone. I started crying and he looked down at me. "Linds, sweetie, what is it?" "I don't want you to move." He lifted my chin. "Honey, I'm going to see you on weekends."
"I know but I want you to be here all the time like you used to be." "I can't honey, but you call me all the time and I'll call you all the time." "I know but it won't be the same."
"I know honey, I know, we won't ever go one day without talking to eachother."
"It doesn't make it better, but do you promise?"
"Of course I promise." "Okay."
"I love you Linds."
"I love you too."
"And we're both going to finish school, you're going to go to college and we're going to get married and raise our son together." I smiled and cuddled closer.
"I like that." He kissed my head.
"I knew you would." He rubbed my back. "No more crying okay?" "Okay."
"That's my girl." We laid in eachother's arms again until it was time for dinner, we quickly ate our dinner and said goodnight to Stephen. We went back upstairs and spent the night wrapped in eachother's arms. We made love one last time before he had to leave. I woke up to minty breath. I opened my eyes and saw Bobby all dressed and ready.
"Morning sweetie." I smiled before remembering what today was. "Hey. What time is it?"
"9:45."
"Already?"
"Yup, I figured I'd let you sleep then we could have a little food together and then I have to leave."
"Oh." "Yeah." I looked down and up at him again and tried smiling. He helped me out of bed and we walked downstairs. We had waffles and orange juice together and I never wanted breakfast to end. I held his hand the whole time, it made it harder to eat but all the more time that took up. Finally we both finished and I could feel tears forming in my eyes. Stephen came in the kitchen from working outside by the pool. "Okay son, you ready?"
"All set dad." He stood up and walked upstairs grabbing one of his pillows and his backpack. He walked back downstairs and grabbed his keys. The three of us walked outside in the front yard. I was still in my pajamas but I didn't care. We walked over to his car and his dad said goodbye. "Bye son, have a safe drive and call me when you get in. Take care of yourself and we'll see you soon." Stephen hugged Bobby and walked back towards me. "Thanks dad. You take care of her for me."
"You know I will." Then he held his arms out to me and tears started pouring down my face. I collapsed into his arms and just cried. He stroked my back and kissed my head, these actions made me cry harder. He pulled back when I calmed a little and held my face in his hands. "You listen, you and I are going to call eachother every day and we'll talk and we'll e-mail one another and we'll see eachother every weekend, the only reason we have to go a few weeks without seeing eachother this time is becasue I have to register and get myself settled in and all that stuff that just keeps me away from you." "I know. I am just going to miss not having you in the room next to me or not having you right there all the time."
"I know that sweetie and I'm going to miss you too so much." "I love you." He kissed my forehead. "Baby, I love you too." "I'll miss you."
"And I'll miss you."
"Call me when you get there."
"You know I will."
"And we'll call eachother every day switching on and off."
"You better believe it."
"Okay. I still don't like this." He chuckled at me. "Me either. But you promise me no matter what you'll let dad look after you, you'll look after him and most important you'll take care of yourself and our baby." "I promise."
"That a girl. Now come give me a big hug and kiss. When you go back inside there is a little something waiting for you in my room on my bed." I walked into his arms and he scooped me up and I loked at him with question in my eyes, he shook his head. "Just look." I nodded and I kissed him long and hard never wanting it to end. Finally we knew it was time and we both pulled away. We looked into eachother's eyes and I saw the tears he had too. I reached up and wiped them away, he did the same to me. We stood there just staring a few more minutes in silence, no words were needed. He storked my stomach and said bye to our son. Then with one more hug he sat in his car I stood back a little and listened to the engine start and watched him wave to us both and back out of the driveway. I felt Stephen put his arms on my shoulders in comfort but nothing could comfort me, nothing but the object that just drove away to his new home. I stood there til I couldn't see his car anymore and we turned to go inside. "You want to do something?" I heard Stephen. I knew he meant well but I wanted to be alone. Without saying anything I walked right upstairs. I laid on my bed for an hour and cried. Then I remembered what Bobby said to me. I dried my eyes and walked into his room. Everything in there was empty but it still brought so many memories and reminded me of him. I saw a box sititng on his bed, it was a nice box and it was wrapped. I sat on his bed and looked at the card. 'My Lindsay' I smiled and ripped the card off slowly not wanting to ruin it. I opened it and read what he had written.
~Lindsay,
It's going to be so hard to have to be away from my girl everyday when all along you were always there. I remember the day I met you, you were so cute and beautiful and you looked so alone and innocent and lost and all I ever wanted to do was help you and be your friend. I got to know you and I knew you weren't alone and that innocent girl, trust me I learened. You are the stongest girl I know and carrying my child reminds me more and more everyday just how strong you really are.You amaze me more and more everyday. I love you so much and I am always going to be here no matter what happens to us, we'll always be best friends. And the day will come when I will graduate college and you'll be getting ready to go back to school, our son will be so cute and whitty, you'll watch me graduate and our son will be in your lap. Afterwards, dad will take him home and you and I will go back to my place, and spend a romantic evening with one another, I'll cook us your favorite and get down on my knee and propose. You'll say yes, we'll marry and start the beginning of our lives. Don't worry Linds, the day will be here sooner then we both think. For now we have to be apart but we'll always be with eachother. You are my life and my love. You are my forever. I left a few things behind just for you my love. I love you and our baby forever.
Love always,
Your Bobby. I had tears pooring down my face I couldn't stop crying. I opened the box next to me and smiled at what I saw inside. There were pictures of me and Bobby, and little things that were reminders of our relationship. I reached to the bottom and saw his pair of Red Sox pajamas and his flannel pajamas. My two favorites. I smiled and brought them to my face hugging them to me, bringing in his scent. I looked through all the things in the box. He left me pictures, his pajamas, his video game set. How he'd live without it I didn't know, but the thought he kept it with me meant so much. I closed the box and saw one if his pillows sitting there with a peice of paper on it.
-Linds,
One more thing, knew you wouldn't have me as a pillow so here is this. And you get a free pass to sleep in my room all the time when dad asks, just show him this.
-Bobby- I laughed for once at his funny sense of humor. I hugged his pillow and laid down on his bed. I fell asleep, I could hear Stephen coming upstairs and he was talking to someone. I knew it was Bobby right away. I sat up as he opened the door. "Okay here she is son." He handed me the phone. "What time is it?" I asked Stephen, covering the phone. "Almost 1:00." Wow, I slept late. "Thanks."
