A/N: Hey! I know, TWO UPDATES WITHIN A TWENTY-FOUR HOUR PERIOD! Weird, eh? Anyway, last night I was talking to Mira. She brought to my attention that in my summary, I said, '...and will we ever find out what happened to Sirius' old girlfriend?'. Since I don't know what to do for Chapter Four, I decided to come up with some half-assed story about Sirius' old girlfriend. Please review!
Disclaimer: See Chapter One
I'm tryin'
To forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it And I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
-Addicted, Simple Plan
Chapter Four
Sirius sighed as he sat down on the bank of the lake that was on the Hogwarts grounds. This was their spot...his and Nikki's spot. He felt the hot tears prickling the back of his eyes. Him and Nikki...
Sirius rested his head on his arms which were on his knees. He hadn't cried in a long time. He hated crying. Crying made Sirius feel...weak. He hated that. It made him feel like he had lost all control.
As much as he hated crying, however, he loved it. It felt as if all of the stress and all of the emotions that he didn't want to have to feel were being let out of him with the tears. It made him feel better.
He couldn't fight the tears back this time, like he had done since the previous September. He let them come and he welcomed them. He needed a good cry.
Kate was walking around outside. It was a crisp, cool day outside. She had her cloak on because of the ever blowing wind. She was rather enjoying the silence and the cool air.
She was walking down towards the lake. Kate liked the lake. She could sit there and think without being interrupted by anyone or anything. So you can imagine how angry she was when she saw someone sitting near the lake where she usually sat.
Upon closer inspection, however, she realized that that someone was Sirius.
"Hey, Sirius," she called out, speeding up a bit and sitting down next to him when she got there. "What're you doing out here?"
Sirius quickly wiped his tears on his sleeve and looked up at Kate.
"Hey, Kate," he said quietly. "I'm just thinking."
"About?"
"Stuff."
"A sickle for your thoughts?" Kate asked, taking the small silver coin out of her pocket.
Sirius grinned.
"Sure, but you can keep your sickle."
She took a good look at him as she pocketed the coin.
"Sirius, have you been crying?"
He sniffled.
"Yeah," he said, knowing that lying wouldn't do him any good.
"What's the matter?" Kate asked.
"I was thinking about my girlfriend," said Sirius.
"Who's your girlfriend? I didn't know you were with someone."
"I'm not," said Sirius. "It was the summer after fifth year. We had been going out that whole year, me and Nikki Rosemand. She was in Hufflepuff. I remember the getting the owl one night. I was sitting at the dinner table with my dad and we were eating spaghetti and sausage. The small brown owl came into through the window and dropped the letter on my lap then left. I opened it...
"It was from Nikki's mother. Death Eaters had attacked and Nikki was killed. I remember it like yesterday..."
Sirius was unable to continue. He was crying again and his body was shaking with the force of his sobs.
"Oh, Sirius, I'm so sorry, I didn't know about it..." Kate said. She moved nearer to him and hugged him. She let him cry until he calmed himself down, rocking him back and forth.
"Yeah," he said. "This...this was our spot. This is where I first asked her out. This is where we shared our first kiss and where we'd come just to talk or to sit...to enjoy each other's company..."
Kate didn't know what to say to that, so she remained silent and let Sirius talk.
"I miss her so much.," he said. "After last September I stopped crying myself to sleep every night. I didn't want to do that in the dorm...this is really the first time I've cried about it since last August...I'd just fight back the tears whenever they threatened to fall...
"I just felt so alone after that, like a piece of me was gone with her. When I came back to school, I didn't feel so alone anymore. My friends are always big helps...but that one piece of me is still gone..."
It was silent for a few moments. Then Sirius said, "Wow...I've never told anyone that before...nobody..."
Kate gave him a small smile.
"Sounds like you really loved her, Si."
"I did...I still do...but Ally says I should try to move on...she says if I don't, I may end up like James. You know, a hopeless romantic who does nothing but write forty-something songs about the same girl." Both of them laughed at that. "I think she's right, but I just can't find anyone who could make me feel the way Nikki did."
"I get what your saying, Sirius," said Kate. She looked at the giant squid propelling itself across the lake. "I get what your saying..."
