Family Portrait
Chapter 3
Disclaimer - I don't own Inuyasha and co. I should though huh?
( ) ( )
(^.^)
What is love? I constantly ask myself this, what is love. Is it an emotion to
cause the most innocent heart to turn black and withered? It probably is.
I was too young when my father died, so instead of withering up it hid. It has
yet to come out.
My life is pretty drab. I wake up from my nightmares. Get ready for school
collect myself all in 30 minutes and by the time im out of the house my mask
is on and no one can penetrate it.
I had to leave for school early today, so I can meet up with Sesshoumaru.
We're kinda friends, we do homework together and in most of our classes
together were partners. Everytime I think of him I get nervous. All
I can do is think about him, especially when he's right next to me. I guess
this is called a crush.
I don't believe it. I can't have crushes i'm to young. Maybe if I was in the
feudal era. I'd probably be married already, how creepy. About 500 years ago
if I lived then. I probably would have been a miko, with youkai's after me.
A lot of people would have been in love with me as well. Over the years my
mask has become better. With a smile, and a giggle I can make guys grovel at
my feet, I can make girls want to be my best friend. All except Sesshoumaru.
Truth is, around him I let my guard down more. I can't help it. He's the only
other person that I know, who's smart enough to know that love is an emotion that destroy's. I still have the smile that doesn't reach my eyes, but I wear it all the time, it's become natural and instinctive.
I remember one time while I was with Sesshoumaru, we were at a park with a
blue pond in the middle of it. We were taking a break from a project, because I was fried. I couldn't think anymore, so we decided to walk around before
starting it again.
It was around sunset when we sat down at a bench that looked towards the
sunset. It was pretty cold, and there was snow everywhere. I unconciously
moved towards the nearest warm thing, which happened to be Sesshoumaru.
He looked at me curiously, and I just stared back, shivering. I don't know
what happened but I must have looked pretty pitiful, cause the next thing
I knew was I was right at Sesshoumaru's side with his arm over me. I
blushed, I definitly wasn't cold anymore.
I looked up to Sesshoumaru's golden eyes and I smiled, a true one. One
from the heart, I think he was caught off guard or something. The next
thing I knew was our faces getting closer together. Warmth flooding
through me.
"Kagome!!"
My eyes widened, I quickly got a cool head, and pulled back. I
looked embarrassed at the person who called my name. Standing across
the pond on the otherside was Kouga. I groaned, he was that insistent
guy that was always surrounded by a bunch of his cronies.
They acted like he was a prince or something, they got pretty wierd around
me when Kouga announced that I was his girl. Which I wasn't, i'm not
into guys, all but Sesshoumaru. Well after he came over to me I said hi,
I smiled, and said I had a project to finish.
I was on my way back 2 minutes later. With a Kouga standing where I was
looking at me with stars in his eyes. I'm good.
But if I was really good, then how come Sesshoumaru isn't under my spell yet? Do I really want him under it? no I like him just the way he is. He understands me. He knows who I truly am. Just like I know he has the potential to be the most considerate loving patient friend in the world.
Just like I have the potential to be, innocent, happy, loving, and quick
tempered. For awhile I was nervous to be around Sesshoumaru, especially
since we were very close to kissing, emotions, I hate them. Truly though
he probably didn't even care that much.
We were both just in the "Moment". Nothing happened though, i'm kinda
glad Kouga was there, because I could have seriously screwed up everything.
Anyways, back to present day Japan. I might as well tell you a little about
my 16 year old self, on the way to school, and Sesshoumaru.
Well for starters i'm above average height, maybe a little more. I have long
Obsidian hair, the whole shine, and all. I have stormy grey eyes. When
i'm happy their blue. Since i'm usually never happy they aren't usually
blue.
My favorite color is sky blue, it's been my favorite color ever since
I can remember the beginnings of my happy turned horrible life. My mother
is named Naomi, My brother is Souta and my grandfather he's well... grandfather
My mother is into being motherly, she cooks and cleans and takes care of
everybody.
My brother is my brother, like every other little normal brother. They're
annoying and they constantly love to find out what your doing, if your doing
anything at all, and he loves video games, usually when I want something
from him like his silence or something, I buy him a video game.
He's not into sports like a lot of little kids his age, but i'm glad because most
boys learn about sports from their father, and well ours was dead. To me
and mother anyways, Souta never asks about his dad. As well, we never tell
him.