"Yup." I waited til he was out the door before putting my ear to the phone.
"Hey." I said still sleepy. "Hey, I called you earlier when I got in and dad said you were sleeping, I told him not to wake you."
"Yeah, I got your gift."
"You did?"
"Yeah, thank you, it's sweet and well the card was beautiful. Not good for a pregnant woman though." We both laughed. "I'm glad you liked it."
"I loved it." We talked for another hour and finally hung up the phone. This time I had a smile on my face. It had been 2 weeks to the day since Bobby moved. I hadn't seen him since then yet, I knew he was too busy, but he called me everyday to check on me. He called earlier today to check on me and asked how I was doing. I told him I was fine and just missed him. Truth was, I was so tired and my back was killing me. I figured it was the summer heat which always made me tired and well, these days my whole body was hurting. I went to bed around 9 and fell right to sleep. It wasn't more than 4 hours later when I was woken by a large pain and wet feeling in my bed. I sat right up and felt the pain intensify. I was sweating and the pain kept increasing. I reached for the phone on the stand next to my bed. I quickly dialed Bobby's number. "Ello'? I could tell I'd woken Bobby, but who wouldn't be sleeping at 1 in the morning? "Bobby?" I cried into the phone. "Linds? Linds? What's wrong?"
"Bobby, it hurts." I cried into the phone again. "What hurts baby? What's going on?" I could hear the worry in his voice. "The baby. It hurts."
"Honey, I need you to get dad."
"Bobby, I don't know if I could move. Bobby, I think, I think my water broke."
"Honey, calm down. Please try and get dad."
"I can't move Bobby." "Linds, call for him, you have to get him okay?" "Okay." I cried. "Honey, you're going to be okay. I'm going to leave right now and meet you at Mass. General, I have the doctor's number I can call her for you, you just get dad."
"Okay."
"Okay baby, love you."
"Love you." I threw the phone on the bed and pulled the covers out from me, I swung my legs over the edge of the bed and tried standing. I leaned on the table and tried walking to the door but I fell. I crawled over to the door and opened it. I looked down at the hall and saw Stephen's half open bedroom door. "Stephen!" I yelled for him and got nothng back. "Stephen!" I yelled again and heard movement in the room. I saw him out the door and walking to my room and he stopped when he saw me. "Lindsay, what's wrong?"
"My water broke." He reached down and helped me up. "We need to get you to the hospital, I have to call Bobby."
"I did. He said he'd meet us at Mass. General." "Okay, I'm going to throw something on very quick, your bag is by the door. We'll get it on the way out."
"Okay." He helped me sit on my bed before leaving to his room. Less than 5 minutes later he was in a pair of sweats and t-shirt. "Come on sweetie, let's go." He helped me up and carefully helped me down the stairs, we grabbed my bag on the way out the door and he helped me in the car. "Stephen, Bobby's not going to make it in time, he lives too far away." He patted my knee for comfort. "He'll be there, he won't miss this." I kept breathing in and out the pain was getting stronger. Finally 10 minutes later we were in the admissions part of the hospital. Stephen was giving the receptionist all my information while I worried about breathing and looking for Bobby. He still wasn't here. A nurse came out with a wheel chair and brought me into a room. "Lindsay, I'll be in once they get you ready. And when Bobby gets here they'll send him in." I nodded my head and was brought to a room. The nurse helped me change into a gown and hooked me up to a million wires. "Okay Lindsay, I'm going to see how far dialated you are." Dr. McDowell said to me. I just nodded my head. "Okay, Linds, you're almost 9 centimeters dialated."
"Okay."
"I'm going to let Stephen in and then we'll moniter your contractions and wait for the 10 cm. mark."
"Okay. Thank you." laid there clenching my eyes closed, and gripping the handles on the side of the bed. I heard the door open and praying it was Bobby I looked up.
"Hey. How are you feeling?" Stephen came and sat in the chair next to the bed. "I'm okay, I just want Bobby." He patted my leg again trying to comfort me. "He called, asked how you were, he's in traffic but he's going to make it." I nodded my head again and this time reached for Stephen's hand squeezing it as a stronger contraction came. "Linds, you got to breath. Breath sweetie." I listened to him and before I knew it the contraction was passed. I tried to get some sleep like the doctor sggested but it didn't go over well. "What time is it?" "It's a little before 3."
"And Bobby's not here?"
"Honey, it takes at least 45 minutes to get here plus all the traffic, he'll be here." I was going to respond when I felt like I had to push. "Oh god, Stephen, get the doctor, I have to push."
"Okay sweetie." Within seconds, 2 nurses and Dr. McDowell and Stephen were all in my room.
"Okay Linds, push." I pushed real hard and screamed. The fact that I couldn't have drugs wasn't making it any better. I had been too far into labor in order for the drugs to work. We had been pushing for 10 minutes when I could hear the doctor telling me he could see the head.
"Oh god, no, I need Bobby here." As soon as I started pushing again the door flew open and Bobby ran through. "Am I late? Is Linds okay, what about the baby?" He kept going, he didn't stop. "Hey, hey. Bobby, Linds is her, baby is coming and you're just about to miss it." He walked over kissed my head and held my hand. He stood to the side of me, still holding my hand and with his other hand took over the nurses job of holding up my leg. "Okay Linds, push again." I heard the doctor and I pushed again. "okay, stop, stop." I took a deep breath in. I looked at Bobby. "I didn't think you'd ever get here. I thought you were going to miss it."
"I'd never miss this."
"Okay, Linds the head is out so I need just a little push." "Okay." I gave another push, nowhere near as strong as my other pushes. I felt all the pressure and force drop and I let out a big sigh. I head cries and looked up to see my baby. I started crying. The nurse placed the baby on my chest and I wrapped my arms around the little boy. He was so little and so cute. He had eyes just like his father. I looked up and saw Bobby's face lit up. He placed his hand over mine resting on our baby. The nurse took the baby from us to weigh him and measure him. Bobby leaned down and kissed my lips. "I love you."
"I love you." I smiled a very tired smile. "7 pounds 4 ounces. 21 inches and a very loud happy baby." I laughed as the nurse handed my son into my arms. "Okay now you just have to give me a name for his birth certificate and then I can let your boyfriend fill the rest of it out."
"Okay thanks." Bobby and I looked at each other and I nodded my head and smiled. "Robert Gordan Donnell Jr." He smiled proud as he said it and it made me smile too.
