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Just breathe. Just believe. Another day. I'm used to it by now.
For some reason I really liked the part where Riku called Sora an 'irrepressible idiot.' I have this belief that when people are really close they can make fun of each other and take no offense. It's a sign of intimacy and closeness. The two are confident in their relationship. They know each other's flaws and have come to accept and even embrace them. I have a relationship like that with my friends. It is not uncommon for us to call each other sluts or whores or completely insane. Our usual greeting is "Ew, it's you." And I love it. The laughter and then the comfortable silence that follows. You know they would never intentionally hurt you. An unspoken bond that will never be broken, even if you go away. And you both know that it's deep. Deeper than the ocean. No words needed.
Also, here's my take on sex: It's special. It's not something that just happens. I know a lot of people are out there with loose morals and shit, and I don't care. It's their body. But I feel that if you want to have sex, you should be ready to die for that person. With all the STDs and other stuff going around, you could get a horrible disease, even a fatal one, like AIDS. You could get yourself or the girl you're with pregnant. That's a big decision. I know a girl who had an abortion and now she's pregnant again. She's 16. That scares me. She thought she was going to marry the guy she was with. Ha. He left her. Now she's stuck with a baby and no one to turn to. I don't know if I should blame her for being naïve, but what she did was dumb. You'd think that after suffering the mental and physical pain of abortion she wouldn't go and do something like that again. But some people are dumb.
But I digress.
I've instilled in Riku my moral views of sex and intimacy. No sex until you're absolutely sure you'll be with that person forever. If there's the smallest doubt in your mind, don't. And that goes for everything. And Riku's having doubts. It may not show yet, but he is. Sora's behavior bothers him. Sora has one of those 'it's talked about so highly so I must be great' or even 'we'd better hurry up and do this so we can be closer' dealies going on. It'll all fall together or apart in due time. Just be patient. I tend to drag things out. And I'm going to do something horrible to either Sora or Riku (haven't decided yet), but it will bring them closer together. Don't hate me.
If we sleep together, will I like you better?
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Sora woke with the first rays of sunlight. He didn't want Kairi to come in and find them wrapped in each other's arms. He released his gentle hold on Riku and sat up, looking at the pale boy in the faint light. Riku rolled over in his sleep and faced Sora, a small moan escaping him. Sora smiled and brushed some of the long silver strands from his love's eyes. The red morning light reflected off the older boy's fair skin, making him positively glow.
"My angel." Sora stroked his arm, resting his hand at last on Riku's cheek. The other stirred and sleepily opened his eyes. "Sleep well?"
"Mmm." Riku sighed and smiled up at the other boy. "Best sleep in two years."
"Good." Sora kissed him lightly on his forehead and ran his fingers through the soft silvery locks. "I hope you feel that way every night."
"As long as you're here." Riku gave Sora a chaste kiss on his lips and hugged him close to his body. Sora sighed contentedly into the other's neck.
"Time to get up, I suppose." He released the hold he had on Riku's waist and stood up. "The others will be here soon."
"It's only dawn, love. Come back to sleep." Riku propped himself up on his elbows. "Or don't you want them to find us in a 'compromising position'?" Sora flushed and Riku laughed. "Come on, they're going to have to find out some how." Riku crossed over to the younger boy and wrapped his arms around him from behind, kissing his neck.
"Not like that!" Sora protested, but moved his hand up to entwine itself in Riku's long hair. "I want them to be told, not to just... Walk in on us or something."
Another laugh from Riku. "So when are we going to tell them?" He nipped at Sora's shoulder.
Sora looked out at the ocean from the small treehouse door. "I don't know," he said simply. "Eventually... It'll just happen."
Riku let go of Sora and turned him around with a hand on each shoulder. "Sora, if we keep this a secret, eventually they /will/ just walk in on us. I don't want us to be a secret. I really don't." He hugged Sora again. "I want everyone to know that you're mine."
Sora sighed, rubbing his lover's back in soothing circles. "I know you do. Just give it time, love. Give it time."
Riku relaxed and couldn't help but give in. "Alright, I'll trust your judgement for now, but please Sora, listen to me. A love can only remain a secret for so long before it is exposed, and often violently so. I don't want you to hurt anymore. And I don't want to hurt either. I love you. I don't want to lose you."
Sora was moved by the earnest in Riku's words. He was right. It couldn't be secret forever. Someday they would all know, and he both dreaded and awaited that day.
He looked into Riku's eyes and walked away, putting his shirt back on. "I guess we should wait for them, then." He sat down in the back of the small room, leaning against the wall.
"I guess so." Riku smiled and did the same. They dreamily watched the entrance until Kairi poked her head in.
"Good morning, you two!"
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I know, it was short, but my attention span is nada right now. This is getting so fluffy. +pets the fluffiness+ Hmm. Well, I'm still working on things. This fic has a final destination now, but I'm still thinking about the in-between parts. I don't know if you should expect another update too soon. This next scene is giving me problems. Meh.