My grandfather is well, old. He takes care of the shrine when i'm not. He
loves telling stories, and although I act annoyed by them, I love them, i'm
really intrested in the feudal period because of him. I'm also excellent in
history, as every other subject i'm in.
But iv'e taken an intrest in the feudal period, and i'm almost happy when he
tells about those times.
Your probably thinking that i'm happy a lot huh? Well these times when i'm
even close to be being happy are few and far between. I could tell you about
all the times I was extremely sad, or I didn't feel anything at all, but then I
would be boring you, and that's not what i'm trying to do.
I sighed inwardly as a reached the front of the school, it was a school like any
other, it's name in huge letters on the big building, while a bunch of other
buildings were behind it with huge letter's telling you what the building was.
I spotted Sesshoumaru leaning against one of the front buildings with stairs.
I walked over to him slowly letting my mask fade. One thing I learned was
Sesshoumaru didn't like to be lied to. I never found a reason to lie to him.
Hiding things isn't lying, and I know he's hiding something.
We're both the smartest kids in the school, and it always seems Sesshoumaru's a head of me, I have to struggle slightly to stay up so high. He does it effortlessly. It seems that way anyways.
He knows a lot about me while I know close to nothing about him. How'd it
come to be that way? I may believe love is good for nothing, but destroying,
and I act all the time to hide, But PLEASE I am a teenage girl, and I do have
a tendency to talk a lot.
It's also one of those habit's that I didn't want, but got from all the people I'm
constantly surrounded by. Sucks to be me, anyways I have a project to do.
I'm very serious about my school work, and goals.
Especially since it keeps me next to Sesshoumaru and promises me a good college and a satisfying life. Though if you really know what satisfying is on the scale of emotions or something like that, it's right next to the word fine and then after fine it's okay and then after that...
Well you understand, satisfying always leaves you to want more. Especially if you have a chance to be happier, i'm not that lucky, the gods love to play with me i'm one of their *star* choices.
In some ways I wish I was one of those happy teenagers. They go on a date with their boyfriend/girlfriend on saturday, make-out, hold hands do all that stuff that couples do. Sometimes it seems so much better then always standing alone.
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(~.~)
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.~**~Lunakytti~**~.
Chapter 3
Disclaimer - I don't own Inuyasha and co. I should though huh?
( ) ( )
(^.^)
What is love? I constantly ask myself this, what is love. Is it an emotion to
cause the most innocent heart to turn black and withered? It probably is.
I was too young when my father died, so instead of withering up it hid. It has
yet to come out.
My life is pretty drab. I wake up from my nightmares. Get ready for school
collect myself all in 30 minutes and by the time im out of the house my mask
is on and no one can penetrate it.
I had to leave for school early today, so I can meet up with Sesshoumaru.
We're kinda friends, we do homework together and in most of our classes
together were partners. Everytime I think of him I get nervous. All
I can do is think about him, especially when he's right next to me. I guess
this is called a crush.
I don't believe it. I can't have crushes i'm to young. Maybe if I was in the
feudal era. I'd probably be married already, how creepy. About 500 years ago
if I lived then. I probably would have been a miko, with youkai's after me.
A lot of people would have been in love with me as well. Over the years my
mask has become better. With a smile, and a giggle I can make guys grovel at
my feet, I can make girls want to be my best friend. All except Sesshoumaru.
Truth is, around him I let my guard down more. I can't help it. He's the only
other person that I know, who's smart enough to know that love is an emotion that destroy's. I still have the smile that doesn't reach my eyes, but I wear it all the time, it's become natural and instinctive.
I remember one time while I was with Sesshoumaru, we were at a park with a
blue pond in the middle of it. We were taking a break from a project, because I was fried. I couldn't think anymore, so we decided to walk around before
starting it again.
It was around sunset when we sat down at a bench that looked towards the
sunset. It was pretty cold, and there was snow everywhere. I unconciously
moved towards the nearest warm thing, which happened to be Sesshoumaru.
He looked at me curiously, and I just stared back, shivering. I don't know
what happened but I must have looked pretty pitiful, cause the next thing
I knew was I was right at Sesshoumaru's side with his arm over me. I
blushed, I definitly wasn't cold anymore.
I looked up to Sesshoumaru's golden eyes and I smiled, a true one. One
from the heart, I think he was caught off guard or something. The next
thing I knew was our faces getting closer together. Warmth flooding
through me.