"Okay, I filled out this portion of the certificate I need you to fill this out and the doctor will do the rest and it'll be mailed within the week." She kept pointing to all different things and I knew Bobby could care less.
"Thanks." He put the certificate down and sat on the edge of the bed next to me and our son. Stephen was still on the other side of the bed. "Dad, come over here." He walked over and looked at the little boy in my arms. "He's beautiful."
"Isn't he?" We all looked up and laughed. "Can I hold him sweetheart?" I looked at Bobby. "Of course, he's your son." I handed the baby to Bobby and saw his face light up more and more each time. We were in the hospital 3 more days and I was finally able to go home. While I was in the hospital Bobby called my father and brother and invited them over today to see the baby when we got home. We also invited them to stay for dinner. I gathered all the baby things, put him in his carrier and walked out the door with Bobby right behind me. Since only one of us was allowed to stay in the room at night with me, Bobby stayed and Stephen went on home. It was early morning now and Bobby and I walked to his car. I put the baby in the back and got in the front to sit with Bobby. We drove home and Stephen was resting on the couch. "I'm going to bring him upstairs and put him in his crib."
"Okay, why don't you go up and get some sleep too sweetie."
"Okay. What time is my dad coming over?" "He should be here in about 2 hours."
"Okay."
"I should wake dad up soon too. Let me give the Little Bobby a kiss goodnight first." I smiled and lifted him out of his carrier and walked over to Bobby. "Night little guy." He gave him a light kiss on his nose and then I brought him upstairs. "I'll wake you up in about and hour or so okay?"
"Thanks." I walked slowly upstairs and put him in his crib, I left the door open and turned on the moniter and brought the other one with me in my room. As soon as I hit the mattress I was asleep. I woke up to the baby crying and it was getting dark outside. I got up and walked in his room and saw Bobby leaning over the crib trying to comfort him back into sleep. I walked in quietly and stood next to him. "Hey." He whispered. "Hey. He asleep again."
"Yeah, maybe he just missed his daddy." I giggled.
"Yeah that's it." He shoved me a little and I laughed. "Come on, I'll go get dressed and then come downstairs."
"Okay cause your dad is going to be here soon." "Okay. I'll be down in a minute." I quickly dressed in baggy clothes to try and hide the still known baby fat. I walked down to the kitchen and saw Stephen and Bobby talking while Bobby went and set the dining room table. "Hey Lindsay, how you feeling?"
"I'm okay Stephen, just sore in areas other than that I'm happier then anything, I have a beautiful son, loving boyfriend and warm home." We all smiled and I walked to the dining room table. "You need any help baby?"
"No Linds, you are to rest, you need it. We're almost done here so don't worry."
"Okay." As I was walking into the living room I heard the doorbell. "I'll get it."
"Okay thanks." I walked to the door and opened it to see my little brother and dad standing there. "Hey daddy, hey Mikey."
"Hi sweetheart, how are you?" He gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek.
"I'm doing good, tired and sore but very good. And how are the two of you?"
"I'm good." I heard Mikey. "And you dad?"
"I'm okay, just happy to see my daughter."
"Well, come on in." I moved aside and they came in. We walked into the living room and sat down.
"Mikey, give your sister the gift we got for the baby." Mikey handed me a gift wrapped in sports themed wrapping paper. "Thanks buddy." I kissed his head. I opened it and it was so cute. There was a little mini Red Sox baseball jersey and matching baby shorts with the Red Sox sign. There was also a little box and I opened that too. It was a silver picture frame that said "Daddy's little Red Sox fan" and it was bordered with the Red Sox sign and baseballs engraved on it. "Awe. You guys, you shouldn't have done this, it's so sweet."
"We wanted to sweetheart."
"Thank you." I hugged them both. Bobby and Stephen walked into the living room. "Bobby look what dad and Mikey bought us for the baby. I showed Bobby and he smiled.
"That's our boy, he'll be a true Red Sox fan."
"Of course, look at his two grandfathers and his daddy." We all shared a laugh.
"Can I get you guys anything to drink?"
"Can I have some juice please?"
"What kind of juice Mikey?"
"Apple?"
"One apple juice and ah Mr. Dole, what can I get you?"
"A Diet Coke?"
"Sure. One Apple juice and one Diet Coke. Linds?"
"Water."
"I'm all set son."
"Okay dad. Dinner is almost ready." Bobby got our drinks and came back in, sitting next to me on the couch. "So where is my little grandson?"
"He's up in his crib, I'll go get him."
"You need help honey?"
"Uh, you can stay here Bobby."
"It's alright, I'll help."
"Okay thanks." I smiled to him and we walked up, I picked the baby up and brought him downstairs. "Here he is. Daddy, this is Little Bobby, and buddy this is your other grandpa." I cuddled him and then handed him to my dad.
"Wow, Linds, Bobby, he's beautiful."
"Thanks dad." I smiled watching my son. "I'm going to go start putting the food on the table Bobby, help me please?"
"Sure dad." A few minutes later they came back in.
"It's ready."
"Okay, I'm just going to put him in his carrier and sit him by us in the dining room." My dad handed him to me and I put him in. We ate a quiet meal, speaking up now and then to talk about the baby. After dinner we went back in the living room. "It was wonderful Stpehen, thank you for inviting us over."
"Thank you for coming it was nice to have you over, why don't we sit and I can get us some coffee."
"Thank you."
"Anything I can do to help dad?" Bobby yawned. "I'm all set you rest in here with everyone." Bobby sat next to me and I laid my head on his shoulder I had just finished feeding the baby and he had fallen asleep in my arms. Dad stayed another hour and then left. "Thanks for coming daddy."
"Well I couldn't miss seeing my grandson and daughter." I smiled, and gave them both a hug. "Bye Mikey, take care, both of you." I walked into the living room and picked the baby up. "I'm going to take him upstairs and lay in my room with him. I'll see you in the morning." I gave Stephen a kiss on the cheek and went over and gave Bobby a kiss. "Hey, I'll come up with you."
"Okay."
"Night dad"
"Night you guys." We walked upstairs and changed into pajamas, I climbed into bed with the baby in my arms and Bobby laid next to me. The baby had long ago fallen asleep and I laid my head on Bobby's shoulder as I did earlier that night and I felt Bobby's head rest atop mine. I looked up and saw his eyes closed, I knew he fell asleep too. I laid there smiling and heard Stephen come up a while later. I saw him peak in the door and look at us. I smiled and closed my eyes. I saw a flash and heard a camera, I opened them again to see Stephen had taken a picture of the three of us. Me, Bobby and our son. My little family. With that I fell asleep with the two most important men in my life in my arms.
