Song of Memories

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Note: Story contains Yaoi. Don't like, don't read.

Part III. Regret



"I knew it. Ren, don't lie." I tell him, forcing myself to smile but fail completely. My heart aches. I won't deny it. I'm jealous of Hao.

How long do I realize I love this arrogant Chinese boy with beautiful golden eyes? Ren, don't you know how much I want you? I do feel sorry for Anna but I can't stop myself from looking at Ren.

When I look into his golden eyes, I lose control of myself. Oh, forgive me Ren.

I kiss him. Squarely, our lips touch. His lips are so soft and he tastes so sweet like honey. I feel his body tense up a bit. He pulled away, staring at me with wide eyes. Now he knows and I'm going to face it.

As expect, he punched me on my right cheek. I don't blame him. It's my fault. I know that. It is oh-so-clear. But I can't stop myself thinking of Hao and Ren.

Ren is leaving. I want to stop him but do not. Inside me, my heart screams to call his name. Call him to come back. It seems like everything wouldn't be the same. I can't even talk to him like a friend.

Regret. I regret for kissing him. I regret for being selfish. I regret for asking him that question at first.

But it doesn't make me stop loving him. Love is blind. If Anna knows, she will kill me for sure. But I don't mind. I deserve it. My feet unconsciously take me along the way before I realize it leads to Ren's bedroom. I stop before the door. Uncertain if knocking the door is a good idea.

Then I hear a sound. Clear and deep... yet, so sad. This sound...I recognize as a Chinese instrument. Finally, I manage to smile at the beautiful song but it isn't the smile I always smile. The song is full with sorrow. What make you so sad? Me? I don't think so. It's something else...

I've never heard that Ren is so talented in music before. But I have to admit, he is very good. It seems like he spends many years with it. But from what I have seen at Tao Mansion, there are none of those instruments. How can he manage to play so beautifully like this?

Then I hear a sound of the window opens. A familiar voice echos in my ears. "I keep my promise, eh?" Hao's voice. I ball my fist tightly. Why him?

It's torturing to just listen from outside and can do nothing. My imagination frightens me when I hear Ren gasps. After that, comes the moan.

I don't understand why you give in so easily. It doesn't like Ren Tao I know. When I can't take it anymore, I kick the door open. What I see is the most painful thing I ever want to witness.

Hao and Ren on the same bed.

Hao is perching on Ren's knees, wearing a satisfied smirk. Ren is shirtless, revealing the delicious pale flesh. His eyes close. His lips part slightly.

Hardly, I bit my lips.

I regret for breaking in. I regret for witnessing this moment.

It hurts a lot.

Owari!

Note: There's nothing much with this chapter, sorry. But I promise it'll be better in the next chapter. Poor Yoh-kun. T-T

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