"Kagome!!"
My eyes widened, I quickly got a cool head, and pulled back. I
looked embarrassed at the person who called my name. Standing across
the pond on the otherside was Kouga. I groaned, he was that insistent
guy that was always surrounded by a bunch of his cronies.
They acted like he was a prince or something, they got pretty wierd around
me when Kouga announced that I was his girl. Which I wasn't, i'm not
into guys, all but Sesshoumaru. Well after he came over to me I said hi,
I smiled, and said I had a project to finish.
I was on my way back 2 minutes later. With a Kouga standing where I was
looking at me with stars in his eyes. I'm good.
But if I was really good, then how come Sesshoumaru isn't under my spell yet? Do I really want him under it? no I like him just the way he is. He understands me. He knows who I truly am. Just like I know he has the potential to be the most considerate loving patient friend in the world.
Just like I have the potential to be, innocent, happy, loving, and quick
tempered. For awhile I was nervous to be around Sesshoumaru, especially
since we were very close to kissing, emotions, I hate them. Truly though
he probably didn't even care that much.
We were both just in the "Moment". Nothing happened though, i'm kinda
glad Kouga was there, because I could have seriously screwed up everything.
Anyways, back to present day Japan. I might as well tell you a little about
my 16 year old self, on the way to school, and Sesshoumaru.
Well for starters i'm above average height, maybe a little more. I have long
Obsidian hair, the whole shine, and all. I have stormy grey eyes. When
i'm happy their blue. Since i'm usually never happy they aren't usually
blue.
My favorite color is sky blue, it's been my favorite color ever since
I can remember the beginnings of my happy turned horrible life. My mother
is named Naomi, My brother is Souta and my grandfather he's well... grandfather
My mother is into being motherly, she cooks and cleans and takes care of
everybody.
My brother is my brother, like every other little normal brother. They're
annoying and they constantly love to find out what your doing, if your doing
anything at all, and he loves video games, usually when I want something
from him like his silence or something, I buy him a video game.
He's not into sports like a lot of little kids his age, but i'm glad because most
boys learn about sports from their father, and well ours was dead. To me
and mother anyways, Souta never asks about his dad. As well, we never tell
him.
My grandfather is well, old. He takes care of the shrine when i'm not. He
loves telling stories, and although I act annoyed by them, I love them, i'm
really intrested in the feudal period because of him. I'm also excellent in
history, as every other subject i'm in.
But iv'e taken an intrest in the feudal period, and i'm almost happy when he
tells about those times.
Your probably thinking that i'm happy a lot huh? Well these times when i'm
even close to be being happy are few and far between. I could tell you about
all the times I was extremely sad, or I didn't feel anything at all, but then I
would be boring you, and that's not what i'm trying to do.
I sighed inwardly as a reached the front of the school, it was a school like any
other, it's name in huge letters on the big building, while a bunch of other
buildings were behind it with huge letter's telling you what the building was.
I spotted Sesshoumaru leaning against one of the front buildings with stairs.
I walked over to him slowly letting my mask fade. One thing I learned was
Sesshoumaru didn't like to be lied to. I never found a reason to lie to him.
Hiding things isn't lying, and I know he's hiding something.
We're both the smartest kids in the school, and it always seems Sesshoumaru's a head of me, I have to struggle slightly to stay up so high. He does it effortlessly. It seems that way anyways.
He knows a lot about me while I know close to nothing about him. How'd it
come to be that way? I may believe love is good for nothing, but destroying,
and I act all the time to hide, But PLEASE I am a teenage girl, and I do have
a tendency to talk a lot.
It's also one of those habit's that I didn't want, but got from all the people I'm
constantly surrounded by. Sucks to be me, anyways I have a project to do.
I'm very serious about my school work, and goals.
Especially since it keeps me next to Sesshoumaru and promises me a good college and a satisfying life. Though if you really know what satisfying is on the scale of emotions or something like that, it's right next to the word fine and then after fine it's okay and then after that...
Well you understand, satisfying always leaves you to want more. Especially if you have a chance to be happier, i'm not that lucky, the gods love to play with me i'm one of their *star* choices.
In some ways I wish I was one of those happy teenagers. They go on a date with their boyfriend/girlfriend on saturday, make-out, hold hands do all that stuff that couples do. Sometimes it seems so much better then always standing alone.
( ) ( )
(~.~)
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
.~**~Lunakytti~**~.