THE END
Well, I'm finally done. It's sad to see this story end but there comes time an end for everything. I will do an epilogue to this story *only* if people e-mail me asking for one, if I get enough people who want me to do it, I'll gladly continue with it. Thank you to EVERYONE who helped me with this story. Kiosha, you have helped me so so much I couldn't have done most of it without you. Faith, thank you for ALL your help and kind words and everything you've done. Mary, thanks for helping me and Edene, Carolyn, Dottie, Court, Kylie, Arwen, Snippy, Knight and EVERYONE I'm leaving out THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!! I had so much fun writing this peice and I'll have many more stories to work on! Thank you all!
Author: Lynds
Author's note: Hey, we're getting close to the end, I will say that because I do have to wrap this story up but I plan on doing an epilogue. Anyways, here is the final part. Let me know if you want an epilogue, I'll only do it if one is asked for. I would like to thank Edene, Carolyn, Court, Mary, Claire---you are the best! Dottie, Kiosha, Kylie, Arwen, Snippy, Jewel, Knight, Faith, Lydia, and everybody else I forgot, because I know I'm forgetting people. This peice is dedicated to Kiosha and Faith. Kiosha, who if had not helped me it wouldn't be here for you all to read. Thank you so so so so so so so much. I can't say it enough! So thank you all for everything.
Summary: You should know by now I don't do them.
Disclaimer: I still need to discuss custody issues with Dottie, then maybe we'll know.
"Looking Back" Part 10
"Lindsay! Come over here!" I waddled to the pool where Bobby was standing with his father and Uncle Jerry. He scooped me in his arms and kissed me. I pulled back. "Yes?"
"Nothing, just wanted to say hello to my beautiful girl and my son." I smiled as he put his hand on my *very* pregnant belly. It had been almost a month since we'd been out of school. Bobby graduated and was packing for college. He worked at Hannahgan's bar, during school he only worked a few hours a night after school and most of the days on the weekends. He and his father had met with the landlord the Monday after we went to see him and they had taken a lease out on the apartment. Today, we were having a big picinic with all our friends and Bobby's family, celebrating the end of the school year and Bobby's move. We found out we were having a baby boy and Bobby couldn't be more happy, my due date was July 13th and we were in the middle of the beautiful month of June. Stephen had bought and done the whole nursery. It was light blue with a wooden sleigh bed crib, and the whole room was pooh bear themed. Everything in the room had matched. The nursery was set, Bobby was just about all packed to move and he was ready to start college in a month and a half. We had told all our friends about the baby and they couldn't be more thrilled. We also had to tell Bobby's family and at first they weren't sure how to act but like Stephen they melded into it and were excited for a baby to arrive. My mother also was a picture that was out of my life. She had plead guilty to each count and is now serving 10-15 years in prision. As hard as it was for me to accept this I knew the right thing was done and I knew I had Bobby's family and they supported me. My mother doesn't know about the baby and I don't even know if I'll ever tell her. My relationship with my father and little brother had gotten stronger since everything. My dad couldn't wait for a grandchild and my brother wanted to be an Uncle. I would never be close or feel like I belonged in my father's life, I only feel that way in Bobby's home and his family, but I could have a relationship with them. "Linds, Linds?" I was borught out of my daydream by Bobby's soothing voice."
"Yeah?"
"You feeling okay?" I smiled at him. "I'm fine, why?"
"I don't know you just seem to be way out there."
"Nah, I'm just thinking."
"Okay." He smiled and put an arm around me and we spent the rest of the day, eating, playing games, swimming, eating more and hanging out with family and friends. I yawned and looked at Bobby's watch, it was 6:30 and the picinic was finally starting to quiet down. "I'm tired." I laid my head on his shoulder and he kissed my head. "Go lie down."
"I have to stay here and be a good person and keep everyone company."
"Well, the most important thing is you and our son so get some rest, everyone will understand." "Okay." He helped me out of my chair. "Dad, I'm gonna bring Lindsay upstairs to rest."
"Okay, rest up honey."
"Thanks dad." I smiled. I was still hesitant to call him 'dad' but he insisted it was okay and it felt good. Bobby guided me up to my bedroom and tucked me in under the blankets. "You get some sleep okay?" I nodded my head. "Yeah. Come back up later."
"Of course I will." He kissed my head and walked to the door. "Love you." I smiled. "Love you too." I dozed off and next time I woke up was to the smell of something cooking in the kitchen. I walked downstairs and knew right away everyone was gone, it was very quiet. I went into the kitchen and saw Bobby and his dad heating up leftovers. Bobby must've sensed my presence. He turned around and smiled.
"Hey sweetie. Sleep well?" I nodded my head and sat at the table. "I'm making you a little of everything leftovers, how's that sound?" "Yummy." I said while rubibng my hand over my stomach. "You sure you're okay to help me finish with my apartment tomorrow?" He said later that night while we laid on the couch. "Yeah, I'll work on unpaking, putting your clothes away and all that boring yet fun things, how's that?"
"As long as you take it easy."
"I promise." I kissed him and yawned. "Honey, you just woke up 2 hours ago how can you be tired?"
"I don't know, I've been really tired lately." "You okay?"
"Oh yeah,I'm fine."
"Why don't you go up to bed."
"Okay."
"Come on." He grabbed my hand and led me upstairs. He kissed me and tucked me in after I changed into my pajamas. "Goodnight, sleep tight."
"Night. Love you."
"Love you. Now get good night's rest." He turned the light off and I laid on my side trying to sleep. I put my hand on my stomach and thought of the little baby growing inside me. I know we are just kids but this baby was created by our love for another I also knew that. Bobby was my best friend and my soulmate and I knew 4 years from now we'd be together happy and sharing the joy of our little boy. With thoughts of my son and the man I love in my head I quickly found myself drift into a very peaceful sleep. I woke up early the next morning and looked at the clock, 8:00 am. Yuck, way too early, but I knew we had to finish today. Bobby's last night at home was tonight. I knew we'd see eachother but I didn't want him to go, I cried everytime I thought about it. The only good thing was that since it was summer and I didn't have school I could spend nights over there. I slowly got up, showered and dressed. I walked downstairs and saw Bobby gathering boxes with his father and putting them in the car. He looked at me and smiled. "Morning, you almost ready?" I nodded and walked to the kitchen. "I'm just going to have a bagel and orange juice."