A/N: How was *THAT* for a half-assed chapter? LoL. Review PLEASE! I'LL LOVE YOU ALL! (NOT THAT WAY!)
-Kristin-
Disclaimer: See Chapter One
I'm tryin'
To forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it And I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
-Addicted, Simple Plan
Chapter Four
Sirius sighed as he sat down on the bank of the lake that was on the Hogwarts grounds. This was their spot...his and Nikki's spot. He felt the hot tears prickling the back of his eyes. Him and Nikki...
Sirius rested his head on his arms which were on his knees. He hadn't cried in a long time. He hated crying. Crying made Sirius feel...weak. He hated that. It made him feel like he had lost all control.
As much as he hated crying, however, he loved it. It felt as if all of the stress and all of the emotions that he didn't want to have to feel were being let out of him with the tears. It made him feel better.
He couldn't fight the tears back this time, like he had done since the previous September. He let them come and he welcomed them. He needed a good cry.
Kate was walking around outside. It was a crisp, cool day outside. She had her cloak on because of the ever blowing wind. She was rather enjoying the silence and the cool air.
She was walking down towards the lake. Kate liked the lake. She could sit there and think without being interrupted by anyone or anything. So you can imagine how angry she was when she saw someone sitting near the lake where she usually sat.
Upon closer inspection, however, she realized that that someone was Sirius.
"Hey, Sirius," she called out, speeding up a bit and sitting down next to him when she got there. "What're you doing out here?"
Sirius quickly wiped his tears on his sleeve and looked up at Kate.
"Hey, Kate," he said quietly. "I'm just thinking."
"About?"
"Stuff."
"A sickle for your thoughts?" Kate asked, taking the small silver coin out of her pocket.
Sirius grinned.
"Sure, but you can keep your sickle."
She took a good look at him as she pocketed the coin.
"Sirius, have you been crying?"
He sniffled.
"Yeah," he said, knowing that lying wouldn't do him any good.
"What's the matter?" Kate asked.
"I was thinking about my girlfriend," said Sirius.
"Who's your girlfriend? I didn't know you were with someone."
"I'm not," said Sirius. "It was the summer after fifth year. We had been going out that whole year, me and Nikki Rosemand. She was in Hufflepuff. I remember the getting the owl one night. I was sitting at the dinner table with my dad and we were eating spaghetti and sausage. The small brown owl came into through the window and dropped the letter on my lap then left. I opened it...
"It was from Nikki's mother. Death Eaters had attacked and Nikki was killed. I remember it like yesterday..."
Sirius was unable to continue. He was crying again and his body was shaking with the force of his sobs.
"Oh, Sirius, I'm so sorry, I didn't know about it..." Kate said. She moved nearer to him and hugged him. She let him cry until he calmed himself down, rocking him back and forth.
"Yeah," he said. "This...this was our spot. This is where I first asked her out. This is where we shared our first kiss and where we'd come just to talk or to sit...to enjoy each other's company..."
Kate didn't know what to say to that, so she remained silent and let Sirius talk.
"I miss her so much.," he said. "After last September I stopped crying myself to sleep every night. I didn't want to do that in the dorm...this is really the first time I've cried about it since last August...I'd just fight back the tears whenever they threatened to fall...
"I just felt so alone after that, like a piece of me was gone with her. When I came back to school, I didn't feel so alone anymore. My friends are always big helps...but that one piece of me is still gone..."
It was silent for a few moments. Then Sirius said, "Wow...I've never told anyone that before...nobody..."
Kate gave him a small smile.
"Sounds like you really loved her, Si."
"I did...I still do...but Ally says I should try to move on...she says if I don't, I may end up like James. You know, a hopeless romantic who does nothing but write forty-something songs about the same girl." Both of them laughed at that. "I think she's right, but I just can't find anyone who could make me feel the way Nikki did."
"I get what your saying, Sirius," said Kate. She looked at the giant squid propelling itself across the lake. "I get what your saying..."
A/N: How was *THAT* for a half-assed chapter? LoL. Review PLEASE! I'LL LOVE YOU ALL! (NOT THAT WAY!)
-Kristin-