Just breathe. Just believe. Another day. I'm used to it by now.
For some reason I really liked the part where Riku called Sora an 'irrepressible idiot.' I have this belief that when people are really close they can make fun of each other and take no offense. It's a sign of intimacy and closeness. The two are confident in their relationship. They know each other's flaws and have come to accept and even embrace them. I have a relationship like that with my friends. It is not uncommon for us to call each other sluts or whores or completely insane. Our usual greeting is "Ew, it's you." And I love it. The laughter and then the comfortable silence that follows. You know they would never intentionally hurt you. An unspoken bond that will never be broken, even if you go away. And you both know that it's deep. Deeper than the ocean. No words needed.
Also, here's my take on sex: It's special. It's not something that just happens. I know a lot of people are out there with loose morals and shit, and I don't care. It's their body. But I feel that if you want to have sex, you should be ready to die for that person. With all the STDs and other stuff going around, you could get a horrible disease, even a fatal one, like AIDS. You could get yourself or the girl you're with pregnant. That's a big decision. I know a girl who had an abortion and now she's pregnant again. She's 16. That scares me. She thought she was going to marry the guy she was with. Ha. He left her. Now she's stuck with a baby and no one to turn to. I don't know if I should blame her for being naïve, but what she did was dumb. You'd think that after suffering the mental and physical pain of abortion she wouldn't go and do something like that again. But some people are dumb.
But I digress.
I've instilled in Riku my moral views of sex and intimacy. No sex until you're absolutely sure you'll be with that person forever. If there's the smallest doubt in your mind, don't. And that goes for everything. And Riku's having doubts. It may not show yet, but he is. Sora's behavior bothers him. Sora has one of those 'it's talked about so highly so I must be great' or even 'we'd better hurry up and do this so we can be closer' dealies going on. It'll all fall together or apart in due time. Just be patient. I tend to drag things out. And I'm going to do something horrible to either Sora or Riku (haven't decided yet), but it will bring them closer together. Don't hate me.
If we sleep together, will I like you better?
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Sora woke with the first rays of sunlight. He didn't want Kairi to come in and find them wrapped in each other's arms. He released his gentle hold on Riku and sat up, looking at the pale boy in the faint light. Riku rolled over in his sleep and faced Sora, a small moan escaping him. Sora smiled and brushed some of the long silver strands from his love's eyes. The red morning light reflected off the older boy's fair skin, making him positively glow.
"My angel." Sora stroked his arm, resting his hand at last on Riku's cheek. The other stirred and sleepily opened his eyes. "Sleep well?"
"Mmm." Riku sighed and smiled up at the other boy. "Best sleep in two years."
"Good." Sora kissed him lightly on his forehead and ran his fingers through the soft silvery locks. "I hope you feel that way every night."
"As long as you're here." Riku gave Sora a chaste kiss on his lips and hugged him close to his body. Sora sighed contentedly into the other's neck.
"Time to get up, I suppose." He released the hold he had on Riku's waist and stood up. "The others will be here soon."
"It's only dawn, love. Come back to sleep." Riku propped himself up on his elbows. "Or don't you want them to find us in a 'compromising position'?" Sora flushed and Riku laughed. "Come on, they're going to have to find out some how." Riku crossed over to the younger boy and wrapped his arms around him from behind, kissing his neck.
"Not like that!" Sora protested, but moved his hand up to entwine itself in Riku's long hair. "I want them to be told, not to just... Walk in on us or something."
Another laugh from Riku. "So when are we going to tell them?" He nipped at Sora's shoulder.
Sora looked out at the ocean from the small treehouse door. "I don't know," he said simply. "Eventually... It'll just happen."
Riku let go of Sora and turned him around with a hand on each shoulder. "Sora, if we keep this a secret, eventually they /will/ just walk in on us. I don't want us to be a secret. I really don't." He hugged Sora again. "I want everyone to know that you're mine."
Sora sighed, rubbing his lover's back in soothing circles. "I know you do. Just give it time, love. Give it time."
Riku relaxed and couldn't help but give in. "Alright, I'll trust your judgement for now, but please Sora, listen to me. A love can only remain a secret for so long before it is exposed, and often violently so. I don't want you to hurt anymore. And I don't want to hurt either. I love you. I don't want to lose you."
Sora was moved by the earnest in Riku's words. He was right. It couldn't be secret forever. Someday they would all know, and he both dreaded and awaited that day.
He looked into Riku's eyes and walked away, putting his shirt back on. "I guess we should wait for them, then." He sat down in the back of the small room, leaning against the wall.
"I guess so." Riku smiled and did the same. They dreamily watched the entrance until Kairi poked her head in.
"Good morning, you two!"
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I know, it was short, but my attention span is nada right now. This is getting so fluffy. +pets the fluffiness+ Hmm. Well, I'm still working on things. This fic has a final destination now, but I'm still thinking about the in-between parts. I don't know if you should expect another update too soon. This next scene is giving me problems. Meh.