"Okay. Dad and I are going to finish putting these boxes in the car."
"Okay." I made myself a bagel got some juice and went outside, I walked over to his car. "Am I taking my car or going with you?" I asked him with my mouth full of bagel. He looked at me and laughed. "Hmmmmwmmmwheeemmmhhhh." He was makiing fun of me and just mumbling letters like he had something in his mouth. I stuck my tongue out when I swallowed. "Haha, very funny." "Well that's what you sound like." I threw a peice of my bagel at him. "Hey!" "Be nice next time." He stuck his tongue out at me this time. "Kids, come on." Stephen was laughing at us. "Coming." We both responded walking to his car.
"So, I'm going with you?"
"You're just too smart." I smacked his butt while he walked to the drivers side. Stephen got in his car and Bobby pulled out in front of him. I turned the music on and flipped through channels. "Ugh..There is *never* anything on the damn radio." I yelled. He looked at me and laughed. "Don't hurt my radio." I glared at him and laughed. I was so jumpy and excited today for some reason. "Fine." The only actualy song on the radio was Justin Timberlake "Rock Your Body." "Yuck I hate him and this song."
"Change it." He went to change the channel and I slapped his hand away. "What the hell was that for?"
"This is the only song on and it's better then no song at all." "Fine." I started singing the words and Bobby laughed at me. "Now what?"
"Nothing, you're just cute."
"Well thank you kind sir." We pulled up into his apartment complex. "Okay, no carrying boxes, you take my keys and go up to the apartment and we'll be up."
"Okay." I walked out and went up to his apartment. He had a couch, recliner and arm chair plus a coffee table and two end tables in the living room covered with plastic from my home. Since my mom was put in prision the house went to me and everything in it. Bobby and I were going to move in it once I was out of school. My father and brother go there every other day or two to check on it. Bobby also got, a desk, and some chairs, 4 bar stools and the island in our kitchen instead of using a table, he had a bed from one of the guest rooms and 2 nightstands, plus the dresser and entertainment center for the living room. I told him to take my bed from my room but he said it was too big for his room. My dad had also purchased the entire nursery for Bobby's apartment. It was yellow with pooh bear border and again pooh bear themed. His apartment really was nice and he worked so hard for it. I went into his bedroom and looked at the boxes of clothes. I had started hanging them up and folding them the other day when we were here. I sat on his bed and opened another box. I began folding them and piled them on the bed sorting them out as I went along. About 5 minutes later I heard the two coming through the door. Bobby came in with 2 more boxes of clothes. "More clothes, Bobby how manay do you have?"
"These are the last two."
"Fine." He set them down and came over to me and kissed me. "Thanks honey." "Yeah, yeah. What are you guys doing now?"
"We're gonna set up the computer and TV and stereo and uncover all the plastic from everything."
"Have you gone grocery shopping? Bobby you better, and you better eat somewhat healthy when I'm gone. I mean it, you have to stay healthy."
"Yes mom."
"Again, very funny."
"I know."
"Get out of here will you?"
"Fine." We laughed and he walked out the door making lot's of noise with his father in the other room. 4 hours later, his clothes were done, and he and his father had everything set up. The apartment was done except for some food shopping which I would do tonight and drive up here to put everything away for him. I walked out where the two were sitting on the couch watching TV. "You ready?"
"Yeah, let's go sweetie, dad ready?"
"Yup." We walked out and went down to our cars. "Dad, what do you want for lunch?"
"I can pick something up for us." "It's okay Stephen, I wanted to go food shopping for Bobby's place so we could pick up things to make sandwiches."
"Okay, I'll meet you back at the house."
"Okay dad." We drove to the grocery store and I picked him up simple easy to make yet healthy things for Bobby. We also picked up turkey and ham for sandwiches. We dropped everything off at Bobby's and as I was putting everything away he yelled at me. "Linds! Sit down and rest."
"Bobby, I'm fine."
"No, you're 8 months pregnant I'll finish up you sit down, actually go in my room and on my dresser is my spare key, why don't you put it on your key ring okay?" "Oh yeah, I'll do it before I forget." I got up and put his key on my set of keys and sat on the couch while I waited for him to finish. "Okay babe, all done let's go home."
"What time is it?"
"It is, 3:30."
"Oh, I'm hungry let's go home so we can eat lunch." He laughed at me. "Why am I not surprised?"
"Shut up." We walked down to the car and again listened to the radio the whole way home. We pulled into the driveway and brought in lunch. "Dad, sorry, we didn't mean to be so late it's already 4:15 almost and we should be having dinner."
"It's okay Bobby, we'll have a late dinner."
"Okay." We all made our sandwiches and ate at the kitchen table. "Yummy, that was very yummy." I said after eating two sandwiches. "I'm going upstairs to change." "I'm coming up, then we can cuddle and watch TV in your room." "Okay, well night Bobby, I'll wake you guys early so we can see you off tomorrow."
"Okay night dad." I looked at Bobby and nudged him. I shook my head no. He mouthed 'yes' to me and I shook my head again. I pushed him towards his dad. "uh...uh...dad?" Stephen looked up at us. "What's up?"
"Can, well since it's my last night...can...see...Can Lindsay and I..b-b- both sleep in her room?" We were quiet and looked at Stephen for a minute.
"Sure. Since it's your last night." We smiled. "Thanks Stephen."
"Thanks dad."
"Yeah, now go, I'll call you when dinner is ready, it's not going to be til 7 or 7:30 since we ate a late lunch."
"Okay, thanks again dad."
"Go on." We went upstairs and I changed into pajamas and he changed into some too. We laid on my bed cuddled in eachother's arms. We laid watching TV and I kept thinking about how different it would be with him gone. I started crying and he looked down at me. "Linds, sweetie, what is it?" "I don't want you to move." He lifted my chin. "Honey, I'm going to see you on weekends."
"I know but I want you to be here all the time like you used to be." "I can't honey, but you call me all the time and I'll call you all the time." "I know but it won't be the same."
"I know honey, I know, we won't ever go one day without talking to eachother."
"It doesn't make it better, but do you promise?"
"Of course I promise." "Okay."
"I love you Linds."
"I love you too."
"And we're both going to finish school, you're going to go to college and we're going to get married and raise our son together." I smiled and cuddled closer.
"I like that." He kissed my head.
"I knew you would." He rubbed my back. "No more crying okay?" "Okay."
"That's my girl." We laid in eachother's arms again until it was time for dinner, we quickly ate our dinner and said goodnight to Stephen. We went back upstairs and spent the night wrapped in eachother's arms. We made love one last time before he had to leave. I woke up to minty breath. I opened my eyes and saw Bobby all dressed and ready.
"Morning sweetie." I smiled before remembering what today was. "Hey. What time is it?"
"9:45."
"Already?"
"Yup, I figured I'd let you sleep then we could have a little food together and then I have to leave."
"Oh." "Yeah." I looked down and up at him again and tried smiling. He helped me out of bed and we walked downstairs. We had waffles and orange juice together and I never wanted breakfast to end. I held his hand the whole time, it made it harder to eat but all the more time that took up. Finally we both finished and I could feel tears forming in my eyes. Stephen came in the kitchen from working outside by the pool. "Okay son, you ready?"
"All set dad." He stood up and walked upstairs grabbing one of his pillows and his backpack. He walked back downstairs and grabbed his keys. The three of us walked outside in the front yard. I was still in my pajamas but I didn't care. We walked over to his car and his dad said goodbye. "Bye son, have a safe drive and call me when you get in. Take care of yourself and we'll see you soon." Stephen hugged Bobby and walked back towards me. "Thanks dad. You take care of her for me."
"You know I will." Then he held his arms out to me and tears started pouring down my face. I collapsed into his arms and just cried. He stroked my back and kissed my head, these actions made me cry harder. He pulled back when I calmed a little and held my face in his hands. "You listen, you and I are going to call eachother every day and we'll talk and we'll e-mail one another and we'll see eachother every weekend, the only reason we have to go a few weeks without seeing eachother this time is becasue I have to register and get myself settled in and all that stuff that just keeps me away from you." "I know. I am just going to miss not having you in the room next to me or not having you right there all the time."
"I know that sweetie and I'm going to miss you too so much." "I love you." He kissed my forehead. "Baby, I love you too." "I'll miss you."
"And I'll miss you."
"Call me when you get there."
"You know I will."
"And we'll call eachother every day switching on and off."
"You better believe it."
"Okay. I still don't like this." He chuckled at me. "Me either. But you promise me no matter what you'll let dad look after you, you'll look after him and most important you'll take care of yourself and our baby." "I promise."
"That a girl. Now come give me a big hug and kiss. When you go back inside there is a little something waiting for you in my room on my bed." I walked into his arms and he scooped me up and I loked at him with question in my eyes, he shook his head. "Just look." I nodded and I kissed him long and hard never wanting it to end. Finally we knew it was time and we both pulled away. We looked into eachother's eyes and I saw the tears he had too. I reached up and wiped them away, he did the same to me. We stood there just staring a few more minutes in silence, no words were needed. He storked my stomach and said bye to our son. Then with one more hug he sat in his car I stood back a little and listened to the engine start and watched him wave to us both and back out of the driveway. I felt Stephen put his arms on my shoulders in comfort but nothing could comfort me, nothing but the object that just drove away to his new home. I stood there til I couldn't see his car anymore and we turned to go inside. "You want to do something?" I heard Stephen. I knew he meant well but I wanted to be alone. Without saying anything I walked right upstairs. I laid on my bed for an hour and cried. Then I remembered what Bobby said to me. I dried my eyes and walked into his room. Everything in there was empty but it still brought so many memories and reminded me of him. I saw a box sititng on his bed, it was a nice box and it was wrapped. I sat on his bed and looked at the card. 'My Lindsay' I smiled and ripped the card off slowly not wanting to ruin it. I opened it and read what he had written.
~Lindsay,
It's going to be so hard to have to be away from my girl everyday when all along you were always there. I remember the day I met you, you were so cute and beautiful and you looked so alone and innocent and lost and all I ever wanted to do was help you and be your friend. I got to know you and I knew you weren't alone and that innocent girl, trust me I learened. You are the stongest girl I know and carrying my child reminds me more and more everyday just how strong you really are.You amaze me more and more everyday. I love you so much and I am always going to be here no matter what happens to us, we'll always be best friends. And the day will come when I will graduate college and you'll be getting ready to go back to school, our son will be so cute and whitty, you'll watch me graduate and our son will be in your lap. Afterwards, dad will take him home and you and I will go back to my place, and spend a romantic evening with one another, I'll cook us your favorite and get down on my knee and propose. You'll say yes, we'll marry and start the beginning of our lives. Don't worry Linds, the day will be here sooner then we both think. For now we have to be apart but we'll always be with eachother. You are my life and my love. You are my forever. I left a few things behind just for you my love. I love you and our baby forever.
Love always,
Your Bobby. I had tears pooring down my face I couldn't stop crying. I opened the box next to me and smiled at what I saw inside. There were pictures of me and Bobby, and little things that were reminders of our relationship. I reached to the bottom and saw his pair of Red Sox pajamas and his flannel pajamas. My two favorites. I smiled and brought them to my face hugging them to me, bringing in his scent. I looked through all the things in the box. He left me pictures, his pajamas, his video game set. How he'd live without it I didn't know, but the thought he kept it with me meant so much. I closed the box and saw one if his pillows sitting there with a peice of paper on it.
-Linds,
One more thing, knew you wouldn't have me as a pillow so here is this. And you get a free pass to sleep in my room all the time when dad asks, just show him this.
-Bobby- I laughed for once at his funny sense of humor. I hugged his pillow and laid down on his bed. I fell asleep, I could hear Stephen coming upstairs and he was talking to someone. I knew it was Bobby right away. I sat up as he opened the door. "Okay here she is son." He handed me the phone. "What time is it?" I asked Stephen, covering the phone. "Almost 1:00." Wow, I slept late. "Thanks."
"Yup." I waited til he was out the door before putting my ear to the phone.
"Hey." I said still sleepy. "Hey, I called you earlier when I got in and dad said you were sleeping, I told him not to wake you."
"Yeah, I got your gift."
"You did?"
"Yeah, thank you, it's sweet and well the card was beautiful. Not good for a pregnant woman though." We both laughed. "I'm glad you liked it."
"I loved it." We talked for another hour and finally hung up the phone. This time I had a smile on my face. It had been 2 weeks to the day since Bobby moved. I hadn't seen him since then yet, I knew he was too busy, but he called me everyday to check on me. He called earlier today to check on me and asked how I was doing. I told him I was fine and just missed him. Truth was, I was so tired and my back was killing me. I figured it was the summer heat which always made me tired and well, these days my whole body was hurting. I went to bed around 9 and fell right to sleep. It wasn't more than 4 hours later when I was woken by a large pain and wet feeling in my bed. I sat right up and felt the pain intensify. I was sweating and the pain kept increasing. I reached for the phone on the stand next to my bed. I quickly dialed Bobby's number. "Ello'? I could tell I'd woken Bobby, but who wouldn't be sleeping at 1 in the morning? "Bobby?" I cried into the phone. "Linds? Linds? What's wrong?"
"Bobby, it hurts." I cried into the phone again. "What hurts baby? What's going on?" I could hear the worry in his voice. "The baby. It hurts."
"Honey, I need you to get dad."
"Bobby, I don't know if I could move. Bobby, I think, I think my water broke."
"Honey, calm down. Please try and get dad."
"I can't move Bobby." "Linds, call for him, you have to get him okay?" "Okay." I cried. "Honey, you're going to be okay. I'm going to leave right now and meet you at Mass. General, I have the doctor's number I can call her for you, you just get dad."
"Okay."
"Okay baby, love you."
"Love you." I threw the phone on the bed and pulled the covers out from me, I swung my legs over the edge of the bed and tried standing. I leaned on the table and tried walking to the door but I fell. I crawled over to the door and opened it. I looked down at the hall and saw Stephen's half open bedroom door. "Stephen!" I yelled for him and got nothng back. "Stephen!" I yelled again and heard movement in the room. I saw him out the door and walking to my room and he stopped when he saw me. "Lindsay, what's wrong?"
"My water broke." He reached down and helped me up. "We need to get you to the hospital, I have to call Bobby."
"I did. He said he'd meet us at Mass. General." "Okay, I'm going to throw something on very quick, your bag is by the door. We'll get it on the way out."
"Okay." He helped me sit on my bed before leaving to his room. Less than 5 minutes later he was in a pair of sweats and t-shirt. "Come on sweetie, let's go." He helped me up and carefully helped me down the stairs, we grabbed my bag on the way out the door and he helped me in the car. "Stephen, Bobby's not going to make it in time, he lives too far away." He patted my knee for comfort. "He'll be there, he won't miss this." I kept breathing in and out the pain was getting stronger. Finally 10 minutes later we were in the admissions part of the hospital. Stephen was giving the receptionist all my information while I worried about breathing and looking for Bobby. He still wasn't here. A nurse came out with a wheel chair and brought me into a room. "Lindsay, I'll be in once they get you ready. And when Bobby gets here they'll send him in." I nodded my head and was brought to a room. The nurse helped me change into a gown and hooked me up to a million wires. "Okay Lindsay, I'm going to see how far dialated you are." Dr. McDowell said to me. I just nodded my head. "Okay, Linds, you're almost 9 centimeters dialated."
"Okay."
"I'm going to let Stephen in and then we'll moniter your contractions and wait for the 10 cm. mark."
"Okay. Thank you." laid there clenching my eyes closed, and gripping the handles on the side of the bed. I heard the door open and praying it was Bobby I looked up.
"Hey. How are you feeling?" Stephen came and sat in the chair next to the bed. "I'm okay, I just want Bobby." He patted my leg again trying to comfort me. "He called, asked how you were, he's in traffic but he's going to make it." I nodded my head again and this time reached for Stephen's hand squeezing it as a stronger contraction came. "Linds, you got to breath. Breath sweetie." I listened to him and before I knew it the contraction was passed. I tried to get some sleep like the doctor sggested but it didn't go over well. "What time is it?" "It's a little before 3."
"And Bobby's not here?"
"Honey, it takes at least 45 minutes to get here plus all the traffic, he'll be here." I was going to respond when I felt like I had to push. "Oh god, Stephen, get the doctor, I have to push."
"Okay sweetie." Within seconds, 2 nurses and Dr. McDowell and Stephen were all in my room.
"Okay Linds, push." I pushed real hard and screamed. The fact that I couldn't have drugs wasn't making it any better. I had been too far into labor in order for the drugs to work. We had been pushing for 10 minutes when I could hear the doctor telling me he could see the head.
"Oh god, no, I need Bobby here." As soon as I started pushing again the door flew open and Bobby ran through. "Am I late? Is Linds okay, what about the baby?" He kept going, he didn't stop. "Hey, hey. Bobby, Linds is her, baby is coming and you're just about to miss it." He walked over kissed my head and held my hand. He stood to the side of me, still holding my hand and with his other hand took over the nurses job of holding up my leg. "Okay Linds, push again." I heard the doctor and I pushed again. "okay, stop, stop." I took a deep breath in. I looked at Bobby. "I didn't think you'd ever get here. I thought you were going to miss it."
"I'd never miss this."
"Okay, Linds the head is out so I need just a little push." "Okay." I gave another push, nowhere near as strong as my other pushes. I felt all the pressure and force drop and I let out a big sigh. I head cries and looked up to see my baby. I started crying. The nurse placed the baby on my chest and I wrapped my arms around the little boy. He was so little and so cute. He had eyes just like his father. I looked up and saw Bobby's face lit up. He placed his hand over mine resting on our baby. The nurse took the baby from us to weigh him and measure him. Bobby leaned down and kissed my lips. "I love you."
"I love you." I smiled a very tired smile. "7 pounds 4 ounces. 21 inches and a very loud happy baby." I laughed as the nurse handed my son into my arms. "Okay now you just have to give me a name for his birth certificate and then I can let your boyfriend fill the rest of it out."
"Okay thanks." Bobby and I looked at each other and I nodded my head and smiled. "Robert Gordan Donnell Jr." He smiled proud as he said it and it made me smile too.
"Okay, I filled out this portion of the certificate I need you to fill this out and the doctor will do the rest and it'll be mailed within the week." She kept pointing to all different things and I knew Bobby could care less.
"Thanks." He put the certificate down and sat on the edge of the bed next to me and our son. Stephen was still on the other side of the bed. "Dad, come over here." He walked over and looked at the little boy in my arms. "He's beautiful."
"Isn't he?" We all looked up and laughed. "Can I hold him sweetheart?" I looked at Bobby. "Of course, he's your son." I handed the baby to Bobby and saw his face light up more and more each time. We were in the hospital 3 more days and I was finally able to go home. While I was in the hospital Bobby called my father and brother and invited them over today to see the baby when we got home. We also invited them to stay for dinner. I gathered all the baby things, put him in his carrier and walked out the door with Bobby right behind me. Since only one of us was allowed to stay in the room at night with me, Bobby stayed and Stephen went on home. It was early morning now and Bobby and I walked to his car. I put the baby in the back and got in the front to sit with Bobby. We drove home and Stephen was resting on the couch. "I'm going to bring him upstairs and put him in his crib."
"Okay, why don't you go up and get some sleep too sweetie."
"Okay. What time is my dad coming over?" "He should be here in about 2 hours."
"Okay."
"I should wake dad up soon too. Let me give the Little Bobby a kiss goodnight first." I smiled and lifted him out of his carrier and walked over to Bobby. "Night little guy." He gave him a light kiss on his nose and then I brought him upstairs. "I'll wake you up in about and hour or so okay?"
"Thanks." I walked slowly upstairs and put him in his crib, I left the door open and turned on the moniter and brought the other one with me in my room. As soon as I hit the mattress I was asleep. I woke up to the baby crying and it was getting dark outside. I got up and walked in his room and saw Bobby leaning over the crib trying to comfort him back into sleep. I walked in quietly and stood next to him. "Hey." He whispered. "Hey. He asleep again."
"Yeah, maybe he just missed his daddy." I giggled.
"Yeah that's it." He shoved me a little and I laughed. "Come on, I'll go get dressed and then come downstairs."
"Okay cause your dad is going to be here soon." "Okay. I'll be down in a minute." I quickly dressed in baggy clothes to try and hide the still known baby fat. I walked down to the kitchen and saw Stephen and Bobby talking while Bobby went and set the dining room table. "Hey Lindsay, how you feeling?"
"I'm okay Stephen, just sore in areas other than that I'm happier then anything, I have a beautiful son, loving boyfriend and warm home." We all smiled and I walked to the dining room table. "You need any help baby?"
"No Linds, you are to rest, you need it. We're almost done here so don't worry."
"Okay." As I was walking into the living room I heard the doorbell. "I'll get it."
"Okay thanks." I walked to the door and opened it to see my little brother and dad standing there. "Hey daddy, hey Mikey."
"Hi sweetheart, how are you?" He gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek.
"I'm doing good, tired and sore but very good. And how are the two of you?"
"I'm good." I heard Mikey. "And you dad?"
"I'm okay, just happy to see my daughter."
"Well, come on in." I moved aside and they came in. We walked into the living room and sat down.
"Mikey, give your sister the gift we got for the baby." Mikey handed me a gift wrapped in sports themed wrapping paper. "Thanks buddy." I kissed his head. I opened it and it was so cute. There was a little mini Red Sox baseball jersey and matching baby shorts with the Red Sox sign. There was also a little box and I opened that too. It was a silver picture frame that said "Daddy's little Red Sox fan" and it was bordered with the Red Sox sign and baseballs engraved on it. "Awe. You guys, you shouldn't have done this, it's so sweet."
"We wanted to sweetheart."
"Thank you." I hugged them both. Bobby and Stephen walked into the living room. "Bobby look what dad and Mikey bought us for the baby. I showed Bobby and he smiled.
"That's our boy, he'll be a true Red Sox fan."
"Of course, look at his two grandfathers and his daddy." We all shared a laugh.
"Can I get you guys anything to drink?"
"Can I have some juice please?"
"What kind of juice Mikey?"
"Apple?"
"One apple juice and ah Mr. Dole, what can I get you?"
"A Diet Coke?"
"Sure. One Apple juice and one Diet Coke. Linds?"
"Water."
"I'm all set son."
"Okay dad. Dinner is almost ready." Bobby got our drinks and came back in, sitting next to me on the couch. "So where is my little grandson?"
"He's up in his crib, I'll go get him."
"You need help honey?"
"Uh, you can stay here Bobby."
"It's alright, I'll help."
"Okay thanks." I smiled to him and we walked up, I picked the baby up and brought him downstairs. "Here he is. Daddy, this is Little Bobby, and buddy this is your other grandpa." I cuddled him and then handed him to my dad.
"Wow, Linds, Bobby, he's beautiful."
"Thanks dad." I smiled watching my son. "I'm going to go start putting the food on the table Bobby, help me please?"
"Sure dad." A few minutes later they came back in.
"It's ready."
"Okay, I'm just going to put him in his carrier and sit him by us in the dining room." My dad handed him to me and I put him in. We ate a quiet meal, speaking up now and then to talk about the baby. After dinner we went back in the living room. "It was wonderful Stpehen, thank you for inviting us over."
"Thank you for coming it was nice to have you over, why don't we sit and I can get us some coffee."
"Thank you."
"Anything I can do to help dad?" Bobby yawned. "I'm all set you rest in here with everyone." Bobby sat next to me and I laid my head on his shoulder I had just finished feeding the baby and he had fallen asleep in my arms. Dad stayed another hour and then left. "Thanks for coming daddy."
"Well I couldn't miss seeing my grandson and daughter." I smiled, and gave them both a hug. "Bye Mikey, take care, both of you." I walked into the living room and picked the baby up. "I'm going to take him upstairs and lay in my room with him. I'll see you in the morning." I gave Stephen a kiss on the cheek and went over and gave Bobby a kiss. "Hey, I'll come up with you."
"Okay."
"Night dad"
"Night you guys." We walked upstairs and changed into pajamas, I climbed into bed with the baby in my arms and Bobby laid next to me. The baby had long ago fallen asleep and I laid my head on Bobby's shoulder as I did earlier that night and I felt Bobby's head rest atop mine. I looked up and saw his eyes closed, I knew he fell asleep too. I laid there smiling and heard Stephen come up a while later. I saw him peak in the door and look at us. I smiled and closed my eyes. I saw a flash and heard a camera, I opened them again to see Stephen had taken a picture of the three of us. Me, Bobby and our son. My little family. With that I fell asleep with the two most important men in my life in my arms.
THE END
Well, I'm finally done. It's sad to see this story end but there comes time an end for everything. I will do an epilogue to this story *only* if people e-mail me asking for one, if I get enough people who want me to do it, I'll gladly continue with it. Thank you to EVERYONE who helped me with this story. Kiosha, you have helped me so so much I couldn't have done most of it without you. Faith, thank you for ALL your help and kind words and everything you've done. Mary, thanks for helping me and Edene, Carolyn, Dottie, Court, Kylie, Arwen, Snippy, Knight and EVERYONE I'm leaving out THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!! I had so much fun writing this peice and I'll have many more stories to work on! Thank you all!
